(Three-in-one update,The number of words is slightly less,Strive for another chapter today,Make up for all the updates owed yesterday)

In November, Star City rarely sees sunny days, most of the time the weather is cloudy, as if it will rain at any time, Cheng Mo stood up from the front of his desk, the wind outside the floor-to-ceiling glass window was blowing, the sky was low, and the green Xiangjiang River was divided into two endless torrents by the head of Orange Island, quietly crossing the foot of the blue Yuelu Mountain.

It was almost noon, the sky without seeing the sun was gray, the color was gloomy, and the weather in early winter was very obvious, Cheng Mo closed his eyes, rubbed his temples, and opened his eyes again, and felt that there was some poetry in this desolation.

"Birthday!" Cheng Mo looked at the Xiangjiang River outside the floor-to-ceiling window, and muttered meaninglessly.

I remembered that in the past seventeen years, Cheng Mo has not had a serious birthday, but when he was nine years old, he came home from school, and his father had just returned from an academic seminar in other places, and bought a birthday cake covered with white cream for him to eat, but he didn't know where to throw the candles. (Shonan has a custom of holding a banquet for children at the age of nine)

The young Cheng Mo only looked forward to the feeling of blowing out candles, without candles, this birthday cake was also missing most of the taste, plus Cheng Mo knew that the sweet and soft cream contained a time bomb on the table - trans fatty acids, naturally he didn't dare to eat it, so he could only cut a small piece down, scrape the most delicious cream, eat two lackluster cakes to meet the scene, and give the rest to the nanny Aunt Duan to take away.

Cheng Mo was dissatisfied with the lack of candles, and asked Cheng Yongze not to buy it next time, Cheng Yongze just said "oh", completely mistaken Cheng Mo's unhappy point, and mentioned: "It's okay to eat a little cream once in a while." ”

Cheng Mo thought to himself: "There are no candles, no birthday songs, and no wishes, so what is the point of this birthday cake leaving only a little sweetness?"

So he looked at the seductive paste of white flowers on the plate and shook his head silently, plus the birthday was undoubtedly a reminder that he was one step closer to death, and from then on, the festive thing of "birthday cake" was completely cut off from starting a family.

Cheng Mo glanced at the last birthday gift his father gave him, the Ouroboros watch on his wrist, now it has changed its style and become an i atch, so that it is convenient for Cheng Mo to twist the knob from time to time or look at the direction of the watch without being too noticeable.

Seeing that the time was not early, Cheng Mo took a shower according to Bai Xiuxiu's request to him, picked it up, put on a pair of dior homme blue slacks with a Thorn Brone white shirt and a gray woolen cardigan, and carried some souvenirs bought in Chang'an, and went out refreshingly in the early winter.

Although Cheng Mo has not met Bai Xiuxiu these days, Cheng Mo has not slackened off in the things that he promised Bai Xiuxiu, such as irrational consumption, such as having to make himself look like a noble son when he goes out.

Cheng Mo is not disgusted with such an extravagant lifestyle, for him this is also an experience, full of an unknown freshness, but compared with the real aristocracy, he has neither an innate sense of superiority, nor a sense of responsibility to strive to be famous in history, what he experiences is only the sensual enjoyment brought to him by material things and the envious eyes of others.

Cheng Mo didn't think that Bai Xiuxiu's way could change him much, but it was still helpful for him to play others.

It's just that Bai Xiuxiu doesn't pay attention to herself at all these days, and if there is something just to ask Feng Luwan to contact her, she doesn't meet with herself at all, which makes Cheng Mo feel a little uncomfortable in his heart.

Although the two of them used to get along in this mode, after experiencing the events in Chang'an, Cheng Mo subconsciously felt that he should be closer to Bai Xiuxiu, but the plot did not develop as he imagined, which made him feel lost.

Occasionally, Cheng Mo lay on the bed and looked at the ceiling, knowing that Bai Xiuxiu was sleeping on top of him, and he would actually start to suffer from gains and losses.

