Chapter 13: The past is unbearable, and there are small contradictions
In the afternoon, she couldn't resist Zhang Xiaoying's pull, Ji Yunshan helplessly accompanied her to go shopping, unless she had a strong purpose, that is, what did she need to prepare? Otherwise, she feels that shopping is tiring and time-consuming, contrary to Zhang Xiaoying, Zhang Xiaoying is very keen on shopping, she always has endless clothes, snacks, shoes and bags.
Ji Yunshan was half-pushed and half-pulled by Zhang Xiaoying into a niche brand clothing store that she often visits, it was a very small jasper-shaped skirt, Zhang Xiaoying looked left and right, and excitedly picked a few sets into the dressing room to try them on, Ji Yunshan sat on the sofa boredly, and looked at the clothes on it for a while.
The two of them came out of the clothing store, Zhang Xiaoying carried a few bags of clothes, and returned with a full load, saying that they would go back to the company after buying clothes with Zhang Xiaoying, and they were not allowed to go shopping for too long, because Ji Yunshan really didn't like shopping, so the two of them went their separate ways at the intersection.
Ji Yunshan was walking in the direction of the company, but it was raining at this time, Ji Yunshan and the pedestrian hurriedly ran to the front of the bank to hide from the rain, and sent a message to Wen Zhengyang to pick her up.
"Hey." The man greeted Ji Yunshan: "It's such a coincidence, I saw you here." The man said with a gentlemanly smile.
"Hmm." Ji Yunshan didn't pay much attention, but still responded politely.
"Where to go? Do you want me to send you? Li Feng asked.
"No need, my company is very close." Ji Yunshan directly rejected the man.
"I haven't seen you for a long time, I'm getting more and more beautiful, I often see you in a shopping mall and on the road, but every time you walk fast, wait for a traffic light and you won't see you." Li Feng looked Ji Yunshan up and down, and the appearance of the immature girl 10 years ago, dressed ordinary, with an ordinary temperament and no skills, and the gentle temperament of a Chinese-style skirt in front of her and her long hair pulled up half were like two people.
"Really? I didn't pay attention. Ji Yunshan still responded without a word.
"Are you free now? Why don't we find a place to sit and talk? Li Feng suggested.
"No thanks." Although Ji Yunshan doesn't hate this man anymore, she still has to keep her distance.
"You're doing pretty well now, you're getting more and more capable." Li Feng sighed sincerely, and occasionally saw her on the Internet or on the news, and probably knew what she was doing.
"Thank you so much." Ji Yunshan said truthfully.
"Otherwise, let's sit down at the bubble tea shop next door! I don't know when the rain is so heavy that I don't know when it will stop, and it's rare to have a chance to come across it. Li Feng suggested again, his tone revealing longing and remorse of helplessness.
"Sometimes, meeting again is not necessarily fate, but also a foreshadowing for a certain time." Ji Yunshan recalled the sad picture and said slowly.
"Do you still hate me?" Li Feng asked.
"It's all gone, I don't care, what's the hate?" Ji Yunshan did not have a trace of turmoil in her heart.
"Actually, I really regretted it later, I always wanted to get back together with you before-", Li Feng fought for a chance, but how did he know that the matter was in the past, and the regret was in the future.
Ji Yunshan thought for a while and said indifferently: "Have you ever heard of the "causal cycle"? Over the years, I have passed this road three or two times a day, and you must go home through this road, whether you are from the figure or in my heart this is like disappearing, the reason why I have not seen you again, may be because, I have let go, second, I have never owed you, only people who still owe others will often see him "her", today's sudden, maybe for the sake of a cycle on the matter back then. ”
Li Feng knew what Ji Yunshan was talking about? It's just that he couldn't hear the meaning of the so-called "cycle", and he didn't expect that when Ji Yunshan was standing in a shopping mall and waiting for someone, watching another girl next to him get into his car, the scene would also be presented in front of him for a while.
"You've really changed a lot, you're sensible, you've matured, but one thing hasn't changed, you're still so eloquent." Li Feng didn't mock her, but he felt a lot of emotion.
Ji Yunshan was also thinking about it in her heart? If there really is such a thing as a loop? Wen Zhengyang will come to the bank to pick her up before the rain stops or Li Feng leaves, although she doesn't hate it in her heart, but the hole in her heart always needs to be properly mended.
