When I opened the door and went in, I thought for a moment that we were still the same as before, and we went out for a walk after dinner, and then came back to get ready for bed.

Everything in the room is still the same as before, the shoe cabinet in the entrance door, the key table, and the living room when you go inside, the sofa is still the same, and even the cushions are placed in the way I used to tidy up. In the glass vase on the coffee table, a large bouquet of white lilies bloomed brilliantly quietly, as if nothing had anything to do with it.

"Do you come back here often?" I was so happy that a long-lost sense of intimacy took over my heart, and I was melted by this familiar feeling at once.

"Sometimes, it's always okay to come and see it." Juanyu said, I watched him sit down casually, and he was as comfortable as before, "There are too many memories in this, I can't forget it." ”

I took a closer look at each room. This house was earned by Juanyu himself, and it is a home that has been built with hard work step by step, and we have many happy and beautiful memories in it.

I took a closer look at this home, the bathroom, the bedroom, the study, the guest room, the kitchen, the living room, every inch was so familiar and kind.

"Zhuoyu, I still think it's cute and kind." I sat down next to him and looked around, even the TV seemed to be calling me.

"Let's stay, we're still as good as ever, okay?" Juanyu held my hand, and I looked at him & 1 & Ben & read & {}, and his eyes were still looking at me with infinite affection.

"I don't know what to say, can I really go back to the way I used to be," I don't know. ”

"Xingzhu, please, promise me, stay, we will still live in this house, happy and comfortable as before, okay?" I don't know how to answer the eagerness of the question.

"Juanyu, of course it would be good if I could go back to the way I was before, but I'm not mentally prepared yet, as if I'm still thinking about the harm that incident will do to all of us, I think I may need some time."

That's the only way to convince myself. After going through something like that, it's hard not to think about the impact, after all, there are so many memories in this room, I'm afraid I'll think about it over and over again when I come back here, it's just torture.

"Okay, I see," Juanyu said, hanging his head, and I could tell he was disappointed.

Every time I see him like this, I feel very pitiful and distressed, and I want to hug him and give him a hug and comfort him.

"Juanyu, I just need some time." I've always fantasized that all of us can go back in time and be happy that nothing happened, but now I know that I'm the one who has been afraid to face and let go.

When we went to sleep, we still slept in the same bed.

The old quilts, the old sheets, the old pillows, the old people, we were still able to snuggle up to each other and lie down as before.

"Juanyu, can you hug me?" I slipped into his arms and wanted to be closer to him, "You hug me." ”

Juanyu held me in his arms, and I pillowed on his shoulder, feeling very relieved.

"Zhuoyu, you say, do people really have an afterlife?" I've always believed in reincarnation, and how many times I've dreamed of my mom in my dreams, I've become even more convinced that she's always been by my side.

"I don't know, I guess there is." Zhuo Yu didn't object, he still accompanied me, he agreed with whatever I said, "I think about these strange things every day, I don't know what you have in your head." ”

"Then will we be able to meet again in the next life, and even if we do, we will remember it?"

"There are so many stories between us, I'm afraid that we should remember each other in the next life." Juanyu scratches my face, he always likes to pamper me so much, and always likes to spoil me like a child.

I looked at him, and his face was still like that, angular, with thick eyebrows, and his eyes, one single eyelid and one double eyelid, were looking wide open somewhere at the moment. I watched him think quietly and suddenly wanted to kiss him.

I leaned over and kissed his face, eyes, nose, mouth.

I kissed him over and over again, kissing him as gently as he gently painted mine. Juanyu was a little impatient when I kissed him, and when he turned over, he pressed me down and began to dominate.

"Don't regret it," he warned with a smile.

The process was the same as always, but I gradually felt as if my own body was not the same as before. Now I am enthusiastic, unrestrained, and eager, as if I have no previous scruples and shame at all, and I am completely for that moment and for that feeling. Juanyu also felt the change in me, because in the process I felt his hesitation more than once.

When the wind finally calmed down, I turned into a puddle of mud and never moved again, and Juanyu looked at me and laughed.

"What's wrong with you, what's the matter?" Juanyu asked me, he kissed me on the forehead, we used to hug and talk for a while after every love, and it was the same now.

