Chapter 1196: Emotional
Far away from the small lake of Xinghui Peak, Tang Yan persuaded him to talk badly, but in the face of Ling Ruoxi's ice-wall-like sense of prevention, he was really tormented: "Okay, okay, I admit defeat, I promise not to harass you sisters again." But I've mustered up the courage today, so I have to give a result, right?"
"What result does the Tang Zhai Lord want?" Ling Ruoxi turned his back to Tang Yan, not allowing himself to look at him face to face, and not allowing himself to have eyes intertwined with him, because ...... The hands inside the sleeve robe were unconsciously twisted hard, showing that her state of mind was not as cold and firm as it appeared on the surface.
"Define our relationship. β
"Our relationship is like the relationship between Wagangzhai and Yuhua Palace, completely equal!"
"What if Nawa Gangzhai marries Yuhua Palace?" Tang Yan tried to make trouble again.
But Ling Ruoxi's voice was slightly deep, and his temperament was cold as if he was rejecting people thousands of miles away: "Lord Tang Village, please respect yourself!"
Tang Yan was really 'frozen' by Ling Ruoxi, no matter how strong his heart was, he couldn't withstand such destruction, and no matter how cheerful his personality was, he couldn't stand the cold faces and cold eyes in turn: "Is our relationship determined to be an ordinary friend, a close friend, an ally, or a simple alliance of interests?"
"The last one. Ling Ruoxi left the last sentence and stepped into the air, this time he really wanted to leave.
"It's a pity, don't you feel too hurtful?" Tang Yan rubbed his forehead, bitter to bitterness. "Do we really have to make a fuss like this?"
"The master of Tang Zhai is too careful, we have always been like this. Ling Ruo left without looking back.
Tang Yan pointed to his heart, and pulled the corners of his mouth bitterly: "It's a pity, this is made of meat, you poke it too many times, it hurts." After what happened back then, I persevered, I begged to be responsible, but you almost killed me, and when I finally calmed down, I stopped being intimate and no longer harassing. But things are messed up like this again. Later, I promised Nia that I would have no other feelings, but in retrospect, I really feel ashamed of you, and I shouldn't have completely forgotten that nothing had happened. I can come here today, do I really want to deal with our relationship clearly, or that sentence, even if I really can't be lovers, I still want a close friendship. β
Ling Ruoxi stopped only taking three steps, the low voice from Tang Yan echoed softly in her ears, and the sourness in her voice touched the ice wall in her heart, a long silence, a long calm, but she tried her best to maintain a cold gaze...... Finally shaking......
"I'm not a god, I don't know everything, I can see everything. The reason why I refused when you used to be because you really didn't look down on me, but back then, in the Arbitration Kingdom, the words that your sister said to me, as well as your words on the isolated island in the South China Sea, made me very ashamed and moved. Tang Yan lowered his head, exhaled softly, and his eyes were a little hot: "I thank you sisters for always thinking about me, you don't want me to be difficult, you don't want to fight for anything, but the more you are like this, the more guilty I feel." β
Tang Yan said softly, walking towards Ling Ruoxi step by step.
Ling Ruoxi gently closed her eyes, hiding her complicated and slightly trembling gaze.
"I really came with sincerity, and I didn't want to see us become strangers from our original friends. If your sisters are willing to give me a chance, I will do my best to consult with Nia. To be honest, I owe Nia a lot, I am ashamed of her more, and I don't want to hurt her, so I can only try to fight for it, but I can promise to live up to anyone. Tang Yan walked forward slowly, approaching step by step: "If you really don't want to continue, you really don't want to have anything to do with it." I respect your decision, but I hope not to be a stranger, to be a friend, to be a close friend, okay......? I beg you to ......"
Ling Ruoxi's hands in his cuffs clenched tighter and tighter, his eyes trembled, and his heart trembled. Maybe it's because it's been suppressed for too long, or maybe it's because the ice is too hard and too hard, this moment of touching actually shattered the wall of the heart.
It's so ...... Frail......
Tang Yan stood behind Ling Ruoxi, looking at her emaciated back, feeling the cold breath, at this moment, he couldn't help but say a lot of things that he didn't dare to say again.
Ling Ruoxi stood quietly and did not look back after all.
Tang Yan inhaled secretly and let go. "When I was young and ignorant, I longed to have you, it was vanity and arrogance, then I was ignorant, I respected your decision, it was naΓ―ve and self-righteous, and then I felt guilty about Nia and made many promises, whether it was right or wrong, I persevered.
