Chapter 32: Damn Love
At this moment, a farmer's dog ran to the gate of his house and barked vigorously at the two men and women he had encountered. The dog was behind Xiao Han, and she was so frightened that she threw herself into Lin Xiao's arms.
Lin Xiao didn't expect Xiao Han to hug her with this sudden move. This was the first hug he gave to Xiaohan in this life, and it was also a late hug. The two of them have been together for more than a month, and they have not even touched hands, let alone hugged.
Xiao Han forgot about the dog behind him, and only knew that it was a comfortable embrace. She gently rested her head on his chest and murmured, "Why do you want to hug me?" You know? This is what you owe me.
This voice, like a ghost, pierced directly into Lin Xiao's heart, making him hate to rub her into his body. Lin Xiao didn't have the opportunity to experience this warm jade incense body, let alone listen to the fairy rhyme.
Lin Xiao said: Hurry up, it's not good for others to see it.
Xiaohan is not willful, he knows that men are the most annoying women's willfulness. Women can go to wayward men, that is to have that capital for women. Xiaohan is now here in Lin Xiao and doesn't have that capital, so she immediately stood up for herself.
Moreover, he blushed with shame. She said: I'm really sorry, I was just scared by a dog, and I was a little out of shape.
Lin Xiao said: It's okay, I blame the damn dog.
It's hard to say whether the dog should die or not. But, it must be an eventful dog, and a trouble-loving dog. Anyway, the dog finished making trouble, and walked leisurely back to his yard, as if nothing had happened to him.
At this time, Lin Xiao said: Go up quickly! I'm going down too.
After saying that, the two of them left each other.
Xiao Han took a few steps up and stopped under a small tree. Standing on the hillside, he watched Lin Xiao walk down the mountain. Lin Xiao's steps were so steady, and when every step fell, it seemed to be stepping on Xiaohan's heart.
Xiaohan thought: It is such a man, when he should cherish himself, he did not cherish it. When you shouldn't cherish it, you want to cherish it. But when you want to cherish it, you are already a pearl above the temple. Come to think of it, life is really cruel!
Just when Xiao Han was still in reverie, Lin Xiao had already walked to the bend of the mountain. She knew that Lin Xiao would disappear from her field of vision soon, and she had a faint melancholy in her heart. It was also at this time that Lin Xiao turned around and glanced at Xiao Han.
At such a distance, Xiao Han couldn't see Lin Xiao's eyes clearly. But I immediately felt the warmth in that resolute gaze. Although Lin Xiao left silently, just that one turned around moved Xiao Han.
But how did Xiaohan know that she was standing under the oak tree, and her gorgeous and colorful figure was posted in Lin Xiao's heart like a photo, so that Lin Xiao could not enjoy the beautiful scenery of early autumn all the time.
In fact, both of them know that today's self can never go back to the past. But emotions are like this, making people's behavior inexplicable. Think about what this is for? Troubles in vain, self-suffering, why bother?
Lin Xiao thought: Am I really a man who can afford to take it and can't let it go? If that's the case, is he still a person who can achieve great things? Okay, things are not people, let it pass quietly! I have already helped her, as a man, for Xiaohan, I have also done my best. In this way, I also have an explanation for my heart. For life, there are only regrets, no regrets.
Xiaohan also thought: I always look at this man so high, what is it for? As a wife, do you still need to be so attached to him? Knowing that you can't do it, is this belittling yourself? Do you want to trample on your soul with infinite feelings?
Just when the two of them were struggling in the whirlpool of self-questioning, they were looking for themselves and how to get out. Fate always pushes them back again and again. Perhaps, this is the fate that no one can break free.
One weekend, Lin Xiao went to Wangjiang City to meet two friends. After eating at noon, I had nothing to do, so I wanted to go around the mall. Lin Xiao can't remember how long it has been since he entered the mall. So, Lin Xiao asked the driver to wait for him outside, and he entered the mall.
Although I haven't been in a mall for a long time, the mall is still the same, and there are no major changes. For Lin Xiao, there is nothing to buy when entering the mall. The things at home are all bought by Jingwen, and I never care about it. As for their own clothes, they are often bought when they go to the provincial capital.
Therefore, Lin Xiaojin entered the mall purely to go shopping and see something, but it was just a quick look. In fact, in life and work, Lin Xiao rarely has such a relaxed moment.
A shopping mall in a county-level city usually does not have many people. But on the weekend, it comes alive inside. When Lin Xiao walked inside, he found a familiar figure. When Lin Xiao took a closer look, it was really Han Xiaohan.
