Coming out of my friend's dormitory, he had just finished playing a game and sighed, I was a little sleepy

"Sleep!"

"Well, I'm leaving." I said

11.15

Now it is,

11.39

"Go on the road, three pieces of equipment for your teammates..."

My roommates haven't slept yet, watching the live broadcast, the sound is not loud, not small, and I haven't slept either, but I'm a little irritable.

I think this may be one of the reasons why I don't sleep much, I can't sleep at night, both subjective and objective. Insomnia started in the third year of high school, and one of the things I feared the most at that time was sleeping. Before going to bed, I closed my eyes, completely cut off from my friends and the world, it was dark, and my mind was full of subjective thoughts that were about to tear me apart. I woke up once, gasping for breath, a dull pain in my chest, and a word popped up in my head.

It's called the heart like a knife.

I also have some worries now, and my sister also has some worries, I asked my friends, and my friends also have them.

Today I went to have a barbecue with my friends, and there was a waiter in the store, I felt familiar.

"Was the senior in the student council before?"

After several repeated glances, I asked.

"Huh? Hahaha yes, yes. He smiled cheerfully at me, I remember calling him "Brother Yi" at the time, I don't know if it was this "One", the students would move things, and he had the hardest time moving. I think this kind of down-to-earth person is very impressive to me.

"Where did the senior go?"

"Let's stay at this school," he laughed.

"Oh, it's good to stay in this school, which teacher is it?"

"Zhao Yi

gyi

g。 "He looked up, and the senior was a little shorter than us.

"Oh...... Teacher Zhao, Teacher Zhao is also very good. "I don't know about Mr. Zhao, and I don't know about teachers outside of our major.

Yes, I know too limited things, I can only lie to those children who don't know anything, they haven't learned, I will talk about my opinions in layman's terms, and when they will know, they will find out that my statement is wrong, and they will find out that I am a paranoid person, so some people say

"You weren't like this before"

I think

That's because you didn't know me before, do I know me? I'm not sure if I know me or not, I think there is a deviation in what others know about me, I don't know if I feel biased, or if I am just what others think I am, but I don't admit it.

"Well, junior, where are you going?" He asked with a smile.

"Ah, a place in Dalian." I laughed.

"Oh Dalian, go to Dagong, Dagong is easy to test! Alas, I knew that I was going to be admitted to the university. He sighed, a hint of regret in it.

"Ah, it's not a big job, it's a chemical haha." I laughed twice.

"Oh, yes, we have a professional to go to the office."

"Well, there are many people who take the Dalian test, and there are also many people who take the northernization test." I searched my head for what they had said.

"Beihua, Beihua is better to test." He smiled and said, "Okay, you guys order first, someone over there called me." ”

"Uh-huh."

…

"I heard."

"Huh?"

"I heard that he is a very" My friend lowered his voice and made a lip shape.

“kua

g？ I said

"Yes, a crazy person, they say professionally." Said a friend

"Huh? No, I think it's kind. I said, "Don't we also say I'm crazy and proud, what do you think of me?" ”

"Hmm... Sort of, indeed. ”

"Okay."

Insist on writing this, my roommate hasn't slept yet, I'm sleepy, tomorrow is a day of hope, I hope my heart is the same as my words, I sometimes use words to deceive myself, and I can feel the words that deceive myself, just like feeling the attitude of others towards me. I'm good at feeling this, but I'm really unlucky, and I always have these things in my mind unconsciously magnified. So some people say

"It's not that I'm afraid of someone's glass heart"

I think that the glass heart is an objective fact, but I am not a glass slag heart, is the glass heart a very shameful thing? It's just that it's very sensitive to the outside world.,But it's not popular with others.。

Please don't get me wrong about other people here, not in the broad sense, other than yourself, if someone is prejudiced against me, I will give up my relationship with him, her, and it. This is other people, friends, I think, no matter how mature friendship or love, all need to care for each other, not completely independent.

Friends are tolerant of the so-called glass heart, and since it is prejudiced, small flaws will be infinitely magnified and cover up.

I've thought about, man, how can I change your prejudice against me.

I understand that the more I have to change, the more convinced I become.

I'm not trying to live in someone else's world, I'm just performing, my performance is very pompous, and I wish someone could see my pompous appearance and pat me on the shoulder, as I always tell others

"It's okay, just be yourself, we both like you."