Cheng Mo is different from ordinary boys, that is, he understands psychology, he has analyzed his own psychology, and knows that he has such a mentality is a conditioned reflex and psychological suggestion, when people feel that they can get it, they will have a strong sense of risk, they will be eager to get, and the more they will be afraid of losing. However, when you are faced with imminent loss, you will suddenly be afraid of nothing and may be able to do anything.

Therefore, at this moment, it is even more necessary to calm down, so Cheng Mo did not take the initiative to say a word to Bai Xiuxiu.

As for Bai Xiuxiu's feelings, it is very strange and complicated, Cheng Mo knows that he simply likes Xie Minyun, maybe love is a bit heavy, but it is accurate to say that he likes it, he likes to chat and travel with Xie Minyun, and feels that although the pressure to get along with her is not light, he is not tired of it.

For Mr. Shen, he has an inexplicable admiration, Mr. Shen's gentleness and intellectuality are also called Cheng Mo's indulgence, Cheng Mo feels that he feels a lack of warmth in Mr. Shen, this feeling Cheng Mo cherishes extraordinarily, but it also derives another desire, which has nothing to do with xing, and is an exclusive desire derived from human instinct.

Back in Bai Xiuxiu, Cheng Meng thinks that his primal impulse stems from his innate desire to conquer, just like a mathematician who sees a math problem that is so difficult to solve that he can't help but try with all his might to solve it. If Goldbach's conjecture is the most brilliant jewel in the crown of mathematics, attracting countless people who love mathematics, then Bai Xiuxiu must be the most beautiful one among women.

If a woman like this was born in ancient times, she would probably be the role of Su Daji or Bao Xi who brought disaster to the country and the people.....

Cheng Mo sat on the Rolls-Royce and crossed the Xiangjiang Bridge, turned his head to look at the back of the great statue of the head of Orange Island, and thought a lot in his mind, feeling that he was precisely because his life was in a huge uncertainty that he would allow these desires to overflow, but now it is not what it used to be, what is the point of restraining and suppressing these desires?

"What is the meaning of my life?"

Cheng Mo knew that he could not be both an observer and an object to be observed, and at the same time he had to maintain the objectivity of observation, so he did not know what the meaning of his life was.

When the question of survival is no longer imminent, the dialogue of ideas of philosophy lovers stirs in his mind from time to time.

The statue of the great man carved from the huge Yongding red granite stone stands in the rolling river, and the flying horns of the great man are frozen in the cold river wind, frozen in the gaps of the times, and frozen in the pupils of Cheng Mo......

When the silver-and-black Rolls-Royce crossed the old Xiangjiang Bridge, Cheng Mo took his eyes back from the stone statue standing in the vast smoke and waves.

"Be free. ”

A voice said to him.

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Jiang Jun parked the Rolls-Royce at the door, Cheng Mo got out of the car with an unpretentious kraft paper gift bag, raised his eyes and saw the swallow's nest under the cement canopy, and there was also monitoring next to it, aiming at the rough nest made of branches and dirt, Cheng Mo was already very familiar with this building, and changed the direction, so he easily bypassed the scope of monitoring and entered the corridor from the side.

The lights in the corridor are still not very bright, the light bulb occasionally blinks, and the advertisements in the elevators have not changed, except for the advertisements for real estate promotion and happy cakes, and the other is still printed with the advertising painting of the Longsheng Men's Health Center with sparsely dressed sexy girls.

Cheng Mo pressed the eleventh floor and two aunts carrying plastic bags followed the elevator upward, still the familiar corridor, he walked softly, outside the window was a gloomy canopy, and a forest of buildings, he walked steadily to the end, came to the familiar door, and stopped slightly.

It's only been two months since he left school, but Cheng Mo has the illusion that something has been going on for years, he waved his hand in front of the doorbell, froze for a moment, and then pressed it....

A moment later, the familiar gentle voice came from the door, "Who?

"Yes. Cheng Mo's heartbeat suddenly increased.

The sound of the door lock beating echoed in the empty hallway.

This is a composite lock, a combination of a magnetic lock and a bullet lock, and is one of the most secure locks on the market.

The dark brown diamond-shaped checkered security door was opened, and Shen Youyi, wearing a dark blue apron, appeared in front of Cheng Mo's eyes.

