No matter what the reason, no matter how much Xu Wei and you and Lianyu hurt me, I won't think about it anymore and dig deeper, I just hope that you can all live a good life and stop continuing to torture yourself and spoil yourself.

I watched Xu Wei cry all the time, as if she wanted to shed all the tears in her life. I was a little overwhelmed by how someone who had never cried before could be so scary when they cried.

"Xu Wei, don't you want to be like this, okay?" I wanted to be ruthless, I wanted to let go of her, I wanted to ignore her, I wanted to pretend that nothing had happened, but as soon as I saw her crying red eyes, I couldn't be ruthless anymore, "Xu Wei, why hurt yourself like this." ”

yes, why hurt and torture yourself like this? If I regret it and feel sad, why do I do that, why do things that hurt me and make us torment each other?

"Xingzhu, it's me who is not good, I am bad, it is I who hurt you. You beat me and scold me, I am even more sad and blamed myself for doing this, why don't you beat me and scold me? It's my fault that the baby is gone, it's all my fault, Xingzhu, you hit me, I'm sorry for you, it's me! ”

Xu Wei seemed to be crazy, her hand hit her face, she looked like a madman, shouting and screaming, as if she was about to collapse, as if she was about to lose control.

I want to scold her, beat her, hurt her with vicious words, I want her to taste the hurt I have suffered, the pain I have suffered, but what can I do, what can I salvage? What I have lost can never be returned, and what I have suffered can no longer be erased.

"Xu Wei, it's useless, I also want to cover myself up like this, I also want to make myself hurt, let me hurt myself so much that I can forget everything, but I can't do it. I think every night about all the good things we had before, how harmonious we were, I fantasized every night that if my child could be born normally, he was now full moon, it was useless, I drove myself crazy or I couldn't forget something. ”

After that incident, I thought about suicide, I thought about saying goodbye like this, just like my mother, I will never see all the hypocrisy in this world covered up with beauty, what is there to simply see as it seems?

However, Shen Yan persuaded me back again and again, he patiently taught and comforted me again and again, and he even drove me to the cemetery in the middle of the night, took me to kneel down in front of my son's tombstone and asked me if I was worthy of myself, and asked me if I was worthy of myself and my child. I don't know why that night, the originally good day was suddenly surging, lightning and thunder, I looked at the white marble tombstone under the thunder and lightning, and suddenly felt very distressed, if I die, no one will take care of the weather like this, will Zhao'er be afraid, will she cry?

At that moment, I realized that I must not die or hurt myself, I must live well, take good care of my children, take good care of myself.

"Xu Wei, live well, don't do anything sorry for yourself again."

Xu Weibu cried again and looked at me, "Xingzhu, can we still be friends?" ”

I smiled lightly, can I still be friends?

"Xu Wei, we are still a family, and we will always be a family in the future."

Xu Wei didn't continue to ask, I got up and went back to the room to sleep, leaving her alone in the living room.

Back on this bed in the big house, I didn't fall asleep until midnight, thinking a lot. Me and Zhuoyu, me and Xu Wei, me and everyone in this family, and my work in the past month. I thought about it a lot and thought about it for a long time, and I thought that in the end, my head was big before I went to sleep seriously.

I was woken up the next day.

The weather was fine, and when I got up and opened the curtains, I saw the roses climbing up outside the window in very warm bloom. Outside is not until there is a busy noise or anything, the servants are busy moving things in and out, as if someone is coming.

I hurriedly went out to have a look, and I happened to meet Xiao Mo walking over with Xu Wei's clothes in the corridor, and I went over to inquire to find out that Xu Wei's mother and Tianyi had returned from the United States together, and the driver had just picked them up.

I was a little surprised, I came back at this time, it couldn't be that my father had a bad attack yesterday, and they rushed back when they got the news.

I changed my clothes and went downstairs to have a look, and I could say hello.

Tianyi is as glamorous and arrogant as ever, but it is very strong and delicate and inviolable. The mother and daughter sat on the sofa, and they should have been too tired from the journey.

