As soon as the alarm went off the next morning, my anxious reaction came to me as soon as I woke up, and when I got up, I squeezed out the hand cream as toothpaste and brushed my teeth. Take the toothpaste as cream and squeeze it onto the toast. Wearing the right shoes, missing the wrong socks. The swiping message to Wen Dan was swiped on Qiu Qingye's WeChat. Qiu Qingye's revision copy to everyone was all wrong.

Someone will send it out from time to time in the work group throughout the day.,Mu Qing dropped IQ +1+1+1+1... Infinity +1, I've been making mistakes all day today. Looking at the mess in front of me, I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and slapped me on the left and right sides of the face with ten times more force than I did on my face. It was the intense pain in my face that made my eyelids spread beyond my pupils in the morning.

I took out my mobile phone and posted in the circle of friends that today's Xia Muqing really needs to be saved. As soon as I finished posting, the number of likes on my avatar increased rapidly. Everyone who liked the studio didn't forget to comment, your IQ needs to be rescued by yourself, you help yourself find it yourself, come on.

The people in the company don't know what happened to me, they don't reply to me at the moment. Although I didn't deliberately dress up today, I can count it as a past. But at the moment my irritability made me wake up tired of remedying my mistakes in a busy chicken and dog jump. The hair has been slept out of shape.

"Mu Qing, what's wrong with you," Tu Ling stopped and asked me as she passed me with the document in her arms

"No, it's not much," I said, with irritation in my tone

"Are you the great aunt coming? I see you've been tossing around here all morning, and you've been fidgeting, and your hair has been messed up by you."

"No, no, you go get busy, I'm fine"

"Okay, if the sanitary napkin is not enough, send me WeChat, and I'll send it to you"

"Okay, okay, go back to work, don't laugh at me" Tu Ling walked away while holding the document after teasing me, I took out the mirror and looked at the current appearance, with an uneasy face, the bangs were high, and the whole head was like being rubbed again.

Seeing that it was almost time to get off work, I packed my bag and planned to go back to the dormitory to tidy up, but Ou Meimei, Tang Xin, and Tu Ling rushed to my desk as soon as they got off work, one person picked up my bag, and the other two ran to the square outside while holding my hand. Say that today is the weekend, don't start now, and in a few minutes it will definitely be the rush hour, and you will be stuck in traffic jams.

I didn't have time to tidy up, and got into the car with a head that was even messier than when I first got up.

In the car, they said that Qiu Qingye would come over later, and I remembered that since I missed the email this morning, I have never paid attention to Qiu Qingye's work today since I sent it again and again. I don't even know what my boss is doing today. I lowered my head a little helplessly, Xia Muqing, what are you doing, it's really hopeless. I was caught in the middle along the way, and I didn't have any chance to clean myself up. The closer the destination is shown on the AutoNavi map, the faster my heart beats. My ears were filled with the sound of my own heartbeat. I didn't bother to listen to what the other people in the car were talking about.

The place where the fat man parked was a music restaurant. When I saw in the glass outside, Xiao had not yet arrived. I was really relieved. Only then did he straighten his chest and walk in. I sat down and went to the toilet first, straightened my hair, and put on lipstick. After I came back, I began to chat with everyone with peace of mind, and I tried to match the names of everyone in the company with WeChat. But even so. A dozen or so people at the table were still smiling at me and saying it was okay, it didn't matter. Joking with me and saying that I looked cute after making a mistake today. Everyone chatted happily together. I smiled and looked at the group of people in front of me, and I really felt that everyone was so cute. Whenever I find that the company or the people in the company are different from others. I have to praise Qiu Qingye again in my heart, the corporate culture he brought out is really good. For the first time, I felt that in the adult world of the jungle, I wanted to be part of a team. Hard work can become my passion, rather than enjoying the thrill of blindly earning money and seeing wages every month.

After chatting for a while, Qiu Qingye first appeared in front of me with Wen Dan. As I watched Wendan sit down next to me with a funny face, I literally raised my hand and pinched my own face.

"No need to pinch, it's me"

"Why are you here?"

"I'm here to help you. Coward."

I looked at Aki Kiyono. He just smiled at me. He sat down next to me. Didn't explain much or explain anything

I was looking at Wen Dan and wanted to ask something clear, she had already stood up with a wine glass and began to say hello, "Let me introduce myself to you, I am also from Chongqing, and Mu Qing is a city, and I am also good friends, we know Mr. Qiu together, and we are all friends." So don't get me wrong. This weekend happened to be in Shanghai to play, and I happened to meet your dinner, so I came over for a meal. I hope you don't mind."

