Lynn and I were born in the county party committee's family home, where we spent our entire childhood, and it wasn't until I was in the sixth grade of elementary school that the demolition began.

In my memory, my dad loved to drink since he was a child, and he was the kind of person who started to drink everywhere as soon as he drank.

At that time, everyone in the yard knew that I had a father who loved to drink.

My mom said I was young at the time, and my dad once came back from drinking to have a fight with her, so he threw me to the ground. Now that I think about it, it was really not easy for me to grow up in my dad's hands. So since I was a child, I have heard my mother the most, if it weren't for the two of you, I would have divorced your dad a long time ago.

"Lin Shulynn, go home for dinner!" The lady who was calling us in the yard was the old mother of me and Lynn who couldn't get enough of it.

"Lynn, your mother told you to come home for dinner."

"Lynn! Take me! I have no one in the house, my grandma can't cook! I'm going to your house for dinner! "This chubby little cute little boy behind us is called Zhao Zhao, in my young memory this little boy has always been by Lynn's side, until he repeated his studies for a year in the third year of high school, and then gradually disappeared from Lynn's side, Lynn's senior year of high school I clearly remember that every morning I can hear Zhao Zhao enter my house, and then go out with Lynn, and the evening self-study must be seen by two people.

In front of this has been renovated two bedrooms, one living room and one bathroom is our home when we were young, because it is too cloudy on the first floor, so a lot of strange things happened in my memory at that time, such as once I and Lynn the woman went out to the public toilet in the compound at night to poop when we came back from the courtyard was very dark and only a few houses were lit up, at that time we slept very early, as if ten o'clock did not sleep I felt that it was a terrible thing, Lynn closed the security door at home only to find that I had not entered the door after following him, I went outside and cried, and my dad opened the door, and then Lynn said he had seen a shadow walk in front of her, and he thought it was me. Later that night, Lynn always felt someone scratching her leg.

Another time my dad came back from the car in the early hours of the morning, and then when he came back, he came in with him a dying mouse, after he drove out, I started to feel wrong, first sat up from the bed and began to look for my own clothes, saying that there was a flood, at that moment I felt like I was dreaming, but my sister said that I was just like that, next to him and screaming and looking for things, and then I crawled next to Lynn and looked at Lynn, I still remember that time I was playing with Lynn Zhao Zhao in the courtyard in my dream. Lynn and my mom were scared that night, and it was my mom who used the "dirt" method to get me to sleep. Later, my dad said that he had come with him that day, and there was a girl from a family in the yard who had just died in the house.

Since then, Lynn and I have been afraid of the dark, especially me, even more than Lynn.

But at that time, where there is me at night, there will definitely be Lynn, and where there is Lynn, there will definitely be Zhao Zhao.

That's why for so long I thought they would be together, and that idea didn't go away until Lynn got married.

In fact, one night before I went to bed, I asked Lynn why she didn't have 5 with Zhao Zhao, and Lynn said that people who grew up together from childhood sometimes can't tell whether it's about love or just friendship.

Zhao Zhao didn't show up at my sister's wedding when he got married, but he called Lynn the night before, and he said on the other end of the phone: "Lynn, I didn't expect you to get married so suddenly." ”

"So, you can hurry up and find a partner to marry, you see that the hair in our yard before has basically a home, and you are the only one left, don't drag us back." Lynn on the other end of the phone said teasingly as usual.

Later, the phone was transferred to me, "Lin Shu, you can't learn from your sister to get married so soon, you have to study hard, if you have any pressure, you still have to talk to your brother often, and my brother will enlighten you when the time comes." Zhao Zhao on the other end of the phone chattered for a long time.

In fact, at that time, I especially wanted to ask secretly, Zhao Zhao, just say, for so many years, have you always been interesting to my sister, but after thinking about it, I still didn't ask this sentence, because I couldn't think of if Zhao Zhao on the other end answered me: "Yes, it is interesting to your sister, but my friend doesn't know how to start for so many years." "How do I reply to him.

But looking back now, who doesn't have a little regret in life. After all, people always have to spend their lives with regrets.

"Auntie, can I follow Lynn to your house for dinner every day in the future, I'll exchange that bike from me." Zhao Zhao, who followed Lynn home, said.

The reason why Zhao Zhao said this is also because his parents have quarreled and even fought for a long time, so his mother basically doesn't go home much, and his father is too, Zhao Zhao at that time can be regarded as a left-behind child, compared with Zhao Zhao, although my family is not much better, but in the case of my father not drinking and not going crazy, it is still a happy family, perhaps, Zhao Zhao can feel more warmth in my family.

There is still a big difference between the family conditions of our family and Zhao Zhao's family, at that time Zhao Zhao's family was considered a high-paid class, when I was a child, Lynn and I were most happy to go to Zhao Zhao's house for the New Year, because every New Year, Zhao Zhao's grandmother will always prepare a lot of sugar that we have not seen, when we go to his house, Zhao Zhao's grandmother will always grab a lot of us, and at that time my family could not afford to buy pistachios, Zhao Grandma also loves us the most, although I and Lynn are not her grandsons, but he is no different from us and Zhao Zhao.

