30. You are the light in yourself, and the darkness wants to envelop you
The room was pitch black, which was a normal reaction for the eyes to not adjust to the dark environment when the lights were turned off.
Both of them tacitly agreed and did not speak.
Only the sound of clear breathing came to my ears.
Because the season is in early summer, even if it is raining these days, the more this weather is, the more stuffy it becomes, especially today Takiyazawa has not opened the windows.
A person's body can get colder.
But the bodies of the two people can hug each other for warmth.
Lying in a quilt, especially with her eyes open and her five fingers outside her eyes, Qingyi Xiaoquan was extremely nervous, and she was still hot, but she didn't dare to move her hands and feet, but it was very uncomfortable to be in a position for a long time.
Listening to the sound of breathing gradually steady, she carefully adjusted her posture in the bed.
But the touch of the tip of his left finger made Qingyi Koizumi's body stiffen, and he didn't dare to move, as if he had touched the back of Takitanazawa's hand, but he didn't react, and his breathing was still steady, which made her mutter, this guy won't fall asleep, right?
"Did you say Sister Tsubaki slept?"
Qingyi Koizumi lowered his voice and whispered a tentative sentence.
"Probably not, she probably went back to her room to change her clothes first, and then went to bed after taking a shower." Takitanizawa closed her eyes and replied in a normal voice, but it was like thunder in the silent room, startling her.
Qingyi Xiaoquan scratched the back of his hand angrily, and whispered urgently: "You make a small voice!" ”
Why are you yelling so loudly? I'm right next to it!
Takitanizawa took his hand back, and crossed his fingers on his abdomen: "Actually, there is no need to hide, I just told Sister Ah that you came to our house to stay overnight." ”
It is very common for friends to come to live in the house.
Not to mention that they are all adults, even when they are students, they only need to say a word to their parents when they invite friends to live at home, and basically their parents will not refuse, which is also a normal interpersonal interaction.
What's more, Qingyi Koizumi is not a stranger, and Takiya Tsubaki also knows her, so it doesn't matter if she borrows it for one night.
"How can this work? I'm a girl who doesn't come home in the middle of the night, what does it mean to come to live with you, not to mention us, we don't have a special relationship! ”
Qingyi Koizumi's heart tightened when she heard his words, and she instantly became angry, with what she knew about the nasty ghost of Takiyasawa so far, if she provoked him or really agreed, it is estimated that this guy would be able to get up and throw himself here alone and run out.
But she must no longer let others know when she comes here, what else will she do if it reaches the ears of the neighbors?
You know, she has always been a good boy in the neighbor's mouth, and people should know that they sleep with this guy and have a relationship, but this stupid pig still dislikes herself, and she must not be cheap!
Takitanizawa turned his head sideways, looked at her face in the darkness and asked, "Aren't you here yourself?" ”
The curtains that have been in service for twenty years are somewhat transparent.
The lead-like moonlight shines through the window, leaning on the outside of the curtain, and a faint silver halo can be seen inside, and the eyes gradually adjust to the dark environment.
Plus they sleep almost shoulder to shoulder.
So you can still see your face at close range.
Qingyi Xiaoquan was stunned by what he said, and quickly turned his head to look at the ceiling, pouting still very unconvinced, and whispered with his neck: "I.... I'm afraid you'll be bored alone... I just came to play! ”
Takitanizawa smiled and twisted his face back.
Actually, she was right.
Although she can openly tell Sister A that she came to live at home, she also has other worries.
After all, Qingyi Koizumi is a family conflict, and no one wants their ugly things to be discovered by others, otherwise Takitanizawa sent her home that night, and she wouldn't be shocked when she saw her mother being kicked out of the house at the door.
Even if he doesn't talk about this, with his understanding of Takiya Tsubaki, it is estimated that he will keep asking questions afterwards.
So whether it's taking care of the little sheep's mood or to avoid trouble for yourself, just sleep like this, and Takiya Tsubaki gets up very early every day.
"Just go to sleep, right?"
Takitanizawa figured this out, pulled off the quilt in his hand, closed his eyes and asked softly.
However, hearing him say this, Qingyi Koizumi moved to the side of the bed like a caterpillar, and looked at him vigilantly in the dark: "Then what do you want?" ”
"I don't think about it, if you're not used to sleeping with strangers, I can clean up my parents' old room for you, and you can sleep by yourself."