Cheng Mo held his breath and looked at Shen Youyi's water-cut eyes, but Shen Youyi subconsciously avoided Cheng Mo's eyes, bent down to help Cheng Mo take his bear slippers and said at the same time: "You came earlier than I thought, I thought you would come over at twelve o'clock, so I just started cooking, I guess I will have to wait for a while, if you are hungry, I will serve you a bowl of winter melon pork rib soup first....."

Cheng Mo didn't speak immediately, and walked into the gray-toned house he was familiar with before he spoke: "No need Teacher Shen, I'm not hungry yet...... Now I don't have to go to class anyway, I haven't seen you in a long time, so I want to come early. ”

I haven't seen each other for two months, Mr. Shen's voice is a bit stereotypical, not as warm as before, and there is a vague sense of distance in his tone, not as intimate as before, and the unnatural estrangement is still obvious.

Cheng Mo put on his slippers and looked up to see a boxy white porcelain bottle on the shoe cabinet, with two white camellia plants in the bottle, as well as pruned snow willows that looked like branches, fresh and elegant, and it made people feel full of interest when they looked at it.

It was obvious that Mr. Shen, who had solved part of his heart knot, was not as depressed as he had lived before, so he added some bright colors to the gloomy dark room.

Shen Youyi noticed that Cheng Mo's gaze fell on his flower arrangement, and smiled reluctantly, "Now I don't have to be the head teacher, I have more time, and I have my own research on flower arrangement, so that I can keep my mood peaceful." ”

"It's beautiful, the beauty of the utensils hasn't been neglected, and the teacher is still suitable for being an artist. Cheng Mo looked at the very beautiful flower arrangement and said seriously.

Shen Youyi didn't continue to talk to Cheng Mo about flower arrangement, turned around and walked towards the kitchen, "You sit down first, whatever books you want to read, take whatever you want, I have recently bought a lot of new books.....

Cheng Mo looked at Shen Youyi's sinuous back, as artistic as Mr. Shen's flower arrangement, especially at the neck, her hair was pulled up high, and a simple bun was coiled in the back, the blue apron ribbon and jet-black hair beard lined the neck like mutton fat and white jade, she was wearing a gray crewneck sweater, the neckline was relatively wide, the shoulders were as light and straight as a knife, the graceful curve was downward, bending out a wonderful arc, and the blue apron tie with a bow was stretched above the round and full hip line, which stretched the visual effect very long, so that the loose black slacks had a wonderful visual experience。

Cheng Mo stood on the sofa silently watching Shen Youyi walk into the kitchen, hesitated for a moment to put the brown paper bag on the sofa, and followed Shen Youyi into the kitchen, "Teacher Shen, I'll help you ....."

The range hood in the kitchen was "buzzing", Shen Youyi stood in front of the board and cut green peppers, turned his head to look at Cheng Mo who walked into the kitchen, quickly retracted his gaze, and pretended to be casual and said: "Soon, I don't need your help, you just go and sit....."

"I'll help you wash the dishes. Cheng Mo looked at the garlic leaves, garlic sprouts, chives, pork belly, beef, tomatoes, okra and a struggling sea bass in the silver stainless steel sink and whispered.

"I really don't need to, you're in the kitchen, I can't do it....."

Cheng Mo shook his head and said very suddenly: "I actually just want to watch Teacher Shen cook." ”

The atmosphere in the kitchen suddenly became quiet, "rustling" was the sound of a sharp blade cutting through green peppers, "dodo" was the sound of the blade and the cutting board colliding, but the rhythm of Shen Youyi's chopping of vegetables seemed to be a little flustered.

Beneath the beige sand bowl is a bright flame, and the soup is tumbling inside, with a fragrant vapor rising.

Shen Youyi's side face was pale at a loss, and then a shallow flush rippled.

Cheng Mo's expression was not unusual, he just wanted to tell the truth.

Both of them fell into silence, and after a while, Shen Youyi finished cutting the last green pepper, looked at Cheng who was standing by the sink, and stopped talking.

Cheng Mo knew what Shen Youyi needed, so he turned on the faucet without saying a word, and began to wash the chives and garlic leaves seriously.

