Chapter Seventy-Eight, Love Is Not Love
After a while, Si Yan seemed to be a little tired, so she rested her head on Guan Zhong's shoulder and closed her eyes. Guan Zhong's outstretched arm also relaxed a little, and he didn't need to stretch it so stiffly.
Siyan leaned against Guan Zhong, her face was very close to Guan Zhong's. It seemed that Guan Zhong could feel the warm aura emanating from Siyan's face. At first, he just felt the warm breath, like a warm current, warming his cheeks, and he felt like a spring breeze.
After a while, Guan Zhong felt that the warm breath was grilling his heart. The mood that had just been drenched by the rain was dried by Siyan little by little. The mood is like paper, and after it is dried, it is not as smooth as it used to be.
When the car walked to the low-lying area, it shook very badly. Guan Zhong was originally hugged loosely, but in order to resist the shaking of the car, he still hugged Siyan tightly. And Siyan didn't have any other reaction, and let Guan Zhong hold it like that for the first time.
It was a long distance, and the car didn't go fast in this rainy day. Guan Zhong still thinks that he has reached the end so quickly. Although Guan Zhong felt a little regretful, he couldn't sit again.
The moment the car stopped, Siyan also sat up, she stretched her waist lightly, and smiled at Guan Zhong. Say: Have you arrived?
Guan Zhong said: It's here.
That day, Guan Zhong watched Siyan get into another car before leaving. Guan Zhong didn't feel any change in the relationship with Siyan at all, but felt that it was a very pleasant and short trip. At the very least, it will make Siyan feel better and get out of the depression that Tong Quan brought her.
When Siyan got into another car, she felt a kind of loneliness. I have taken this bus to my aunt's house before, but I have never been so lonely. Perhaps, there was another person sitting beside her just now, warming her with her body. When the person was not there, she felt a damp cool air wafting out of this rainy day.
Guan Zhong went to the bookstore to buy a copy of Jin Yong's "The Condor Heroes" and went back by car. The other people in the room were playing mahjong. He was alone, lying in bed, reading the newly bought novel. Guan Zhong was fascinated by it, and the noise of mahjong did not affect his reading at all. At that moment, he only had Yang Guo and Xiaolongnu in his heart.
Guan Zhong looked at the book, and he didn't know how much time had passed. Because, time no longer has any meaning to Guan Zhong, and he walked to another world with the extension of the story. It was a world of infinite purity, a world of infinite yearning.
Just then, there was a knock at the door. Guan Zhong heard it, but he couldn't get out of the story. He knew that no one was coming for him, so he didn't care. But those few people who played mahjong couldn't get out, as if they hadn't heard it.
But the knock on the door kept ringing, and there was no thought of giving up. In the end, Guan Zhong had no choice but to stand up and open the door. Unexpectedly, the person standing at the door turned out to be Siyan.
Such an encounter made Guan Zhong feel particularly surprised. He was full of curiosity and said, "Why did you come back so soon?"
Siyan said with a smile: The upper reaches of the river may have rained too much, the whole river has risen, and all the passing boats have been stopped.
Guan Zhong smiled and said: Didn't this make you run for nothing?
Siyan said: It's not like that, I stood by the river for a long time, and I didn't even see a figure.
Two men stood in the doorway. Although, only a few words were discussed. The people who played mahjong inside looked at the two of them several times. Obviously, the chat between the two people affected their play.
Guan Zhong said: Is there anyone in your room?
Siyan said: No, they all went out.
Guan Zhong said: Then let's go to your room!
When I entered Siyan's room, everything fell silent. Perhaps, it's too quiet. Siyan walked over to the TV and turned it on. Siyan turned the TV button slightly, but she didn't find the program she wanted to watch, so she casually put it on a stage. Then, the two of them sat on the bed opposite each other and chatted endlessly.
Today, Siyan is in a particularly good mood. Although, it was drizzling outside, and the rain didn't affect her mood at all. Even if the river hindered Siyan's trip, it didn't affect her mood. Perhaps, it's the reason why Zhong accompanies him? Because, at least Siyan won't be alone.
Sitting with Siyan, Guan Zhong's mood also improved, he is a person who can be easily infected. was infected by Siyan, and Guan Zhong had no reason to be bad. Although, in his heart, Guan Zhong likes Siyan, but he knows that he has no reason to love her.
It should be a pain to like someone and not be able to love it. But Guan Zhong does not have this kind of pain. Because, if you can have such a past with Siyan, that is God's favor for you. Other than that, Guan Zhong has no other expectations.