"No! There will be movement when you go out, and there may be movement exposed, what if Sister Tsubaki comes in? ”
"Okay, I don't have a problem sleeping together, I sleep relatively shallowly, I shouldn't have any bad habits, and I don't like to turn over, don't wake me up if you have a move."
Qingyi Xiaoquan was unhappy again, thinking that this guy looked down on people, but her mother hadn't entered the room in the middle of the night to see her since she was sixteen years old, and said fiercely in an emphatic tone: "I sleep honestly!" ”
However, she did not receive a response.
The room fell silent again.
Qingyi Koizumi, who didn't get a response, curled his mouth and was a little annoyed, just like eating half of his rice bowl and being taken away.
She also tried to sleep with her eyes closed.
But I can't sleep for a long time, but my body is hot and I always want to take off my clothes, of course I don't dare now, but she is not used to wearing clothes at home, and she feels that there is a little bit of restraint, so she can only open her hands to make the area larger and dissipate heat, but it seems to be useless in the bed.
Listening to the steady and undulating breathing in her ears, she was a little surprised that Takitanizawa was able to fall asleep so quickly.
But then she was a little unhappy.
I didn't dare to turn over my careful body, and I was half dead in the bed, but you didn't reply just now and was afraid that I would have bad habits when I slept and fell asleep in a blink of an eye, just don't take me in your eyes!
Don't you love to sleep? I'll shake you to death!
Qingyi Koizumi began to turn over constantly, and put his right hand outside the quilt, and kicked the quilt into the wind when he had nothing to do, so he had to let this guy sleep well.
But the feet kicked in the bed for a long time.
Not only did Takitanizawa not react, but his breathing was a little louder, and he seemed to sleep better, but Qingyi Koizumi was sweating profusely, and he didn't have the energy to move at this time, and even his ankle began to hurt.
After a while, she was completely honest.
But I still can't sleep.
Turning her head to look at the curtains that had been stained pale silver by the thin moon, she seemed to think of something, her eyes became gloomy, and she felt that she had no strength in her body.
Countless images came to mind.
Flipping and turning and finally freezing in one of them.
After half a ring, she felt stuffy in her chest, very uncomfortable, and wanted to find someone to talk to, but the dead pig next to her fell asleep again, and then became even more depressed, and after thinking about it, she turned to the side and looked at the side face of Takitazawa.
"Takiya..."
She whispered tentatively.
"It's called Brother Ze."
The sound sounded like thunder on the ground.
Qingyi Koizumi was startled, and subconsciously stepped back ten centimeters like seeing the corpse doing push-ups in the morgue, and asked, "Why didn't you sleep!?" ”
"You kicked the quilt and fanned the wind next to me, I just can't sleep if I want to, I'll forgive you if you call Brother Ze."
Takitanizawa turned his face sideways and opened his eyes full of smiles.
Qingyi Koizumi's face turned red, and she was suddenly a little embarrassed in her heart, she thought that Takitanazawa was asleep, but she didn't expect that all her small actions just now were carried out under his nose, which was really a bit embarrassing.
"It's called Brother Ze."
"No."
"Then I'm out."
"Brother Ze!"
Satisfied, Takitanizawa stretched out his arm from the quilt, and put his fingers on the outside: "It's about the same, eat my food, sleep in my bed, and wear my clothes, scream without a loss, say, what's wrong?" ”
Qingyi Koizumi rarely refutes him this time.
Instead, he pursed his lips, and the two hands placed in the quilt clenched into fists, and his nails were slightly embedded in his palms.
"I want to ask you a question." She said softly.
"Don't talk nonsense." Takitanizawa said directly.
Kiyoi Koizumi leaned on the pillow, moved his gaze down from his face, stared at his shoulder, and was silent for a while before whispering:
"I, I just want to ask you, if I want to do something, but others will oppose it, and it's the kind of, the kind that may be infamous for a lifetime, and be pointed at, do you think I still want to do it?"
Hearing this, Takitanizawa narrowed his eyes, took advantage of the faint light outside the curtain to look at her face, and muttered for a moment: "If you can say that, it's obsession." ”
She said vaguely, "Almost." ”
Whispering back, she shrunk into the covers.
It seems that I am afraid to hear some bad answers.
He also pulled the quilt to cover the lower half of his face.
Seeing her like this, psychologically speaking, only people subconsciously hide in places where they can hide themselves when they are insecure, so in other words, this child is serious about his thoughts.
Takitanizawa became a little interested in her family's affairs.
