"Li Lianyu, you answer me honestly, why didn't you come to see me during the May Day holiday?" When I called, I was screaming.

"Listen to me, I'm in trouble," he said pitifully, "but I've been sick for four days of a week's vacation, and I got better yesterday, and today is the fifth day, or I'll go to you tomorrow?" “

"Are you sick? It's not serious, why didn't you tell me? "I immediately relented, and he was sick.

"It's okay, you don't have to worry," he said and laughed, "It's really a shame that I've been here these days, and if she didn't take care of it, I really almost had an accident." ”

"Xu Wei? Xu Wei takes care of you. I was a little surprised, "Then did you thank her, why should I take care of you?" ”

"These are all trivial," he said, "I ask you, when will you come back, I will die of loneliness without you." ”

"I also want to go back quickly, I want to see you immediately, but you also know, grandma is just getting better now, I can't have no one around, can you bear with it any longer, I'll go back to see you as soon as I have time, I'll go back to compensate you well, how pitiful you are." I feel so distressed, how strong he is, if he is sick, he must be sad to death.

"Okay, don't be embarrassed, it's enough for me to have you write this." He said loudly, "I wish my grandmother a speedy recovery, and you hope you will come home soon." ”

"Okay, okay, I'll go back early, don't worry." I waved my hand, "Zhuoyu, you should rest early, you have just recovered from your illness." Let Xu Wei accompany you tomorrow and go out for a walk. ”

"Forget it, I've been bothering her for a few days, how embarrassing. It's still me, don't bother. ”

"What's the trouble, it's not troublesome, you don't have to be embarrassed, I'll call her later," I said on my own, "I'm hanging, you go to bed early, and pay attention to your body." Hang up, bye-bye. After saying that, I fiddled and hung up the phone, and then dialed Xu Wei's number.

"Is it Xu Wei? Who do you say I am, Su Xingzhu. I bluffed loudly, "Are you free tomorrow?" No, I haven't been back to Shanghai yet. I want to ask if you have time, go to my house to see, my family is sick, you go to watch it, just go to play, show love. ”

"I've been taking care of my son for a few days, and I've been taking care of my son with the same care, a treatment that no one in my family has ever enjoyed." Xu Wei's mouth was the most damaged, "How can you repay me, and serve you like the Emperor of the Earth." ”

"If you have any requests, I can do it. When the time comes, I'll take care of everything, eat, drink, play and hang out, okay? "I let out a low sigh.

"That's good, that's it." Xu Wei laughed, "Then I'll go see your father-in-law tomorrow." Hey, you're not afraid that the two of us will accidentally catch fire and burn your backyard. ”

"I trust you, no, you two are so loyal, aren't you?" I also laughed, and immediately felt funny, "Besides, my family has already made it clear to me that he won't like someone like you." "I regretted it after saying that.

"What do you say, how do you speak?" Xu Wei immediately roared with me, "Don't forget that you are begging me now, just like him, bring me 5 million for nothing, and I won't blink an eye." Do you have anything else to say, just hang up when you're done, how annoying, don't talk about people, have no heart and lungs. ”

"No, no, no, hang up, I thank you in advance, Lord Xu." I feel like I'm a little poor.

"Okay, don't talk nonsense, hang up quickly, I'm going to sleep." Xu Wei grunted, as if he was really tired.

"Bye-bye, good night." I hung up the phone quickly, otherwise I would really be scolded.

I hung up the phone and breathed a long sigh of relief, thinking that Xu Wei had just joked with me that what would I do if she was with Juanyu? I smiled, how could that be possible, how could the two of them be the people I trusted the most behind my back and not me.

As the days went by, I became more and more familiar with this place. The moist and fresh town is full of vitality and vitality every day, the bluestone slab makes me feel like walking in history like a trance and deep, the fine rain is dripping, mixed with a faint earthy smell, and the air is the rising taste of various snacks, sweet, spicy, fragrant, sticky.

"Grandma, will you miss me if I'm gone?" I walked around the alley with my grandmother in my arms, and few neighbors nodded to us and walked by.

"Xingzhu, you, do you want to go?" Grandma finished her sentence slowly.

"I want to go back there for a while, but I'm afraid you'll miss me, so I won't go back." I whispered, secretly grasping my grandmother's hand, which was so old and rough, wrinkled, with thick joints, and astringent skin like coarse cloth.

