[Dear Fei'er,

See you in good faith! 】

"Fei'er"?

These two words seemed to be some kind of fuse, and a lot of memories surged into Lin Fei's head.

This belongs to the original owner, this little girl's, memory.

Frog fun, what are you beating?

Lin Fei rubbed his temples that were a little painful, not knowing what to say.

Your memory is not settled all at once, and you have to slowly and slowly spit it out at a certain time.

Why do you wear it?

Where did the original go?

The answer is in this heavy memory.

Pretty little girls are not smart, even a little dull.

She has stood at the top and experienced the trough, well-behaved and cringe.

Her father's torture, the abuse of the head teacher, the disdain of her peers, and the gap in her work finally defeated her.

It's sad and it's a pity.

When she died, she was just a seventeen-year-old girl.

Live, live, no matter how difficult it is, there will always be light in life.

It is unimaginable that this pure and clean girl walked to the roof of the school administration building and died lonely and quietly.

Except for me, no one knows or cares about the person who put it on her.

The father in my memory was not a hopeless gambler from the beginning.

He was, too, a wonderful man, sort of, probably.

Who is born and thinks their parents are the big bad guys?

Perhaps, few people will be moved by the rotten composition plot of "Dad carried me to the hospital on a rainy day".

However, these experiences are the reddest and most colorful wild roses in Lin Fei's dilapidated childhood.

Both in the past and in the future, it is beautiful.

The sugar residue in a cup of bitter water naturally looks extraordinarily sweet.

As a child, she did not live in Sioux City, but in a small county town in her hometown.

She was weak and had a cold and fever from time to time.

Every time, it was Dad, carrying her on his back, in a small pharmacy nearby.

Walk through the shops that are not too bustling and go downhill.

Lin Fei is playful and naughty, and likes to watch the boss grind the medicine into powder with a mortar.

Also, Dad can climb over the fence of the bridge to pick it up because Lin Fei likes a dog's tail grass by the bridge.

There is rushing water under the bridge, and if you don't pay attention to it, it may be a dead end.

Lin Fei checked these memories and found that Lin Gang was quite ignorant, didn't he mess around with his daughter?

Oh, and they are indeed childlike at heart.

There were many rats in the old house, and exterminating rats was a very nerve-wracking thing at home at that time.

Lin Gang took the iron cage and designed a mechanism, and caught two rats at once, one large and one small.

The little mouse trembled and hid under the big mouse, and the big mouse kept testing the surrounding environment to see if he could open the iron cage.

All things have spirits, except for mice.

He doesn't care about ethics among mice.

It's all bad, it's all damned!

Lin Fei was curious to watch this pleasure, but he was afraid to see the bloody scene of his father poking the rat to death with an iron rod, which was both a dish and a fun-loving one.

"Dad, I'm so scared, don't you think it's too cruel?"

She was wet and sticky and wrapped around Lin Gang, hiding behind him.

Dad's eyes were full of smiles, too.

Li Gang came up with a good way to kill rats painlessly.

He dug out a discarded bucket in his home, filled it with water, and put the iron cage inside.

The diameter of the bucket is too small, and the iron cage just gets stuck, which is perfect.

The rat threw itself around the cage a few times, but could not escape.

Unexpectedly, after a night, they saw a magical scene-

The big rat's forelimbs clasped the gap at the top of the cage, and its hindlimbs also found a fulcrum on the wall of the cage.

It has a bulging belly, and it looks like it has drunk a lot of water, and it swells like this.

And the little mouse, lying peacefully on the back of the big mouse, looked at the outside world cautiously with small eyes

Maybe it's fatherly love, or mother's love, or brotherhood?

He's good for anything.

This kind of emotional scene made Lin Gang's heart soften.

Both rats were eventually taken away by him to a garbage dump not far away.

During the holidays, Dad would take a small blackboard and teach Lin Fei to memorize ancient poems.

"Grape wine glow-in-the-dark glass, if you want to drink pipa, urge immediately."

For a long time, she thought that the pipa was a kind of wine.

The short drama of childhood has come to an end.

A long story from the teenage years, opening.

It's so long that Lin Fei has to forget what his father is

In other words, there is no specific appearance of human beings, and everything is constantly changing over time.

Is it gambling?

Is it the greed of the heart?

Are you not satisfied?

Is it a comparison?

What is it that makes a good father, husband, and son who seems to be okay turn into this maggot now, rolling wildly in the mud.

Lies, violence, insults, beatings, bloodshed.

Lin Fei's daily life is haunted by gloomy clouds, pale red blood and indifferent sorrow.

The scars on the body will heal.

Leave a scar, that's all.

However, the trauma of the soul, self-doubt, the distortion of the three views, the timid and timid character, the pretending to be strong, and the confusion of not knowing where to go, just like blood and bones, melted into her body.

Lin Fei is willing to believe, she is willing to lie to herself, that's not him, that's not my father, he was just robbed of his soul by gambling, leaving only an empty shell, doing nonsense.

People often say that today's children are born in the blessing and do not know the blessing, they read in the classroom every day, have they experienced any winds and waves?

Lin Fei took a deep breath and read bitterly in his heart: Is this counted?

She was filled with a lot of thoughts, and in the end, she still set her eyes on this father's suicide note.

Dear Fei'er,

See you in good faith!

Allow me to call you that, Feifei.

Dad knows that I have made a big mistake and caused you a lot of damage, and I can't be forgiven.

There is no endless road, God has closed a door for you, and he will naturally open a window for you.

You have lost my love, grandparents, mothers and aunts, will give you more care.

While serving my sentence, I reflected a lot and thought a lot.

Life in prison is boring, and remembering your innocent and lovely appearance when you were a child is my only consolation.

I can't pay back the damage I did in the past.

In the future, I may not be able to control myself from gambling again. Scold.

Fei Fei, Fei Fei, Fei Fei, Fei Fei, Fei Fei.

I read your name over and over again, hoping to remember it a little more and ask it to accompany me on the rest of the Huangquan Road.

How nice would it be if there really was a sky blue shore in the world?

My ghost big hand can be in the air, hold your little hand, and go home happily as when I was a child.

If there is an afterlife, Dad hopes that he can fulfill his responsibility and protect you for the rest of your life.

2023.10.2

Father: Lin Gang

In Prison (End of Chapter)