"Not being able to ask" is one of the eight sufferings of Buddhism, and the most suffering in life is not being able to ask for it.

When Heart plays professionally, he also thinks about why he can't beat the opposite side, why the opponents are stronger than the other, and why Nabo chooses the wrong target and puts the wrong skill.

Why hesitate, hesitate, why are you too impulsive.

Every time I get a not-so-good result, I always have similar doubts in my mind.

When he was at a new low in his career, he read a comic.

The female protagonist in it is very pessimistic.,Because there were a lot of things going on at home when I was a child.,It's more unfortunate.,So once I saw the male owner talking and laughing with other girls.,The whole person collapsed......

He forgot about the plot.

But remember one sentence: too much fear of the future, that's why you are so pessimistic.

Just like in The Alchemist, at the beginning of the journey, Edward fell into deep self-blame for failing to save Nina.

In the mournful rain, his face distorted and he roared hoarsely, saying that he was just a human being. It's an insignificant human being that can't even be saved by a little girl.

But at the end of the journey, he pushed open the door to negotiate with the "truth" and said something similar. Said that he was a mortal from the beginning, a small mortal.

Only this time, Edward's face was only relieved, and there was no more entanglement.

Compared with the vast starry sky, people are really small, and sometimes, people need to tolerate their own weaknesses.

Heart still remembers the day he said he was retired, and several of his teammates, including his coach, were also surprised.

People like them, apart from their careers, don't seem to have any other goals, so they are surprised.

And what prompted him to make this decision was not a whim. He just recognized the status quo and chose to reconcile with himself.

But after the transformation behind the scenes, Heart sincerely felt relaxed -

In fact, there will still be pressure, but the source of pressure is different.

You don't have to train every day, you don't have to experience the helplessness of being shown, and you don't have to worry about what your teammates will think if you don't play well.

He still stays in the esports circle, but not on the road full of flowers and thorns.

What is the purpose of playing professionally?

Love?

Perhaps.

In fact, I just didn't know what I could do, but I just happened to be paid for playing professionally, and I was happier playing games, so I became a professional player.

Just talking about the profession, he is a failure.

Compared with the set goal, what he wants and asks for is not so fulfilling. I have shouted the slogan of the champion and used the championship as an inspiration.

As a result, because of fear of the future, he jumped out of the car and ran away.

Is this also called persistence? Also called a dream?

But that's life.

The so-called escape, maybe something like this, right?

The wind and rain of the past, pure beauty flashes like a movie.

You start to want to give up, something is stirring in your mind.

It wasn't until that decision was actually made that I felt at peace again.

……

A mobile phone suddenly appeared in front of Qin Hao's eyes.

It reads: Why don't you sleep yet?

Qin Hao looked back at the coach, smiled embarrassedly, and began to type: "I'm playing with a vampire in violent costume...... I found that this hero is quite suitable for threatening the back row.

You don't need to think about so much survival space, pour out the damage before you die, and your teammates can harvest it. The wave that flashed in this hero belt is a bit of a scoundrel, and only weakness can restrain it.

Also, if the line is not so difficult, the talent point Storm Knight is also very useful, R to receive EW will trigger acceleration, with sprinting, it is difficult to press the opposite side, because the blood pool and E are decelerated, pull out a certain range, and you can also play a second set. ”

His pupils were bloodshot.

Very serious discussion of the feelings of vampire law strong outfits.

Heart suddenly felt ridiculous. Some are at a loss.

The more Qin Hao said this, the more he felt that his work was not in place.

Other than that.

Is this self-punishment?

Is there really so much dissatisfaction?

Three weeks ago, if someone had told him that they could make the playoffs with the goal of finishing in the top four, Heart would have thought it was a mockery.

Because after losing to WE and IM, the team's run-in speed was much worse than that of the opponent, and he wanted to eat the few teams behind him that were not very strong, and compete for the old seven.

So there is still a chance to fight.

I'm afraid that I won't be able to enter the playoffs, and the goal of the season is fixed on relegation.

So MaRin said him, and he never spoke back.

From the spring to the summer season, their run-in has been average, and he, the coach, cannot find a distribution model that makes the players comfortable with the game. Try a little here and a little there.

Even let Godv play Lulu and Karma, although the effect is very poor.

