After a short chat with the parents, Pei Ling accompanied her grandmother, Jian Nan and Li Fei to the balcony and lit a cigarette to catch their breath.

On the surface, Li Fei's grandmother looks infinitely energetic, like a humorous little old lady, no different from the kind of elders we meet around the house, but the constant coughing sound and intermittent panting sound cannot hide the vitality that has gradually left her.

This loving grandmother doesn't want her grandson, her juniors who care about her in her eyes, this is a common trait of many people, even if they don't want to admit it, Li Fei, Pei Ling, and even Jian Nan himself.

He remembered the scene just now when Li Fei's grandmother insisted that she was much better, why could people still say that they were okay after experiencing great pain?

"Li Fei......" Jian Nan took a long puff of cigarette and then spit it out.

"Huh?"

"Grandma looks even more haggard than last time."

Li Fei was shocked for a moment, and then waved his hand casually with a forced smile.

"Where, Jian Nan, is grandma okay? Didn't you joke with you guys? ”

"What did the doctor say? Truth. ”

Li Fei let out a long sigh: "Hey, I can't hide anything from you." ”

"If you take the time to take a good look at grandma, you'll know."

Jian Nan was waiting for him to continue.

"At the beginning of the year, I recovered slightly, but recently it has deteriorated dramatically, and although it seems that nothing is wrong, it may be life-threatening at any time." Li Fei's brows were tightly locked, and he buried his head when he was already sitting, "Jian Nan, what should I do, I have done everything I can." ”

The tone was full of helplessness, it was not that he didn't know Jian Nan and didn't know the answer, he just wanted to spit out this matter.

After a while, Li Fei stood up, extinguished the cigarette butt, and threw it into the flower bed outside the window.

"Don't worry, Nanda, everything will be fine, grandma will be fine, and we will be fine." Li Fei's eyes were gloomy, but his words were flat, as if he was very convinced.

Jian Nan didn't answer, smoking in silence, he thought of his dead father, and another person, Wen Xin.

Why do people who have experienced great pain not stop seeing in pain?

No, it is precisely because I have experienced great pain that I feel that it doesn't matter, that is not a kind of seeing, it is that I no longer have the strength and desire to resist that great pain, and deceiving myself has become a belief to continue.

If you don't tell yourself, "It's going to get better in the future." "What can a man rely on to sustain himself?

He suddenly remembered Wen Xin's understatement about her past, and he was silent after crying, and he didn't mention it anymore, in fact, there was no difference between the two.

"Squeak early when you need help, buddy doesn't have much ability, if you can find a way, you will definitely find a way to help, and I can borrow it if I don't have enough money." He let out a long sigh, "Let's not talk about seeing each other, grandma can be regarded as having watched me and Pei Ling grow up since she was a child, and she is better than a grandmother if she is not a grandmother." ”

Li Fei smiled faintly: "Nanda, I have always really thanked you and Pei Ling." ”

"Feifei, where have you and Jian Nan gone, hurry up and add some tea to Pei Ling." Grandma's voice came from the back room.

"Huh! No need grandma, let Li Fei rest for a while, I'll just come, and I'll wash some fruit by the way. ”

"How can it be done, how can there be a reason to keep the guests busy, Feifei, Feifei......"

"Here we are, Grandma." Li Fei replied, "Grandma is not in good health, it's okay if I'm tired, as long as she is happy, don't say it in front of grandma just now." ”

"I know." Jian Nan looked at Li Fei expressionlessly.

Li Fei smiled bitterly and nodded, and he turned around and walked out of the balcony.

Pei Ling and Jian Nan were making grandma happy, Li Fei retreated and began to prepare lunch, Jian Nan saw it and went out to help, he didn't know how to talk, so just leave this kind of thing to Pei Ling.

After the meal was ready, in order to take care of his grandmother, Li Fei moved a small table to his grandmother's bed, and then several people began to eat around the table.

"Ouch......" Grandma sighed suddenly.

"What's the matter, grandma, is the food unappetizing?" Jian Nan asked.

"It's okay, that's it......" Grandma looked around the room, "There are so many people, and there is no girl who cooks and a bunch of old men to cook." ”

"Grandma, I want to ask Li Fei for a daughter-in-law!" Pei Ling said.

