One

Qingluan sat lazily on the Xiangfei couch, her eyes fell to the window, and she was distracted by a jasmine in her hand.

A servant girl came in from outside: "Second lady, there is a letter for you." ”

Qingluan let out an "oh", with great surprise.

"Who sent it?" She asked.

"When I passed by the porter, a servant gave it to me, saying that he would hand it over to the second lady." The servant girl's face turned red. She didn't say that she had taken the little girl's five cents.

"Do you know that little guy?" Qingluan frowned slightly, thinking, who sent the letter?

Suddenly, her heart beat violently, and she stood up all at once, her face flushed. Due to the rapid standing, he almost fell.

The maidservant was taken aback: "Second lady! ”

Qingluan realized his gaffe and said lightly: "Put it on the table." ”

The maidservant carefully placed a letter on the table and slowly withdrew.

Qingluan picked up the letter as quickly as he could.

On the cover, there is not a single word.

She held back her pounding heart and tore open the cover, and there were a few words inside: "The back slope of the Buddhist hall in the western suburbs." ”

Qingluan struggled to make out the words.

She remembered that afternoon, the young man named Ah Duan, also handed over such a short letter to her.

"Hide it in the center, and forget it one day."

Those words, like gentle feathers, crossed her heart, and she never forgot the trembling feeling again.

However, these words, scribbled and hasty, are obviously not his handwriting, and will never be.

For a moment, she painfully realized that no matter how much time had passed, the pain was still so clear.

"Xiaohuan," she called, "change your clothes and go out at once." ”

Xiaohuan hurriedly said, "Go out?" It's the second half of the day. ”

Qingluan was a little irritable: "Call to prepare the car!" ”

In a thought, the mind turns.

The person who sent the letter to her must have had a last resort, so he did not come to the door openly to ask for a meeting, but made an appointment in a remote and deserted suburb.

She was curious to know who it was.

There is a glimmer of hope in my heart. Maybe God will give her a miracle? After all, she hadn't seen his corpse with her own eyes.

Thinking of this, she couldn't help but speed up her pace.

At the gate, a boy of about sixteen or seventeen years old set up his car and waited at the door.

"Second lady." The boy saluted.

"Little Huzi, why are you?" Xiaohuan was surprised: "You usually just feed the horses." Will you catch a car? ”

Xiaohuzi smiled: "How could it not?" Don't look at my young age, my driving skills are good, you can rest assured. ”

Qingluan asked as he got into the car, "Isn't it usually Ah San?" ”

Xiaohuzi replied: "Ah San, he is no longer on an errand in the house. ”

Qingluan's heart moved: "Oh, then where did he go?" ”

Xiaohu waved his whip and started the carriage: "He went to the Grange and said that there was a shortage of manpower. I don't know what the old man thinks, Ah San is the most powerful person in our house. It's a pity to go to the grange to farm. ”

"Looks like you like him a lot. Tell me, what's so good about him? Xiaohuan laughed.

Xiaohu's eyebrows danced: "Ah San has learned kung fu, and he can fly the eaves and walk the wall, no problem." I heard that he can penetrate Yang in a hundred steps, and it is easy to take the head of the general. ”

Xiaohuan laughed: "Brag! You're talking about Guan Gong. ”

Xiaohu smiled embarrassedly: "I also heard what people said." Second lady, where to go? ”

Qingluan paused slightly: "Xizhimen." ”

"Good come!" Xiaohu shouted happily.

The carriage then rang with a crisp bell, and sure enough, it was fast and steady.

Xiaohuan lowered the curtain and asked, "Miss, what are you doing in Xizhimen?" Quite far. ”

Qingluan did not answer. Her eyes drifted out through the cracks in the curtain.

The effort was not in vain. Nanyun really became suspicious, otherwise, Ah San would not have been transferred.

As long as there is suspicion, it is like a cracked vase, no matter how it is trimmed, there will always be traces and gaps, and this gap will only get bigger and bigger.

A sneer appeared on her lips.

Soon arrived outside the Xizhi Gate, Qingluan got out of the car, smiled and ordered: "The front is the Buddha Hall, I will ask for a stick of incense." You don't have to follow, it's boring. As he spoke, he took out a piece of broken silver from his sleeve and spread it in the palm of his hand: "It's very lively here, you can go shopping casually, this, buy some food for your mother." ”

Xiaohu was overjoyed and timidly did not dare to take it.