It's fair to say that he's tried both to keep the bottom half of the game and to let MaRin play with the sideband, but sometimes, there's always a gap between the ideal and the reality.

Some heroes are chosen, and half of the results are already doomed.

So Qin Hao's arrival surprised Heart.

Because Qin Hao has a good sense of support, he can also share the command, and when playing support heroes, Nakano is more rhythmic, and he can get to the bottom when the side is done.

If you play Jace, Clockwork, and Victor (all practiced in training matches), you have to be careful about being targeted up and down, otherwise it is easy to festering in the early and middle stages, and it will become the kind of hard drag development game when Godv is still in the spring game.

At this point, if the opponent gives him a chance, he can still fight. If the opponent plays more rigorously, then there is no way.

Because that's how the game looks.

PawN Vampire has 21 fewer knives on the lane and has lost a head, and he is not in a hurry, because there is an advantage in the lower lane, and LGD needs to spend energy to deal with it.

Eimy made a deal around the midline, but they were in a hurry, as Calista and the Spiders would play hard because they lost more in the bottom lane.

Heart feels that losing EDG is not a question of whether to practice vampires or not.

But all along, they need to win the game in the early and middle stages, and they need to have a rhythm in the middle line. Even this pre-mid-term can't be bad, it's less acceptable than some teams.

Like SKT, they have had several games where they trailed 3K in the first 15 minutes and were able to run back.

They just can't do it.

Eimy's gank rate for the first 10 minutes is probably the last of all junglers, and his focus is on farming, eye-catching, and huddles.

In this way, he can play comfortably.

And the corresponding premise is that online teammates don't get that much help.

IMP is the output thigh of the team, but the bottom lane is never a one-man business, sometimes the weak combination can't beat the strong combination, and the opposite jungler will come to catch.

Including the three-level TP strong overtake routine designed by them in the training match, it is also necessary to rely on the right line to grab the round.

It's not just a few more heroes.

It's fast enough to spend two weeks practicing Jace, and then, spending another two weeks practicing vampires?

Winning RNG is not winning in the hero pool, and losing EDG is not losing in the hero pool.

This is not the most critical issue.

The most important point is that the coordination idea is limited to the extent that it is relatively easy to get started, and it does not give too much pressure.

When doing propulsion operations, you can only put one side of the line and put pressure around the middle, otherwise it will be easy to give opportunities. Because the longer the battle line is drawn, the more complicated the operation becomes, and the more things need to be taken into account.

So they're a lot like IM in the middle now. And IM is also recognized as a drag on the finisher.

Because the hard power is not enough, take advantage of it and give up doing radical things.

I'm in a group.

I'll actively press the middle, invade and force the group, and don't play bells and whistles with you. Just like the passerby bureau, only one goal is held every time, which is definitely better than being greedy.

Instead of Dalong finishing the fight, this one is going to eat the wave line, and the one is going to eat the wave line, and the one is really short of money.

By the time everyone assembled, 2 minutes passed. By the time it is pressed into the high ground, the dragon buff is gone.

It's obviously a matter of team selection and team running-in.

There's no need to stress yourself too much.

"Go to sleep. Listen to me, our goal is to make the playoffs, and that's not hard to do. ”

Heart typed and said.

"Hmm."

"When I was just practicing, I didn't really want to sleep, and then I kind of lost track of time."

Qin Hao added: "I know my body. ”

Heart pressed his hand on Qin Hao's shoulder, feeling that he didn't know.

Teenagers always have a high spirit, which is not a good thing.

The media likes to promote Faker's amazing debut, and no one will say that SKT was almost stopped in front of the finals stage by NJS, or was stopped by a barrel for 2 games, and played to the point that it had to be banned.

S4 is even more ambitious, from the media to the fans to themselves, they all feel that they can defend the championship, and as a result, the small disappointments in the regular season can accumulate and destroy the team. After confirming that he did not enter the World Championship, the champion assisted Fumanduo to leave.

The reason why Heart is clear is that the Korean esports community basically knows it.

It's no secret.

Some things are just like that.

There is a mismatch between the mood and the actual results, the gap is too large, the mentality is unbalanced, and the operation is also declining.

So, if you hold it too high, it will hurt if you fall.

It's just that S5 won the championship again, erasing all of this, and fans took the initiative to forget that there was still a period of special struggle.

