One

Qingluan's eyes were scattered, staring into the distance stupidly, leaning against the corner, curled up in a ball.

In front of him is the letter of resignation.

"Qingluan, don't be sad, it's not a bad thing to leave that brute." Nagumo didn't know how to comfort her.

There was an indescribable ecstasy in his heart, but at this moment, he could not express it.

Anyway, she is also an abandoned woman now, and she will be a little lost in her heart.

He squatted beside her and said softly, "Mother-in-law is right. You take a rest first, get up tomorrow morning, and the unhappy things will pass. ”

Qingluan was still speechless. Her expression looked very worrying.

Although there were countless questions in his heart, he didn't want to know about this situation, he just wanted to hold her in his arms. Take good care of it.

He held out his fingers and gently touched her cheek.

Her countenance, pale and haggard.

"I feel so distressed about you like this." He muttered.

Qingluan's eyes were distant and unfamiliar, and her tone was calm and indifferent: "Don't you want to know my story?" ”

Nanyun said softly: "What I care about is whether there is a place for me in your future stories." ”

Qingluan sighed lowly: "He's right. In my heart. There is indeed one person, that person, but it is not you. ”

Nanyun was slightly stunned.

Her eyes drifted into distant memories.

"When I was 14 years old, my father hired a luthier to teach us how to play the piano. That's the first violinist, and I don't remember exactly. I remember that day, when he appeared in front of me, my eyes never took my eyes off him. He was not crowned, and his black hair was as black as ink, tied with a white ribbon at will, looking so chic and elegant. He wore a pale cyan gown, and around his waist, he wore a wide belt embroidered with moire, and on the belt, there was also an embroidered purse, and he didn't know what it contained. ”

"I studied the piano with all my heart in order to get his attention. However, the way he looked at me was calm and indifferent, no different from that of other sisters. Once, when he passed by me, I finally couldn't help it and secretly took off his purse. I'd love to know what's in there. However, I was disappointed, there was no such thing as rouge pollen, which I had imagined as a token of love, only a small piece of silver. ”

"When he found that the purse was missing, he was not angry, but smiled, took it from my hand, and hung it on his waist. His smile was gentle and elegant, and his eyes were bright and clear. In that instant, I understood why I cared about the contents of that purse. It turned out that I was afraid that he had another woman. ”

"When he was teaching the piano, he was attentive and never squinted. No matter how beautiful I dressed, he seemed to ignore it and didn't look at it. In his eyes, I was just his disciple, his work. However, a girl who is just beginning to fall in love, where can she suppress her bright love. So, on a spring afternoon, I secretly stuffed a note to him and confessed my admiration to him. It is a poem: The mountains have trees and branches, and the heart is happy and the king does not know. ”

He didn't say yes. He said he wasn't worthy of me. However, I could see that he was speaking insincerely. ”

"I told him that as long as he likes it, I will go and tell my father that I don't mind if he has no fixed place to live, and I don't mind him wandering the rivers and lakes. But he still wouldn't agree. ”

"I was very sad that he treated me like this, and for a while, I ignored him. So, I stopped going to piano lessons and hid in the house all day long. ”

He soon couldn't hold on. He wrote me a sentence through the small ring: 'Hide it in the center, forget it one day'. I immediately understood what he was thinking. It turns out that he likes mine. ”

"That night, I asked him to go to my boudoir. We were embarrassed for a while, and finally did something deviant. I was scared, but I was reluctant to leave him. ”

"At that time, my father was already the marriage of my sisters. I finally understood that his concerns were valid. In any case, my father would not agree to marry me to a young man who had no roots and no roots and relied on his piano skills to survive. Dad's standard is either rich or expensive, how can he look down on my sweetheart? ”

"We were desperate, but we still had a tryst. Finally one day, he was discovered by the eldest mother. I cried and begged my aunt not to tell my father, who would drive him away. However, the eldest mother was unmoved, and still told her father. Dad was furious and kicked him out of my house. However, how can you stop the passionate love of a pair of lovers. Finally, we decided to elope. However, before we could get out of Chang'an City, we were caught. Dad did something even more ferocious than I had imagined, he sent him to the government, falsely accused him of stealing property, and beat him so hard that he almost lost his life. In order to cut off my infatuation, my father didn't know how much money he used, bribed the officials, convicted him of a felony, and sent him to fill the army outside the border. ”

Qingluan's eyes were cold and fierce, and a bloody picture appeared in front of her eyes. She didn't want to remember this scene, she didn't want to remember it, and she wouldn't tell anyone.

