We were all panting roughly, my heart was beating wildly as if it was fully electrified, and Ouyang Jin's panting voice echoed in my ears like a windmill. A gust of wind blew in through the window, and I felt very comfortable with the sweat and heat of my body.

It took a long time for us to start talking.

"Why are you?" I asked him, my hands flat on my waist and abdomen, very calm and calm, "Actually, I don't deserve your attention." ”

"I say worth it is worth it, in my heart you are just a woman, a woman who makes me want to love with my heart." Ouyang Jin is the same as me, except that his hands are pillowed under his head.

"Your conditions can find a woman who is 10,000 times better than me, and I'm just a loser who has no point in it."

"There are many good women, but I just want to catch you." Ouyang Jin's voice was like a murmur, and I had a hazy sense of security when I listened to him speak.

However, I don't know how to love someone anymore.

That night, Ouyang Jin and I gave ourselves to each other again and again, as if tomorrow was the end of the world. At dawn, Ouyang Jin fell asleep deeply, I looked at his sleeping face, listened to his even breathing, I wanted to touch his face, I wanted to gently trace his outline, but I was afraid of waking him up, after all, I didn't have the courage to reach out.

I got up and got dressed, cleaned myself up and was beautiful, I put on perfect makeup @ one @ Ben @ read - , pulled up my black hair high and seductively, I was going to leave here, go to a place where no one else could find me, and never come back.

I've got the passionate and persistent love of a man, and it's time to be satisfied.

I packed everything and went back to the bedside, Ouyang Jin still slept again, he was like a child when he slept, relaxed, simple, and defenseless.

I wish he could open his eyes all at once, and then hold me and not let me leave, but I was afraid that he would be disappointed when he woke up and saw me helping me leave.

I finally mustered up the courage to go and gently touched his face.

"Ouyang Jin, thank you for always being so good to me, thank you for always showing me the right path so that I don't make too many mistakes, thank you for never blindly indulging me and making me more and more confused, and thank you for always loving me so silently, it's just that your love, the love that all of you give, I can't afford it."

I pulled my suitcase and left the room without looking back.

Probably, in this foreign land, I might be able to survive.

Walking down the road, watching the cars coming and going, I didn't know where I was going. Everyone walked forward in a panic, everyone had a goal, only my aimless footsteps scattered like a ghost.

I can't go to Xu Wei, Ouyang Jin will find me, I can't go home now, Ouyang Jin will find me, as if there is nothing left where I can go.

What should I do with Juanyu, how should I continue with him now, as a friend, or as a lover, or as a relative. So what are Ouyang Jin and me? How do I explain last night's madness?

Slowly I began to regret what I had to do, why did I let go of such an indulgent self, didn't I think about the consequences?

I walked tired and hungry to a very small restaurant, where I went in and ordered a cup of coffee and asked myself a large plate of pasta. I was really hungry, and the noodles on my plate were quickly bottoming out, and when I finished eating, I wiped my mouth with a tissue, and suddenly I felt very pitiful, gobbling up a plate of noodles in this small restaurant in a foreign country, as if I had pushed myself into a difficult and embarrassing realm. I feel sorry for myself now, really distressed.

My tears soon spread, and a drop fell on the plate in front of me, blending with the noodle soup stains on the plate, mottled and ugly.

I suddenly wanted to be nice to myself, I called the waiter, and he asked me to get a taxi to take me to the best hotel nearby, I wanted to rest, I wanted to sleep. I've been walking for almost a day and I'm really tired.

When I pulled out my wallet to pay the bill, there were countless missed calls from my phone in my bag, all from one number.

Ouyang Jin is probably really crazy, otherwise why would he keep calling me all the time.

The cashier looked at my face and took the money I handed me, maybe she wondered why I didn't answer even when the phone rang, maybe she thought I was a weird lunatic.

I got into a taxi, and the driver took me to the best hotel nearby, and I graciously gave him a $100 tip. Then he walked into the hotel lobby with great grace.

I just want to make my life better, I just want to be a little more tolerant of myself.

When I entered the hotel room, the waiter had already helped me take my luggage in and put it away, and as soon as I entered the door, I took off my high heels and stepped on the wool carpet with my bare feet, and I immediately felt much more comfortable.

I thanked the waiter and went to the bathroom to hand out water, as if in a hot bath.

I took off my clothes in front of the wide dressing mirror, and there were still traces of last night's love on my neck, and Ouyang Jin said a word when he gently gnawed on my skin, and I remember it clearly.