Heart is now also afraid that Qin Hao's goal is too high, so high that their team can't do it, and in the end, their mentality is unbalanced.

There are some things that you can't do just by thinking about them.

He likes to start with small goals and work his way up the ladder. Just because of this, it won't hurt particularly if you fall.

"I hope you understand what I mean."

The coach's gaze seemed to be about to see through Qin Hao's psychological defense.

In the news that was washed out on Weibo, there was a person who was right, he was nothing.

The reason for the practice.

That's it, he doesn't have to be distracted by anything else.

What hope, courage, in the training room in the middle of the night is all empty, only the touch of the keyboard is real.

They say that if you change the mid laner, you may not even be able to enter the World Championships, which is ridiculous.

They said that for the sake of the team, they should take the initiative to abdicate and let Godv go out of the mountain, otherwise they would be too selfish and unwilling to give up the starter.

It turns out that the starters are really that important......

The wind and snow lingering in my ears are whispering repeatedly.

Those words are clear, revealing the devil's malice, but they are irrefutable truths.

If you lose, it's wrong to say anything.

Maybe it's like those people say, he's out and it's good for everyone.

It's just that outside of these voices, there are people who will encourage and support.

This small group of people, who are hostile to the mainstream, take the trouble to explain over and over again. This was not all washed away, so it could be seen by Qin Hao on Weibo.

It's weird.

He just thought about the strange truth and practiced all night.

In this training room, where he was alone, he suddenly returned to the self he had been in the water prison a few months ago.

He didn't practice fast.

But the effort does work.

Compared to himself a few months ago, he should be satisfied, compared to those champion midlaners, he can't be satisfied.

In a sense, hard work and self-discipline are your eternal good friends, because they never abandon you, so there are more and more people in the world who shout to lie flat and actually roll in.

It's easy for everyone to become duplicitous.

At this point, the coach cared about him and asked him why he didn't go to sleep.

Qin Hao realized that it was important for him to keep training. This is his safe haven.

As for why, there aren't so many whys.

Because he won't be uncomfortable doing this.

It's strange to think about it, he is so looking forward to the future of "sitting on the world", and he is afraid of losing his humble and small self.

"I know." Qin Hao typed.

Heart looked at Qin Hao's eyes, changing from hesitation and dodging back to firmness.

He was very puzzled, he didn't know what Qin Hao "knew".

But that's fine, it's better to have the right idea than not to say nothing.

"I'm going to sleep."

Another line was typed.

Qin Hao said hello with a smile and walked out of the training room with his waist stretched.

It's another sunny day.

The sun rises as usual.

……

Song Ming and EDG fought for a long time, but they were finally outnumbered.

From the Weibo homepage to the anti-bar, and then to the super talk, every battlefield has been lost.

EDG fans can even admit that the Penicillin card is very strong, because of this BO3, they are the winners, and the winners will give good words, proving the strength of EDG.

When he got up the next day, his thoughts were not smooth, and Song Ming was about to continue to ridicule the brainless pigs, but when he opened the LOL box to check the results, he saw more than 2 pages of vampires.

Win or lose, only the hero will remain the same.

Judging from the time, it was played at 10 o'clock in the evening, and it was played until more than 10 o'clock in the morning the next day. This is the usual doubling of the rank amount.

The reason why Song Ming knows so clearly is that Penicillin used to release his results on the dynamic, but after joining LGD, he didn't post much, so he was used to searching for it himself.

Just look at the results.

He knew what Penicillin had done.

And also.

Is there a sense of guilt for practicing like this?

But it's a pity to remove the first one, the third one is first of all a problem in the field, and then it's a rush on the road, and it sent a big wave.

Vampires are the quickest thing to do, not the point where the rhythm starts.

After a long time, Song Ming came back to his strength, thinking: I can't actually do much.

He silently counted, took screenshots, switched to the anti-bar trumpet, and said: Surprise! Penicillin's training volume in the past month is ......

Have a good title.

Click in the most eye-catching place, with last night's record chart.

Then switch to the tuba, comment on the next scene, and bring over the starch that has been sprayed with him fiercely.

As Song Ming thought, when most people saw the title, they thought it was green garlic, but after coming in with such an attitude, the content they saw was that there was a player who played 340 rankings in a month.

And that's still the time of the race.