But he didn't think to ask, at this time asking was tantamount to sticking a knife into someone's heart, and for the question she raised, he thought carefully before opening his mouth.
"People live for themselves in this life, and what binds you is only the habits and thinking that have been passed down from generation to generation, if you think it is right, then do it, as long as you can bear the results you get, I will support you."
"Who is young and hasn't made a few mistakes, but just admit it yourself, don't get the result and complain about it when the time comes, it's your own choice."
"To be honest, if you ask me here, no matter how good I say, it's useless, after all, it's a problem if you can listen to a few words, and if you understand it, you don't necessarily have to do it, just stick to the idea you think is right in your heart to do it, what makes you stronger is not the truth, but the experience of gritting your teeth and winning."
Qingyi Koizumi was stunned when he heard this, poked his head out of the quilt again, and looked at Takitanazawa's serious face with a faint light, and was a little stunned for a while.
But soon she came back to her senses, biting her lip and muttering, "But even if you dare to do it, it's really difficult..."
"If you find it difficult, don't do it."
"That's not good, I swore that if I can't do it, I'll jump into the lake and die!" She was unusually excited.
"Then what are you asking me for?"
"I, I just feel like I can't see the future clearly, it's like being trapped in a pitch-black cage without even an oil lamp, and I can't find my way to the present..."
Takitanizawa smiled and said, "Probably you are the light yourself, so the darkness will always envelop you." ”
Kiyoi Koizumi's body trembled slightly.
But she didn't continue to speak.
The two fell silent again.
About half a minute passed.
Takitanizawa opened his mouth again very abruptly.
"Stick with it."
"I will."
The sound was silenced into the darkness again.
Only the faint breathing of the two remained.
This time, Qingyi Koizumi's body was not too hot, but he still couldn't fall asleep, but it wasn't that he was upset, but that his words just now were always circling in his head.
I didn't fall asleep for almost half an hour.
She thought about it again, and inexplicably called Takitanizawa softly twice, but this time she didn't respond, and she didn't deliberately scare herself like just now, she stretched out her head and looked at it, it should have been really asleep.
The second half of the night in early summer is still not too hot.
In addition, their bodies are not next to each other, and their body temperature will gradually drop if they remain untouched.
Glancing at his exposed arms.
Qingyi Koizumi instinctively got up quietly to help him tuck it, and he couldn't feel the light movement, but he reacted halfway through it, and found that he actually took care of him like his mother, and he couldn't help but blush slightly.
Hmph, you still dislike me, don't associate with me, say I'm stingy and ungenerous, you're really stingy!
And you know what you're missing?
It's the whole world!
Thinking of what he was saying to himself before, Qingyi Koizumi looked at his face condescendingly, and said viciously in his heart, which made him feel a lot more satisfied.
Lie down again and gently cover the quilt again.
After making sure that she hadn't woken up Takiyazawa, she breathed a sigh of relief and turned to look at his face again.
This guy isn't ugly...
has a nose and eyes, hair and eyebrows have not fallen out, it is a human appearance, although the skin does not look very white, but it is estimated that he used to work on the construction site and was sunburned, which is okay, reluctantly take it out, and visit the elders in the New Year in the future.
It's just that his mouth is very poisonous, and he loves to be sarcastic, and he always finds fault with people, especially he loves to spend my money!
But in addition to these, it's okay, it's really serious and it makes people feel quite safe, and people with very poisonous mouths in general, grandma said that they are all knife mouths and tofu hearts, so it's quite right to think so, this dead ghost carried himself all the way and didn't shout tired, and at that time he also gave himself an umbrella to help pick up bottles in the rain, and he didn't look down on it.
But what he said all day long is terrible, but in fact, he can't take care of himself at all, and he has to help him fold the quilt just now, otherwise he might catch a cold.
Thinking like this, he is quite short of someone to take care of, and there are many things to do, and his temper is not small, if he gets married, he will definitely be busier than now, do you really want to be a full-time housewife, even if you want to be, the pocket money is more important every month, and what if you are disgusted to give him a child and work in the future, although he will not in his heart, but I don't want to hear it, it's annoying!
She felt sleepy just thinking about it, and just looked at Takitizawa's face until she closed her eyes.
But she felt a little cold, too.
It wasn't until a scorching breath came in, and then a thin layer of quilt seemed to be pulled up, and it was still intimately tucked between her neck, that Qingyi Xiaoquan's frowning thin eyebrows stretched out and gradually fell asleep.