Sure enough, God still stood on Ji Yunshan's side fairly.
At this time, a familiar big G drove directly to the front of the bank, and the familiar license plate made Ji Yunshan feel very proud, and simply said hello to Li Feng and got into the car.
Li Feng watched Ji Yunshan get into a man's car like this, and a strange feeling passed through his heart.
This is what Ji Yunshan called the "cycle", when he fell in love with the girl whose family arranged a blind date for him, that is, his current wife, they all looked at each other, the girl was indeed incomparable to Ji Yunshan at that time in terms of education and temperament, but Li Feng did not explain or say that he broke up, so he empathized and said goodbye, and caught up with his current wife, thinking that he was a real daughter, but he never thought that his life after marriage was a mess, there was no real cultivation, no matter how high his education and temperament, In the face of every bit of life, the swan will become an ugly duckling, and the life of the dream will also be different due to human nature, and the true face will be revealed under different values for a long time, so husband and wife are easy to get along with each other, but difficult to stay together.
On the contrary, in the face of Ji Yunshan's transformation many years later, and compared with his current wife, Ji Yunshan has surpassed the girl who made her heart flutter back then, plus her early understanding of Ji Yunshan; People always know how to cherish after loss, and women, only by making themselves worthy, is the best revenge for scumbags.
Looking at the vehicle that had gone away, even though he knew that he was now a married person and knew that he had failed Ji Yunshan, when he saw another man appear beside her, Li Feng's heart was not a feeling, was it heartache, remorse or debt? I can't say it myself.
"I'll see, is it wet?" As soon as Ji Yunshan got into the car, Wen Zhengyang reached out and touched Ji Yunshan's hair and clothes.
"I didn't get much of it, it's fine." Looking at the gentle Wen Zhengyang, Ji Yunshan's heart warmed.
Wen Zhengyang touched Ji Yunshan's head: "Go back and change your clothes first", subconsciously glanced out the car window and drove away.
"Who's talking to you?" Wen Zhengyang asked while driving the car.
Ji Yunshan looked at Wen Zhengyang, thought for a while and said, "Ex." ”
The man's sixth sense probably guessed it.
"Do you mind? It was purely a chance encounter, and when I spoke, I simply responded with a few words. Ji Yunshan was worried that Wen Zhengyang would think too much.
Wen Zhengyang held the steering wheel with one hand and Ji Yunshan's hand with the other and smiled: "Silly pig, this is all normal, you haven't been sorry for me, what do I have to be angry about?" Besides, in today's society, who hasn't experienced a relationship or two, hasn't they? ”
"I'm afraid you'll be jealous", Ji Yunshan pouted.
Wen Zhengyang said half-jokingly and half-seriously: "That's for sure, why don't you let me meet you first, but let him take the lead." ”
"I wasn't like this before, so even if we met you first, maybe we would have a different beginning and ending?" Ji Yunshan recalled everything in the past, and the past was vivid.
"What were you like before, can you tell me? What did you break up for? Wen Zhengyang asked curiously.
"I used to be a very ordinary working girl, you now see my excellent side is the same as I used to have, except for a decent face and this okay height, others, nothing good, and he is a rich second generation, I met in the second year of social work, we dated before and after less than a year, but in that year I don't know how many times? Every time a point is several months, so to speak, it doesn't add up to half a year together! Ji Yunshan recalled the past
As a rich second-generation Li Feng, he has both men's requirements and the lust of the second generation, often collapsing two boats, for the fledgling Ji Yunshan, he always recruits and goes, no matter how good Ji Yunshan is, no matter how good he is, no matter how forbearant he is, he can't change his heart, every time he breaks up, there is no premise, as long as Li Feng doesn't like it and doesn't contact Ji Yunshan, Ji Yunshan will break up by default, and Ji Yunshan will never be stalked, but he has no brains but whenever Li Feng says a little sweet words, Ji Yunshan will default to Li Feng's reunion, there is no principle at all, It is indeed stupid to say stupid, and infatuation is also infatuation, in short, loyalty may not necessarily be exchanged for loyalty.