After being captured, the father roared hoarsely: "Let him seduce my daughter!" Chop off his fingers so he can never play the piano again! ”

She cried and shouted, "Daddy! Don't! How can he survive without his fingers? Please spare him! ”

The servant looked at Shen Wanjin with some hesitation: "Master? ”

Shen Wanjin, who was furious, had lost his mind and yelled, "Don't do it yet?!" ”

The servant looked at the luthier who was tied up and slowly, holding his fingers.

It was a pair of hands that could play the piano, and the fingers were flexible and slender, like a work of art.

The luthier twisted his body vigorously, struggled hard, and cried out in despair: "Don't! Don't chop off my fingers! His eyes were filled with fear and sorrow.

Shen Wanjin hurried to the servant's side and snatched the knife from his hand.

The knife fell, and two bloody fingers fell to the ground, forever separated from the master's palm.

"Ah Duan!" She screamed and fainted.

Thinking of this, Qingluan closed her eyes in pain, and a line of tears flowed down.

Memories are scars that never fade away. Although many years have passed, she still remembers the heart-rending feeling clearly.

If she could, she would rather be a substitute.

Nagumo asked softly, "What happened?" ”

"After that, I never saw him again. I heard that he died at Yumen Pass. The jade door is closed far away, and I don't know if he can hear my piano. Her voice was low and sad, and tears welled up in her clear face.

Poor and uncertain riverside bones, like a person in a spring boudoir dream.

Don't reminisce, because you can't go back.

Nanyun suddenly understood why, she always liked to play some side plug tunes. It turned out that in her heart, she was missing her sweetheart.

"What's his name?" Nagumo asked, faintly jealous in his heart.

Qingluan sighed faintly and avoided answering. Obviously, she didn't want to mention that name. It was her own secret.

After pausing for a while, she continued: "That year, the Hou Yefu came to propose marriage, and it was the eldest sister Qingluo who was ordered. When I saw the happy appearance of the eldest mother, I was angry. If she hadn't snitched, Dad wouldn't have found out about our affair, and he wouldn't have died. Therefore, I will not make her happy, and I have decided to destroy the eldest sister's family affairs. ”

Nanyun was shocked: "What did you do?" ”

Qingluan sneered: "On the day Zhao Tong proposed marriage, I pretended to be inadvertently and passed in front of his eyes. Zhao Tong, that guy, only glanced at me, and he would never marry his eldest sister again. ”

"For me, marrying anyone is the same. Therefore, I don't care what kind of character Zhao Tong is. I only know that what my aunt hates is the reason for my happiness. ”

"In this way, I snatched love with a knife, inserted a pole, and married Zhao Tong without much effort. I thought that if I broke my mother's wishful thinking, I would be happy, but I didn't expect that I fell into the trap I set. On the wedding night, Zhao Tong found out that I was not a virgin, and he was jealous and hateful, so he began to torture me madly. On the surface, he treated me politely, but behind the scenes, whenever he was in a bad mood, he beat me and scolded me, and did everything he could to humiliate me. ”

"That night, when he came back from outside, he seemed to be in a good mood, and I drank a few glasses of wine with him and sang him a tune while he was happy. He squinted at me and asked me if it was for my father's sake that he did this to him. I couldn't deny it, so I knelt down and begged him to save my father. ”

"He laughed and said, 'Your father is dead this time, I want to see how often you go back to your mother's house in the future!' ”

"I didn't dare to make him angry, so I could only smile with a smiling face. My father-in-law entered the palace to ask to see Zhaorong Niangniang, but there was no result, I can only rely on him, he is my husband after all. ”

"With a little drunkenness, he sighed and said, 'Your father has been sentenced to beheading, so you can only blame him for his poor life, and he can't blame others.' It's a pity that after all, she still failed to fall into Li Zhaoyi's mother's womb, which inevitably fell short. ’”

"I listened a little strange and asked, 'My father has no grudge against my mother, why bother to hurt my mother?' Zhaoyi Niangniang Ji people have their own natural appearance, there is no miscarriage, only luck, why pity? ’”

"He was suddenly annoyed and scolded, 'It's all the damned imperial doctor!' If it weren't for his bad deeds, if he persisted for a few more days, Li Zhaoyi's fetus would have fallen! ”

"It dawned on me. He is so angry and ruined, all because of his sister Zhao Zhaorong. Li Zhaoyi lost her baby and lost her favor, and Zhao Zhaorong was naturally favored. Thinking about it this way, the musk of Deqing Palace must be related to the Zhao family. ”

With such thoughts, I drunk him. While he was asleep, the truth came out of his mouth. It turned out that on that day, he instigated the Cai family to fight with the Shen guy, lured away my father, himself, sneaked into Fengxiangfang, and in the name of drinking, broke you apart, and instructed his entourage Zhao Er to secretly add a sufficient amount of musk to the cauldron of boiling incense. ”

"After the matter was revealed, he was worried that he would be found out, so he colluded with Zhaorong Niangniang, sent a secret order to Dali Temple, and ordered the case to be closed quickly, so that my father did not know what to do, and he became a guilty sheep."

