Chapter 46: Exposed Memories (2)

"Woo whoa, a!!a

Hearing a sudden scream from upstairs, Kirito was taken aback, and the cup in his hand involuntarily fell to the ground.

Judging by his tone, it didn't take long for him to realize Shino sleeping on the second floor, but Kirito turned his face to the stairs leading to the second floor of the wooden house.

"The voice just now was Shino!?"

"What else is there but Shino! Shino must have had an accident, hurry up! “

Kirito nodded, carrying Rylan on his shoulders and running up the stairs. Normally I don't make too much noise when I climb the stairs, but if something happens to Shino, I don't have to worry so much, and most importantly, I don't feel that way.

After climbing the stairs and kicking open the bedroom door, I found Shino screaming and convulsing on the bed at the back of the room. Kirito was taken aback and ran to Shino's side and shouted.

"Shina, Shina, what's wrong Shina!?"

Shiina, instead of responding to Kirito's call, repeatedly raised her voice, flapped her legs, covered her eyes with her hands, and grabbed her hair and pulled. Seeing Shino's never-before-seen movements, Kirito, although confused, continued to call.

"Shino, Shino!"

It is unknown if the blow to his head caused some kind of disturbance in his consciousness. No, it's not. It is true that they may have received an electric shock, but there have been no reports of mental abnormalities such as losing consciousness or going crazy due to the impact of the boss monster attack, and there have been reports of people passing out after being attacked. I've never seen anything like this before.

"How the hell did Shino do it? Shino was just sleeping, why did this happen? "The re-run resounded in my head again, and my brain became a mess.

"Kirito, stop Shino! Give me a chance to touch the word! “

"Partition!? Why Partition!? ”

"It's okay to stop Shino! So let me go to this part! “

Kirito didn't know what was going on, and stretched out his arm to hug Shino's writhing body. Shino's trembling leg hit her arm, and Kirito realized that it wasn't easy, and hurriedly hugged Shino's body to hold it in place. Then, get him to stand up and signal back to run.

"Rerun, is that okay!?"

"Thumbs up!"

Lilan ran behind Shino from Kirito, aimed at Shino's passage, and took a bite. Although the dragon's teeth were small, the sharp teeth easily bit into the girl's head.

Immediately after, Shino's screams and rage stopped, and finally even the action stopped. Kirito shuddered and shouted to Shino, who was motionless like a doll with a broken thread.

"Shino?"

Shino slowly raised her head as if she was responding to Kirito's call. However, Kirito's expression was a little empty and tired, and Kirito took a deep breath.

Just as Kirito was about to speak, Shino opened her mouth slightly and made a faint sound.

"Kiri arrived?"

"Ah, yes. I raised my voice and panicked, so I was startled and flew away. ”

Kirito let go of Shino's body. In fact, she would be drenched with sweat, but Shino's face seemed to turn pale with it.

"Shiina, are you alright?

That's when Kirito remembered.

That's right, in the battle with the werewolf, Shino grabbed the werewolf's weakness alone, and continued to attack as if one person could defeat the boss, forgetting to switch with Asuna and blasting the gap with his sword skills, he was attacked by the werewolf and fainted.

This kind of vigilance and sacrifice of life is really outrageous in the death game of "Sword Art Online". I'll have to ask him why he did it.

"Yes, Shino. I'm sorry to wake you up, but why would you make such a move? For example, you attack alone, and you continue to fight alone, and then you are seriously injured and pass out. “

Shino just lowered her head and didn't say anything. To be precise, he seemed to be staring at Kirito's abdomen, but his eyes did not reflect Kirito's body.

So far, through contact with Shino, I have found that Shino tries to look at her face when she speaks seriously, but Shino doesn't do that now.

In other words, it was an indication that he had no intention of answering Kirito's question. However, even if Shino is the way it is now, Kirito doesn't think Shino is careless.

The sparkle in Shino's glowing black eyes was gone. Kirito asked, tilting his head when he noticed that the situation was significantly different from usual.