"Cheng Mo, can you tell me that those paintings were not painted by you!?" Shen Youyi put down the knife in his hand, turned his head to look at Cheng Mo, suppressed the tension in his heart, and asked in an expectant voice.

Listening to the voice, you can know that this problem has bothered Shen Youyi for a long time. But the movements in Cheng Mo's hands did not stop, the water from the faucet flowed downward, he rubbed the cyan leaves, as if rubbing the skin of his lover, and said lightly: "Teacher, this question is actually irrelevant, isn't it?"

Shen Youyi said eagerly: "How can it be irrelevant? You still have to study, you still have to take the university entrance examination, not to mention that a big mistake is not glorious on the file?"

After a pause, Shen Youyi whispered again: "Also, call me Sister Xi......"

After all, Shen Youyi still chose to believe him, no matter how long she struggled in hesitation, Teacher Shen still believed him, and Cheng Mo's heart swelled with the satisfaction of being trusted, "Sister Xi, can you not talk about this matter for the time being?" As for reading...... In fact, the suspension was my own request. ”

"How can I not say it? I can't sleep well these days, I always feel that someone has wronged you, I asked a lot of classmates, and everyone didn't believe that you did it, especially Fu Yuanzhuo and Yan Yitong, they all said categorically that it was definitely not you, and I also talked to the principal many times, and he said that you have to think it out yourself..... I don't know how to talk to you about it, but I'm still a little ..... Scared ......"

There are some things that Shen Youyi didn't say too clearly, such as those paintings have always been a shadow over her heart; for example, Cheng Mo's 1510 confession of the unbelievable way of committing the crime, which is completely logical; for example, some evidence points to Cheng Mo's doing; for example, Shen Mengjie felt that Cheng Mo did these things, which was not strange at all; for example, Cheng Mo's growth history also showed that he had a special emotion for himself, etc.

These complex appearances interfered with Shen Youyi's thinking, made her confused, and made her unable to see what kind of student Cheng Mo was, as if she was very quiet and calm, and as if she was very gloomy and terrifying......

Shen Youyi's intuition told her to believe in Cheng Mo, but so many things proved that it was very likely that Cheng Mo did it, maybe this was a conspiracy arranged by this smart child to herself, she wanted to understand the truth, but subconsciously she was a little afraid of the truth, which made her hesitate and dare not pursue it, but finally on this special day, Shen Youyi plucked up the courage and called Cheng Mo over, just to know what was going on.

Shen Youyi felt that she was delayed, but Cheng Mo couldn't afford to delay.

Cheng Mo didn't know how difficult Shen Youyi's ideological struggle was, but he understood the entanglement in Shen Youyi's tone, Cheng Mo didn't want Shen Youyi to know the truth of the matter, at least not the current situation, if Teacher Shen knew about Shen Daoyi's existence and knew that these things were done by himself, I'm afraid he would collapse, right?

This is not good for Shen Youyi's condition, so Cheng Mo said: "Actually, what I said in the corridor that day was true, I hated Changya, so I did a social experiment...... I'm not disrespectful..... The teacher's meaning, I changed to class (9) later, you were so good to me, and it also made me realize my mistakes, so I have been reflecting on myself these days. ”

"Sister Xi, I'm sorry..... As you know, I didn't have a mother since I was a child, and I may be a little psychologically incomplete.... I hope you can forgive me. ”

Hearing Cheng Mo admit that he did all this again, Shen Youyi didn't know why, but his heart was constantly sinking, as if he was sinking into a sea under the moonlight, there was light on the sea, and the sea was deep. Shen Youyi's eyes were moist involuntarily, she completely forgot that she was cutting chili peppers, and subconsciously wiped her eyes, so the warm tears were stimulated by the spicy sensation, and her vision was blurred, and she couldn't open it....

Shen Youyi closed her eyes and wanted to wipe away her tears with the back of her hand, but was grabbed by Cheng Mo's wet hand, "Sister Xi, don't move..... I'll help you ......"

