Pei Zhan walked outside the main hall in one breath before stopping.

There was the smell of incense and candles in the air, and not far away there was a small novice who kept vigil to clear his cough.

Although the light under the porch was not bright, it was much brighter than above the ruins.

He sat down on the steps, and under the corner of the door, the little novice bowed down to ask if he had any orders, and he waved his hand, and looked at his own shadow in the ground without saying a word.

Alone.

Like when I was a kid many years ago.

When his mother gave birth to him, he was born prematurely, and at first the old man in the family said that he could not support him, so his mother cried day and night, and his father was afraid that he would cry badly, so he invited three nurses to take care of him.

The eldest brother said that he had not walked by himself when he was three years old. He, who is an elder brother, doesn't want to see his younger brother just by saying that he can see him.

Even after the age of three, his father did not allow him to jump, and every three days the doctor would ask for a safe pulse.

At that time, Pei Zhan was most envious, that is, the eldest brother Pei Zhan could be with whoever he wanted, and he could go to whoever he wanted, and the people he had seen the most were the servants at home, most of them were old-fashioned, even if there were so many lively, but they only knew what was going on in the general's mansion, how big was the sky outside? They don't know.

The first peer he knew was Liang Chen, but Liang Chen was the same age as his eldest brother Pei Wei, five years older than him, and he really couldn't be called the same age.

That should have happened when he was three years old, and when he was four or five years old, he found that Liang Chen had a little attendant behind him, a little girl with big and bright eyes, she loved to wear bright red clothes, and she walked quickly and sensitively, like a flame floating in front of her eyes.

There are so many children and young ladies who come to their house as guests, she is the most special one, he has never seen such a dazzling little girl, no matter where she is, no matter what occasion she is, she is like a little sun, always the center of the crowd.

He thought it was Liang Chen's sister, he thought, even if the Liang family's sister was a little older than himself, she was always smaller than Liang Chen, and they were even more worthy of the name.

Later, when he saw her again, Pei Zhan couldn't help but take the initiative to come up. But before he could take out the candy in his arms and show her goodwill, she tilted her head and asked his name, and then couldn't help but say that he should salute and let him be called "Auntie"!

Pei Zhan has been with those old-fashioned people since he was a child, God knows how boring his life is, what he wants is a flaming and enthusiastic little friend, not an "aunt" who needs to be cautious in front of her!

So Pei Zhan refused to recognize her as an aunt no matter what.

How could he admit it?

Once recognized, she would never be his little friend.

He didn't want to be her follower like Cheng Zhili and them, and he would always be behind her.

He wants to be as unbridled as her, as freshly dressed and angry as her, and to be a normal disciple of the general.

He was too eager to get close to her.

Later, Pei Wei and Liang Chen were together, and he always pestered to go, but every time they met, she asked him to call his aunt, and if he didn't call him, she wouldn't take him to play.

He could only watch from afar, sitting on the sidelines like this, wondering in his heart whether to compromise and be his nephew, or stick to his principles.

But even this entanglement didn't last long, and she went to the northwest.

But it turned out that she went to the northwest and never stopped, from the letters brought back by her father, as well as the word of mouth of the generals and guards who traveled back and forth between the two places, he knew that she had become stronger, and also knew that she had made many contributions with a group of children.

The little sun shone on the border, and the figure of her freshly dressed and angry horse galloped in the yellow sand, and she was as vicious as hatred, and she had the righteousness of her family and country in her chest.

When the bad news of Liang Qin's sacrifice was transmitted back to Beijing, Pei Zhan had just turned thirteen. That night he stood for a long time at the stele of the Taiping Mansion at the gate of the Liang Mansion, at that time Liang Jun had been sacrificed for two years, Liang Qin suffered another accident, although the two of them were her brothers, but they were as close to her as father and daughter, and now they are gone, he thought, how sad should she be?

After he came back, he entangled his father, who returned to Beijing to recuperate from his injuries, and he was going to the border to join the army.

Liang Chen is filial piety, and he wants to avenge her for helping his eldest brother.

Neither father nor mother agreed. Because just three months ago, his eldest brother Pei Wei had already been seriously injured once.

Although they have three sons, although they are also strong-standing, as parents, they can't afford to take this risk.

He knelt and begged for most of the night.

My father finally agreed.

Halfway through his expedition, he happened to meet her returning from helping the spirit.

That night he quietly traveled thirty miles to the station where she had settled.

He saw her figure who had been separated for several years, but at the same time, he also saw Xu Yin accompanying her.

It turns out that she is never lonely.

He was the only one who was alone.

He didn't go in.

He thought that he had chilled this heart, but when he met the enemy general who killed Liang Qin on the battlefield a year later, he still desperately carried a spear, chased him out for more than 100 miles in one go, and cut off his head with his own hands before stopping.

When news of her accident at the White Crane Temple reached the northwest, he was preparing to launch a surprise attack. He never hesitated to get on the horse that day and tried twice before climbing on horseback.

In that battle, he broke two cities in a row, but he also almost lost a life.

After recovering from his injury, he took leave to Liang Chen, who had already hung up the handsome seal, and returned to Beijing, and ran to the White Crane Temple overnight. He returned to the northwest with a handful of scorched earth, and did not return until the battle was over.

When he returned to Beijing that year, everyone and everything silently told him that she was dead and would never come back.

But not long ago, a woman with a temperament and temperament very similar to her suddenly appeared!

She told him that she had a great relationship with the Liang family! And tell him that there are souls in the world that can be rejoined by this after death! And tonight she appeared on the ruins of that man after he was burned to death!

"The general looks worried tonight."

Suddenly, a slow voice came from behind him.

Pei Zhan stood up and turned to look at Cheng Kong, who was standing under the corridor at some point: "Master, is there really a reincarnation in the world?" If the body dies, can the soul still be parasitic? ”

Cheng Kong said the Dharma call and said: "The universe is vast, the Buddha sea is boundless, and the world is mysterious. Anything that is dead or dead, whether there is or is not, should be discussed with a normal mind. ”

Pei Zhan was silent. After a while, he said, "But I still can't believe that she can really come back." I was afraid of being mistaken, of being disappointed and then falling into the abyss of disappointment.

"I'm just a mortal in the flesh, and I can't withstand all kinds of blows."

Cheng Kong stepped down the stone steps, his eyes were level with him: "If what you get is what your heart wants, it will not help you in the end." The old man is convinced that a wise man is like a general, and he must have a choice in his heart. ”

Pei Zhan looked at the night sky and said nothing.