What is the scenery that welcomes me through the door?

I watched them laugh and lean back together, and I was ashamed to find a crack in the ground.

"Okay, wasn't I drunk yesterday, you're too immoral." I just didn't expect me to be like this when I was drunk, and it seems that I will have to be careful in the future, "You guys got me drunk yesterday and walked away with my whole body, and now you come to see me laugh." Aren't you embarrassed? ”

"What's so embarrassing." Ouyang Jin didn't take it seriously at all, put his phone aside casually and came over, "How about it, beauty, you said that you wanted me to come to greet you, I came early in the morning, just waiting for you to speak." ”

"You're not done." I stood up and wanted to leave, it wasn't really what they had planned in the morning, waiting for me to come and see the joke.

"Hey, don't go," Ouyang Jin said and took my hand, I turned around and shook him off, "I'm sorry, I'm offended." ”

"You two are so immoral, I won't talk to you anymore."

"Hey, Xingzhu, wait a minute." Shen Yan stopped me, and then walked quickly in front of me, "I'll tell you something, Zhuo Yu called me yesterday." ”

Boom? I froze.

"Oh, I see," I whispered back, but didn't ask again.

"He said he wanted to meet you and asked if you had time. I didn't answer him right away, I just said I would tell you. Shen Yan still continued to persuade me, "Tell him when you have time, he can't rest assured." ”

"Okay, I got it." I just lowered my head and answered, "Is there anything else?" Didn't you say that I was scheduled to work today, what am I going to do? ”

Ouyang Jin didn't know when he left, Shen Yan took me to familiarize myself with the environment, and then handed over to a sister Chen who was a little older than me to guide me.

"Sometimes things don't have to be absolute, it's good to give each other some time and space appropriately, and think about each other." At lunch, Shen Yan enlightened me again, "Although I don't know what happened between you, but think about your previous relationship, what can't be forgiven and can't give each other a chance." ”

I picked on the rice with no interest, and I didn't have any appetite at all. Some things are forgivable. But there are some things that simply cannot be forgiven.

"Shen Yan, if a person can hurt you to the point that nothing hurts more than this time in this life, do you think you will forgive him?"

"That's going to be the reason. If there is a cause for suffering, there is a reason that cannot be said. ”

"If it hurts, it hurts, and what can't be said. Is it possible to forgive a mistake that has been made just because of a reason that cannot be said? ”

I think that my life with Juanyu has come to an end, and we may never have any chance to have any reason to redeem it.

I think of Zhao'er, I remember the moment I rolled down the stairs and my heart felt like a knife, and there is no pain in the world like this.

"Okay, but let's call him again anyway, even if it's to make him completely dead." After Shen Yan finished speaking, he stood up and walked away, leaving me a completely independent space.

Anyway, let's see each other one last time, even if it makes him die, as long as he doesn't see each other again and doesn't remember it in the future.

I never thought that Juanyu would be what it is now. I could hear the pleading of compassion in his tone on the phone, I just didn't expect him to get himself to such a point now.

"Xingzhu, you're okay." The person in front of him, his eye sockets were deep-set, his cheekbones were protruding, his whole person seemed to be seriously ill, and he didn't have any energy, "How long have I not seen you, how is your body?" ”

"I'm fine, I don't know how you're doing with your appearance, Dad said you left home, why don't you tell them." I remember my dad telling me that he ran away from home, but I don't know when he will come back.

"You're all gone, what's the point of me staying there." Juanyu didn't have the same high spirits as before, and now he seemed to be a teenager all of a sudden, "But looking at how well you are recovering now, I'm also very relieved." ”

When I heard his words, I suddenly wanted to cry. Why are you so good to me, why are you so good to me, why do you want to hurt me like that when you are so good to me?

"Thank you for worrying, I'm still the same as before, but you're not at all like before."

"As long as you're doing well, Xingzhu, I'm sorry for you and the child in my life, I just hope I won't hurt you again in the next life."

"It's not certain in the next life, besides, if there is really a next life, I hope we don't meet again." I felt cruel for a moment, and I thought back to the bits and pieces of the time we used to be together, but what is the pain of the fleeting things.

Juanyu listened to my words but lowered his head, his lowered eyes couldn't hide his sadness and loss, why did he love me to such an extent that he could hurt me so completely?

I always thought the two of them were joking with me, and while I was recovering, I was lying in bed at home and fantasizing that they would come and laugh and explain to me, it was a joke, a little too big. But in the end, I deceived myself and didn't see any of them until the last minute, and they told me that it was a joke, that it was a prank.

"How is Xu Wei now, I haven't heard from her for a long time." I said faintly, Xu Wei has always been my best friend, even when I was the most sad and sad, when she hurt me the deepest, I still allowed her to appear in front of me, and I allowed her to take care of me to alleviate her guilt for me. After I lost my child, she came to my room every day as scheduled, and neither of us said a word, but she could understand every meaning I meant. She knows when I'm going to drink water, when I'm going to go to the bathroom, and when I'm going to sleep. She didn't say a word, she was afraid that I would get tired of every time she spoke.

"Xu Wei knocked the child out." Juanyu said very calmly, when he said this, it was as if he was talking about other people's affairs, as if he had nothing to do with him.

I'm also shocked, Zhuoyu, you lost two children at the same time, and you should be the most painful.

"Why do you want to beat it, that's also a life." I just sighed, the most pitiful thing is not me, not Zhuoyu, the most pitiful should be these two children who did not come to the world.

"It's enough to feel guilty about hurting you for the rest of my life, and I don't want to continue to hurt you. Don't blame Xu Wei, it's all because of me, it's all my fault. Juanyu said and cried, the man was so forbearant when he cried.

I watched Juanyu choke silently, his Adam's apple beating back and forth on his emaciated neck, and I was very sad and distressed to watch.

"I don't mean to blame you, I don't blame any of you, it's just that we all took the wrong path and walked for a long time. I wanted to persevere, to see what would happen in the end, to see if I could turn things around, but it was only in the end that I realized that I couldn't. I held Zhuoyu's hand, I wanted to give him some comfort, and his hand immediately held mine, "You're not wrong, it's just that we can't go back to the past, and we don't have to be wrong anymore." ”

From now on, we will never see each other again.

"Zhuoyu, let's leave it like this, never see each other again, never see each other again, okay?"