"Husband, Xiaobao is lost!!"

"What?!"

I shouted.

"I just went to the kindergarten to pick him up, and when I passed by the Carrefour supermarket, I went in to buy some food and put him in the children's playground imported by the supermarket to play. But when I get some groceries, he's not in Paradise! ”

My wife was crying on the other end of the phone.

"How could this happen? Have you looked for it carefully? What did the park's caretaker say? ”

I tried to resist the urge to blame my wife.

"Of course I looked for it carefully, and it was gone! The caretaker of the park first said it was impossible, and then he said he didn't know! ”

The wife said angrily: "They said that according to the regulations, the parents of the children should wait outside the paradise, and they are not responsible, and they can't control it." ”

"! Pass the buck! ”

I gritted my teeth in anger!

"Husband, what should I do, I've been looking for the mall several times, and the security guard has also helped me find it, but I haven't found it anywhere!"

The wife said in a broken voice, her voice desperate:

"I can't find Xiaobao, how can I live! Husband, what should I do now? Where are you?"

"Where am I? Where am I? ”

My mind went blank, and then,

Woke up suddenly.

I found myself lying on a large American oak bed with a naked red-haired beauty lying next to me, sleeping on her side facing me, with one hand still on my chest.

The quiet and spacious bedroom in the dark is covered by a layer of faint moonlight, and through the gap in the left floor-to-ceiling curtains, you can see the pool in the courtyard downstairs slightly illuminated.

"I'm still in California!"

I slowly came to my senses.

I remember going to the DeepHeart bar in town for a drink last night, and this beautiful woman named Ingrid offered to strike up a conversation.

When a person is in a foreign country, he often feels lonely and lonely after work, especially at night.

You can go to a bar and drink alone, but you can also observe people, men, women, all kinds of people, and guess the fate and life behind them. Sometimes there may be sexual encounters.

I struck up a conversation with Ingrid and treated her to quite a few "California Sunshine" cocktails.

Ingrid works in sales at a nearby tech company and is very conversational, even if I am not fluent in spoken English.

Then I invited her back to my villa, chatted for a while on the living room couch, drank a few glasses of Jack Daniels whiskey, she was a little drunk, her eyes were misty, her plump body was writhing, so I invited her upstairs......

"Shh

I breathed a sigh of relief, but fortunately it was just a dream, and my son was not lost.

Ingrid was still asleep, snoring softly in her sleep.

I was definitely tired last night.

Her bare body looked like a work of art carved out of white ivory in the moonlight, and her long red hair scattered on her chest added a bit of enchantment.

I gently removed Ingrid's arm from my chest, sat up, picked up my phone on the bedside table and looked at the time, it was only 3 a.m.

Pacific time is 15 hours behind BJ, and it's 6 p.m. at home, and my son should have returned home from kindergarten.

Even though it was a dream, I still had a little palpitations.

So I quietly got up, walked to the study across from the bedroom, and closed the door.

I sat down in a leather chair behind my desk, opened the Zoom app on my phone, and dialed my wife, Yan Ni.

The bell rang for a long time, but Yan Ni didn't answer.

I couldn't help but be a little upset: "What is she doing?" Shouldn't you have gone home now? ”

I dialed the landline at home again, but no one answered.

There was no one at home.

Unwilling to sleep again, I leaned back in the leather chair in a daze, thinking wildly.

Where is she?

In the past six months, Yan Ni has often not answered my phone.

Although usually half an hour, an hour later, she will call back.

Occasionally, it won't take half a day to get back to me.

She always has all kinds of reasons: she didn't hear when she was shopping, forgot her phone, and watched a movie with friends......

Every time, as long as she explains, I always choose to believe her.

If I don't believe it, what can I do?

I haven't been home for almost three years.

I don't know when I'll be able to go back yet.

She's my thoughts here, my connection to home.

My home, my children, my spiritual support.

But there is still a faint worry in my heart, a silent growth of doubt.

Yan Ni is very beautiful, she used to be the school flower of the China Film Academy.

Thirteen years ago, I met her for the first time at a gathering of fellow villagers in Beijing.

At that time, she had not graduated from university, and I had just come to the capital and established the first company in the capital, Shenzhou Xiyuan Technology Company, the predecessor of Yewang Group.

At that time, the company had only three people, and one car.

The car is a Mercedes-Benz S300, which I bought with most of the savings I had saved from doing business in my hometown a few years ago, and it is the most valuable fixed asset of the company.