"Shina, what's wrong? Do you have any questions? Any questions? “

"I remember I took it out and everything I remembered"

"Pictures?"

Ever since Shino came to SAO, she has been unable to recall important things due to her lack of memory. No, I was able to remember, but even if I did, I would immediately forget, and even if I did, I would forget, I would repeat things like this endlessly, and in the end I would not be able to recover my memory at all.

Shino said that remembering, which means that the memory that was about to be recovered has finally returned to Shina's body.

"Is that so? Do you remember? Is it the shock of being attacked by a boss monster? ”

"Maybe"

"yes. Then you're in luck. By the way, Shino, can you talk about this? “

Shino's eyes widened suddenly, and her body began to move. Then the expression changed to as if he was afraid of something.

"Shiina, what's wrong? Have such bad memories? “

Shino bowed her head, bowed her head. Kirito was about to talk to Shino again, but Shino said something nice.

"I'm sorry Kirito, I'm still not feeling well, can you let me take a break?"

Shino's pale expression was enough to tell Kirito that she wasn't feeling well. Kirito nodded unconsciously, because it was a little uncomfortable talking to Shino, because Shino was pale and her eyes were terrifyingly hollow, which he had never seen before.

"I see, Shino. Sorry for making you too reluctant. Do you have anything you want? If there is, I'll bring it to you"

Shino didn't turn to face Kirito, but crouched down and shook her head, making a muffled voice.

"Let me take a break"

"Okay, you go and rest."

After saying that, Kirito got out of bed, and Shino lay down on the bed again, covering her whole body with the quilt, and remained motionless.

Kirito couldn't help but worry about Shino's situation, so he thought of staying in this room, but reluctantly agreed when Rylan suggested that he leave. Lilan and I crept down the stairs to the first floor.

It was already past six o'clock in the afternoon, and it was supposed to be the time for Shino to prepare dinner, but Shino was already resting, so she didn't prepare dinner.

But Kirito's mind is already full of things about Shino, and he doesn't care about dinner anymore.

Shino's face just now was very unusual. It was as if he remembered something he didn't want to remember, and it was as if he remembered nothing but despair.

To be honest, I can't help but wonder why he has such a face, or what is the memory that makes Shino like this, I don't want to talk anymore.

Although he realizes that he wants to know, Kirito's curiosity has subsided, because he wants Shino to rest and leave Shino alone.

"But what is that?"

"What is it?"

"It's Shino's memory. Shino asks her to regain her memory. “

"Of course. He may still remember the good memories, but the bad ones may be erased. Even if he wanted to, as long as he was presented with desperate memories, I am afraid he could bear it. Sure enough, I didn't know what I remembered. “

"I'm sure you've recovered a very painful memory, though, but I don't know, I'd love to know, but right now I don't want to talk to Shino."

Ruirang sat quietly on Kirito's shoulder and looked up. That's where the bedroom is on the second floor.

"In short, poetry is the one who feels the most pain because of the sudden regain of memory and the possession of those painful memories. Let the poetry be as you like now. The interior of this house is within range, so my HP doesn't decrease, so it's safe. ”

Kirito nodded, looking at the ceiling as well.

"I'll leave Shino alone for the rest of the day." It doesn't change when you sleep at night. Kirito thought that Shino would have the rest of the day to monopolize this room, and then they slept in this room.

Even in this room, there is a sofa that can be used as a bed, and you can take out a blanket by opening the window of the object, so you don't have to worry about catching a cold.

"How about I just sleep here for dinner tonight?"

"I can't go to the city to eat. It is dangerous to leave a poem. “

Kirito agreed. Even if Shino is left at home, it is dangerous to leave her alone in this house. I have to have dinner here.

Kirito immediately opened the item window and further opened the materials tab to sort. Seeing the aroma of the grilled fish, Kirito nodded.

