Chapter 37: Looking Back

"I only heard Uncle Li say that my mother is a heroine among women, and I didn't mention anything else. If I asked him again, he would say no more. Since my predecessors know my mother, can you say more? ”

Shen Jiangge asked impatiently.

Li Mengzhi smiled faintly, and the crow's feet at the corners of her eyes stretched.

She stroked Shen Jiangge's forehead and said slowly: "It's not that he doesn't want to tell you, but when he talks about everything about your mother, he will be sad." ”

"Your mother's name is Shen Mucang."

Shen Jiangge's heart sank suddenly.

After hesitating for a moment, she asked tentatively: "Senior, my mother is the general of the Mu Cangjun who was killed by treason?" ”

Li Mengzhi shook her head gently, and there was a helpless wry smile on her lips.

She looked at Shen Jiangge deeply, and said solemnly: "Your mother is the general of the Mucang army, but she has never committed treason. On the contrary, her fierce loyalty was fully dedicated to Sheng Qin. ”

"But why ......?"

Shen Jiangge frowned, and she asked puzzled.

"Jiang Ge, you should know the truth of the high merit and the master."

Li Mengzhi's eyes were slow with hatred, and she continued: "That year, Beiliang invaded the border of Shengqin in the south, and it was your mother who led the Mucang army to go deep into the enemy camp alone, which broke the Beiliang army and relieved the siege of Bianjing. ”

"Originally, this was a good thing, but unfortunately there were traitors who slandered in front of Qin Linggong, saying that if Mu Cangjun was allowed to return to the dynasty, it would definitely threaten the imperial power."

"How many emperors in this world can tolerate a general with a heavy army and prestige?"

When Li Mengzhi said this, her eyes were full of desolation and hatred.

"So, they gave my mother a trumped-up charge of collaborating with the enemy and treason?"

Shen Jiangge clenched his fists tightly until his fingers sank deep into his palms.

Li Mengzhi nodded, and said helplessly: "Not only did they insult Mu Cangjun and your mother on this charge, but they also set up a heavy ambush around Xuanwu Gate, and they only waited for Mu Cangjun to arrive. ”

"I wanted to persuade Mu Cang not to return to the court. But she said that she was born as a person of Sheng Qin, and even if she died, she was also the soul of Sheng Qin. ”

"I couldn't persuade her, she finally brought 10,000 elite soldiers back to the court."

"However, when she stepped into the Xuanwu Gate, she was greeted not by war drums and red silk wine, but by countless cold arrows."

"At that time, she was already pregnant with you, and she desperately wanted to break through with the soldiers."

"However, since Qin Linggong has already issued the order to kill, how can it be so easy to break through......

"This battle lasted nearly three hours. All 10,000 elite soldiers were killed in battle, and not a single one was left. Xuanwumen was bleeding like a river for a while......"

"Obviously loyal to the country, in the end, he was accused of collaborating with the enemy and treason, and these 10,000 soldiers will die without turning a blind eye......"

Li Mengzhi's eyes were already full of tears, and her face was full of sorrow.

"And then? Did my mother die in battle? ”

Uncle Li didn't say these words to Shen Jiangge.

It wasn't until she heard Li Mengzhi talk about the events of the year that she knew why Uncle Li always taught her martial arts harshly, and why he didn't say a word about her.

"After this war, your mother was scarred, but she did not die in battle."

Li Mengzhi looked at Shen Jiangge lovingly, and said slowly: "It may be that Qin Linggong was afraid that the remaining Mu Cang army that was still on the border would fight back, and did not kill Mu Cang. ”

"Instead, she was placed under house arrest in the palace in northern Hebei."

"Mu Cang originally wanted to commit suicide rather than suffer this humiliation, but she was still pregnant with you at that time."

Shen Jiangge couldn't bear the grief in her heart when she heard this, she bit her lower lip tightly and restrained her emotions.