"Morning, Aunt Zeng, Sister Tianyi, I heard that you just got off the plane, you must be very tired, right?" I walked down the stairs and greeted them cordially, "Sorry, I didn't get you in late for a while." ”

"Ah, Xingzhu is also there," Aunt Zeng looked surprised, and quickly stood up and pulled me to sit down with her, "It's still so polite, are we coming back to quarrel with you to rest?" ”

"Yes, Xingzhu, we must have made such a big noise to you, right?" Tianyi also sat down and talked to me, "I'm really tired, the plane will have an airflow, almost forced landing, a false alarm, but fortunately, there is no danger in the end." ”

I just nodded and smiled, "It's good to go home safely, Aunt Zeng is okay over there, is it a habit to live?" ”

"It's not as good as my own home, I still miss our family, don't you come back in a hurry?" Aunt Zeng seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, "I am not at home these days, and the house is still so quiet and peaceful, very good." ”

"Yes, maybe Xu Wei is almost tired alone, didn't Dad get sick yesterday, it seems that the family is really in trouble." Xu Tianyi talked about his father's illness as if he was talking about an inconsequential little thing, and when he talked about Xu Wei's fatigue for the company, it seemed to be completely irrelevant.

"Dad was taken care of by them very well, I just came back unintentionally to know that my dad was sick, Xu Wei took care of such a big business alone, it should be a lot of pressure, but fortunately you came back." I echoed, I really didn't understand the mother and daughter, as if the two of them had been clinging to each other all along, completely abandoning the others.

"Xingzhu should go home more in the future, and the provincial father will be talking about you again when the time comes, and you will be angry and not eat." Tianyi seemed to be joking, "Xingzhu, we are a family, and it is more convenient for the family to live together." ”

At this time, Xu Wei staggered and walked downstairs with his head in his hands, and at a glance, he knew that he had drunk too much and had not slept well.

"Weiwei, I didn't go to work today." As soon as Aunt Zeng saw Xu Wei, she got up to greet her, but Xu Wei quietly avoided her and sat down on the single sofa on the side. "I drank yesterday, look at you like this, how haggard you are, Xiaomo, bring a cup of bird's nest to the second lady."

"What's wrong Xu Wei, have you been very worried about the company's affairs lately? I took a vacation with my mother, and I hurt you. Tianyi said with a smile, took an apple and handed it to Xu Wei, Xu Wei didn't pick her up and put it back, "What's the matter, the company has been fine lately, right?" ”

"Well, it's okay, you can handle it, you just happened to be back, you take over!" Xu Weiyi was happy and leaned back on the sofa with his eyes closed.

"Look at what your baby has become of, Tianyi, you should hurry up and share some of the burden for your sister." Aunt Zeng was very interested and joked.

"Mom, don't be like this, I'm still used to when you're not around." Xu Wei reacted very much, and stood up immediately, "Xingzhu is here, you are not afraid of being embarrassed." ”

What's so embarrassing. I wondered, wasn't it her mother who affectionately called her?

"Look at you child, what am I embarrassed about, you are all my children, what else am I polite to you?"

"Enough mom," Xu Wei was in an unusual atmosphere, she swept away the Yizhong bird's nest that Xiao Mo had just served, and the cup fell to the ground and shattered, "I can't stand it." ”

Suddenly everyone present was stunned, I looked at Xu Wei strangely, her face was flushed, and even her hands were trembling, the cup must have cut her hands, and blood flowed out quickly.

"Xu Wei!" I hurriedly went over and pulled her hand, "What are you doing, Xiao Mo quickly bring the medicine box." ”

I pressed her to the sofa and sat down, and Xiaomo and Xiao Mo hurriedly bandaged her, and Tianyi and Aunt Zeng were also blaming her for why she reacted so emotionally.

"Mom, I don't want to do this anymore, I really don't want to, please, Mom." Xu Wei was completely stimulated, and said something I didn't know, she seemed to not know the pain, and her movements were so great that Xiao Mo and I couldn't even completely control her.

"Weiwei, what are you crazy about, she's our mother, how can you do this to her?" Tianyi came over to persuade her, holding her face to make her sober, "Are you like this every day, how much have you drunk?" ”

"I'm sober, I know everything, sister, are you really pretending?" Xu smiled beautifully, but I looked very distressed.

"You're really crazy, Xiao Mo, take someone to send her to the room, and don't allow her to drink any more." Tianyi stood up and ordered, and the servants immediately helped to get Xu Wei up and help him upstairs.

I was like a dream, Xu Wei was still quiet a moment ago, why was I emotionally moved all of a sudden, and smashed the cup. Why would she say she didn't want to do that anymore? She didn't want to do anything anymore, and what did she mean when she said that Tianyi could really fit on?

I saw Tianyi helping her mother back to the room, hesitantly stood up, I want to ask Xu Wei, what is going on, what is going on in between, what has Xu Wei been suffering.

Xu Wei only had a lack of affection with her mother before, but she definitely didn't want to argue like this as soon as they met. At least, Xu Wei has never been so emotionally out of control.

Xu Wei, what's wrong with you, is there something happening that I don't know?