Later, before leaving Gusu, Qin Gu buried me: "Jiang Qingyue, what's so good about him?" ”

I agree with him: "You're right, nothing is good." ”

"Don't give up."

"I really don't have a dead eye." Seriously, where am I looking?

-

I faced Meng Zhen and reminded myself to be patient all the time, and finally lowered my eyebrows in front of her.

She almost didn't suspect that I was Jiang Qingyue.

Probably because I didn't tolerate anyone before, even if she slapped me dozens of times, I wouldn't accept a soft word.

How could she believe that one day I knelt in front of her, servile to her.

Looking at her bulging abdomen, thinking that it was Shen Xiao's blood and bones, for a moment I imagined the picture of their lingering happiness.

I have to be dead.

-

I thought I would have to fight alone for a long time to get revenge, but it was inexplicably easy.

What I want to do and the people I want to deal with, Shen Xiao will do it well first and bring the results in front of me.

-

But I don't quite understand Shen Xiao's ruthlessness towards Meng Zhen.

He used to love Meng Zhen so much, how could he bear to turn her into a living dead?

I thought that Shen Xiao was not a good person, nor should he be such a cold-hearted and ruthless person.

Maybe Meng Da Sima was too arrogant and domineering, and finally blocked Shen Xiao's way?

-

It wasn't until many years later that I inadvertently said to Shen Shuning: "Shen Yi and Zong'er are obviously sisters and brothers, but they are not like each other at all. ”

Shen Yi is the daughter of Meng Zhen and Shen Xiao, and Zong'er is the son of me and Shen Xiao, so she is naturally a brother and sister.

Shen Shuning looked at me in surprise: "Sister and brother? How do you think it's a sibling? Didn't he tell you? ”

He didn't tell me anything.

It's been so many years that I've heard a very different version of the story.

In this story, Shen Xiao never liked Meng Zhen, or even disgusted it.

-

I asked my father the truth about that year.

He sighed deeply and decided to tell me 1510, and finally said, "Qingyue, is Dad wrong?" ”

My mind was in turmoil, and I stumbled to my feet and headed straight for my old mansion.

I dug out a box from under the dirt in the yard.

Inside the box were many, many letters.

I opened them one by one and looked at them word by word.

On the letter, he repeated many words, and many of the words trembled, all of which were telling his heartfelt feelings and his helplessness that he could not express.

He was begging me, begging me for a long time, begging me not to give up on him.

Please don't give your life to someone else, beg me to give him two years.

I was so heartbroken that I wept silently with these letters, and I was still sitting under that tree until dark, holding the pile of letters.

I don't know how long it took to get dark, but my father found me.

He was already old, and his old body was bowed down, and he said to me apologetically and distressedly: "Girl, my father is wrong." ”

I shook my head and comforted him, "No, it's my own fault. ”

It was I who turned a blind eye to his efforts, and I always persuaded myself that he was profitable, not for me.

But isn't he really for me?

I abandoned him, leaving him alone and stranded on the top of no one, he learned to let go, fulfilled me, and never complained about me.

I feel sorry for him, and it's been so long that I know I feel sorry for him.

-

I cheekily asked Jiang Zong to help me date him.

Jiang Zong said to me in surprise: "Mother, what do you want to do?" ”

"It's nothing, reminiscence," I explained, "I'm an old friend of the Emperor. ”

Jiang Zong was whimsical: "Do you want to bribe the emperor and ask the emperor to treat me better?" Mother, this world is not as simple as you think......"

I wondered, "You look like such a stupid person, old lady?" ”

Jiang Zong nodded: "It's really not ......."

I slapped him on the head: "If you ask you to make an appointment, you will make an appointment!" ”

Jiang Zong wanted to cry without tears: "The emperor will think that there is something wrong with my mother." ”

I don't know what Shen Xiao will think.

But I seem to be sure that he will come, and he has indeed been very good to Jiang Zong over the years. It's okay for me, but he doesn't show his attitude towards me.

While waiting in the Lanyue Building, my mind went so blank that I forgot to order.