Li Mengzhi sighed and said, "In the following year, the Qin Ling Guild came to see Mucang once every two or three months. Mu Cang would not see him every time. Qin Linggong didn't force it, but just ordered to buy some things for Mu Cang. ”

"But Mu Cang's heart is already dead, where does he care about these things outside his body?"

"Later, she was depressed, and after giving birth to you, the lamp ran out......"

"I thought that the Qin Ling Guild ordered you to be killed, but for some reason, he didn't do that. On the contrary, he also sent a nurse to raise you, but since your mother's death, he has only stepped into the palace once. ”

"You were placed under house arrest until you were seven years old. In the past seven years, your Uncle Li has been secretly taking care of you. ”

"I thought that such a day would slowly become dull as you grow up, but one night, the chief eunuch of the palace came to read out the will of Queen Zhou, saying that he wanted to take you into the palace to take care of you."

"Heh, everyone knows that Queen Zhou has always regarded Mu Cang as a thorn in her side, no matter how stupid she is, she knows that if she goes, she will not return."

"Fortunately, your Uncle Li secretly rescued you in time, and you escaped."

When Li Mengzhi said this, she was already in tears, and above her vicissitudes of life was resentment towards the royal family.

"How could they be so excessive!"

Shen Jiangge punched the coffee table, shaking the dust one after another.

"This is all in the past, and your Uncle Li didn't mention it to you, there is a reason for him."

Li Mengzhi stared at Shen Jiangge and said, "This is also the reason why he wants you to stay away from the royal family." That's why he told you that there was a chance to meet one and kill the other. ”

"I understand his difficulties."

Shen Jiangge nodded, her eyes fell on Ji Yuhan, who was sleepy on the side, and there was a sour emotion in her heart inexplicably.

"But ......"

Li Mengzhi gently rubbed Shen Jiangge's head and said lovingly: "I think differently from your Uncle Li. ”

"I don't want you to live a life of fear with hatred, fighting, killing, and killing, and I don't want you to take risks in order to avenge your mother."

"Like your mother, I just want you to be an ordinary woman and live this life happily. I believe that the reason why Mu Cang endured the humiliation of October and gave birth to you is definitely not because he wants you to become a tool for revenge. ”

"Even if the past is too wronged, even if 10,000 Mucang soldiers die in vain, I don't want you to embark on the road of revenge."

"I'm telling you this today, it's just that I'm old, I'm afraid that time is running out, and I want to tell you the truth of that year. It's better than you cobbling together with someone else, maybe it's not the facts of the year. ”

"You can hate Qin Linggong and hate the royal family, but you can't deny that the country is now safe and secure under his rule."

"Your mother fought in the north and south back then, for the sake of peace in the world. I think if she were there, she would think I was doing the right thing. ”

Shen Jiangge lowered her head and was silent after hearing this, she had already held her palm deeply.

After a long time, she slowly raised her head, and her eyes were already scarlet.

She said slowly, "But what if I can't let go of my hatred? ”

Li Mengzhi smiled faintly and said slowly: "If you really can't let go, I won't force you." If you want revenge, this book and this kid might be able to help you. ”

Li Mengzhi pointed to Li Wen, who had fainted into a puddle of mud on the ground, and motioned to Shen Jiangge.

"Thank you for your advice."

Shen Jiangge knelt down with the military scripture and kowtowed deeply to Li Mengzhi.

"Good boy, the Book of War has been given to you, and I should go too."

Li Mengzhi picked up Shen Jiangge and said with a smile.

"Where are the seniors going?"

Shen Jiangge was reluctant to feel like his mother Li Mengzhi.

"Tomorrow, Mo Jinzhan will return to Pingning Town. He will definitely come to the Li Mansion to find me, and I can only disappear if I disappear. As for where I'm going, I don't think I've even figured it out myself. ”

Li Mengzhi smiled helplessly, stroked Shen Jiangge's cheek and said, "Child, one day you will understand that there are many wonderful things in this world, which are much more interesting than revenge. ”