For the next five years, let's live in our own world for the time being.

It's too noisy outside, and I'm not suitable for a breezy and moonlit temperament.

It's not depression, it's not social phobia, it's just that I don't want to gamble on my future anymore.

Even for the next five years, I have to gnaw at my old age and make money from writing, because that's all I can do, and nothing else.

I won't serve others, I won't say so many nice things to coax people, and I won't do things that make me cheaper.

Since there are so many stories in my head, I dream about the plot of the novel at night, so I can't do anything else, and I don't want to do anything else.

Whether others don't understand, call me insane, or think I'm dead, I want to write trillion-word novels all my life. It is published by my own company, and all the copyrights about that work belong only to me, and other companies can only borrow it for a few years, and it cannot be bought or sold or transferred.

Let's get married in the novel, and let the male and female protagonists end my realistic wishes in this way.

Just imagine, dating a girl in reality, it takes too long from first acquaintance to marriage, at least a week, right? Then, you have to give birth, take care of children, take children to and from school, and so on.

I really can't afford to wait that long, I don't know how long I can live, so I still have to write novels, I have to complete my trillion-word novel project, and I don't have so much time to accompany a girl to grow old.

I have so much to do, take my mother on a trip to the country, treat her for all the discomforts in her eyes and body, and take her to see her family members who have married in other cities.

If some of my mother's family members can't find it, then we have to find their descendants and deal with all these important things in my mother's heart.

After that, it's my own business, winning one of the Nobel Prize in Literature and the Mao Dun Literature Award, until I finish all this, I have to prepare for my own retirement life, things don't seem to be much, but when I get busy, I get a lot more.

So, how can I have time to fall in love?

Every day, I try to plan for the future, and I regret that there are more unfinished things in my heart before death comes, so I can only do my best to come to this world to go through the tribulations.

The Buddha said that those who are destined will come to find me, so I will wait for those who are destined to cut off my six roots.

Since then, he has locked his heart and loved, not in love with the women of the world.