Even later, Li Feng lost contact with Ji Yunshan because of the girl who arranged a blind date with his family, that is, his current wife, and used the same trick, until later, at the gate of a shopping mall, Ji Yunshan waited for her cousin who was unsatisfactory at the time, and wanted to enlighten her, but she never saw a girl get into Li Feng's car and sit directly in the co-pilot, Li Feng also saw Ji Yunshan, but she was not noisy or noisy, and let them leave in front of her eyes, and finally, Li Feng called to apologize, and Ji Yunshan just cried and blessed him, Therefore, in her heart, she marked the reason why she would never enter a wealthy family.
Ji Yunshan and Wen Zhengyang returned to the house where she lived in the city, as soon as they entered the door, Wen Zhengyang didn't think much about it, hugged Ji Yunshan tightly and pressed against the wall and kissed her fiercely, feeling no emotion, like a wolf out of control that made Ji Yunshan at a loss for a while, until Ji Yunshan was hurt: "It hurts." Wen Zhengyang suddenly regained consciousness.
"Excuse me? Where did it hurt you? ”
Ji Yunshan didn't speak, she looked at Wen Zhengyang directly, and the tears in her eyes flowed down uncontrollably, drop by drop, and turned into a string of streams.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I was wrong, I was wrong", Wen Zhengyang continued to apologize while holding Ji Yunshan, what's wrong with him? Are you jealous or mind? It seems to have all of them, even if he knew that Ji Yunshan was a victim and was let down by a man, but it was not her fault, but he had an indescribable anger in his heart, and he couldn't distinguish the direction and "acted roughly" to Ji Yunshan.
Ji Yunshan pushed Wen Zhengyang away, and walked out without giving him any chance, Wen Zhengyang immediately chased after him, but there was no one left, because the floor where Ji Yunshan lived was on the second floor, and the next floor was the street, Wen Zhengyang couldn't see the figure anymore, and he punched the tree next to him in annoyance, so hard that even the joints of his hands were red.
How could he do that? Li Keqing caused her a lot of harm in this matter, but she was able to tolerate his past generously, and even preferred to let him stay out of the matter to help him solve this trouble, but he treated her like this because of a person who had become a thing of the past in her heart, Wen Zhengyang, you are such a bastard.
Wen Zhengyang consciously scolded himself hundreds of times in his heart. Where is she supposed to go? The friends in her circle, not to mention that there is no contact information, even if there is, he has only known each other for a short time, and with Ji Yunshan's character, it is impossible for his friends to know, and it is even more impossible to go home after seeing his parents soon? Wen Zhengyang regained some sanity and analyzed it in his heart.
Without any clue, I dialed Xu Biao's phone, and returned to the house after explaining the matter, which was clean and tidy, although the house was a very ordinary design with three bedrooms and a living room, but the furniture and placement inside were very typical of the simple and ancient style, in addition to the room, there was also an independent cloakroom and study, Wen Zhengyang looked at every corner.
She said that she lived alone in the city, so it was all her things, Wen Zhengyang was sitting on a chair in the study, and a pair of calligraphy words came into view on the table: "Wenhua ink wind is rising sun, Yunshan Jinxiu is competing in the river and sea", the simple and beautiful pen peak reveals Ji Yunshan's powerful affection for Wen Zhengyang, but Wen Zhengyang hurt her again, what is the difference between him and that "predecessor".
"Wife, where are you?" Wen Zhengyang held the rice paper with those big characters written on the table, and his brows were tightly knit.
Liang Siwan was negotiating product introductions with customers in the studio, and a person came in at the door, Liang Siwan looked up habitually and was about to say hello: "Yunshan, why are you here?" Sit down. As she spoke, she asked the assistant on the side to continue to explain the product to the customer for her, and she took Ji Yunshan's hand familiarly and walked into another table and chair.
After Ji Yunshan walked out, she avoided Wen Zhengyang's footsteps through the alley, and walked aimlessly to the street, although she tried her best to control her tears and not let them flow out, but she couldn't control her emotions, she couldn't go home now, she couldn't go back to the company, she couldn't find Zhang Xiaoying and them, and she didn't want everyone to know what had just happened.
When I didn't know where to go, I walked and came to another urban area in the city, and suddenly thought that Zhao Liming's wife Liang Siwan had said when chatting with her that a beauty studio opened in a store here, so I found my way here.
"What wind brought you here today?" Liang Siwan took a cup of tea and handed it to Ji Yunshan, and asked with a smile, "What about Zhengyang?" ”
"I don't have anything to do today, so I just happened to come here, so I'll stop by to sit with you. If you're busy, don't call me. Ji Yunshan tried to keep smiling as much as possible.