"Yes, why don't you want to, grandma still wants to hug her grandson."

"Then you urge your family Li Fei to find one quickly."

"This ......," Li Fei said hesitantly, "this kind of thing can't be rushed, can't be rushed, wait until grandma is well." ”

"Yes, I'm in a hurry, grandma probably can't see our family Feifei begging for a daughter-in-law."

Hearing this, Jian Nan and Pei Ling stopped what they were doing, and the two looked at each other, their eyes full of sadness.

"Say what? Grandma, when you get well, when I get married, I will kowtow to you to please a good daughter-in-law. ”

"Okay, Feifei, you live happily, grandma will be content in this life."

Beautiful longing always comforts people's empty hearts.

……

Jian Nan and Pei Ling walked on the way back.

Grandma is very happy, it's true, but the vitality that can be pretended can't hide the vitality that is gradually leaving.

Both of them could see it, so on the way back there was silence, very melancholy, very sad, and the grandmother who watched them grow up was gradually moving away from them.

The wind was mixed with bitterness, which made the two of them tuck their clothes.

"Pei Ling, go to the bar at night." Jian Nan said with some pain.

"Huh?" Pei Ling held a cigarette in the wind, scattered his pigtails, straightened them, and tied them again.

"Didn't Sister Huan open a new store? Let's go to the cheers, we just opened the store, and we're busy everywhere. ”

Pei Ling thought about it and replied, "Okay, then go and drink him drunk." ”

"It's not the wine in the cup that gets me drunk, it's the wine of life, in that case, let's get drunk in the wind." Jian Nan shouted a little distractedly, and he smiled bitterly.

The wind gradually became stronger, and the whirring pierced the ears.

"Okay-" Pei Ling pulled her throat and stretched her voice, and roared out, venting her dissatisfaction with this two-handed world, "Get drunk and go fuck to life." ”

Jian Nan looked at Pei Ling with the eyes of the second force.

"What eyes, hurry up, Jian Nan, you shout too!" Jian Nan demanded.

With just one look, the sympathy between brothers is reflected.

"Childish." Jian Nan laughed, and then he quickly ran in front of Pei Ling, "Fuck life." ”

The pressure was released, and the two suddenly felt a lot better.

When the two returned to the Encounter Bookstore, Jian Lin was still sitting on his small bench as usual.

Jian Nan was very tired, and it happened that Pei Ling was here to help look after the store, so he leaned his head on the radio table and fell asleep.

In his dream, the remaining memories began to emerge, and he looked at the ceiling of that memory and the dilapidated rental houses around him.

The clothes of men and women were scattered on the floor around the bed, and the air was filled with the smell of decadence.

He smoked a cigarette in his mouth, and his body was full of post-exercise exhaustion.

The naked girl was lying beside him with her arms in her arms, and her breathing was very even.

"Still so upset?" As if sensing Jian Nan's uneasiness, the girl asked.

Jian Nan felt frightened in his dream, he puffed out a cigarette and did not speak.

"Jian Nan, sing me a song."

Jian Nan propped himself up, snuffed out the cigarette in the ashtray on the bedside table, then picked up the guitar thrown in the corner and sat at the head of the bed.

"What do you want to hear?"

"Miss Dong, the first time I met you, you were humming this."

"Done." Jian Nan replied, then gently plucked the six strings, felt the pitch, and then began to pluck the strings.

“…… So those may all be true, Miss Dong, who will take the trouble to comfort the ignorant boy, I want to be like you, regardless of those so, come with me, Miss Dong. ”

The girl hugged the quilt, leaned against the head of the bed, lit a thin cigarette, spit it out gently, closed her eyes and immersed herself in the dream created by Jian Nan's singing.

"Jian Nan, I love you." The girl lowered her eyes slightly, hugged Jian Nan tightly, and said suddenly.

"I love you too, Xia Jing."

After revealing their true hearts to each other, the two kissed together again and were entangled again.

The bed at night is a gentle township, allowing every lost soul to find their own home, to seek their own inner peace, and let the same two restless and frightened soul pilots shuttle in the dream land called "bed".