Xiaohuan smiled: "Take it." ”

Xiaohu took it: "Second Mrs. Xie!" ”

Qingluan smiled: "At dusk, wait for me here." ”

Two

However, Qingluan did not enter the Buddhist hall, she picked up the corners of her skirt, turned left and right, bypassed the side door of the Buddhist hall, and ran directly to the hillside behind the Buddhist hall.

Xiaohuan followed him all the way, puzzled, but didn't dare to ask more.

Qingluan looked around. The grass is green, the pine waves are bursting, and even a figure is missing.

She was slightly disappointed.

Xiaohuan finally couldn't help it: "Miss, are you looking for someone?" ”

Qingluan stood on a high place and looked into the distance.

On the silent hillside, the neighing of horses suddenly sounded.

Qingluan's heart trembled a little.

For the answer to be solved, there is hope and fear.

Without allowing her to think about it, a horse came to her at a rapid pace.

When the horse stopped, I saw a man and a woman sitting on the horseback. The man is handsome, and the woman is coquettish.

Qingluan was dizzy for a while: "Mother! ”

I haven't seen each other for many days, and the mother and daughter didn't expect to see each other in this way.

"Xiaohuan, you stand down." Qingluan commanded calmly.

Xiaohuan sensibly stepped back until he couldn't see it.

Qingluan's eyes fell on her mother.

In the past, the mother was surrounded by pearls and jade, but now she is dressed in plain clothes, on her head, without any jewelry, only with a handkerchief, wrapped in a green silk, the whole person looks clean and simple, but she is radiant, with a kind of happiness and satisfaction that is difficult to hide, although it is washed away, but it is difficult to hide her moving beauty.

Qingluan was in a trance for a while. She had never seen her mother like this.

The man dismounted with Aunt Lian in his arms and tied the horse to a tree.

Qingluan recovered from the initial shock and sneered: "Very good, I actually have the face to bring an adulterer to see me!" ”

The man was about forty years old, and he was well-groomed and kind, and looked a little familiar.

Qingluan thought hard. Where have you seen it?

Aunt Lian was ashamed: "Luan'er, don't say that." ”

"What shall I say?" Qingluan pointed at the man and said angrily, "Who is he?" For the sake of this man, you left my father, left my sister, and only cared about your own happiness, have you ever thought about our feelings! Suddenly, tears flowed down his face, "My father is dead, do you know?" ”

Aunt Lian tried to get close to Qingluan: "Daughter, listen to my mother." ”

Qingluan shook off her mother's arm: "Don't touch me!" His eyes were full of contempt and hatred.

"Don't blame your mother," the man began, "it's all my fault." ”

Qingluan narrowed his eyes and mocked, "What are you, dare to talk to me?" The rooster and the dog thief are difficult for your skin! ”

"Who is he?" Qingluan pointed at the man and asked, "It's worth leaving everything behind for him!" ”

Aunt Lian looked at the man, and the man nodded slightly.

Aunt Lian seems to have made a decision: "His name is Du Zhikang." ”

"Du Zhikang?" Qingluan was stunned for a moment, and then sneered: "It turned out to be a perfumer in the medicine store." No wonder the face is familiar. ”

Du Zhikang nodded slightly: "Luan'er." ”

Qingluan reprimanded in disgust: "Shut up! Can you call me by my name too? You slave, you seduce the master, betray the master, and have the face to live in the world! ”

Du Zhikang lowered his head in embarrassment.

Qingluan turned around coldly: "I knew it was such a disgusting person, so I didn't come." ”

"Luan'er!" Aunt Lian exclaimed eagerly.

Qingluan didn't look back: "For the sake of you being my mother, I advise you: leave this subordinate and kowtow to my father's grave, maybe I can forgive you." ”

Aunt Lian said sadly: "Luan'er, do you really hate your mother so much? ”

Qingluan said hatefully: "You made me lose face, you know? ”

Aunt Lian burst into tears: "You only know that you take care of your face, how have you ever considered your mother?" Do you know what kind of life my mother has lived all these years? ”

Qingluan was silent for a moment.