"It's okay, there are colleagues! It's rare for you to come and sit and chat with you. Liang Siwan looked back at the customer, and saw that the customer was ready to place an order, so she was relieved to continue chatting with Ji Yunshan.
Liang Siwan runs a small beauty studio, the store is a duplex style decoration, an area of about 80 square meters, the upper half and the corresponding lower half of the place for customers to recuperate and experience, through the screen, one side is the cash register, the other side is the living room to introduce the product.
Ji Yunshan didn't say much, just listened to Liang Siwan's introduction to the operation of her studio's business, and gave Ji Yunshan an experience, and Ji Yunshan didn't refuse, isn't this just the right way to cover up the emotions on her face through beauty? After half an hour passed, Liang Siwan wanted to give her for free, but Ji Yunshan didn't like to be cheap, so she paid as usual.
"Are you going back to the villa tonight? Shall we go back soon? Liang Siwan asked Ji Yunshan while packing up her things.
But Ji Yunshan didn't want to see Wen Zhengyang, and she didn't want him to know where she was, so she said: "Siwan, don't let anyone know that I'm here with you, including Liming, just know it." ”
As soon as these words came out, as a woman, I immediately smelled unhappiness.
"Did something happen?" Liang Siwan took Ji Yunshan's hand and asked with concern.
It's okay not to ask, but when she asked, Ji Yunshan couldn't help but shed tears, of course, she didn't say anything.
Seeing her like this, Liang Siwan didn't ask much for the time being, and suggested: "Or, let's find a place after work in a while, and I'll have two drinks with you?" If you have anything to tell me, vent your unhappiness, and I told Liming that I won't go back to dinner. ”
Ji Yunshan: "Okay, but ——。 ”
Liang Siwan: "I know, don't worry, I won't tell Liming them, then you sit down first, and I'll set a position." ”
After speaking, Liang Siwan called.
Although Liang Siwan and Ji Yunshan have only met three or two times, and each time they don't talk much, because of the close relationship between Wen Zhengyang and Zhao Liming, they are also very familiar with each other.
In autumn, the night after dusk darkens relatively quickly, and the commercial streets have begun to be lively, and it is the time of the young people at night.
"Huadu Song and Dance Hall"
It is a combination of a quiet bar and bar that combines dinner and supper, and during dinner, some young unknown singers sing beautiful but low-level songs on the stage, just to enliven the relaxed atmosphere for the diners to enjoy for dinner, and the second half after 11 p.m. is a dynamic DJ night show, focusing on a "drink".
Liang Siwan took Ji Yunshan to the middle of the hall to sit down, this position just has a clear view of the stage, and will not be sandwiched in the middle of the sidewalk, all the seats here are designed to be of a uniform size, each seat can sit about five or six people, compared to "Weiss" is two different business models and grades, Weiss is the consumption of the rich, and the Huadu Song and Dance Hall is a place for medium consumption.
After ordering a few snacks, Liang Siwan also ordered a dozen beers.
"Drink as much as you can tonight, don't worry, if there's anything unhappy, just tell me, don't worry about getting drunk." Liang Siwan said to Ji Yunshan.
"Thank you." Ji Yunshan was in a much better mood at this time, but she was still thinking about Wen Zhengyang in her heart.
At this time, Wen Zhengyang was walking around anxiously in the house where Ji Yunshan lived, and had made several calls to Xu Biao, whether he had found someone or not, Xu Biao was looking for it every time he replied, and he found various reasons to go to Ji Yunshan's company and hometown, and they all said that they had not seen anyone, and even Xu Biao took a bunch of gifts back to his hometown to investigate, Ms. Bao thought that Wen Zhengyang sent someone back, and pulled Xu Biao is tea and home-grown fruits to greet him, Xu Biao was sweating in a hurry, and wanted to reply to Wen Zhengyang but could not show any traces of something, but I was in a hurry to find someone in other places.
Listening to Xu Biao's reply, Wen Zhengyang became even more nervous in his heart, blaming himself, he wanted to ask again, and he lost his temper when he asked, and he really wanted to punch himself.
Where can she go in just a few hours? No way, open the phone in a familiar group chat: "Missing Action"