The people in the capital have a high vision, and I went to the capital from a small place to do business, and I didn't have much strength at that time, so I had to install the façade.

Otherwise, a small boss from other places, in a place like the capital, who wants to look at you?

At that time, I was new to the university and needed to expand my network, so I often participated in the activities organized by the Beijing Gan Provincial Chamber of Commerce.

Yan Ni is also a native of Gan Province, because she is a fellow villager with a deputy secretary general of the Chamber of Commerce, and is sometimes invited to save face for the Chamber of Commerce.

Yan Ni was only a junior at the time, but she had already made a well-known movie, although she was a female number two, she was already well-known and debuted.

But she doesn't see a little bit of the vanity and arrogance of a little star.

She wore an old navy coat that day, with little makeup and a ponytail in her hair.

However, the simplicity of her clothes did not diminish her natural beauty in the slightest, and she became the focus of the toasts of the gentlemen at the table without any suspense.

Confident and unpretentious, she is neither humble nor arrogant, whoever comes to toast will take a sip, and after a round, she is only slightly reddened.

"This girl can!" I said to myself in my heart:

"I can get out of the hall and get on the wine table. You can be a lady of the village. ”

It's a bit exciting, but I'm a natural introvert.

Children born in rural areas, when they grow up in the face of the outside world, they often have the lack of self-confidence brought by life at the beginning, showing introversion and shyness.

What's more, at that time, I had just divorced my ex-wife Wang Xiaojuan, and I was not ready to enter a new relationship right away.

I was the only man at the big table that day who didn't have a hippie smile to toast Yanny, and I just watched from afar.

Maybe my calmness caught her attention instead.

Young and beautiful women, accustomed to being praised and favored, are generally proud in their hearts.

She is so beautiful, why is there a man at the table who doesn't take the initiative to talk to her and toast?

She stole a few glances at me.

After the party, her fellow villager, Deputy Secretary-General Ma, said to me: "Mr. Zeng, Yan Ni lives far away from Haidian, can you please send her?" ”

The secretary general of the chamber of commerce and associations was the kind of person who was the most adept at integrating resources, and at that time my Daben was often used by the chamber of commerce to pick up and drop off important guests.

I secretly rejoiced.

Yan Ni did not refuse Deputy Secretary-General Ma's arrangement.

So she got into my car and took the red line that fell from the sky with me.

It was my lucky day.

God's arrangement is sometimes so wonderful, and precious things come naturally.

And people often like to try their best to fight for something that doesn't really have much value.

Later I learned that she had a boyfriend at that time, a male classmate named Yin Jun.

After knowing me for half a year and before graduating, Yan Ni chose to break up with Yin Jun in order to be with me.

At that time, Yin Jun was just a poor student and had not acted in any drama.

My career in the capital has already taken off.

After breaking up with Yan Ni, Yin Jun was heartbroken and didn't work much for more than a year.

Time has passed, and now Yin Jun has become a first-line male star in China.

Are Yan Ni and Yin Jun still connected?

I've been away from home for a few years, will they ......

I thought about Lianlian, and my heart was in turmoil.

"I should have believed her!"

I tried to correct myself:

"She deserves my trust."

After all, we've been together for so many years, and we've been through so much together.

After graduating from Huaying, Yan Ni went directly to work in my company and became my assistant.

At that time, there were less than 10 people in my company, and with Yan Ni joining me, my self-confidence doubled.

It turns out that she is my lucky star, and after she joined, our company began to enter the fast lane of development.

It was also because of her that I met a lot of friends in the film and television industry, began to enter the video field, and eventually the company transformed into a leading video content platform in China, and successfully listed on the GEM in 2011.

Thinking of the ups and downs we have experienced together along the way, I am always grateful to Yan Ni in my heart.

Outsiders only see the aura of my success and think that I am an entrepreneur with vision.

Only I know how much hardship I have to endure all the way from a peasant family in the northwest to gain a firm foothold in the capital.

Yan Ni helped me a lot.

She gave me a lot of self-confidence and a lot of support in social and networking development.

She was not only my face, but also the face of the company's image and strength at that time.

We have not come this way, and we have experienced so many things together.

But

Yoon Jun is very handsome and is now a big star.

I am now discredited at home, forced to flee abroad, and unable to return home......

Thirty years in Hedong, thirty years in Hexi!