"Leave a trace, and you'll be mine forever."

I will belong to any of you, I will only belong to myself, because now I will not fall in love with others easily.

I soaked myself in the hot water, and suddenly my tiredness began to melt, and I couldn't help but sigh because I was cared for by the water.

I took a shower and went to sleep, pulled out my phone's battery, closed all the curtains, turned off all the lights, and then wrapped myself in a sheet and fell asleep in the dark.

In the middle of the day I woke up and I don't know how long it would be before I woke up hungry again and decided that I should go and have a good meal. Then I got up, and then I put on my makeup, and I quickly dressed myself from a mindless patient to a delicate flower.

I should go and have some fun, not many people say that if you don't go to Las Vegas, you don't have been to the United States, so since you are in Las Vegas, you should go to the night club here to indulge your body and mind.

I walked around the street casually, and then decided which one to go in after seeing the crowds at the door of the night club.

When I went in, I realized that I was wearing too formal today, and maybe I should have dressed them in the same revealing and seductive way as they did, so that it would be appropriate for the occasion.

A group of men gathered around the bar to watch a group of women with heavy makeup do pole dancing, and they changed and danced, and the people below became more energetic, and countless bills flew in all directions. I thought it was fun, and it was exciting to stand there and watch.

Those women danced so well, spinning, jumping, and teasing, even I envied how they could perform so skillfully with a single pole.

Someone next to me came to talk to me, and I could hear him asking if he could treat me to a drink.

I looked back at this man, male, in his thirties, with short blond hair, black pants, white striped shirt, and the length was okay.

I readily agreed, and I guess I'm at least a little attractive to be accosted by a strange man.

He ordered me a cocktail, which I later learned was called an Apple Martini, and I felt very refreshing and sweet when I took the first sip, and slowly started to heat up all over my body.

I didn't understand much English this man spoke, but I could easily understand what he was saying by talking and gesturing.

He said his name was Andrew, divorced, had a five-year-old daughter, and his wife was on good terms with another man.

I said are you a failed man, why would your wife go with another man and not you.

He was surprised that I was so direct, laughed and said it was only because his business had lost money and gone bankrupt. He asked me where I was from, and I only said that I was from the East, and he didn't go any further.

The two of us were quiet for a while, and then I started to look at the women dancing on the stage again.

"Do you think I would look good if I danced?" I pointed to the other side of the stage and asked him, and he looked at it and shook his head with a smile.

"I don't think so, at least not today, maybe it's just that your clothes today are not suitable for such a dance."

Very cute man, I suddenly rejected all the frivolous and superficial thoughts in my heart that I thought that Westerners were the same. This man is as honest as I am, not at all agitated and hypocritical.

"I'll definitely try it out tomorrow with a different outfit."

"Okay, then I'll have to see your skills tomorrow."

I don't know how much of the mixture I drank that night, and by the end I was completely unconscious, and I didn't know how I got back.

I woke up the next morning, with a splitting headache, and I struggled to get up to wash my face, and I was scared of myself like a female ghost in the mirror.

The clothes on my body are still from yesterday, it should be the same person who sent me back last night, he didn't touch me, he should be a decent gentleman.

I called room service, ordered food and called in, I wanted to go to the mall to buy clothes after eating, I thought I should try to dress myself up sexy and wild.

Ouyang Jin is probably tired of looking for me. I think he must have thought I'd gone back, and maybe he's busy working with Universal America to get the next step in the project.

I eat very nutritious food, soups, and drinks, and although I don't know what is on the menu, I can decide for myself whether I want it or don't want it by the beauty and ugliness of the food in the picture. I quickly ran out of cash, but I still had a credit card to swipe, so I wasn't worried about money.

I went shopping a little far away from the place where Ouyang Jin gambled that day, and I was afraid that he would find me.

I spent an afternoon frantically swiping my card, buying clothes, beautiful shoes, designer bags, cosmetics, skin care products, perfumes, diamond necklaces, and I also bought myself a big Mickey puppet, and when I finally returned with a full load, I realized how capitalist I was this afternoon, I actually spent nearly 10,000 dollars.

In the evening I'm going to dance at the same bar I went to yesterday, like the women.

But unfortunately my wish did not come true, Ouyang Jin didn't know why he knew where I was, and as soon as I stepped on the stage at night, I saw him sitting in the dark drinking from a distance.