A little comparison of the rank of other players can be known, except for training matches and some miscellaneous time, the last Hou Ye, who was called diligent, played 290 ranks from mid-May to mid-June.

And that's more than a lot of players with around 150 games.

Everything will deceive, but the time will not.

"He's so diligent, why doesn't he play heroes like Victor and Clockwork?"

"Diligence can hide the fact that the dish is dish? At most, he has a good attitude, don't wash. ”

"I don't know, I thought LGD had a bad record. I'm thinking that the summer season is just three weeks away, and LGD has only lost four games, so it will definitely not be the old seven, and there is still a chance to fight WE for the top four and get a favorable spot. ”

"Master Hou doesn't play clockwork much, is he a rookie?"

"Good guy, a vampire who practiced all night, but the record is a little ugly."

"When did you become so harsh on newcomers? Those Korean aides were paid higher wages and didn't play very well. ”

"IMP is an AD, why is it a god with four eyes? AD needs to develop, and it's good to be able to stand up and turn the tide in the endgame. ”

"Easyhoon can't bring the problem, but everyone will only say that he is a pity, that he works hard, and when it comes to Penicillin, it is all ridicule. I think he's better than the night of the first year. It's not that he's fierce on the line, it's that he's very consistent. ”

"The genius of the night is in the single, Penicillin filial son is here to touch the porcelain again, right, does the single kill list have your father's ID?"

"There is no Penicillin name on the list of single kills, does Xi Xiaozi only have a single kill in his eyes, and does it not count if he is killed alone?"

"Oh, the number of solo kills Rookie is also in the middle of the stream."

"If you want to operate, you will take risks, don't you understand?"

A bunch of people were noisy.

The post was refined, and the heat rose.

In the eyes of those who appreciate Penicillin, this is called steady, and not appreciated is called cowardice.

In the eyes of those who appreciate the night, this is called genius and show, and if you don't appreciate it, it is called nerve knife, but if you have the advantage and make less mistakes, WE results can be 2 grades better.

admires Hou Ye, says that he works hard, VG is the only normal person, and those who don't appreciate it say that his championship is rubbed in, there is no deterrent effect in the middle lane, a typical parallel import: high value, low ability.

When someone talked about Penicillin's rookie contract, a bunch of people quarreled about "should I be c if I take more money?"

Anti-bar veterans actually know a small thing, that is, when Uzi temporarily changed heroes, causing Insec Lucian to jungle, the reason is that Insec's salary is higher than Uzi's, and Uzi feels that he has been cheated by the club.

He always thought that he was the one with the highest annual salary in the team, but he didn't expect the club to hide it from him, so his mentality was a little fried.

There is a word in the sports circle called high salary and low ability, which shows that the salary does not match the strength, and the masses have a lot of opinions.

The night was dark.

The EDG Club is back to the busiest time of the day.

Hurry up with KT before the training game.

Meiko swiped this post, chatted with Ming Kai in idleness, and said: "I only played more than 200 last month, and I'm afraid he doesn't stay up late every day." ”

Ming Kai only felt strange when he saw the quarrel below.

LGD's strange division of labor is about to become a mid-lane jungler rhythm, which is like other teams, all of which are junglers who fancy the one-on-one line rhythm and take into account the side.

In the second game, he didn't say angry words.

He felt that Eimy didn't have a lot of rhythm, and LGD was under a lot of pressure online, so there was no reason to lose.

I've helped break through every time I stepped on the horse, and it must be our own problem that I can't win.

If LGD is really playing well, why is there a lot of pressure online? The middle lane of the force did not dare to easily hand over the transmission line.

Ming Kai shook his head silently.

I feel that Penicillin's public opinion pressure is approaching that of his predecessor. The results have not been reached first, and public opinion has arrived.

Think again.

Maybe Weibo will be like this if you post it too often, and if the attention is high, there will always be people who don't like it and think you love to show off.

It's like making a propaganda film and putting trash talk, which is not all his intention, but it will become evidence of crime. Who made him the protagonist of the promotional video?

This moment.

Ming Kai is a little sympathetic to this little brother, a few weeks after his debut, he saw that he could lock in a high pick in the playoffs, which is a higher starting point than many people.

If you can keep working hard, your achievements in the future will not be low.

"It's all about emotional venting."

Ming Kai said casually, wanting to get to know Penicillin.

Work hard like this, appetite for him.