Xu Jing's heart tightened slightly, and in turn held Xiao Yi's hand.

Xiao Yi smiled faintly, looked at her, and said, "Don't worry, so many years have passed, and it can no longer affect me as before."

When my mother heard about my father and brother, she fainted on the spot.

Not long after that, news came that my grandfather and my two uncles had died in battle.

My mother had a serious illness, and I almost couldn't survive it, and I was helpless and frightened, and I didn't even have time to grieve, so I could only stay by my mother's side all day long, for fear that even my mother would leave me. ”

Xiao Yi took a light breath, raised the corners of his mouth bitterly, and said, "One night, my mother suddenly touched my face and whispered, fortunately I still have you by my side, fortunately, you are well......

I thought that my mother had finally survived the most difficult time, and I wanted to cheer up, I was very happy, and I held my mother's hand and said that I would always be with her and would not leave.

After that, my mother told me to go back to rest, saying that I must be very tired after watching her for so many days, and she didn't want to see anyone around her have an accident.

In order to reassure my mother, I agreed to her and went back to my room to rest, which is the one thing I have ever done and regretted the most......"

The corners of Xu Jing's mouth twitched slightly, and she had already guessed what happened next.

"Although I went back to my room, I was still worried about my mother, and I couldn't sleep, and in the middle of the night, I couldn't help but get up and try to sneak a peek at my mother.

Unexpectedly, as soon as I walked into my mother's yard, I saw that the maids and maids beside my mother were standing in the courtyard, crying and shouting on the roof with anxious faces......

It was the most fearful and helpless time in my life, I cried and begged my mother to come down, begging her not to leave me alone, but when my mother heard my words, she only looked at me miserably and said, 'Yi'er, I'm sorry, I can't stand it anymore', and then ...... Jumped off the roof. ”

Although Xiao Yi said that this matter could no longer affect him as before, Xu Jing still heard a thick bitterness and sadness in his voice.

At that time, he was only a ten-year-old child, and he watched his aunt jump off the roof and die in front of him.

Xu Jing didn't know what to say, so she silently clenched his hand tighter, and after a while, she whispered: "But, if that's the case, why do you have a bad relationship with your father?" ”

In this way, his mother's death was not caused by his father.

She originally thought that he had such a tense relationship with his father because of his mother.

Xiao Yi suddenly smiled extremely sarcastically, and said: "This matter is not over, less than a month after my mother was gone, news came from the battlefield again, saying that my father had been found, he was wounded by the enemy at that time, fell off the cliff, and was rescued by the nearby villagers.

At the same time, the exact news of my brother's death came.

I don't remember much of how I felt, but I remember that I had never been so desperate for my father to come back, and that all the people closest to me were gone, except for my father.

About half a year later, the war finally subsided, and my father finally returned to Beijing with a large army, and at the same time brought back a young woman, who was more than five months pregnant. ”

Xu Jing looked at Xiao Yi in disbelief.

Xiao Yi closed his eyes and said in a deep voice: "After I knew about this, I ran angrily to question my father, but my father said that when he was dying, it was this woman who saved him, and she was equivalent to his reincarnation benefactor.

I didn't bother to listen to this, but asked him if he knew that my mother was gone when he was with this woman.

My father was just silent, silent to the end, and only said lightly, adults should not interfere with children's affairs.

At that time, I was young and didn't know a lot of things, but a grandmother next to my mother told me that according to the time the woman was pregnant, I was afraid that my father would be with the woman after he learned that my mother was gone. ”

No wonder, no wonder Xiao Yat and his father have always had a bad relationship.

No wonder Xiao Yi is reluctant to go back to the Xiao family because of this incident.

Xu Jing was silent for a while, and sighed secretly: "At that time, it must have been very difficult. ”

Xiao Yi didn't speak for a while, and just when Xu Jing thought he wouldn't speak anymore, he suddenly said in a dumb voice: "Ah Jing, I told you before that I never had the intention of marrying a wife. I used to think that women were all fragile and dependent on others, whether it was my mother or the woman my father brought back.

I don't blame my mother for killing herself, because I know that she really endured a lot during that time, but sometimes, I can't help but wonder why my mother couldn't hold on a little longer. Why can't you just try to get back on your feet for me?

I don't want me to marry a wife in the future, and I have to worry all the time about whether she will be able to live alone, whether I will be gone one day, and our children will be left alone in this world like I used to be.

Until, I met you in Anping County......"

Xu Jing was slightly stunned, and saw the man next to her looking at her slightly, a pair of ink eyes seemed to have traveled through time and space, from the endless sadness and pain of the year, suddenly transformed into a vivid and flowing smile now, and said softly: "At that time, no matter what happened to you, you never thought of giving up, even if you were wronged and thrown into prison at will, you still tried everything to save yourself.

You don't know, at that time, when I saw you holding a tall and sturdy servant hostage in the prison, the first thought that flashed in my mind was - this woman is really stronger than a lion, but I am afraid that if she really reaches the guillotine, she will not give in, and she will fight with the executioner.

Now that I think about it, at that time, I already began to care about you in my heart. ”

The corners of Xu Jing's mouth twitched slightly.

What are these words? So her first impression of him was that she was a crazy woman who could be compared to a lion?

She pursed her lips and raised her head slightly, "You're still not right, at least, I won't let myself get to the point where I'm going to the guillotine." ”

Xiao Yi looked at her with a slight smile, his eyes were slightly warm, "Yes, with your intelligence, you will definitely not let yourself come to this point." ”

Xu Jing saw that he hadn't understood what she meant, so she smiled helplessly and said seriously: "So, you don't have to worry about me, no matter what, I will let myself live well, if you need me, I will always be by your side." ”

I will never abandon you like your mother did.

Since she was very young, she has known that no one is reliable in this world, only herself, her parents, will leave her one day.

She has relied on her own strength so far.

Therefore, she has the ability to love herself, and she is even more capable of loving others.

Seeing that she was serious, Xiao Yi was slightly stunned, only to feel that the warm current in his heart was flowing out like hot spring water, and after a while, he finally found his voice and said in a low voice: "Okay, thank you, Ah Jing." ”

She didn't know how lucky he was to meet her.

The person who really let him come out of the haze brought to him by his parents was actually her.

The two looked at each other silently for a while, Xiao Yi suddenly chuckled, and said: "My mother is now buried in the Xiao family's cemetery in Jinzhou, and when the spring flowers bloom in February, I will take you and Changxiao back to Jinzhou to worship my mother, okay?" ”

Xu Jing was stunned, and her brain suddenly exploded.

February? Generally, they will go to the tomb to sweep the tomb, except for Qingming, only on the death day of the deceased.

She looked at Xiao Yi and said with some difficulty: "Yanci, your mother...... Didn't it happen in February? ”