Aunt Lian cried: "That year, you eloped for a man, how could you ever complain about you? Compare your heart to your heart, why can't you understand your mother? ”

Qingluan's heart was shocked.

She turned around slowly and looked at Du Zhikang.

It is undeniable that this is an excellent man, Ruya Sven, even if he is middle-aged, he can still be regarded as an outstanding man. Compared with him, Shen Wanjin is different.

Aunt Lian choked up and said, "In the Shen family, I am just a dispensable concubine, and Shen Wanjin has taken me in his eyes." was oppressed by Mrs. Shen every day, and she didn't dare to breathe. When he got into trouble, he scolded me every time. If it weren't for your sisters, my mother would have been unable to live a long time ago. ”

"He has not married for me, and I can only be like a dignified woman when I am with him." Aunt Lian looked at Du Zhikang affectionately, "If it weren't for Bao'er breaking us that day, I wouldn't have been able to make up my mind." ”

Du Zhikang held Aunt Lian's hand.

"Luan'er, oh, Fourth Miss," Du Zhikang was a little cramped: "Don't be angry, listen to me slowly." ”

He looked at Aunt Lian carefully.

Aunt Lian nodded.

"Your mother and I have been a pair of childhood sweethearts since childhood. But my family is very poor and can't afford to marry, so I went out to earn money, and I was ready to propose marriage when I had saved enough money. Du Zhikang fell into the memory.

Qingluan was shocked. It turns out that there is such a relationship. No wonder.

However, before I could come back, her father died, and her ruthless stepmother sold her into the Qinglou. By the time I had worked so hard to find her, she was already Shen Wanjin's beloved concubine, and she had given birth to twin daughters for him. Du Zhikang's expression was gloomy.

"I was reluctant to leave her, so I stayed in the Shen family and became a perfumer."

"I thought that I would never meet again in my life, but after all, it was a bad fate······" Du Zhikang sighed low with shame on his face.

Qingluan said coldly: "Don't tell me those ugly things. Now that my father is dead, you have finally got your wish, and no one can stop you. ”

Aunt Lian hesitated for a moment: "I had no intention of leaving your father, if it wasn't for that time, the matter was revealed, and your father was angry and wanted to kill me, we wouldn't have done this." ”

Du Zhikang said: "I am responsible for this matter. I was afraid that Shen Wanjin would be unfavorable to your mother, so I didn't care about anything else and took the risk to rescue your mother. ”

"These days, we've been hiding in Tibet for fear of being caught by your father," Aunt Lian paused, "I mean Shen Wanjin." He sent a large number of men to search for news of us, so we did not dare to leave the city rashly, and hid in an abandoned meadow all the time. She suddenly felt a little sad, "Until a few days ago, we heard that Shen Wanjin had passed away. ”

Qingluan snorted disdainfully: "So you dare to go out openly and honestly!" Although my father is dead, the Shen family is still there, you must always take care of the reputation of the Shen family. ”

Aunt Lian was silent, and after a while, she said weakly: "I know I'm sorry for your father." On the day of your father's funeral, I buried him from afar. You see," she said, gesturing to a white silk flower on her sideburns, "I'm doing filial piety for him." ”

Qingluan laughed: "It's really a first-class joke in the world!" Seduced the next person, eloped and fled, angry with my father, and had the face to wear filial piety for him! You don't deserve it! My father is in the spirit of heaven, and he will also feel ashamed! ”

Aunt Lian was a little embarrassed: "Don't say that······ After all, I have been a husband and wife for many years······"

Qingluan said in disgust: "Since you are gone, you take your Yangguan Road, I will take my single-plank bridge, and ask me to do something!" Look at your swaggered faces? ”

Aunt Lian choked up and said, "We plan to go to Zhikang's hometown in the northeast, about this life, and never come back." But before I leave, I want to see you. ”

Qingluan felt a pain in his heart.

Those who go far away will never come back, and in this life, they will never see each other again.

I'll never see my mother again.

"Among your sisters, I can't worry about you the most. Your two sisters are the ladies who are being married by other people's media, and their mothers don't care. It's just you, a concubine······ My mother has been a concubine for a lifetime, and I know the pain of being a concubine······" Aunt Lian's eyes were blurred with tears, "But my mother can't help you, everything can only rely on yourself." You're a smart kid, but you're just out of luck······ Alas! ”

"Mother!" Qingluan's tears couldn't stop falling slowly.