"No, no, no. All over the world are brothers, hahaha. And we go to work every day to see the company's women are bored, and our vision is tired, and a few more beauties can also comfort our men's eyes, and ah. I really like to drink with you Chongqing girls, last time Mu Qingyi came over and directly drank two bottles of Jiang Xiaobai, the amount of wine, momentum, is much more like us old men than some girls who don't drink. This time, I not only have to drink with Mu Qing, but also with you."

"What's the problem then, it's not a problem for me to drink three bottles with you"

"Don't pay attention to the big tiger. His life is a beauty in addition to games. A low-quality youth. Introduce myself, my name is Wu Feng, which one is Yang Hu who I talked to you just now. You should be the same age as us, about 25, then I'll call you Dandan."

"25 years old, hahaha, brother Xiaofeng, you speak so pleasantly. I like it, but it's a pity that I'm 29 this year, and all of you below 29 have to call me Sister Dan. 29 and above, raise your hand. Wait a minute, little sister, I can only come next to each other to toast."

"I can't see it, are Chongqing girls eating hot pot and maintaining it so well, when Mu Qing said 25, I thought I was in my early 20s, I thought you were 24.25 years old, and you said that you yourself are 29 years old

"Fatty, you don't say one thing, not only do you look old, you also look ugly, this is your most realistic problem"

"Get out, grandson" The fat man and Wu Feng were playing together.

After chatting about a topic, everyone began to feel a little hungry when they arrived at the meal. At first, everyone asked the next person, "Do you know where that kid is?"

The smile on my face came to an abrupt end when I said this.

"Pay attention to your expression, pay attention to your expression, who do you show your black face?"

Wen Dan sat down after a glass of wine and whispered in my ear

"What's going on with this Xiao Xuan, I haven't come here for a long time to pick up my girlfriend. Everybody's hungry. Mr. Qiu, I let the food be served first, I can go home on time to apply the mask in the evening, we are old, we can't compare with these young beauties, don't be weird," Sister Bing said as she picked up the menu next to her

"Sister Bing, go up, go up, this blockage, I don't know when that grandson will arrive"

"Yu Tian called and asked, but don't rush people. It is still necessary to be safe when driving at night"

After Qiu Qingye finished speaking, he put some side dishes on my plate. Ask me if I'm hungry.

I forced a smile at the corner of his mouth and shook my head. Watching several people on the table take out their phones and press the keyboard, my whole heart began to rise again. I always feel like a few of them put down their phones, Xiao?? Here it is.

"Kiyono, you leave her alone. She must not be hungry now, but she should be thirsty. I guess what she needs most now is to drink a bottle of Jiang Xiaobai."

Wen Dan put down the bottle of Jiang Xiaobai heavily in front of me.

The bottle of wine said "No matter how bad it is today, get drunk and wake up, it's tomorrow"

No matter how bad it is today. How bad is that today?

Thinking about it for a while, I opened Jiang Xiaobai and poured it into the cup and drank a cup violently.

Just put down the wine glass and looked up at the window, just in time to see Xiao Ying holding his girlfriend and the two of them walked in talking and laughing.

"This is really a very impactful picture, hold back, Xia Muqing, don't take me to Shanghai in disgrace, but Xiao Ying is really good at seeing real people, no wonder you can never forget it for so many years, today I finally looked at him himself. Tall and thin, with distinct facial features, and good clothes, compared with Qiu Qingye, he is a handsome guy."

"Shut up, you, are you here to help me or are you here to fall into the rock." I vigorously pulled her off and sat her back on the stool

"Xiao 㒎 you grandson, do you know how many people's stomachs you have starved of?"

The fat man and the big tiger are all facing Xiao who came in?? A meal of complaints.

"It's probably you, the hungry one, I'm sorry, everyone, it's really too congested on the weekend, everyone waits for a long time, and I will punish myself with three cups of self-punishment. Just make amends and make amends, I hope you big brothers will let it go. Xiao Yu pulled his girlfriend to sit down after drinking, poured a full glass of wine and handed it to his girlfriend. Looking at Xiao Xuan, who had not changed at all on his face after drinking three cups in a row, he really felt that he had changed too much now. I remember four years ago he only drank beer, and now he drinks so much liquor. Last time, I also drank liquor, and this time I drank it without blinking my eyes.