But now, I am forty, in the world of ordinary people, and have entered middle age, I now value responsibility more, I don't want my life to be stained, and I don't want to use the pretext of 'it is your reluctance' as an excuse for my 'cowardly abandonment'. I also know that now, if I don't work hard, I am afraid that I will really not have a chance in the future.
I really hope that you will give me a chance to make up for it. Even if I can't do my best, I can't do what you want me to be, but I do my best. β
Ling Ruoxi still stood in front, giving him a lonely cold back and gently flowing waist-length hair.
"I can understand your sisters' hearts, you don't want to compete with others, you don't want to gossip, you have self-respect and self-love, you value reputation. But there is really no need to be overly depressed about emotional things, and sometimes, if you are brave enough to take that step forward, you will find that there is a cheerful scene in front of you, not darkness and embarrassment. Tang Yan whispered, took a few steps forward, and slowly hugged Ling Ruoxi.
Ling Ruoxi's delicate body trembled slightly, stiffening slightly, but there was no obvious resistance.
Tang Yan hugged her, hugging her tighter and tighter, feeling the strange coldness of her body, and couldn't help but have a little pity, a little love, and a little emotion.
Ling Ruoxi froze, stopped, and stood.
Tang Yan hugged and clung tightly, recalling the past.
The surrounding mountains are full of flowers, the grass is green, the surrounding butterflies dance lightly, and the birds are smart, nourishing the quiet and warm picture at the moment, both of them are very quiet, they are silent, as if immersed in the former world, forgetting the environment at this moment.
Until......
A drop of crystal cold water slid down Ling Ruoxi's cheeks, stayed slightly on her delicate chin, and dripped on Tang Yan's arms and wrists in front of her.
He woke up in a trance, only to find the tears that slipped from the corners of Ling Ruoxi's eyes.
Pear blossoms bring rain, begonias reflect the moon, beautiful tears and drunkenness.
Tang Yan's heart trembled slightly, and he hugged Ling Ruoxi from behind, hugging her tighter and tighter, burying her head in her waterfall hair, and whispering comfortingly: "If you are willing, I will stick to it." β
Ling Ruoxi was indifferent and did not speak, but her delicate body trembled slightly, tears slipped from the corners of her closed eyes again, her heart fluctuated, and she choked up.
The stronger the appearance, the more fragile the heart.
The wall of her heart that has been frozen for many years...... Shattered...... Her fragile and lonely heart...... It's messed up......
Tang Yan sighed secretly in his heart, unconsciously about to mess things up again, what should I say now? What should I do?
One Zhaoyi and one Ling Ruoxi, the two sisters are self-respecting and self-loving, they are too famous, and they are too stubborn and strong, and even stay away from the empire in order to escape some things. In fact, if it weren't for the absurdity back then, which gave each other a special intersection, maybe it would be difficult for me to break through their frozen hearts until now. But even so, they still stick to their bottom line, preferring to suffer rather than fight with others.
Tang Yan understands their personalities and appreciates their tolerance, but characters like Zhaoyi and Ling Ruoxi are often overly depressed, not only are they not visible, but they may fall deeper and deeper.
Think about the Arbitration Kingdom at the beginning, because of the worry and guilt of Niya, and the eagerness to save Niya, so that in the midst of the turmoil, he politely refused Zhaoyi's relief to summon courage. Maybe that refusal that night was not a humiliation for Zhaoyi, and now every time he thinks about it, he always hates his cowardice.
And today...... Feeling Ling Ruoxi's cold body, and then looking at her delicate face with pear blossoms and rain, he seemed to stand on the edge of the cliff again, and returned to the ancient city inn again.
Do you just hold on to it, or do you let go of your hand?
Tang Yan lost her mind, and the ghost made a god kiss her earlobe, the tip of her tongue gently provoked, and buried her head affectionately.
Ling Ruoxi's delicate body trembled slightly, and she opened her eyes, but Tang Yan slowly and firmly wrenched her body, hugged her head-on, and kissed her red lips deeply.
Ling Ruoxi had tears in the corners of her eyes, and looked at the man in front of her fixedly, but she didn't struggle anymore, didn't take the initiative, and stood there in place, letting him hug and kiss. Only the eyes are melting, and only tears are coming out of the eyes.
Tang Yan hugged his arms tightly and kissed affectionately. Ling Ruoxi's body was cold, like jade, intoxicating, and even more pitying, her red lips were delicate and thin, slowly opening under the pry of Tang Yan's tongue, but they were salty due to the mixture of tears.