Chapter II: Responsibility

1) Responsibility

During this period, my distant relatives came to visit my parents, and my colleagues also came to visit my mother, and when I was sending my colleagues out, a friend said to me, "I tell you, I think your mother is so pitiful, if you still love your mother, you have to start looking for a son-in-law for your mother, only then can she come out of her grief." Otherwise------. ”

I didn't know if it was a cure for my parents' grief, but I tried to tell my mother what I was saying, and I looked at her expression as I spoke. When the mother listened, her eyes lit up. After that, I thought to myself, my friend was right, if I really agreed to find a partner, my mother might quickly come out of her grief.

I finally agreed to find someone.

In the days that followed, there were simply too many people to match. At the beginning, my mother and second aunt were very warmly received, and they were very busy with candy and fried peanuts, and I had an opinion on this, saying, "Do you think I can't get married for such a reception?" ”

As soon as such words came out, the elders were so frightened that they didn't dare to greet the people who came behind. Although there were a lot of people, I refused to contact any of them, and I refused without leaving any room for the other party. This is undoubtedly another big blow to the mother.

Of course, it's not that I did it on purpose, but my heart is dead, and although I have recently started my new life plan, I have no intention of getting married in this plan.

Because in the five or six years since I broke up with Xiaohou, I have refused to talk to anyone again, because of this, everyone thinks that I am angry with my mother. Her mother also confessed her mistakes to her face more than once. I have explained many times in front of my mother, saying that it is not what you imagined, but that I think that life events such as getting married or not getting married cannot be taken lightly, and this is determined by one's thoughts and personality, so please don't be careful.

Whenever my mother was sick, I always took good care of my mother, and my mother also took this opportunity to do ideological work for me. Mother said; "Find someone now while you're young, and when you're old tomorrow, you'll have children to serve you."

I'm going to stop my mother right away. Say; "Mom, please don't talk about this, if you get married to have children, and when you are old in the future, someone will come to serve, then this calculation is wrong. Do you think, even if you raise a child, from birth to raising him to the age of 18, how much money will it cost you? As the saying goes, there is no filial son in front of the bed for a long time. If a person has been sick for a long time, will the children still take good care of him in the average family? But if you save the money for raising children and use it for retirement, how long can you be sick, and will you not be sick for 20 years? ”

Mother will be speechless at this point. After that, my mother also asked many relatives and friends to do my work, and everyone who came to do the work would naturally say that my mother had realized the mistake she had made, and asked me to forgive her.

I also replied rationally, "I don't mean to blame my mother, it's just that after so many years, I have forgotten all the things before, including the issue of talking about marriage, so, thank you for your kindness, I have decided to be single and alone for the rest of my life." Actually, it's good to be single. ”

Every word I said in the repeated rejections was also my heart's words. I truly believe that there is nothing wrong with living alone. Because I have a job myself, I don't have to worry about running out of food when I get old. I saw that in real life, people's marriage and family really don't have much meaning, ordinary families work hard for life, and sometimes because they can't make ends meet, the husband and wife make a big noise, and the children are scared and huddled. Some families have been ruined by moral issues.

A better family is that although the husband and wife are in harmony, the life of the children also brings them a lot of troubles and problems, otherwise, there will be no saying that "every family has a scripture that is difficult to read".

I just finished watching "Dream of Red Mansions" recently, which strengthened her belief in celibacy. Because Wang Xifeng in "Dream of Red Mansions" said a very classic sentence when talking to Grandma Liu, "We also have difficulties now." In fact, each family has its own difficulties, as the so-called big and big difficulties, and small and small difficulties." "Husband and wife are like birds in the same forest, they fly separately when disaster comes." I completely discouraged the idea of getting married and starting a family. Now because of the unfortunate death of my sister, I have to change the direction of my life in order to alleviate the mental pain of my parents, which is really too difficult for myself.

I'm a stubborn person, and it's hard to change what I've decided to do.

In the spring of this year, my factory has interest-free lending money to workers to buy electrical appliances, of course I participated, more than 1,000 employees in my factory, as long as three people buy washing machines, I am one of them.

I actually forgot the lesson of making a wardrobe with Qiu Ju's sister and not being allowed to move into the house. I bought it without asking my father beforehand. After buying a washing machine for himself, my father was also not allowed to enter the house. This time the mother spoke, the mother said, the child buys things home, and I don't ask for your money, and the washing machine is really needed, look, the child has to go to work, and there are so many housework, she buys the washing machine herself, reduce the labor intensity, why are you not allowed? It's too hard for a child. After being persuaded by his mother, his father finally allowed the washing machine to be moved into the house.

2) Be prepared to accept the reality of getting married

Time passed, my marriage did not improve, my mother was very anxious, she asked people everywhere to introduce me to better conditions, but whenever I wanted to enter the role, an instinctive mental reaction to quit others. There are too many such incidents.