Besides, for such a good girl, in such a remote town, there must be someone to take care of her, protect her, and not let this girl be hurt a little bit as much as possible. Perhaps, this is the mission given to him by God. If this is also considered a good deed, he is willing to do it for the rest of his life.
Guan Zhong has always been a gentleman in front of Siyan. Even if he is a hypocrite, Guan Zhong has to do it. Because, Guan Zhong didn't want to let his selfishness add any trouble to Siyan, and he didn't want to put any pressure on her heart. Guan Zhong hopes that he doesn't have any extravagant expectations for Siyan's goodness.
When that pseudo-word becomes a grievance one day. Guan Zhong also hopes that he will put the grievance in his heart. On a night when no one cares, let's sneak it out for yourself! Whether those grievances are sweet, sour, or bitter, you must try to swallow them.
That afternoon, the two of them stayed in Siyan's room all the time. After chatting for a while, Siyan went over to tune in to the TV again. After twisting around, there was still no good program, so I had to put it back in its original position, and let the white picture, coupled with those colorless sounds, run with time.
After adjusting the stage, Siyan did not return to her bed. Instead, he sat on the corner of Guan Zhong's bed, with his back to Guan Zhong, but next to Guan Zhong. In this way, Siyan almost stuck to Guan Zhong's body, and Guan Zhong turned his upper body a little sideways.
Siyan stretched slightly. She said: On this day, I didn't do anything, I was idle, and I felt so tired.
Guan Zhong hasn't figured out how to answer Siyan yet. Siyan's body lay down backwards, right on Guan Zhong's legs. Siyan's sudden move surprised Guan Zhong.
After Siyan lay on Guan Zhong's lap, there was nothing unnatural. As if this is the case. Oh, yes! Siyan said that she was tired and should lie down. Lying in bed without temperature, of course, has to lie on your lap. Aren't you willing to help Siyan? That should include all the time.
Guan Zhong explained the normality of this behavior to Siyan in his heart, that is, he wanted to make his heart stable, and there were no more thoughts. Ke Siyan was lying there, but smiled mischievously at Guan Zhong. Guan Zhong's unnaturalness also became natural in Siyan's smile.
When the clock pushes two people to such a moment. Guan Zhong's gentlemanly behavior should also be changed, not not to be a gentleman, but to be a warm-hearted gentleman. As long as Siyan is happy, Guan Zhong doesn't care how he changes. As long as Siyan feels happy, she can do whatever she wants.
Therefore, Siyan's smile that day was different from the past. Guan Zhong feels that Siyan has always been a bud that is about to open. Today, in this drizzly autumn, in front of Guan Zhong's eyes, it is proudly blooming.
It is very natural, and there is a kind of publicity in nature, and it is so generous. Although, there is a little less delicate, but a little more glamorous; Although there is a layer of charm, there is an extra layer of fragrance.
Guan Zhong at this time, whether as a flower messenger or as a mature man, he can't be indifferent. At this time, if you are indifferent, you are disappointed in this beautiful share, it is a kind of ruthless indifference, and you don't understand the customs of the world.
Guan Zhong gently hugged Siyan into his arms with both arms, feeling her slender waist and soft posture. At this moment, Guan Zhong felt that Siyan was no longer an independent Siyan, but integrated with himself and a part of his life.
Siyan also snuggled tightly in Guan Zhong's arms, and once again felt the heat emanating from Guan Zhong's body. Siyan didn't know if she was doing this as a show of love. I just feel that this moment is beautiful, maybe it is a soul that has been lonely for too long and needs a short period of support.
Siyan didn't think about it, is this an option? She herself is not sure, if she chooses, she must think about it repeatedly. But at this moment, she didn't think about it, and she didn't want to think about it, she just wanted to be so willful once, because she knew that she could only be willful in front of Guan Zhong.
Anyway, at this moment, she wants such a kind of care, a kind of dependence, and a kind of warmth that pours into her heart. Siyan thought to herself, as long as it is beautiful, she will live up to the passage of time. As long as you like it, you will live up to the time.
Some time ago, Guan Zhong and Siyan often walked together and stayed together. After seeing it, many people think that the two are in love. It's not just the people around Guan Zhong who ask him like this. Even the people around Siyan have such a problem.
Siyan clarified in person that she didn't, but many people still didn't believe it. Even, once the people in the dormitory, when they were suspicious of her. Siyan actually said angrily: It's just talking, what can it do?
Siyan is an outsider who has not really integrated into the life here. Therefore, Siyan's performance is different from that of the locals. If you are a local, after encountering such a misunderstanding, you will definitely take some ways to avoid suspicion.
But Siyan is Siyan, a different young girl, how should she still be. You can say whatever you want, you can think whatever you want, you can think whatever you want, I just want myself.