At that time, my father also bragged a lot that the last two generations of my family were also landlords.

I will reply: So Dad, the saying that you can't be rich for three generations is not unreasonable.

After that, my dad wouldn't say anything more.

At that time, I bought firecrackers for the New Year and played with the friends of the small courtyard, but then again, I haven't said how disgusting Zhao Zhao was at that time, every time he set off firecrackers in the Year of the Dog, he could always find the "" next to the public toilet, and then lit the firecracker and inserted it on the "", and then ran away before it exploded. Now think about how disgusting and disgusting it was at that time, but the happiness at that time was also really happy, just a few cents of firecrackers and a lump of "", everyone can play disgustingly all day.

At that time, Lynn and I seemed to be missing a string in our brains, because she didn't play cards according to the routine several times, and my mother was either looking for her who was "lost" or looking for me who was "lost".

Lynn said that she couldn't blame her for her bad brain, and blamed my mother for not looking at her properly, so that she bumped her head several times while playing.

When I was in my early teens, Lynn and I were always fighting, but I never hit her once, and every time she chased her all over the world.

At that time, the days were always happy, and at that time, you could always see the stars when you looked up at night, and at that time, the upper house tiles would not "fall to death" if they fell.

It wasn't until I graduated in my twenties that I realized how happy my childhood life was.

People don't always grow like this, losing and growing.

Speaking of me and Yang Yi.

I have a weak personality since I was a child, because as a second child, I was born in the era when family planning was just tight.

In my memory, my sister and I didn't have many opportunities to appear in the same place at the same time, and I was wronged by Lynn, a woman, who was "sent" to my grandmother's house for a long time, so that for a long time my mother felt that I owed my sister too much, and other people's families were eccentric second children, and our family was different, eccentric boss, but I never felt that there was anything wrong, to put it bluntly, and then my mother compensated Lynn for the love that was owed to him a few years ago, of course, there was also my "debt".

I remember that at that time, people who checked family planning often came to the door, and at that time, my mother would always hide in the corner. It wasn't until a while later that I couldn't tell whether it was a relative who came to visit the door or someone who checked for family planning.

So as long as people come to the house without my mother to say, I will hide myself.

Because the family is poor, my father can't afford to pay the fine for having a second child, and begged my married second uncle to temporarily put his household registration in his house.

So during that period of time, he would come to the door from time to time to say that he would move the household registration out as soon as possible, my father Lin Yaozu said that it was very strange, he had a good temper in front of his family, he had never seen him angry with them, he was simply a good man in front of them, but in my impression he was either because he went out to drink and quarreled with my mother, or because of some other trivial things and my mother quarreled, and then it took almost two years until I grew up, When my hukou was transferred to our family register again, the relationship with my mother was written in the column of niece, and I often jokingly asked my mom about this incident if I was really not their biological child. Of course, my mom would have retorted directly.

I met Yang Yi and I have reached elementary school.

"Lin Shu, you shouldn't be a dumb person, then I'll call you a little dumb from now on, what do you say." The girl standing in front of me who was dressed in a prosperous world was called Nanfang.

At that time, I never realized what school bullying was, I just knew that they didn't play with me and didn't like me.

Nanfang was transferred from another school when I was about to graduate from elementary school, and my life was relatively smooth before Nanfang came, although I didn't talk much, but I still had a lot of friends, and after Nanfang came everything seemed to change, she began to isolate me with everyone else, and gave me the nickname of a little mute.

Once, after school, they followed me and kept shouting, "Little dumb! Little dumb! ”

At that time, I didn't feel anything but helplessness.

So I ran as hard as I could, as hard as I could, hoping to make this sound a little farther away from me.

Then I was hit by a car that came out of nowhere.

The sounds that annoyed me for a second suddenly disappeared from my ears, followed by a throbbing pain in my lower back.

"I'm not going to just die, no, I haven't grown up yet, I haven't made a lot of money yet!" I was woken up by a voice that came out of nowhere, and I struggled to get up from the ground.

"Little girl, are you okay, do you want to take you to the hospital?" A man in his forties said as he got out of the car.

I didn't answer, shook my head, at that moment I just wanted to get up quickly and leave. It's best not to let others know what just happened.

"Lin Shu, are you okay?" I looked up to find the source of the voice, and the person standing in front of me was Yang Yi.

He appeared when I needed comfort the most, as if a light suddenly appeared in a dark world.

Although Yang Yi and I are at the same table at school, we don't talk much, and it's strange to say that Yang Yi is also a person with few words in the class. Don't talk to me much, he doesn't talk much to others, but because he has a face that no one can mess with, I'm in a completely different situation from him.

So when he appeared in front of me, it was more of a surprise.

"Yang Yi!" I don't know why I suddenly cried the moment I saw Yang Yi, and people who didn't know thought it was Yang Yi who hit me.

"You~~~You·~~~ You're okay." Yang Yi said helplessly when he saw me crying.

"It's fine." I suppressed my crying and replied casually.

"It's okay." Before I could react, he disappeared from my sight again.

This person is really strange, suddenly appearing and leaving suddenly.

Isn't it the same as when he left suddenly and suddenly appeared a few years later.

At that time, as I do now, I never understood what was going on in his mind.