His girlfriend frowned as she watched him hand over a full glass of liquor, but took it anyway.

"The first time we met, we made everyone wait so long. I'm so embarrassed. My name is Li Yi, and everyone can call me Xiao Yi. Delay everyone's meal time. I'm really sorry, I'm not very good at drinking liquor, so I hope the handsome guys and beauties here don't mind" After speaking, it was like drinking Chinese medicine, and I almost pinched my nose and drank it. After a brief embarrassment at the table. There are still people who come out to lighten the mood.

"Come on, come on, big tiger, I'll make a bottle with you, don't embarrass the Shanghai beauties who can't drink" Wen Dan opened a bottle as soon as Li Yi's words fell, and Jiang Xiaobai held it in the middle of the table

"That's it, other people's girlfriends finally came to Shanghai, and if you drink too much, you will delay someone else's work, big tiger, you really don't have the eyesight to see," Wu Feng got up and touched Wen Dan. He patted the big tiger next to him again

"Wu Feng, how experienced you are, of course I don't know as a single dog,?? Brother, I'm sorry for you, brother, I almost ruined your good thing. By the way, I heard Xiao Ying say that you fell in love at first sight, who fell in love with whom first. Dahu pretended to apologize seriously and began to gossip again

"It was I who fell in love with Xiao at first sight, and I took him down with a relentless attack. He still doesn't like me at first? ”

"What, I don't like you? Such a beautiful big girl, Xiao Xuan, you still can't look at it, are you blind?"

"Ahem, ahem, ahem" Everyone was chatting energetically, and I was so angry with their topic that I choked on my trachea and began to cough violently

"I'm sorry, let's eat first, I'll take her to the toilet first" Wen Dan quickly put down his chopsticks and dragged me out of the table

"Be careful," Qiu Qingye explained beside him

Wen Dan pulled me all the way to the toilet. When I got better, her mouth began to break again, "You really want to thank you for this timely cough, you know, I see that when you heard the words of the big tiger, your face turned red, and you looked so jealous that you almost poked someone else's heart with a fork for eating salad."

"Thanks too. I almost choked on the dinner table, and you just watched. You've grown so big, have you ever seen someone choked to death by eating," I turned on the faucet, took some water with my hand, drank two sips, and rinsed my mouth

"Then you should, now that everyone else has a girlfriend, and what they say is what adults should do, except for you. Who else will choke. And it's not Xiao Xiao to be another person today, presumably you yourself will gossip about other people's love process. Young people。。。。。 ”

Seeing that I didn't speak, Wen Dan stopped her chattering and finally remembered to comfort me

"Then what are you going to do now, you have a girlfriend, you can't keep spending it here, right?"

"What can I do, it may be what is meant to be ... I met Qiu Qingye after breaking up.,I didn't know that tendon was the wrong to come to Shanghai and meet Xiao Qing again.,But Xiao .,But Xiao .,Maybe God can't stand it.,Let me see the facts and let me live my own life.。 I lowered my head, turned on the faucet, and splashed my face with cold water

"I'm here, cry if I want to. Then now that the situation is going on, you can be with Qiu Qingye well, he is really the man that many people dream of. And he's so good at taking care of people. Maybe he was just sent to take you from Xiao?? The people who were rescued from this pit"

"Unfortunately, it's not the person I want right now"

Wen Dan wants to say something, Xiao?? 's girlfriend pushed open the door and walked in

"Are you okay, Mu Qing, seeing that you haven't come out for so long, I'll come to see you, do you need help?"

"Thank you, I'm just about to go out" I really didn't know how to get along with this Li Yi, so I walked out of the toilet with a perfunctory remark. I didn't go with her. It's no wonder that when I walked up to them alone, there was something strange in everyone's eyes.

It is true that when a colleague's girlfriend comes to the toilet to see someone who is unwell, if she comes out, even if she doesn't hold each other's hands, she should be three people together, but now I am the only one walking in front. Wen Dan and Li Yi walked behind. Li Yi's face was still dazed.

"Are you okay," Aki Kiyono brought me a glass of warm water

"It's okay, I'm fine"

At the next dinner table, I didn't talk at first, I kept listening, and then I started talking to others while drinking non-stop. It seems that the only way to distract me is to let myself keep chatting. I won't always unconsciously look at Xiao Xuan's side.