"yes, let's have grilled fish for dinner. If it's a barbecue, I can do it too, and you won't hate it. ”

"Is this a brown fish? Not bad. It might be a good idea to sprinkle some salt when grilling. “

"Sure enough, I won't eat it raw. What should Shi Nai do? “

Rylan turned to face the second floor again, but his face immediately darkened.

"Maybe I should have prepared, but just looking at the way she looks, I don't think she has an appetite. Even if I forced him to eat it, he would probably vomit like this.

"It's true that Shino looks a lot like she looked when she had a cold." No, I didn't think he had a cold, but even Kirito knew he had no appetite anymore.

"Well, I'm going to prepare dinner first.

Shouldn't I want to eat it, it will come down from you. ”

"Then you can do it. Shino tries to do everything herself, so when she needs food, she will do it herself. “

"I see. Now, I have to make sure Shino doesn't push herself too hard. Even if I said that, I don't think she would just go down. “

Lilan turned her gaze to the second floor again, a sad expression on her face.

"You should check it out before you go to bed. Maybe it didn't happen, but I'm still worried about whether she hasn't changed.

"I agree.

After saying that, Kirito summoned the two large freshwater fish ingredients on the table, and then summoned the salt he purchased according to Shiina's request for the production of freshwater fish, and then called the cooking instructions to heat and select.

Immediately afterward, the fish in the river seemed to spontaneously combust, engulfed in the fire, and the fire was extinguished. The raw river fish turns into grilled fish with a fragrant aroma and a golden surface.

With Kirito's cooking, he can probably make so much, but if it is a higher-grade ingredient, he will fail, and in the end it will be charred meat and charred fish. So, that's the limit of what Kirito can cook.

Rerune said to Kirito with a look of uncertainty.

"Well, didn't it cook well?"

"That's the limit of my cooking. If you want to eat more delicious, you'll have to ask Shino or Asuna. “

"I don't care. Then come now. “

Kirito nodded, grabbed the stick stuck in the grilled fish, and brought the grilled fish to his mouth. After speaking, Liran bit the grilled fish and ate it without saying a word. It looks more like a dog than a wolf dragon.

The laughter buried in the stomach disappeared in the blink of an eye, and I was moved by the aroma of grilled fish and the taste of salt mixed with fish fat.

The two of them ate with relish, and in just a few minutes, only the head and backbone of the grilled fish remained, and it didn't take long for it to turn into a pale blue figure, turn into polygonal fragments, and quietly disappear. After eating dinner in such a short time, Kirito felt a little regretful and smiled bitterly.

"Sure enough, unlike the dish made by Shino and Asuna, it ended quickly."

"No way"

Kirito, on the other hand, doesn't care much about cooking. Because I can't help but worry about Shino, she may still be sleeping, or she may be awake, but she can't move just after eating. Lilan seemed to immediately notice that Kirito's attention was not focused on Shino, but towards Shino's side, so she shouted at him.

"Are you worried about Shino?"

"Yes.

"Do you want to check it out? Do not make noise

Kirito nodded, stood up, carried Rayren on his shoulders, put his feet on the stairs connecting the living room on the first and second floors, relaxed his body so as not to make a sound, and walked up step by step. Then I got to the front of the bedroom where Shino was, and I opened the door to check inside, trying not to make a sound.

The room was darker than before, but the moonlight shone through the window, staining it pale, and the silence around it was like a forest.

At this moment, Kirito looked around for Shino, only to find that the futon on the bed that Shino usually used was rising, and realized that Shino had not changed anything since then.

At this point, I suspected that the futon might be stuffed with stuff and it looked like someone was hiding, but when the enemy search skill was activated, the player's reaction returned, so I knew that wasn't the case.

(No need to look for it)

Kirito quietly closed the door and walked down the stairs with the smallest steps possible back to the living room. Then Rylan got off his shoulders and sat down in his chair.