"We'll never see each other again. There is one thing that must be told to you," Aunt Lian looked at her daughter intently, "I can't hide this secret for the rest of my life, that would be unfair to you, and it would not be fair to your father." ”

Du Zhikang looked at Qingluan with gentle eyes, and there was a lot of reluctance and nostalgia in his eyes.

Qingluan was inexplicably shocked.

Aunt Lian hugged her daughter, as if to give her strength: "Child, my mother wants to tell you something. ”

"You are not the daughter of the Shen family," Aunt Lian pointed at Du Zhikang, "Your surname is Du, and Du Zhikang is your biological father." ”

Qingluan looked at her mother in a daze, and then at Du Zhikang, as if she couldn't believe her ears.

"What did you say?" There was despair and anger in her words, "You're talking nonsense, aren't you?" You're confused, aren't you? ”

"Mother is not talking nonsense, you are indeed the daughter of me and Du Zhikang, and you have nothing to do with the Shen family." Aunt Lian said, "How can you talk nonsense about such a thing." The reason why I tell you is to let you know your background. A person who doesn't even know his biological parents and is only afraid of death is also confused. ”

Qingluan flicked his sleeves fiercely: "I don't believe a word!" ”

Du Zhikang said apologetically: "I am indeed your biological father, but I am not worthy of being your father." I haven't done my duty as a father for a single day. I am very grateful to Master Shen for raising you so well. ”

"Get out! You filthy minion! Don't mention my father!" Qingluan said hoarsely: "You will never be as good as my father!" ”

"Luan'er, believe it or not, that's the truth. I didn't expect you to recognize Daddy, as long as you knew. We didn't dare to stay longer, we were leaving. Take care, child. "Aunt Lian's heart is like a knife.

Du Zhikang took the horse and turned around slowly.

Aunt Lian cried: "Child, my mother is not by your side, you have to take care of yourself." ”

Qingluan was dumbfounded, speechless. She stretched out her hand, subconsciously, trying to catch something.

Aunt Lian suddenly remembered something, turned around, hugged her, and whispered in her ear.

Qingluan was taken aback and looked at her suspiciously.

"My mother won't lie to you, that Shen Qingluo has been a little strange since she was a child, but your aunt is very secretive, and it is difficult for outsiders to know the inside story. Once, your father was drunk and inadvertently confided a few words, "Aunt Lian was mysterious: "I heard that when your eldest sister was born, she was different from ordinary children. When the full moon was washed, another strange thing happened. I heard that even the grandmother-in-law who bathed her in the delivery of the baby died soon in vain. ”

Qingluan let out an "ah" in surprise.

Aunt Lian's good-looking face showed a deep affection for licking calves, "Think more about it, if you catch her handle, with your beauty and Nanyun's love for you, it will not be difficult to overwhelm that ugly monster and take a concubine as your wife." There is another sentence, you must remember that if she gave birth to a son before you, in this life, you will never have a chance to turn over. Mother can only say this, you are so self-conscious. After Aunt Lian finished speaking, she gently patted Qingluan's shoulder.

Du Zhikang walked over slowly and helped Aunt Lian onto the horse.

The horses chirp, and it seems that there is something to be said.

Du Zhikang sat on the horse, a breeze blew his dark clothes, there was a kind of jade tree in the wind, it was hard to imagine the scene of him flying through the wall and entering the house. There was infinite sadness in his tone: "Luan'er, my daughter, my father is gone." It makes you lose face, and you have to do it. However, I hope you can understand that your mother's life is more important than those false names. When you love someone deeply, you will understand what I am doing today. ”

The whip flicked and walked away.

As the sun set, the horses walked farther and farther, and gradually, they were out of sight.

Ask what the world is like, and teach people to live and die.

In the hearts of people who love each other, nothing can be happier than being together, even if it is wandering the world and making the world home.

Back then, if he hadn't been recovered by his father, he and Ah Duan would definitely have been able to love each other like this. If she can be with the person she loves, she is willing to give up all the prosperity and glory in the world. However, the person she loves will never appear again.

As the sun sets, her slender figure looks particularly lonely.

"Dad, mother, you don't want me anymore······" Her low sobs were audible to no one but herself.