Everyone talked from the company's gossip, to the gossip of customers, and to the gossip of the entertainment industry.

"Hey, I remember that Mu Qing's computer desktop seems to be a Korean star. should know more about the Korean entertainment industry than we do, is there any gossip news to talk about" Ou Xin suddenly said.

"That's right. It seems that I am the only one in the whole company, and the computer desktop is placed in the Korean Oba. There's no one else, but I'm not a brain-dead fan, and now I don't chase stars much, so let me be clear, I'm interested in my Oba's talent. He sings, dances, choreographs and choreographs are very powerful, and his appearance is not the kind of little fresh meat. Because the tone is raised.

"Is that still the Oriental garbage pickup you liked in junior high school?"

"Picking up trash?"

"What is picking up garbage, there is also a combination in South Korea called picking up garbage?"

Xiao Xuan suddenly answered. Blinded everyone. I also said something a little blind. The memories that I thought about over and over again in my mind were automatically played again. Seeing that I was about to cry again, I quickly lowered my head and took a few deep breaths to adjust my mood.

"TVXQ, what kind of Oriental garbage pick-up, the ancestor idol of opening up overseas markets. Lin Jia also posted on Weibo a few years ago that she went to see the concert. But it's okay, I've changed idols now. We were both in high school by then. You don't know."

"What are the representative songs, sing them and listen to them, see if we recognize each other, no matter how we do, we still have a certain understanding of Korean fresh meat, watch Korean dramas every day, what Lee Jong Suk. Lee Min Ho, Suzy, I still know each other. Tang Xin and Ou Meili also came over at this time

"That's it

y so

Y," I snorted as I picked up my chopsticks and tapped the glass

"I seem to be a little impressed"

"Girls' Generation, there are definitely men here who know Girls' Generation, they are a company, just that gee gee gee baby baby, kick dancing. I went to Gome to buy a TV and a computer, and I put the combination on it. Big Tiger, Fat Man, Wu Feng, none of you know"

"Ah, I know, Mu Qing, are you talking about the combination with a Chinese named Han Geng?"

"It's still our female compatriots who are more powerful," I walked with Ou Meili with a wine glass

"I know, I know, I know, I know when I was a girl, they are all beauties"

"Look at your disgusting appearance," Tang Xin teased the fat man

"It's pretty nice to hear Mu Qinggang sing two sentences, just right, the restaurant is right today, Mu Qing went up and came up with a song" The fat man coaxed

"Enough, fatty, you've drunk too much again" Qiu Qingye came out in time to stop it

"It's fine. I still have a good singing voice, and it's not so good if it's good. Everybody will talk about it."

Now Chang Wendan pulled me, "Are you drinking too much, you're going to be drunk again."

"I'm going crazy about drinking, I'm going to perform. Entertain everyone"

I spread her hand and walked straight onto the stage. He walked over and asked the guitarist. But there is not a single Korean song that he can play

"Ahem, because the guitarist didn't find a Korean song that I could sing in my head, then I would just sing an old Cantonese song, and I would sing it together, so as not to be too embarrassed for me to sing out of tune."

"Good, good, good," my colleague from Nodo Studio took the lead in responding to me. There were other people eating at this restaurant, and for me to suddenly go on stage like this. Everyone also put down the dishes and chopsticks and turned their eyes to me

"Come on, Mu Qing. Come on" colleagues coaxed below, and Qiu Qingye also stood up and raised his hand above his head and gave a thumbs up. The whole Yedu studio also applauded me, and the people next to me saw this scene, and they all put down their chopsticks and looked at me on the stage, I took a deep breath, and with the help of alcohol, the lights of the whole restaurant dimmed. I dared to look in the direction of Xiao Xuan. Xiao Ying sat by the window, and the outside light shone on his face. Looming. And he's looking at me right now