"Shino seems to have fallen asleep like this"

"yes, but I'm really worried. Screaming, pulling your hair, slapping your legs like that, it's a sign that you've seen something horrible. If you go to bed like that, you're going to have that dream again. "Hands"

"Maybe so, but I can't say. We'll call again tomorrow morning to try it. Maybe it's better than it is now, or it may be worse, but no matter what, Shino will continue to suffer. I've got to figure out a way to fix it. ”

I thought I had seen Shino suffer a little, but it was the first time I had seen her suffer so intensely. The fact that Shino, who has always been calm, has become like this, which means that something unusual has happened in her heart.

It's not a good thing that Shino continues to suffer like this, and more importantly, I feel a tightness in my chest as I watch this scene.

"Anyway, I'll have to listen to Shino and come up with a solution." Kirito didn't want to know Shino's memories, but wanted to do something for Shino's affairs and alleviate her pain.

However, Kirito thinks the question is when to ask. Ah, it seems that Shino is a tight-lipped person, and she also has a stubborn side, and she insists on what she thinks she can do.

"So it's extremely difficult to listen to Shino's mouth and listen to her memories." Originally, Shino probably wouldn't have said it even if she wanted to know.

"I don't know what to do. You can also see Shino's stubbornness, and it must be difficult to get him to say what he is holding in his hand. “

"Then leave it to me. I'd love to say it, but he's in the right state as you can see it. Even I had a hard time figuring it out myself. But in the end, his heart must be healed.

"Healing the heart?"

Rerune looked at Kirito in surprise.

"Didn't you notice? Now Shino is seriously injured. When I recall the memory, I was left with a deep wound in my heart, and there is no scar left until now. That's why they reacted like this and tried to run away from us.

"No, no, I understand. You screamed when we left because you were hurt. I released the Faith of the Heart Fence, but it was certainly different from Asuna's time. “

"That's it. This time it's different from Asuna, I'm afraid it's not something I can handle alone. So, this time, Kirito, we may be able to borrow your power.

Kirito stared blankly at Rilan's red eyes. I don't have the special gift of opening people's hearts like Lilan, and I don't have the ability to negotiate.

"My power?

Lilan sighed, an annoyed look on her face. Although it is supposed to be a werewolf, its movements and facial expressions are very similar to those of humans.

"You don't know anything." You are someone that Shino trusts very much. It is also the only person who can open his heart to poetry. “

"Is Shino the one who opened her heart to me am?

"Why did Shino tell you about her memories? Why do you cook almost all three meals? It's all because I opened my heart to you

Kirito was taken aback and remembered Shino's actions. Shiina, who sometimes said something nasty, but when she regained her memory, she still said that she wanted to talk to me and cooked me three meals. Considering Shino's open-heartedness, I somehow believed it, and I also understood why the days spent with Shino were happy and warm.

Because Shino opened up to me, the days I spent with Shino seemed brighter than every day I spent in Ayn Grant, and I felt comfortable that I wanted to protect Shiina, and I was there.

"Is that so, so I"

Rylan sighed, with a calm expression, as if he had understood what Kirito had long understood.

"So, you're the key to Shino's recovery, Kirito. First, I'll roll out my method, but it probably won't work like Asuna. “

"That's what I do. Shino is really an important person to me. I don't want to see the people who are important to me suffer like that. I have to support Shino. “

"That's it. I'll finish entering tomorrow, Kirito, come on.

However, at this time, Kirito suddenly couldn't understand Reiran's idea of approaching Shino.

Lilan is really good at listening to people's situations. However, I want to find out the truth from Shino, not from Lilan.

I don't know if it's because I've heard I'm the most open person, but I can't accept that Lilan would do that.

"Lilan, can you let me start from scratch?"

Kirito's unexpected words made Ralan's eyes widen and he let out a voice of surprise.

"What are you talking about? Is it possible, such a thing?

"I don't know. However, although Shino opened her heart to me, I still did not thank her. I will find out the truth from Shino, understand the real Shino, and accept her. I guess that's a good option as well. "To thank poetry for all that I have done."

Kirito placed his hands on Rairen's small shoulders, who were sitting in the chair.

"Then, Lilan, please let me come."