He sat in front of me, and I still didn't know what to say.

So I threw it at him.

"I'm getting older, I can't afford to wait, and if you don't make it clear, I'll pull me down."

As a result, he directly proposed to me to abdicate and make way for Xian?

I'm not asking for this.

He has already allowed me to come and go freely inside and outside the palace, and there is no need for me to force him to abdicate to fulfill my freedom.

I just wanted him to explain it himself, so that he could give me a step down.

As soon as he gave the steps, I hugged him and didn't let go anymore.

……

I took the initiative to tell Jiang Zong that this was his biological father.

Jiang Zong didn't ask who it was, and ran away after shouting King Xuan.

But Shen Xiao was very happy, he was like a child, a little excited and cautious and asked me: "Can I really recognize him?" ”

I asked rhetorically, "Otherwise, do you have other children to inherit the country?" ”

He had already blatantly moved this thought, and he had tested me countless times if I would agree, otherwise I wouldn't dare to say it bluntly.

That night, Shen Xiao suddenly asked me: "Why don't you want me when I become the emperor, but you can agree to Jiang Zong as the emperor?" ”

He probably meant to say that I was a double standard.

I'm embarrassed to explain, in fact, I thought he was the emperor for the sake of imperial power, and also to get Bai Yueguang Meng Zhen......

But I probably look stupid to say it.

I: "Probably because I care more about you, and I mind more if I care more." ”

Shen Xiaohu looked at me suspiciously.

I was deflated and told the truth: "You told many people in person that you like Meng Zhen, and you treat her so well before and after being the emperor, I thought it was ......"

Shen Xiao was laughed angrily: "At that time, the Third Emperor Brother was interesting to you, I can only say that I like Meng Zhen." ”

I said, "Oh, you said yes, anyway." ”

"It's true," he said, the more anxious he became, "didn't you see how I treated her?" Can't you see that I don't mean anything to her? I told you many years ago that I only like you one, why don't you believe it? ”

I was speechless.

Then he asked me, "Would you rather not believe it?" Would you rather convince yourself that I don't love you? ”

There are many times when clues can be seen.

Probably I didn't want to believe it, I did it on purpose.

I'd rather be disheartened than have expectations for an emperor, but that's not fair to him.

He said with some loss: "Jiang Qingyue, I really didn't expect it to be like this. ”

He turned to go out.

I hugged his waist from behind and said softly, "Don't ask about the past, okay?" We have a future. ”

His body was a little stiff: "I'll go and relieve ......"

I immediately let go of my hands.

He came back soon and was a little awkward to stand in front of me.

We didn't get along for a long, long time, and we were like strangers, and he didn't even dare to take the initiative to hug me.

After embarrassment for a while, he said, "It's not too early, I'll go back to the palace first......"

"Isn't it early?"

I hooked my fingers around his waist and untied it.

With the sound of the white jade matte brocade waist seal falling to the ground, he hugged me and kissed me as if he had lost his bondage.

We fell on the bed.

He pressed me and asked withholdingly, "Did I force you that day?" ”

In fact, the night he had forgotten, he seemed to be menacing, but he was still timid, cautiously questioning me several times, and finally saying that he would let me go.

I need him so kind? Why do you always pick people up and leave?

At that time, I glared at him and said in a deep voice, "I know you are not interested in me, don't embarrass yourself next time." ”

He said, "Interested. ”

To prove it, he worked hard.

So later he emphasized that I did not refuse, and was so angry that my eyes were red because I refused to give a part.

What is there to refuse? He's good-looking, and it's not just men who need it. It's probably ...... I guess I've got a picture of the spring palace.

I thought to myself, I should pay for someone to serve, and he serves quite well.

I kind of want to laugh. Just him, do you think he's going to force me? He has always been very reluctant in this regard.

"You think you're that kind?"

And then...... He made me realize that I was wrong.

……

After doing this several times, it was as if I had been run over.

He was still very energetic, hugged me from behind, bit my ear and forced me to answer, "Do I have any seeds?" ”

What a stubborn person.