I still remember the door number of the hotel that day

still retained the demeanor of leaving with a smile

The whole city was so brisk that day

Walk along the road for half a mile

I still remember that the street lamps shone yellow

It also lit up the lukewarm lunch

The silhouette of your silhouette is too good-looking

Hold back your tears before you dare to take a closer look

Forgetting heaven and earth is as if you can't remember yourself

I still haven't forgotten to meet to see the yellow leaves flying far away

Even if it will be separated from you, the sad play

If you are determined to forget, I will not remember

Tomorrow I am afraid that I will not recognize myself

I haven't forgotten to make a promise with you if I didn't die

Even if your big chest is no match for the weather

You can be recognized by both sideburns

When I got back to the dorm that night, I washed up early and lay down in bed. Until Wen Dan finished washing up and lay down, I didn't hear the sound of Xiao Yu closing the door. I know that Xiao Ying will go out to eat every night after work. Or go to the supermarket. I always come back early, and then I can only fall asleep after washing up and listening to Xiao Yu close the door. But today, I have been waiting for more than an hour to come back, and there is still no sound outside the door.

Wen Dan sat down on the bed and dragged me out of bed

"Why do you come back and lie on the bed and don't move, pretend to be dead, you"

"Drink too much, dizzy"

"Don't lie to me, wait for the door"

"You know you're still asking me," I was ready to fall down again

"What are you doing, what are you doing, I'm leaving tomorrow, get up and chat, oh my God, save me from going back to Chongqing, you always call and harass me"

"Okay, let's talk. What do you want to talk about? I picked up the pillow and put it on the head of the bed and leaned against it to look at her

Sitting on the bed with Wen Dan, she asked me why I sang this song in the end, and I opened my phone and flipped out a photo from four or five years ago in the album and said

"We've traveled a bit in Wuxi before. That's the scene in this photo. I think it's like the lyrics, the street lights shine yellow. The silhouette of your silhouette is too good-looking. After listening to it countless times, you can sing it, so you must sing it to the person who wants to sing it. ”

"Mu Qing, it's been so long. Have you seriously thought about what your feelings for Xiao Xuan are now, is it regret or love? After all, you've been on the blank for too long. A lot can happen in four or five years. The people you come into contact with are different, things are different, and your personality will change, you ask yourself, do you know him about the current Xiao Ling? Do you know what he likes, what are his usual habits, what are his hobbies, he may not be the Xiao I you knew when you were a student, and you may not love him for a long time, but you just regretted not completing it at the time, or he didn't give you the answer to blame your heart"

"So what do you think love is, or what are the manifestations of your love for someone"

"I'll talk about your question again, why are you asking me"

"You answer first, be comprehensive"

"If I love someone, it's like a normal person. I think about him every day, and I would be happy to see him. If you can't see it, you will always think about it. When I see a movie, the touching plot in the TV series will be the first thing that comes to mind, and I will want to buy him if it is delicious, fun and useful. Will worry about his safety and will want to take care of him. I would like to wake up every morning and the first thing I see is him. Will want to be with him every day. I want to see the world with him. I feel happy in everything I do with him. The most important thing is that in addition to this life, I still want to be with him in the next life. That's about it. ”

"What you said, all I think of is him, so do you say that I am in love or regret for him"

"But you have to think about a realistic question. After all, you haven't gotten along for so many years, and he's going to change, and now although you work in the same company, you don't have regular contact. Are you sure you know what kind of person he is eight or nine years later, and you love him as much as you think now? “

"I'm tired, I don't want to think about it so much, and it doesn't make sense to say it now, he has a girlfriend"

"yes. Everyone else has a girlfriend, and you can't dig into someone's corner, besides, you are not an important role in his heart, and you may not be able to dig a small piece of soil even if you want to dig up the hoe and use all your strength."

"Hmm"

"So what are you going to do? Continue to stay in Shanghai, or continue to wait for him"

"You also said that I don't have so many five years in my life. One day, I found an opportunity to ask him, and when I got the answer, I went back to Chongqing. I don't want to and won't use Akikino as a spare tire. ”

"It's that simple, but can you even make up your mind to forget? If I had forgotten it, I wouldn't have had the next eight or nine years."

"What can I do if I don't forget, do you still expect Xiao Xiaoxiao to be like the male protagonist in the TV series, so now find a fake girlfriend to be angry with me, he~ Let's accept the reality. It's not a kid anymore. The real world is love, and love is no match at first sight. It's okay, just give me a little time."

Wendan hugged me all at once. "If you want to cry, you can cry, you are like this, I can't rest assured that I will leave tomorrow, or I will go back to Chongqing to apply for a Shanghai branch store, I will come to work, I will accompany you through this time"

"Sleep," I smiled at her. Take the pillow off behind you. He lay back on the bed and reached out to turn off the light.

