"Xingzhu has a bit of a problem with her uterus, it's not easy to conceive now, don't you know an old Chinese medicine doctor, can you ask him to help take a look at it and recuperate?"

I didn't expect Ouyang Jin to talk about this at this time, so I suddenly felt like I was stuck in an ice pit, and my whole body began to chill nervously.

Ouyang Jin's mother was obviously taken aback when she heard this, but soon returned to normal.

"Okay, when are we going to go to him and see, he's very good at this."

I didn't expect Ouyang Jin to tell his mother about my situation so casually, what I'm worried about now is that his mother must think that I'm not a good girl.

Because how could a good girl have something wrong with the womb and give birth to a child for no reason?

"Why didn't you tell your mother about me without consulting me beforehand?" Before going to bed at night, I stood on the edge of the bed and watched Ouyang Jin lying there relaxed and leisurely, and I tried my best to persuade myself to ask as calmly as possible.

"What's wrong?" Ouyang didn't care, and still lay there in a more comfortable position.

"Don't you think that your seemingly simple and unserious attitude will make your mother think that I am a bad girl who doesn't know how to cherish herself? Why did you say so bluntly, saying that there is something wrong with my uterus? ”

"What's this, I don't think I'm wrong about anything. One. Root. Read. Ahh I just told her to ask her to do a favor and find someone to take care of it for you, you don't have to be so sensitive, and you react so much. ”

Ouyang Jin's attitude seemed to be saying that I was simply an unreasonable person.

"Did I react too much? Don't you think you're pushing me to the top of the storm by saying that, your mother must think I'm living an indecent life. ”

"How can anyone think about something like you every day, my mother is not as unkind as you say, is there a problem with the uterus is an inappropriate life?"

Ouyang Jin didn't lie down either, and stood up in front of me with a bang, I didn't expect him to look at me so quickly and closely, and I was really frightened.

"You don't know my mother too well, my mother is not the kind of person who listens to the wind and rain, she thinks you are good, and she will not have a bad impression of you because of what I say."

When he said this, I felt like I had nothing to say again. It seems that I myself am really too sensitive and suspicious, and Ouyang Jin is indeed good for me.

I didn't speak, I walked over to the bed and sat down.

Ouyang Jin saw that I didn't speak, and sat down beside me.

"Don't think too much, my mother is not the kind of person who thinks cranky, since she thinks you like you, she won't say anything anymore, I just hope for a little more hope, haven't you always wanted a child."

"I feel like I'm going crazy." I beat the bed in frustration, hating myself for being more and more suspicious now.

I really wanted to cure my own infertility, I had seen a lot of doctors and taken a lot of medicine, but it didn't work. I think it's not easy to find someone like Ouyang Jin who is so good to me in my current situation, and I'm already very grateful and glad, so I have to work hard to make my situation better in order not to disappoint him. But Ouyang Jin was so good to me that I began to wonder if I had anything else to do to me that was worthy of him treating me like this, because just because I was married, because the miscarriage seriously damaged the uterus, it was really not worth his care. So gradually, infertility and uterine problems became pains that I can't talk about.

"Ouyang Jin, you still don't treat me like this, you are so good to me that I feel that I can't afford to pay you back."

"I'm not being nice to you to make you pay me back, if you think I'm good to you and make you feel tired, then I really have to say I'm sorry," Ouyang Jin looked at me, his eyes looked at me and I didn't dare to look at him directly, "It turns out that I am good to a woman, and I didn't make her feel happy and happy, but it just made her feel troubled." ”

When he said this, I started crying.

I didn't mean to do that. I didn't want him to think so.

"Ouyang Jin, I didn't."

"What's wrong, nothing? Didn't you want me to feel like you're bothered right now, or didn't you want me to feel like the love I'm giving you now makes you feel too restricted? ”

He asked me this, and I couldn't find an answer to him.

"It's not that I give you too much, it's that you give yourself too much of yourself." Ouyang Jin sighed and said softly.

I lowered my head and didn't look at him, tears falling on my legs one by one, sucking into the fibers of my clothes, and quickly blurring a large area of wetness.

Ouyang Jin took my hand, held up my face with the other hand, and gently wiped my tears with his thumb, rubbing back and forth on my face.

"Don't think about it so much, you're going to be too much for you to handle. That's not your fault, I'm not trying to make you feel burdened if I'm being nice to you, and I don't know what to do if you're like this, do I want to continue to be nice to you and make you continue to be burdened, or if I'm not good to you, I don't want to make me feel guilty? ”

With tears in my eyes, I looked at him and understood one thing, to love someone is to love only one person, to love all of her, no matter how willful, rude, and petty temper she is, or gentle, beautiful, and understanding. When I love her, I feel that she is the only one in the world, no matter how many shortcomings she has, no matter how inconspicuous she is compared to others.

My self-pity like this will only make Ouyang Jin more and more annoyed, and it will only destroy the relationship between us more and more, because he has already accepted that I can't have children when he was planning to marry me, and he has already advised himself to accept it safely, while I am hitting him over and over again, challenging his decision.

