"Why do you care about me?" Jiang Ningyu asked rhetorically.

"I care about you." Lu Li said, "Seeing that you have nothing to do every day, come to me." ”

"I'm looking for you, aren't you happy?"

"It's not."

"Then don't ask that kind of question."

Jiang Ningyu's exploration of him has always avoided the important and trivialized.

Because I can't guess her true thoughts, practice can see the truth. Lu Li often brought her supper, sometimes wontons, sometimes ramen, sometimes oatmeal and yam porridge, all of which he borrowed from the boss and made in the kitchen.

He had a faint expectation in his heart, hoping that she really didn't like Lin Xuyue. But when he saw them hugging each other by the river and sticking their faces ambiguously at the dance, he couldn't convince himself, it was a normal friendship.

But she would still ask herself out to play, go ice skating, go to the secret room, and prepare sincere gifts for his birthday.

Lu Li couldn't understand her, and he didn't know if she was so heartfelt to her friends, or if she also wanted to pull with him.

Although he likes her, he doesn't want to meddle in other people's feelings, and he doesn't like to be deceived.

But away from her decision, the heart construction has been done for a long time. Until that day, in front of her old classmates, they had an ambiguous interaction.

He couldn't help laughing at himself, "If there is no love, I am a superfluous." ”

But before leaving, Jiang Ningyu ran over to him and asked, "Are you going to come to our school for dinner tomorrow?" ”

Obviously no matter how ordinary and different the inquiry was, Lu Li felt tired for the first time, so he told her mercilessly, "No, I, a tool man, also want to have some time for myself." ”

In the evening, I received another message from her.

What kind of girls do you like? 】

Without thinking, he replied with an answer that was unfamiliar to even himself.

【cool girl】

The other party was even more excessive, and simply acted as a matchmaker for him.

[There's a cool girl in the piano department, named Sherry, do you want to get to know? 】

Is this because he saw through his careful thinking and began to shake the pot to cover up?

At this moment, Lu Li's heart was cold, and he suddenly hated this little liar who loved to tell lies.

She is so capricious, what is so good that it is worth his attention to please her?

[Okay.] 】

[Do you have a contact information?] 】

wanted to withdraw from Jiang Ningyu's life, and the mood to start over reached its peak. Lu Li tried to treat her as an ordinary friend and tried to get along with other girls.

He did not refuse overtures.

However, at the moment when the girl took the initiative to confess and kiss him, Lu Li just wanted to escape.

It is said that wise people don't fall in love, but they just haven't met people who are amazing at a glance.

If you think about it, she is good at everything but capriciousness.

It's just that people are a little ruthless, and he throws it after pulling, leaving no affection at all.

Since that day, as long as it is night, Lu Li will go to the convenience store to buy that cheap beer, get drunk, and then fall drunk on the table, and the dream is also about her - always at the door of the library, she sits with her back.

In his dreams, he always asks: Are you waiting for me?

She always replied: yes, I'm waiting for you.

But every time he tried to reach out and hug her, he woke up again.

Once he even knew that he was in a dream, resisted the urge to hug her, and said to her: You go, don't wait for me in your dreams again.

It's amazing, I really haven't dreamed of her since then.

So Lu Li has always been very superstitious.

He felt that there were gods in the world, and as long as they were sincere enough, their wishes would always come true.

But he didn't expect that the feelings that he had endured for so many years would burst after hearing her words-

"High school is very vague in my memory, I feel like I don't remember anything, but I have a deep impression of you, and now that I think about it, maybe I was really moved at that time."

"When I was a child, I was very unhappy, other children were having fun, but I have been attending extracurricular classes and practicing the piano since I can remember, when I was very young, our family lived in a villa area, and I also sneaked out over the wall.

"It may be a bit of a stretch to say that psychological trauma is traumatic, but I seem to have a natural affection for sunny and cheerful people. You were once running past the door of our class when you were late, and you had a lot of words in your mouth, which was funny. One rainy day, you mistook me for Lin Xuyue, and I heard bad things about the teacher, you couldn't save face, and you wanted to hit me with a basketball. ”

"You have beautiful teeth when you smile, and your spirit is flying, I thought you were funny at the time, and when I sat by the window, I would subconsciously go to see the playground, and it was nothing if I didn't see you, but I would feel relaxed when I saw it."

At that moment, Lu Li felt that the heavens had played a huge joke on him.

"I don't remember."

He unnaturally avoided those deep memories, and was as restrained and patient as ever. But those words echoed in my mind, becoming clearer and clearer, lingering.

He couldn't help but rush over and hugged her from behind.

Lu Li had heard a saying called the Proust effect, as long as he smelled something he had smelled, he would open up his memories at that time.

And Jiang Ningyu's taste seems to be engraved in his DNA, even if it is far away, he can feel it.

It seems a bit metaphysical to say this, but Lu Li didn't know when he began to believe in the past and present lives, even if he fulfilled them later and traveled alone, he always felt that she was thinking of herself.

It's just that the feelings of the three people are too crowded, and he doesn't want to be a stumbling block between them.

The blessing card that she wrote her name and erased, Lu Li has always carried it close to him, along with the Pokémon box, in a heavy bag, and it is like a shadow with his heart.

After nearly twenty years of self-exile, it is not lonely to have Xiao Yi by his side, he almost thought that he had been completely relieved day after day.

The woman who haunted him never fell asleep, Lu Li never thought that one day she would really appear, trotting towards him, and happily said to him, "Lu Li, I'm looking for you." "It's like the joy of fulfilling a wish for many years.

It is a scene that has not appeared in his dream for many years, but has sketched and fantasized for many years.

On the day when the four of them went to find the Phoenician ruins together, Lu Li gave the Pokémon box to Jiang Ningyu as a birthday gift on the Purple Red Coast.

"I've always wanted to say to you, thank you for being a part of my life. If there is an afterlife......" Lu Li's eyes looked at the man standing quietly by the tent in the distance, paused for a few seconds, and said the truth as if it were a joke, "If I take the initiative, you can consider me." ”

Jiang Ningyu chuckled, "Okay, if there is an afterlife." ”

A crescent moon hanging on the coastline on a remote island reflected her face, as bright as a dream.

She answered, but turned around and went to another country, and threw herself into the embrace of the moon.