Cheng Mo took a few pieces of toilet paper from the windowsill, wiped his hands dry, and then pulled two more, and gently helped Shen Youyi wipe away the tears stained with eyelashes and cheeks, Mr. Shen's eyelashes are long and dense, and his nose is small and tall, especially the peach-colored lips with a little lip balm, in the not-so-bright light, they have an attractive luster, and Mr. Shen's lips are very beautiful, very thin, but full, like a smooth gel.

Looking at Teacher Shen's tearful face, Cheng Mo's movements became slower and slower, he wanted to touch her lips with his fingers, and his free will and rational restraint set off an earth-shaking war in his mind.

"It's so difficult to live, why don't you make your life easier?" Cheng Mo looked at Teacher Shen's lips and threw the wet paper towel in his hand into the wastebasket.

As if sensing that something was wrong with the atmosphere, Shen Youyi closed his eyes and said a little nervously: "Cheng Mo gave me a tissue, I'll do it myself....."

Cheng Mo took out a tissue, but did not hand it to Shen Youyi, but continued to help Shen Youyi wipe away the tears that kept secreting from the corners of his eyes, and said softly: "Teacher Shen, do you remember that one day at noon, you asked me to go to your bedroom for dinner, and I met Teacher Qin....."

Shen Youyi didn't know why Cheng Mo suddenly mentioned this matter, her breathing became a little short, she interrupted Cheng Mo, and said in a panic: "Ah, what are you talking about?"

"It's nothing, I just want to tell the teacher ....."

Before Cheng Mo's words were finished, the doorbell rang at the door, and Shen Youyi hurriedly turned around and said, "Go and open the door!"

Cheng Mo hesitated, but left the kitchen to open the door, and the sound of rushing water sounded behind him again, and Cheng Mo knew that it was Teacher Shen who was flushing his eyes with water.

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"Why are you?" Gao Yuemei was a little surprised when she saw Cheng Mo.

Meeting with a college doctor in another identity felt very wonderful for Cheng Mo, he ignored Gao Yuemei's surprise, and just said calmly: "Good afternoon, college doctor ....."

Recently, college doctors have been dressed very young, blue skinny jeans line their legs straight and long, black leather jacket with short hair, handsome and beautiful, at first glance, it is the best supporting actress in Korean dramas, generally speaking, most of the female supporting roles in Korean dramas are more beautiful than the female protagonists.

Gao Yuemei walked into the room, looked inside, and said while taking off her boots: "I said you stinky boy, how can you do this to Teacher Shen? If it weren't for your Teacher Shen saying that it would definitely not be you, I would have found your house and beat you up....."

"I have a heart condition, you don't dare hit me. Cheng Mo saw that Teacher Shen had closed the kitchen door, and felt that it was not appropriate to say anything to Teacher Shen at this time, so he replied boredly.

"It's amazing to have a heart attack!" Gao Yuemei walked up to Cheng Mo and waved her fist, and said viciously.

Cheng Mo felt that the college doctor was more cute when he didn't face Lin Zhinuo, sat on the sofa and rolled his eyes, "It's not a big deal, it's just that you don't need to think too much about the consequences of what you do.....

"You..... I see you're really itchy, I have to teach you a good lesson today!" Gao Yuemei took off her leather coat, rolled up the sleeves of her long-sleeved T-shirt, revealing her slender and white arms, and made a gesture to beat Cheng Mo.

"Xiaomei..... Don't make a fuss, that matter is really not a matter of silence, I know it's not him....." Shen Youyi said to Gao Yuemei while standing at the door of the kitchen with a spatula.

Gao Yuemei glanced back at Shen Youyi, and said with some dissatisfaction: "You still speak for him..... He himself admits it's him!"

"I know, you don't care about this, I called you here for something else. ”

"You don't still think about changing the heart for this wolf-hearted kid, right?" said Gao Yuemei with a frown.

Shen Youyi nodded, "I'll cook first, and I'll talk about this later." ”

Gao Yuemei looked down at Cheng Mo, who was sitting on the sofa with an expressionless face, and bluffed to scare Cheng Mo: "Hurry up and tell me honestly, did you do this thing or not?" If it is, I won't help this no matter what Teacher Shen says.....

Cheng Mo looked up at Gao Yuemei, "Thank you, college doctor, after a while, I plan to go to the United States for surgery...."