"No, don't you think I'm," I wrapped my arms around his waist and clinged to him, "I just wanted to, because I really don't know how to vent my recent thoughts." ”

No one can really let me let go of the burden in my heart, and the help and comfort of others may only make me forget the heaviness temporarily, but I want to really let myself go for a while.

So, I wanted to find someone crazy for once. Just in the whole process, in fact, I have always thought that I will be the leader, I will be the leader, I used to be the most shy one, and I was not allowed to turn on the light when I had sex for a month after living with Lianyu, I felt very embarrassed, so Zhuoyu has always felt that I was conservative and cute. I think that the way I am now, such a big change, it will inevitably be strange for Lianyu.

"People change, right?" Juanyu didn't say anything, I kept chattering and chattering. "Zhuoyu, you must think I've changed a lot, right?"

"No matter how you change, I like you all the same," Juanyu touched my hair, and he even spoke as if he was tempting me, "But, to be honest, I prefer the way you are now, you really surprised me just now." Why don't we do it again? ”

Dad was sick again, this time more seriously than the last time. When I went to see him, he was lying in a hospital room with an oxygen tube plugged in.

"What's the matter, isn't there someone at home, why is it that no one found out in time when he was sick again?" I heard Xiao Mo say that my father collapsed in his study, and his lips were purple when he was found.

"Miss, the driver and Mama Li went shopping with the old lady, the eldest lady went to work, the maids at home were watering the flowers outside, I shouldn't knock on the door when I passed, and when I went in, I saw the old man lying on the ground, I'm really sorry, Miss." Xiao Mo was so frightened that her face turned white.

"What kind of flowers to water, watering the flowers at noon, is it important that my father's life is not flowered?" I'm really angry that there is no one in my family who can take care of them. Mowing the lawn all day long, planting flowers and pruning branches, how can there be such a good leisure, looking for so many people is to take care of people, and at the critical moment, it seems that plants are more important than people.

"Miss, I-" Xiao Mo didn't dare to say anything after being reprimanded by me, and she didn't dare to move where she stood with her head hanging timidly.

I looked at this girl and suddenly felt that my temper was too big, and it wasn't like she hurt my father.

"Okay, Xiao Mo, don't be angry when I'm angry, I'm just worried," I patted her and asked her to go back, "You go back first, bring some things that my dad needs to use every day to change, I'll just guard it." ”

Xiao Mo nodded, silently walked out of the ward, and glanced at me when the door was closed. I watched as the door was closed and turned to look at my dad, who was still unconscious, his heart rate monitor ticking.

Dad, it's all my fault, it's all our fault, if we were all by your side, we could take care of you a little more in time, how could you be like this.

After the incident, Xiao Mo first notified Tianyi, and then me, but Tianyi has not come to see it until now, and Aunt Zeng also came here to take a look when I came, and then said that she would go back and tell Mama Li to boil some soup to prepare. None of them wanted to come, they didn't want to spend much time with my dad.

"Dad, is this really going to go on like this, Dad, I feel so heartbroken."

Dad woke up at night, and when he woke up, he looked so weak that he didn't even have the strength to speak.

"Xingzhu, I'm afraid Dad won't live long." I leaned into his ear, and after hearing his words, my eyelids sank, and a string of tears fell.

"Dad, what do you say? I will not allow you to say such unlucky things. I quickly wiped away my tears quietly, he already had a heart attack, and so many things have happened recently, although I can hide everything I can, but he is a father after all, how can he be deceived about everything.

"Xingzhu, I've been dreaming about your mother lately." Dad's face was pale, and there were tears in his eyes when he spoke, and I felt like a knife when I saw those old and tearful eyes, "Your mother has been waiting for me." ”

"Dad, you still have a long time to accompany me, you have been absent from my life for so long, how can I let you go so easily." I tried to make myself laugh, I think my father should be more desperate than me, Tianyi has always regarded him as a dispensable person, staying by his side just to get the inheritance of the Xu family, Dad must not be unaware of anything, it's just that he doesn't want to believe and don't want to face it.

"Dad, when you are discharged from the hospital tomorrow, I will take you on a trip, just our father and daughter, I must go through all the family time that I have not experienced before, I have not experienced, do you say yes Dad?"

"Okay, Dad also wants to accompany my Xingzhu, but Xingzhu, you don't want to trouble my old man."

"Don't worry, it's just me who annoys you, I won't let you go easily." I laughed and tried to make myself look lighter and make my dad feel better.