Li Jing, a classmate I met at the event of the Federation of Literary and Art Circles, said to me angrily, "Since you agreed to find a partner, why didn't you always give others a chance to ask you out after you met?" Aren't you kidding us? To tell you the truth, we are so active for your mother's sake, otherwise, we would not have bothered to meddle with your business. ”

I said, "No way, it's probably my physiological reaction." As soon as I mentioned meeting, my heart was furious, so there was no follow-up. Take your time, I still can't accept this kind of thing at the moment. ”

I have reached the age of 30, I have realized that it is impossible to find an ideal life partner at this age, since everyone regards marriage as a necessary thing in life, and my parents also have such a strong desire, then it is okay to marry someone casually, but it is also a matter of my mother's heart, with this mentality, I decided to solve my marriage problem as soon as possible. However, whenever I actually got involved in it, I was daunted.

My classmate gave me another piece of advice, saying; "That's it, I'm responsible for calling a few more men, and you're responsible for calling a few girls, and we're in the name of going green.,You know and contact in the game.,This not only solves the embarrassment of the first meeting on a blind date.,Everyone can get to know each other something they're interested in the chatter and game.。

I agreed with my classmates' suggestions. Then the classmate said, you know how to take pictures, and if you want to leave some souvenirs during play, you should be responsible for borrowing a camera. I agreed.

Not long on Sunday, Li Jing found four boys, but I only called one girl, this female classmate met in the short course of Guilin Daily, surnamed Tan. According to Li Jing, the family conditions of these boys are relatively good, and the working environment is also good. As the boys entered the arena one after another, I didn't even like any of them. I put away the cameras I had prepared, and said to them; "It's a shame that I didn't borrow the camera, so forget it today, I'll talk about it next time."

We walked to a park in the city.

In the park, the students were well organized, everyone had a good time, and it was basically designed according to my wishes and requirements, so the main part of the game was mainly literature, poetry, stories, and some celebrity anecdotes.

Due to the strong pertinence and clear goals, a few boys brought by classmates retreated with interest, that is, there was a person with poor family conditions, but he was more confident to stay, and then, he also returned to my house.

I have ink and pen and paper on the table at home. Tan and I went to the river to wash vegetables, and I asked Tan, "What do you think of this person who came along?" ”

Tan said; "Yes, it's a living dictionary."

I say; "How about introducing him to you?"

Classmates said; "I dare say that if I marry him, he will probably be the ugliest son-in-law in our entire railway family district."

When I heard this, I knew she didn't agree, so I didn't say anything more. Then, the classmate smiled and said, "I think it's appropriate for you to come with him."

I was suddenly a little unhappy, thinking, with you, you are the ugliest son-in-law in the railway family area, and I am suitable for me, is there such a big gap between me and you? I'm just so ugly? Since I was a classmate and friend, I didn't have much to worry about, just a faint smile and passed.

When we went home after washing the dishes, we saw a few big characters written by the man, and I couldn't help but feel that he was frivolous. Although this day's play is mainly based on literature, poetry and songs, its knowledge involves only some superficial concepts, and his own knowledge is superficial. How is it possible to know how much he knows? After dinner, everyone went home. Not to mention.

3) My classmates invited me to travel

Mr. Tan invited me to go on a trip, and I happily agreed. Because I've never been anywhere before, and I've never used a penny for myself, to be exact. And this time, because of my sister's misfortune, I have been in grief, I don't dare to show a sad expression at home, but endure the grief, mainly for fear of affecting my parents' emotions. The more this happens, the more sad I feel. Since my classmates invited me to travel, I also took this opportunity to go out and improve my mood.

The three of us girls took the train to Wuhan, and because two of them were railway family members, they had acquaintances, and they took me with them, so we were exempted from the travel fare at one end.

Tan has a brother who is studying in Wuhan University, and everyone went to see him at school. I hadn't seen the mess in a college dormitory before, but this time I finally saw it.

We walked on the streets of Wuhan, but I didn't feel the freshness of the big city, whether it was food, housing, or play, none of them could arouse my interest, I didn't understand anything, I didn't ask, I walked behind my classmates, like a walking corpse.

When Tan proposed to play in Guiyuan Temple, I thought that the temple was not fun, but I didn't raise any objections, that is, I just went along. When I got there, I saw the prosperity of China's great temples and the pious pomp of pilgrims. It opened my eyes. However, I didn't worship the Buddha as devoutly as my classmates, and I didn't participate in any quizzes and game interactions. Just look around. I don't believe that these game-like activities can really move the gods and Buddhas, and I think to myself, it's nothing more than superstition. Actually, I'm a very stingy person when it comes to money, and I'm never willing to spend money on myself that I shouldn't spend. I don't follow others to do things I don't understand, in short, I'm a very different and incredible person.