I leaned on the leather chair in my study and looked out the window at the moonlight, with a lot of thoughts......

At this time, the mobile phone on the desk rang, and I immediately sat up.

It was Yan Ni who called me on WeChat.

I got on the phone, and the video showed Yanni wearing an apron, in the kitchen.

"Husband, I just came home and I'm about to stir-fry! Why did you wake up so early today? ”

I usually have around 6 a.m. and 8 or 9 p.m. BJ, and the kids have to video call them before they go to bed.

After watching with them, I was just about to have breakfast and go to work in the office.

"Oh, I just can't sleep, I miss you." I then asked:

"The kids are all home, right?"

"They're all back, watching TV in the living room, you wait."

As she spoke, Yan Ni walked out of the kitchen with her mobile phone and came to the sofa in the living room.

"Kids, say hi to your dad!"

"Hi Dad!"

From the mobile phone video, you can see that his son Xiaobao is leaning on the sofa, and his daughter Xiaoyuanzi is sitting on the carpet in front of the sofa.

They glanced at the phone screen, waved hello to me, and quickly returned their gaze to the cartoon on the TV.

"Hey, you two, it's too unusual, is it more important to watch TV or your dad?"

The wife pretended to be angry and said to the two children.

The two children ignored her and continued to watch TV.

"Forget it, let them see!"

Cartoons are definitely better than me.

Hehe, children have always been very instinctive, whoever accompanies them more will kiss whom, otherwise their father is not as good as cartoons.

I only smiled wryly and asked Yan Ni, "How did you prepare dinner?" ”

Since the company's capital chain crisis broke out, Yan Ni and I were blocked in our domestic bank accounts, Yan Ni was forced to lay off the nanny and driver at home, do housework and pick up and drop off the children by herself.

"Oh, I still have two dishes that haven't been fried, and you interrupted them just now."

"Okay, then you can stir-fry the vegetables first, let's talk later!"

"Okay, okay, I'm still on fire! Husband, you can sleep a little longer! ”

"Okay."

Yan Ni ran into the kitchen and hung up the phone.

I put down the phone and sat back in my chair blankly, my heart empty.

I haven't seen them for almost three years, my loved ones in this world.

My beloved wife Yan Ni, 6-year-old son Xiaobao, and 4-year-old daughter Yuanzi.

For more than three years, I have only been able to see my family in China through video.

When I left, my son Xiaobao was only 3 years old, and my sister Yuanzi was just a few months old, and she hadn't started kindergarten yet.

Now Xiaobao is already in kindergarten and is about to go to elementary school. My sister has also entered kindergarten and is in a small class.

I miss them so much!

I really want to hug their milky bodies and kiss their young faces!

However, I can only see them on my computer and phone screens now.

They can also only see the so-called "daddy" on the screen of their phone.

For them, dad has also become an image that only exists in mobile phone videos.

I could feel them becoming stranger and stranger to me.

And Yan Ni, how many nights I tossed and turned and couldn't sleep, and I couldn't help but miss her!

I love Jenny dearly.

Even though, in the past few years, I have been here alone, and I often feel long nights at night, lonely and unbearable, and occasionally indulge.

But it's all a show, a carnal lust.

Far water can't quench your thirst!

But if she had known about my indulgence here, would she forgive me?

I hope Yan Ni can forgive me, living alone in a big villa in a foreign country, I will really be depressed after a long time.

I sometimes think: In the past three years, isn't Yan Ni also a person? Didn't I stay with her and wasn't there?

Wouldn't she be lonely at night? Will she be able to stand it?

Thirty like a wolf, forty like a tiger!

I didn't dare to think deeply, I chose to believe her.

She and the child are the spiritual pillars that I can continue to hold on here.

albeit

I don't know when I'll be able to get back to them yet......

If I go back now, I probably won't be able to come back to the United States.

But the only hope I have now is in the United States, and I have to stay here.

Embattled and almost betrayed, I have no choice now.

People are such strange creatures, many things that you thought were unbearable, once the real thing is on the horizon and there is no way out, you may suddenly become stronger.

When you have no choice but to face it head-on, you will find that no matter how difficult it is, as long as you don't want to die, you can't actually die.

The more stressed, the more sober I became.

Except for life and death, it's all trivial.

I only have to be strong, I only have perseverance.

It's just, my beautiful wife, can she wait for me so long?

How long can she wait for me?