The next day, I packed my bags and left the room, and the time of parting was looming.

Lan Yun and I had lunch casually and went to the park on the street.

I lit a cigarette and asked Lan Yun, "How long are you going to think about it?" ”

Lan Yun scratched his head and said, "I don't know, it may be fast, it may be slow, or it may be ...... Hmm......" Lan Yun suddenly squeaked, "Actually, there is a possibility that I don't dare to tell you." Lan Yun paused again.

"Okay, okay, I know what you're going to say. I interrupted Lan Yun: "It's nothing more than not agreeing!" I said, I like you just to tell you, otherwise I feel very uncomfortable if I don't say it in my heart, as for whether you like me or whether you agree or not, this is your business, I can't force people to be difficult, right? Besides, the twisted melon is not sweet, and I am not a child, so I don't need to talk so much. "After saying this, I can't wait to give myself a big mouth.

"Really? Lan Yun stared at me and said, "Even if I don't promise you, won't you blame me?" ”

I took a hard puff of my cigarette and squeezed an "um" out of my teeth. I wish this "um" word could be withdrawn like a WeChat chat.

"Haha! Sure enough, the old people are sensible. Lan Yun smiled: "But I'll think about it, but I need you to give me a little time." ”

Lan Yun's words were like a shot in the arm, and when I heard this, I smoked again and looked at the time, as if time had sped up again.

The two of them just chatted in the street park, during which there was no intimate action, still staying in the previous state, without any progress. I'm still wondering if I'm a little too gentleman, I've already taken this step, but I'm still stuck in the state of ordinary friends, at least between friends and lovers. I always have a feeling of uneasiness, although I talk and laugh with Lan Yun on the surface, I always feel that there is a pimple in my heart.

The parting was approaching, Lan Yun sent me to the train station, during which there was no parting scene like a movie or TV series, it was still talking and laughing, even when I turned my head and walked straight to the security checkpoint, there was no scene of hugging and hugging. What the is going on?

I finally stepped on the return train, during which I soaked two bubbles of urine, slept three times, and still listened to Xu Wei all the way.

After I came back, I went back to my normal work and life, I should eat, I should drink, I should cheer, I should Caesar. The only thing that is different from before is Lan Yun, she appears on my way to work in the morning every day, helping at work and various greetings after work and in the evening, of course, in the mobile phone. This state lasted for a month, and although it had been a month since I returned from Xi'an, Lan Yun had never given me any reply, and I had never asked Lan Yun the same question again.

If there was anything that changed between us, it should have been after I got off work that day, because Lan Yun was very perfunctory when he chatted with me all day, and he didn't say a word when he spoke, I seemed to feel something, but I never asked, because I was afraid of hearing the answer I didn't want to hear.

Of course, Murphy's Law also told me that I was afraid of something, and that is, on this day, or this night to be exact, Lan Yun finally plucked up the courage to tell me that she had thought about it for a long time before she realized that she didn't like me, mainly because she was afraid of losing a friend like me, so she had been reluctant to tell me the answer. In fact, I also know what the final answer is, it's just that I'm a little evasive, but it's still the same sentence, whether the final answer is yes or no, this matter can finally be settled.

In this way, it didn't take long for me to delete all of Lan Yun's contact information. It's not a ritual, it's not a way, but it's more of an experience for me.

The relationship between me and Lan Yun came to an end that night, and it also ended a so-called full stop at that moment.

The road of life is ahead, the road under my feet must always walk, even if the scenery along the way is beautiful, but in the final analysis, it is not my habitat, I can stop for every passerby on the road of my life, but the road of life will always keep knocking on me, keep telling me to continue to move forward, forward, and forward. Not only did he give me all kinds of burdens, but he also added all kinds of burdens to them, and then whispered in my ear: "Dude, life has to go on, let's run!" At this point I just want to say to life: "Fuck you!" Stuff you carry! ”

When I finished scolding, I found that things were still on me, but my ability to resist pressure was increasing step by step, life gave me not only a burden and burden, but also gave me a variety of experiences, experience turned into experience, experience guided me to continue to move forward, and life still lingered with me.

Life is more than what is in front of you,

And poetry and distant fields,

You came into the world with your bare hands,

Desperate to find the sea......

On the road of life, how can there be a poet like Xu Wei missing?

Life has given me many roles, such as sometimes I am like a child, sometimes like an adult, sometimes like a big man, sometimes like a stupid little citizen...... In short, whoever I play, I am me.

My name is Cheng Fei, I am 29 years old this year, and I am still running wild on the road of life, a person who does not know why I am alive and walks on this road.