Usually I don't dare to turn off the lights and sleep alone. The harsh lights always make it hard for me to sleep. But today Wendan came and turned off the lights, and I still couldn't get a good night's sleep. After turning off the light, tears flowed from the eye socket to the bridge of the nose to the other eye like an endless river, and a large piece of the pillow was wet when it flowed out. I can't even remember when I cried until I fell asleep

The next day, Kiyono took me to drive Wendan to the airport. My eyes were swollen into the big European eyes that I always wanted to cut. Before leaving, I held up my mobile phone and said to Wen Dan, I am beautiful today, let's take a few more selfies.

But Wen Dan, who usually loves to laugh, didn't show me a smile. She hugged me and whispered in my ear

"I know it's going to be a tough thing for you. Call me anytime you need to, even if Akikino doesn't buy me a ticket, I'll definitely come to see you."

I was amused by her words, and sometimes, even though she was older than me, would always make me happy like a child when I was sad and sad. I hugged Wen Dan hard.

"Don't worry. I'll take good care of her, let's go, if I don't leave, I won't be able to catch the plane" Qiu Qingye handed the luggage to Wen Dan. After watching Wendan go through security, we turned around and left the airport.

Qiu Qingye drove and found a vacant lot and parked the car. I looked out the window of the car at him, on the road. What is this for?

"Come out and sit down," he opened the door for me.

I don't know when he actually went to buy two cups of coffee when he was free. I held my coffee and watched the planes in the sky. Don't speak.

At this time, Qiu Qingye put on another song. It wasn't jazz, he put on a ballad. Song Dongye's Anhe Bridge.

"Isn't your mood now like the planes you see in the sky at the moment, you don't know which direction the plane is going, and your heart can't find the direction"

"Has anyone ever told you that you are like a roundworm?"

He smiled. Listening to the song next to me, he shook his body to the rhythm and replied, "Then I should be a very good insect in the insect body."

"You're not funny with this joke"

"Drink less alcohol in the future, it hurts your stomach, and you drink less coffee"

"Is that really going to be so hello goodbye"

"If you really want to choose goodbye, of course you can"

I put down my coffee and stood up with my back to Aki Kiyono. He said as he looked at the planes in the sky

"I often ask myself why I can't forget him. But I don't dare admit that I don't want to forget it in my heart. The first time I listened to Song Dongye's song was recommended to me by him, and when I was eighteen or nineteen years old, I was still chasing stars, and almost all of my songs were Korean songs, and I rarely even listened to Chinese songs. Not to mention these kinds of ballads. I remember if it should be 12 or 13. He shared Song Dongye's Miss Dong with me, and now that I think about it, it was really too long ago, so long that I forgot about it. I can't remember why he shared it with me, so many things I wanted to try to remember were obscured more and more as time went by. I have to remind myself to think about it so I don't forget. When I first listened to that song, it didn't seem to be a big hit, and when the song was downloaded and listened to by various friends around me. I can't find him anymore. I hadn't even had time to talk to him about the song, and I never knew the story. I only listened to the one sentence in the song, you are not a female classmate without a story. But until the end, I didn't have the courage to ask him if I was a special female classmate for him, nor did I ask him why he wanted to share this song with me because he had so many songs. I'm just so cowardly and cowardly, Wen Dan is right. After he disappeared. This question has always been on my mind. I think about it every day and every night. Then I followed my friend and threw myself into the bar for three or four months, drinking day after day, all night. I drink and vomit every day. The little things I ate during the day would vomit at night when I drank alcohol, and I continued to drink when I vomited. I drank so much that my stomach hurt, and I was going to get myself drunk. During that time, I couldn't walk steadily. I can't figure out what I'm doing wrong and he's going to disappear. I only drank too much so that I didn't wonder why he disappeared all of a sudden, so I didn't cry, and I could sleep peacefully. You can also sleep. I thought it was just that the parting came too suddenly and I couldn't accept it, and it would be fine after a while, but the next six months, one year, two years, three years. It's been more than four years now. I still can't forget him. I asked myself if it was love or regret. That voice in my heart said it was love. So no matter how many people tell me Xia Mu, please don't wait, you just regret him, and I won't admit it. There are really people in this world who love only one person in their life. It's just that it hasn't happened to them yet, so they don't know and don't believe it. But I didn't fall in love for him. On the contrary, I worked hard to fall in love and live a very hard life. They said that if I could like a second person, it would prove that I didn't love him anymore. Don't be obsessed with him. But how can love and love be compared. I'm not the kind of person who can never be in love for the rest of my life for the sake of a person, I'm not so infatuated, and I also need love. It's just that I still think of him uncontrollably, when I see the KFC I ate with him across the street from my house, at the gate of the community that I have to pass every day when I go home. At the bus stop where he used to wait for me. When I saw someone as tall as his back, I saw a TV series about the campus. Hearing a love song. In the middle of the night, I saw on Weibo that the person you miss the most at the moment. He felt like he had taken root in my heart. As long as I pull it out, my whole heart will move with it, and I can't bear it. I knew that the only thing I could do was to put him somewhere in my heart, live with it, not be able to touch him, every year I would call him from a different number, but when it got through, I didn't have the courage to speak. I'm afraid that as soon as I open my mouth, the phone will be hung up again. Every year on his birthday. I'll always say happy birthday to the previous photo of us. I would find an unfamiliar number to send him a happy birthday as well, and I asked myself how many years I had to remember him. I asked myself the answer for several years, but none of them answered. Until yesterday. Seeing him with his girlfriend, I can't describe the emotions in my heart。。。。。 I really can't say that I wish you happiness," I crouched down and bowed my head