"Ouyang Jin, why are you so good to me, I'm not beautiful, I'm not cute, and I have a bad temper, aren't you afraid that you can't find someone a hundred times better than me in such conditions?"

I leaned into his arms as I spoke, wrapping my arms around his waist like vines, and muttering coquettishly.

"yes, what's so good about you, why am I only obsessed with you? I've been wondering why this question is going on, but I can't think of an answer. ”

Ouyang rubbed my hair, and the atmosphere between us was extremely warm.

"Ouyang Jin, I must be very lucky and lucky to meet someone as good as you."

I listened to Ouyang Jin's even breathing sound from his sleep, and I didn't dare to sit up until I was sure that he was really asleep.

Take away his hand around my waist, leave his chest, get out of bed, tuck the quilt for him, put on his slippers, open the door gently, go out, close the door. I do all this with the same care as if I were a thief.

In Ouyang Jin's mother's room, there was still light stealing from the crack under the door.

I stood by the door, knocked lightly twice, and then there was the sound of footsteps inside.

"Auntie, I have something to say to you."

The door opened, and I looked at Ouyang Jin's mother, who was standing in front of me, neatly dressed, and had no intention of sleeping, and she probably expected that I would come to her.

"Come in."

I went in and watched her walk to the edge of the bed and sit down, closing the door gently.

"Come, sit on the bed, it looks like you have a lot to say to me." She beckoned, patted the bed, and motioned for me to sit next to her.

My heart was surprisingly calm at the moment, and I walked over, took the hand she handed me, and sat down cross-legged with her.

"What's wrong, is there something bothering you?"

"Auntie, I want to tell you I'm sorry first, there are some things you don't know, but I don't want to hide it from you, it's just that I haven't figured out how to tell you."

"We all have things we don't want to talk about, I understand. Sometimes we can't be sure if the person in front of us is the one worth our hearts and lungs for? ”

When she said this, I was surprised that she was wiser than I had imagined, more understanding and thorough than I had imagined.

"Auntie, I miss my mother very much, if she is alive, she is not as old as you, but when I see you, I am as kind as seeing her."

"Then I feel very happy, I also want to have a daughter like you, although you don't have a mother, but I can see that you are deeply influenced by her, and she teaches you very well."

"Yes, she is more open-minded than me, and often teaches me not to always carry anger and hatred, but to be happy and downcast, so that I don't feel that life is heavy."

"She is a very wise woman. If she sees you like this in the world, she will be very satisfied. ”

"Auntie, I always felt that I was no longer qualified to look for happiness, but what Ouyang Jin gave me made me feel both surprised and scared. I was pleasantly surprised that I could still have a new life, and I was afraid that this sudden happiness would suddenly leave again. ”

"What, does Ouyang Jin make you feel scared or troubled?"

"No, it's me who bothers myself because I don't think I'm worthy of him. I don't deserve him to be so nice to me. ”

"The world of feelings is an unclear thing, if you blindly count what is worth it or not, then you will never be happy. Ouyang Jin is good to you because he feels that you are worthy of being good to you and worthy of his attention to you. You just have to respond to him, and there's no need to fight yourself. ”

"But I don't know what to do to him for his good, I don't seem to have anything to repay him."

"It's just a simple thing for two people to be nice to each other, so why use reciprocation? Doesn't it seem very raw to repay it, why should it be repaid, and it is not a transaction. If you put energy and effort into this relationship, that's fine, I think Ouyang Jin is good to you and doesn't want you to repay him. ”

I was silent, yes, Ouyang Jin also kept saying that he was good to me just wanted to be good to me, no reason, and he didn't think about what to get from me. I'm so troubled because I think the good of others is my trouble.

"I was married before and was pregnant with a child, and Ouyang Jin said that I had a problem with my uterus because the child was injured during a miscarriage, so I can't get pregnant now."

I plucked up the courage to say it, in fact, I didn't know what I was trying to do, whether I wanted Ouyang Jin's mother to persuade him to think carefully, or to persuade myself to stop coveting other people's good to me like this.

Ouyang Jin's mother looked at me directly for a while, and then she actually laughed. I'm confused.

"You must have mustered up a lot of courage to say that, didn't you?"

I don't speak, and that's true. Just now I watched Ouyang Jin slowly fall asleep, and I kept thinking about how I was going to make it clear to his mother, if I didn't tell her these things before marrying his son, would she think I was cheating on her.

"Okay, it's okay to say it, don't think about it anymore, get ready to get married, you can slow down the matter of having children, what matters now is to take care of your body first, don't think about the rest first."

I was surprised, didn't she even ask?

"Auntie, you, aren't you angry, don't you want to ask me?"

"Why should I be angry, it's a great event for my son to get married, what am I doing when I'm angry?"

"But I've been married and injured, and I don't even know if I can have children in the future."

"Let it be. I don't think anyone wants to see their marriage experience such a thing, if you are willing to tell me about your past, it means that you respect me very much, since you respect me, then I must also respect you. I just want you and my son to get married sooner and we get married sooner. ”

When I heard this, tears came uninvited again. Now there is a woman like a mother who is willing to accept me unconditionally and is willing to become a family with me.