Lilan didn't say anything, stared at Kirito's warm eyes, and nodded.

"Understood. I'll leave it to you, though, if Shino rejects you, then I'll take over. Never mind. ”

"I don't care"

"Understood. Try to approach Shino from your side. “

Kirito nodded, smiling like Lilan.

"Thank you, Lilan. I owe you a favor. ”

"Well, you're such a troublesome host"

Kirito smiled bitterly and nodded the demon's head.

"I'm sorry, but I'm an animal trainer who is cared for by a demon pet."

As soon as the words fell, Kirito suddenly felt dizzy and felt his consciousness retreat a little. Is this drowsiness?

"Indeed, I've exhausted my brain for today's boss fight." I've been thinking about Shino and something like that since then, so I guess there will be strong opposition.

"It's only seven o'clock, should I go to bed now?"

"Yes. You and I have fought hard. You should rest. ”

"Kirito sleeps on the second floor."

I turned my face to Shino, whispered "good night", and then lay down on the couch and pulled out the blanket from the window and covered it.

I tapped on the couch to open the pop-up menu, pressed the lights-out button to turn off the lights in the room, said goodnight to Liland, and closed my eyes. And it didn't take long for him to fall asleep.

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"When I woke up, it was pitch black and I couldn't see anything." I felt strangely warm, and it looked like I was falling asleep wrapped in a quilt.

When I rolled up the futon to check the surroundings, I found that it was the permanent bedroom on the second floor of the wooden house where Kirito and I lived. There was no light, so it was dark, but the moonlight shone in through the window. I looked at the time, and it was already 11:00 p.m. I thought I was waking up at a strange time.

Then, when my consciousness became clear, the lost memories immediately spread to my entire head, the memories of hatred.

Memories tell me that I am a murderer, and the evidence shows that I should not be with anyone, proving that I have nowhere to belong.

"I have to stay here"

I got up and got out of bed. I checked the bed that Kirito used a lot in the neighborhood, but I didn't see Kirito. I don't know if she doesn't like sharing a room with me, so she went somewhere else.

"But it's just right." If you're out there somewhere, you can leave the house without being detected. However, it would be too bad if I left without doing anything. Should I write something?

No, I don't think there's any need for such a thing, you probably don't want to hear from me, and you probably don't want to see my letters written with blood on my hands.

"Hurry up, let's go out before they find out"

I was startled when I left the room without a sound and went downstairs without a sound. On the sofa in the living room, Kirito and Lilan fell asleep covered with a blanket. After all, she doesn't like to be with me, that's why she sleeps in this kind of place. You know, you don't want to sleep with a murderer.

"But these two people did help me." Even when I lost my memory, Kiritto always protected me, and Reirun listened to many of my stories and said that the food was delicious and I ate it.

"But that's over." If they knew my memory, maybe these two would have left. Even Kirito will hate me, hate me, and no longer protect me. No, just stop now. After all, I won't run into these two again.

Kirito and Rerune's memories, as well as the memories of murder, mingled up in his mind. I don't even know what I'm thinking anymore. If everyone hates me like this, wouldn't it be better to live with my head broken and my hands covered in blood

"I'm sorry Kirito. I'll go first. “

I said goodbye to the man and the dragon I would never see again, and left the wooden house from which I would never return.

"If you want to go, why don't you go to the front?" If you are on the front line, the enemy will be stronger. No, I still prefer the 53rd floor. There are a lot of werewolves on the 53rd floor.

"Well, anywhere, but I've decided." Let's go to the 53rd floor.

The sound of doors opening and closing woke Lilan. I didn't know who was coming, I looked around, but I didn't see the person who was supposed to come in.

Then I thought Kirito might have left, so I went to look for him and found him sleeping on the couch.

“WHO?“

With a sense of foreboding, Ruilan uses her search skills to determine if there is any trace of Shino in the cabin.

- There is no trace of Shino in the wooden house, and it can be confirmed from a long distance.

"Poetry is !!"