"Xingzhu, you go, don't, worry about me," Grandma said really slowly, sad and resentful, "I'm already better, much better, if you have something, do it, do it." ”

"No, I just want to spend more time with you, we haven't seen you for so long," I said slowly, helping my grandmother to walk slowly, "Grandma, I now know how unfilial I was before, how I didn't understand you, and I even hated you and resented you." I used to be very lonely and autistic, especially when I first left home, I felt that I couldn't hold on anymore and couldn't live anymore. Luckily, I met Juanyu at that time. ”

I went straight to the point, I don't know if my grandmother understood it, I was just telling myself, regardless of whether the people around me were listening or not, just like when I was a child, my mother often said something to herself that I didn't understand, and the original meaning of that was not to say, but to pour out myself, I wanted to turn out all the things in my heart, and dry what I could dry, and dry what I couldn't.

How warm and pure the scene is at this time, my grandmother and I walked together quietly, gently, we all have the warmth that should be between grandparents and grandchildren, no less than a little bit.

My mother did not get my grandmother's forgiveness until she died, and I think she must have left with regrets. On that rainy night more than 10 years ago, my mother held up a small umbrella to pick me up from school, and the raging wind, like an angry roar, heralded disaster. I don't remember how my mother pushed me away, I can't remember how the car crashed into my mother's thin body, but I remember how my mother's body was like a butterfly falling on the side of the road, and the red blood gushed out my vision, and no one helped us at this time, no.

My mother died in the hospital, and I could not control my screams when I entered the hospital and saw her pale face shining with sorrow under the white walls of the hospital. When I watched the white sheets slowly cover my mother's face, I suddenly understood what kind of life I would face in the future, no mother, no comfort, no kiss, no everything, I have no mother, no one loves me, cares about me, teases me, there is nothing left, what should I do? So when I was kicking and biting those doctors and nurses like crazy, no one resisted and no one was disgusted, they were all sad for me as a child, they all pitied me, sympathized with me, pitied me, and pitied me, when I was forcibly pulled away by my expressionless grandmother, I couldn't help crying, what should I do, what should I do if I don't have a mother in the future?

"Xingzhu, grandma is much better now, you don't have to stay with her all day," my uncle talked to me at dinner, "If you have something to do, go back first, go back over there first, I haven't seen you for a long time." Don't worry, Grandma we'll take good care of you. ”

"Actually, I don't have anything important to do, but I really miss home over there." I smiled embarrassedly and said, in fact, I don't just want home, I also want to be in the sky.

"Then when you decide to go back, tell me, and I'll send you off."

"Okay," I replied, and ate earnestly. "Uncle, don't send me if you're so busy, how tired you are."

"What am I busy with, it's all trivial, you are the most important thing in our family." My uncle looked at me with a loving look in his eyes.

I smiled and sighed, "I'm so blessed to have so many of you caring and loving." “

"This will always be your home, how can we not care about you if we are your family," said the uncle, "I didn't care enough about you before, and I will make up for it all in the future." ”

"What is the compensation, uncle, look at what you said, my junior can't afford it, if you want to say compensation, I will also compensate you, I have made you worry about it for so many years."

"What's the trouble, what's the trouble?" My uncle suddenly burst out laughing.

"What are you laughing at," I was angry and anxious, "I was ignorant at first, thinking about going out and trying to taste what it is like to wander, but I didn't expect to worry you so much, I don't understand you at all." Now that I think about it, I was so stupid and impulsive at that time, wandering was not fun at all, not chic at all, no warmth, no care, no home, it was really terrible. "Looking back on the experience at that time, it was really bad, and I am afraid that this kind of experience is enough once in a lifetime.

"I've always been worried that you can't grow up healthy in such a family environment, I have been taking care of you carefully because of your grievances, listening to you, doing whatever you want, doing whatever you want, because you are unfortunate I always want to compensate you a little more, I want you to be happy, for you to be happy, but I didn't expect to let you develop a withdrawn character. I'm also at fault for your closure, it's me who doesn't take good care of you, I just think that everything is just good for you, but I don't think about how stupid I am, there is no warmth and no happiness in your heart, you don't have real happiness. ”

Seeing my uncle blaming himself in front of me, and seeing my uncle who had turned white in front of me blaming himself like a child, my heart suddenly tore and hurt.

"Uncle," I stretched out my hand to hold his, "Uncle, don't say that, I'm making you worry about it, it's my unfilial piety, if you do this again, then I'll really be ashamed." ”

"Okay, don't say these things again, the family has a good meal, why are you talking about this." My aunt interrupted us, "Xingzhu, you eat more, don't pay attention to your uncle, you are happy to play here, you want to go back over there and say goodbye, grandma I will take good care of you, don't worry at all." After saying that, he helped me pick up the vegetables and took care of the grandmother next to me to eat.

"I see, aunt," I looked up at her, "aunt, you are so good to me, and I am really blessed to have grown up with you." ”

"You kid." My aunt laughed.

I think my aunt is my mother, really.