Actually, it was not surprising to see Han Xiaohan here. Because, she comes here almost every week. If she hadn't come here, she wouldn't have been able to live this weekend. Now, Xiao Han has a subconscious idea that every time he sees Lin Xiao, he will let him see a different version of himself.
Lin Xiao was also wondering why he couldn't see Xiaohan for so many years before. And since that time, how can it always be so unexpected? Could it be that there is a force at work in a place we don't know?
Lin Xiao shook his head lightly and said to himself: If God always arranges like this, then no one can do it.
In fact, Lin Xiao could walk away silently, as if he hadn't seen it. But every time I saw Xiao Han, I seemed to be pulled by that figure, and I couldn't get out.
Lin Xiao quietly walked behind Xiao Han, and because Xiao Han was too focused on the clothes in front of him, he didn't notice Lin Xiao's existence. Lin Xiao originally wanted to call her, but seeing Xiao Han's focused appearance, he didn't bother her. Xiaohan worked hard to negotiate the price with others, but they had dropped to the point where they could no longer reduce it.
In the end, the price of the clothes still exceeded Xiaohan's expectations. So, Xiao Han could only reluctantly walk to another stall. After Xiao Han walked away, Lin Xiao took out the money to buy the dress. Then, he followed.
Lin Xiao didn't know why he did this, but he still did it silently. In less than half an hour, Lin Xiao bought a total of four clothes for Xiaohan. Although the money for these four clothes is nothing to Lin Xiao, it is a big deal for Xiao Han's few banknotes.
When Xiao Han walked to the fifth stall, he suddenly found him. This surprise is not trivial. Xiao Han never imagined that in this bustling crowd, he would meet Lin Xiao, who was thinking day and night. A self that she didn't want him to see the most, just presented in front of him nakedly, which made Xiaohan embarrassed. Xiao Han thought that when he bargained with other people, it must be ugly.
Xiao Han saw the few clothes Lin Xiao was carrying in his hand and thought that he had bought them himself. But when Lin Xiao handed these things to her, Xiao Han panicked.
Lin Xiao said: Take it! It's all you've just chosen. If you don't like it, you can retire in a while!
At this moment, Xiao Han had an impulse. She wanted to cry, she wanted to cry properly. But in front of so many people in the mall, she couldn't cry, so she could only take it awkwardly.
Lin Xiao was afraid that an acquaintance would see it, so he said: Then you can choose here! I left first, and there were people waiting for me outside.
After speaking, without waiting for Xiaohan to reply, he turned around and walked out in style. Xiao Han could only look at his back so stupidly and disappeared into the flow of people.
When Xiaohan came back to his senses, he felt very unreal. Am I dreaming? Looking at the things in her hand, she knew that this was not a dream, but why did this former man be so good to herself?
For a while, Xiao Han felt that he owed Lin Xiao, and moreover, he still owed more and more. Where do you owe it to others? But what can I take and pay it back? It's just that she can't get back to that love, but she still wants to pay it back, and she has to pay it back as a cow and a horse. It's not over in this life, and it's going to be paid back in the next life.
Lin Xiao silently asked himself as he walked: What am I doing? Isn't it a bit silly? Is this necessary? Who are you, Xiaohan? Do you buy her clothes? Did you know that she is someone else's wife? Perhaps, I just don't want her to be embarrassed there. But isn't she even more embarrassed to do it herself?
Sometimes, men just can't read themselves. Men can't read themselves, not because of how profound they are, but because they have always had a thief's heart. If a man's thief heart does not die, he will do a lot of things that he can't even understand.
Women just can't stand it, men give themselves things at such a timely time. It is at this time that women are the most easily moved. Although Xiaohan is a woman who loves vanity, this does not affect her at all and she will be moved.
Xiaohan is thinking about one thing these days, she wants to thank Lin Xiao, and she also wants to repay Lin Xiao. But Xiaohan didn't know how to repay him, he didn't lack anything. What's more, he doesn't have anything decent for him.
Thinking of the end, she thought of herself. But he is not what he used to be, can he still look at himself? Will he want himself? If he didn't want himself, would he have offended him because of this? Will he stop paying attention to himself because of his actions?
It is these questions that torment Xiaohan over and over again. Because, if she can't figure it out, no matter what she does, she doesn't have anything to do, and she doesn't even want to eat. Later, she found that she was not only thin, but also a little emaciated.
So, I knew I couldn't go on like this. She made up her mind to plan carefully, but first she had to meet him.