"Isn't everything still here?"

"I'm so grateful to you, I'm grateful for everything you've done to me, but I really can't help it right now. I can't, at least not yet. I've got to get over this, you know. I can't give you anything in return."

I didn't cry, but I was a little emotional. It wasn't until he saw that I had calmed down that he said, "No need, look at me, I have money, I have a career, I still have ability, what can you give me back." You don't need anything, I'll accompany you, just like the infatuated male number two in the TV series, until you find happiness, or fall in love with me, hahaha. Unexpectedly, one day, I, Qiu Qingye, also used the lines in the TV series, "Qiu Qingye is still smiling." He was always smiling at me

"I think meeting you is like watching a good TV series. But I know these are unrealistic... I've always wanted to ask you, why?"

"Because there is love, you don't need to be special because of anything, I just recognized it at the first sight of you, and besides, don't you still hold on, why should I give up" He turned his head and looked at me with a firm look in his eyes. I was a little uncomfortable watching it. I turned my head and didn't dare to look at him. Said softly

"Thank you, thank you so much, at this time, you can show up"

"You've said too many thanks, let's go. It's been a morning," I said, looking at the calm sky again. Turned around and got into the car

"Now listen to the song, blow the wind, isn't it much better to say it" In the car, Qiu Qingye opened his mouth again.

"Wen Dan told you."

"I'm sorry, I wanted to give you enough space, but she said she wasn't at ease, let me persuade you"

"It's okay, you're also kind, but it's much more comfortable to say, in fact, my first impression of you is that you are a very mature person. But I didn't expect you to be very funny. ”

"I'm 30 years old, so I really look like an old man. Doesn't everyone like funny souls now? ”

I didn't know how to answer, and I didn't answer.

"The needs of the job, it is true that I have to have a mature and stable work image to build a sense of trust among my clients. But in private, I will also go to Weibo, I will also watch cold jokes, I will also tell jokes, and I also have all kinds of hobbies, I also think that successful men do not necessarily need suits and leather shoes, and the boss who wears casual clothes is not the boss? Can't you succeed, wearing a suit every day really doesn't make me feel at ease in casual clothes, but it makes people very constrained."

"Actually, I've been looking forward to having a work environment like this, but most of the bosses I've met are more like slavery."

"A man's life is so long. I can do what I want to do in time, be a little happier, and think about it when I get old, I will feel more happy in this life."

For Qiu Qingye, as he said, the most I say is gratitude, and all I can say is thanks. It was he who pulled me into the car when I was lonely and helpless. And quickly carried me away from the sorrow that was about to consume me. At this time, I remembered Chen Sheng. If I had met him later, when we were more mature with each other, wouldn't that be the case? Unfortunately, life is a fast-moving train without ifs. It will not stop for a long time to think about which track we should choose in front of us, nor will it go back.

When I arrived at the company, Qiu Qingye did not go directly to the office on the fifth floor. Instead, it took me to the third floor.

I rarely come to the ground floor when I see the same location, the same office. I looked at him with some confusion.