On the way to the Yellow Crane Tower, we took a speedboat to the other side of the river, which made me experience the freshness of my life. I felt happy, with a hint of joy and impulse.

Then, I proposed to go to see the Wuhan Yangtze River Bridge, which I had learned in my primary school textbooks, and I had thought that if I had the opportunity, I would definitely watch and appreciate it, and the best thing was to bring my parents with me, so that they could also see such a great project.

We had a great time in the riverside garden. As a result, I took the train back to the station. The next day, I went to the Yellow Crane Tower to play. In the Yellow Crane Tower Park, I don't know how to play, and when I see the crowds of tourists, everyone else is smiling, talking and laughing, but I have a blank face. The picturesque scenery is melancholy, but I think it is gloomy and terrible. I have long memorized it: Cui Hao's poem "The people of the past have taken the yellow crane to go, and the yellow crane tower is vacant here." The yellow crane is gone, the white clouds are empty for thousands of years, the Hanyang tree in the Qingchuan calendar, the parrot island in the grass, where is the sunset township, and the Yanbo River makes people sad. "It's a reasonable excuse for me. I can't find a single word about the many beautiful legends about the Yellow Crane Tower. The interest in playing in the Yellow Crane Tower is not high, and everyone goes back to their accommodation after strolling around.

Those two classmates liked to go to the lottery, but I told them not to believe it, and they laughed at me for being stupid, and I didn't participate in such a fun game. Because they can always draw lots at the booth where they draw lots, they always have nobles to help.

I laughed and said; "You buy all the signs of that gentleman, and then open them all and take a look, and you will know how many types there are." Everyone laughed and laughed. The classmate proposed to see Lushan, I thought it was very good, so we bought a ticket to Jiujiang, went to Jiujiang the next day, bought a two-day tour of Lushan, stayed in the Lushan Hotel for one night, ready to see the sunrise in Lushan, but encountered heavy fog, disappointed. After looking at the Lushan Waterfall, I didn't feel the spectacular "flying down 3,000 feet" at all. Looking at the clouds and mist of Lushan, I don't feel like I'm in a "fairyland on earth". The week tour is over.

On the way back, when waiting for the train at Wuchang Railway Station, because it was still early, I waited for others to play next to the station, we walked to a stall, looking at a piece of plastic sheeting was full of messy things, I asked the stall owner curiously, what is this thing for. The stall owner enthusiastically introduced the use of various gadgets, and was introducing a "mole" drug, which aroused my interest, I said to the stall owner; "I'd like to try this, can I?"

The stall owner readily agreed, saying that he wanted 0.5 yuan to order one.

I say; "I'd like to experiment with this one on my arm."

The stall owner put some medicine on my arm and didn't ask me for money. We all left the stall. When I was about to enter the station, I came to ask the stall owner for the medicine money he had given. The stall owner said that it was not time yet, and if he couldn't see the effect, he would wait.

I said, "I'm going to get on the train and leave here, and if I don't pay now, I won't have time to pay later." ”

The stall owner said; "It seems that you are a trustworthy person, since you are so trustworthy, then I can't fool people, come on, I'll help you see, there is a mole under your eye, this mole is a tear mole, you must remove it, it will cause you sad things, and you will be fine after going to it." This mole in your person should also be removed, its presence affects your appearance and should be removed. However, this mole in your person is too big, and it must be opened so that the effect of the medicine can reach quickly, do you think about it, would you like me to do it? ”

Without hesitation, I agreed to the stall owner's suggestion, and the stall owner took out his surgical knife and began to operate on the mole in my people. After a while, the stall owner put medicine on the wound, and then said to me; "Don't touch it for a week, don't care how thick the scar is, don't uncover it because it's a little itchy, you have to let it fall on its own, otherwise it will leave a scar, and it won't be beautiful either."

I nodded yes, and then, I paid and left the stall with my classmates to get on the train. In the trunk, Tan complained; "Why are you so bold, and you casually let others do surgery on this part of your face, so you are not afraid of breaking the appearance? I also made a special trip to send him money, look, the places where you put the medicine are swollen. ”

I say; "I just want to see if these charlatans have real work, and they don't mean anything else. I haven't thought much about where to do it. ”

My classmate said, "If you have a scar on your face tomorrow, you won't be able to regret it." I wanted to stop you, but I was afraid that you wouldn't understand and scold the stall owner, so I didn't stop you, but now I'm a little worried about what it will be like in a week. ”

I laughed and said; "Now that you've done it, what will it look like in the future? Whatever he is, I'm not good-looking anyway, even if it's ugly, it doesn't matter. ”

Everyone laughed. Each of them returned to their places, not mentioned.