After Zhao Tong slept, I thought about it for a long time. With a father on one side and a husband on the other, it's hard to choose. I thought about it all night, and finally decided: to report Zhao Tong. It was the only way to rescue Daddy, and I had no choice. Although I can't compare to Ti Ying, who saved my father, I also know that the kindness of my biological parents is greater than heaven. How can I sit back and watch my daddy's head go wrong! Even if I offend my husband's family because of this, even if I am beaten to death by Zhao Tong because of this, I will not hesitate to do it. ”

So, before the sky dawned, I came to the lobby to beat the drum and voice the grievances, and explained the truth to Lord Zuo one by one. Lord Zuo may be worried about the identity of Zhao Tongguo's uncle, but he only asked a little and did not delve into it for the time being. ”

"You know the rest of the story. As I expected, Zhao Tong was annoyed and angry, and called on the door. ”

"I worked hard to marry into the Hou Mansion, and now, I finally haven't escaped the fate of an abandoned woman. On the contrary, she became a growing sister, made a mistake, and married a wishful husband who was both talented and beautiful. This cannot but be said, it is a great irony. ”

Qingluan turned his face, glanced at Nanyun slightly, and said lightly: "Now, you know my story." I lost my virginity both before and after marriage. not only betrayed her husband and stole the man, but also betrayed her husband. Would you still like such an unchaste and unrighteous woman? ”

Nagumo was silent for a moment.

Qingluan sneered and straightened out his messy sideburns.

She said contemptuously, "You should go." I'm going to rest. Don't let my filthy body defile your white clothes. ”

Nanyun grabbed her arm hard, and his voice was firm and clear: "On the contrary, you are a good woman who dares to love and hate, and you make me and other bearded men ashamed of themselves." If, in the past, I only loved your beautiful face, now, I love your unyielding character even more. I just hate that I didn't know you sooner and let you go through so many hardships. Thy former did not have me, and thy future will be me. ”

Qingluan stared at him in a daze. His eyes, warm and sincere.

In a trance, she felt that this kind of look was familiar and kind.

Her luthier had seen her like this at the beginning.

Nanyun pressed her cheek and said, "Give me a chance and let me take care of you." Now, you are no longer in the confines of marriage, and the obstacles between us have disappeared, don't you think that this is the opportunity God has given us? ”

Qingluan slowly raised his head.

Nanyun said softly: "If you don't mind, then, give me time and let me arrange it." ”

"Let me be a concubine?" Qingluan said slowly.

Nanyun was stunned, and Nuo Nuo said: "I can't divorce her." ”

Qingluan muttered: "Yes, I, an abandoned woman, am worthy of being on an equal footing with the eldest sister." ”

Nanyun hurriedly said: "Don't worry, I will never wronged you." ”

Qingluan sneered, "So, where are you going to put me?" ”

Nanyun frowned slightly: "Is the reputation really that important?" You know, I only have you in my heart. Even if I am a concubine, I only love you. ”

Qingluan snorted softly: "It turns out that you really plan to make me a concubine!" ”

Being a concubine, the word stinged her deeply.

Her mother has been a concubine for a lifetime, and in this life, she has been bullied by the main room, and now, it is her turn to be a concubine?

Or do you succumb to the ugly bastard she disdains and scoffs at?!

Nagumo lovingly hugged her into his arms and whispered, "What do you want?" ”

Qingluan said coldly: "Did I say I wanted to marry you?" No matter how poor my Shen Qingluan is, I won't be able to be a concubine! ”

Nagumo was silent.

Love is one thing, but marrying a wife is another.

"You have a good rest first, the future will be long, this matter, let's talk about it later, okay?" He said softly.

As he spoke, he put her on the couch, pulled the quilt, and gently covered her body.

His hand touched into the quilt, but she threw it out of the quilt fiercely.

He was slightly embarrassed and said with a smile: "The strength is not small." ”

She turned over, turned sideways inward, gave him a back, and said angrily: "Qingluan is not your woman yet." ”

Nanyun smiled: "From now on, you are destined, you are my woman." Rest, I'll go first, and I'll come back to see you. ”

He leaned down, gave her a quick kiss on the cheek, and then, without looking back, opened the door.

Qingluan slowly shed tears.

The red face is old.

In an instant, the vicissitudes of life have been exhausted.

Now, where do you go?