"Actually, this is my office, and the one on the fifth floor is my brother's. Now, I feel like I can try to move down, I still prefer to work with these monkeys, and when everyone has a spark, you can touch it at any time" I glanced at Xiao and the others, everyone is working hard for life. And what reason do I have now to care about those children's affections, and let life be twisted and twisted? I sighed and looked at him, "What do you want me to say?"

"I want you to say, I'm

eady，I’m fi

e”

“ok”

And so the days of working in the three-story office building began. It's like my life is being fast-forwarded. Many things that I thought would take a long time to accept didn't come to me one by one as I thought. In fact, they have long been piled up. It pressed on me. If I run away, the weight on my back will get heavier and heavier. Until it crushes me. So I had to try to start bravely trying to make peace with them and deal with them. In the early days, I sometimes avoided Xiao Xuan. He didn't come to provoke me, and we went about our own lives. Wendan would also send me a message asking how I was doing. Akikino no longer shouts other people's names every day to say good morning, but cheers everyone on every day. I know he's not just cheering others on, he's cheering me on as well. In the third month after I came to Shanghai, I finally started to do some simple copywriting about design and online promotion. But it's more about the execution of activities. Follow Aki Kiyono. He can always be driven by a great passion for work. Every day I wake up feeling that the day is rich, happy, and meaningful, and I even feel that eight hours of work is not enough. For the first time, I felt the way life should be. I'm not looking at Weibo's Chicken Soup for the Soul. On Weibo, I will care more about my Oba's news, and my computer desktop is still my Oba. I didn't change my habit of liking Korean stars because of the prejudice of the public.

After the mentality is good, I don't think it's boring to commute to and go back to the dorm. I got into the habit of drinking a cup of coffee every day. But there will always be milk put by Aki Kiyono next to it. He would always say that he should drink less coffee, which hurts his stomach. However, I prefer the original aroma and taste of coffee. I started to get into the habit of reading books every night before I went to bed. I have more and more books at my bedside. That was until I had to take the time to go to IKEA and buy a simple bookcase to put at the head of the bed. I started to get into the habit of running in the morning and walking in the evening. I slowly began to learn to cook. Occasionally, I would go to the supermarket after work to buy something I wanted to eat, and invite colleagues or Aki Kiyono to come to my house for dinner after work, and I began to keep my room more and more organized. I started to memorize the hard words in English. I turned on my computer and there were more and more files on my desktop. No more empty desktops. In the third month of coming to Shanghai. I was finally able to muster up the courage to say good morning to Xiao Yu, who passed by every time. Akikiyono gave me a thumbs up. He asked me if everything wasn't as hard as I thought. After taking the first step, I was able to walk in with a cup of coffee and join the discussion while everyone was discussing work over coffee in the pantry, instead of just communicating on WeChat as before. I started going to the cafeteria alone. Occasionally, I will run into Xiao Xiao, and I can just nod my head to say hello. I have more times when I go to and from work, and I meet Xiao Ying after closing the door to greet each other. Xiao and I even collaborated together on a design copy. I met at the supermarket after working overtime, and I went shopping alone with him. I was amazed at these changes in me. But I still can't tell how I feel for him in my heart. But I knew I wasn't really focused on work. It's just that I finally found the right direction in life. Although my parents would call from time to time to ask if they had found a partner in Shanghai. Fortunately, Wen Dan, that guy still had righteousness under my repeated coercion and temptation, and didn't tell my mother that Qiu Qingye existed. Wen Dan's transfer to Shanghai also began to be implemented gradually, and I began to love life more. When the weather is nice, I can also take a sightseeing bus on the Bund to explore Shanghai on my own. The loneliness that once scared me, now I can enjoy it. I think it's a particularly rewarding thing, the only thing is that I don't dare to turn off the lights when I go to bed at night. I still don't feel a little safe in my heart. But I'm getting stronger. I think it's a good thing. It's a little slower, though. But that's okay, at least things are getting better. Occasionally, Xiao Yu's girlfriend would come to Shanghai to see him. After coming to the office a few times, I also added WeChat with Li Yi, and we made an appointment to visit the mall together. But I still deliberately kept a distance from Xiao Xiao.

Once, while eating, Aki Kiyono asked me.

"Are you satisfied with yourself now?"

I laughed and didn't say anything.

He said, "There is really a lot of beauty in life waiting for you to discover".