In a dream called Past Life, Lawrence has vague memories of eating mutton.

As for how to kill a sheep, it may only be the first time now.

When I was on the farm, it was a man who killed sheep and pigs.

Lawrence wasn't very clear how to do these things that were the responsibility of strong men.

Whether you kill a pig or a sheep, you should start with a knife, right?

Lawrence walked towards the house, next to Sophia, a little shepherd who was excited like a child.

Sophia didn't use a rope, but used a weak twig to happily urge behind, and the little goat bleated back.

Lawrence walked near the kitchen and quickly said, "Boil the water first, find a rope and stand on a clean place until it pulls the clean." ”

Sophia nodded quickly, "Hmm! ”

Lawrence went out to fetch water, and Sophia tied the lamb to the chopping wood with anticipation.

The lamb's hind feet were tied to a hemp rope woven with sword leaves, and he began to turn around and try to bite the rope.

Sophia quickly pressed the sheep's head with both hands and let the lamb lie on the ground without biting the rope.

When Lawrence came back from fetching water from the river, he saw Sophia cutting grass from nearby, and was happily crouching beside the lamb to feed the cosy white lamb.

Seeing Lawrence return, Sophia showed strong anticipation.

"Master, I've taken out the knife!"

Lawrence looked at the dagger on the board, then at the sheep, and smiled, "I'll boil the water first." ”

Sophia nodded obediently.

She has a lot of trust in Lawrence's technology and plans, and she is full of expectations.

In the kitchen, Lawrence sat by the fire and added firewood.

"What's wrong? The more you drag, the more you can't move your hands......"

Lawrence felt that he was a little too abrasive today, and it was not complicated to kill sheep, and eating mutton was also proposed by himself.

"Is it harder to kill a sheep than to kill someone?"

Lawrence cheered himself up and quickly walked out to get ready to go.

Sariel came back from digging potatoes next to the house, saw Sophia still squatting here, and said, "Sophia, why are you still here?" It's time to see the sheep on the hillside. ”

Sophia raised her head and said coquettishly: "When the master kills the sheep, I will go, the sheep on the mountain can't run away." ”

Sariel said: "Then someone should go and see, Lawrence, you go and herd the sheep, and Sophia and I will cook." ”

After saying it casually, Saliel felt that what she said was not bad, and said happily, "I'll cook!" ”

Lawrence looked at Sariel, "Will you kill a sheep?" ”

"Of course!" Sariel directly put the potatoes in her apron on the ground, clapped her hands and went to the side to pick up the dagger, "I'll just come, you go and herd the sheep, I'll call you when I eat." ”

Lawrence was also willing to take it easy, looked at the sheep on the hillside in the distance, and nodded, "Okay." ”

Without delay, Saliel walked up to the lamb with her dagger and straddled over to hold the lamb between her legs.

"Huh!" The lamb was immediately pinned to the ground and unable to move.

Salyl carefully pulled her skirt back a little to keep it out of the way.

Under Lawrence's gaze, she held a knife in one hand and the lamb's two long ears in the other.

"Sariel, will I kill the sheep? I want to try it! Sophia, who was standing on the side, was eager to try.

Sariel said kindly, "Well, I will kill sheep when I am younger than you." ”

Instead of herding the sheep, Lawrence stood there and watched.

Soon Saril brought the basin of water, and Sophia held the knife in one hand and gently stroked the lamb's chin and neck with the other.

The lamb tilted its head back and bleated obediently.

The voice quickly became painful, and red sheep blood spurted out quickly from the freshly cut wound.

Lawrence walked towards the hillside and said casually, "We kill sheep there first and then kill them." ”

Behind him were two busy village girls and little girls.

Busy bleeding the sheep, Sariel retorted, "We have the means we have here. ”

Lawrence walked up the hill and stood on the sunny hillside and counted the sheep.

After making sure that all the sheep except the little sheep were there, Lawrence sat down on the sloping grass where Sophia was resting.

The scenery around him was already tired of seeing, and after Lawrence calmed down, the scene of Sophia slitting the throat of a sheep with a knife kept coming to his mind.

Lawrence thought of himself, of the scene where he slit the neck of a sheep with a dagger.

He had intended to do the same, and wanted to do it as cleanly as Sophia.

Sophia, despite being the first time doing this kind of thing, is undoubtedly doing a great job.

Lawrence couldn't be happier, all he could think about now was the act of killing the sheep.

Gradually, Lawrence thought of himself, as if he had killed the sheep just now.

But soon terrible thoughts came to mind.

Lawrence thought of himself using the same action, wiping Sophia's neck and Emma's neck.

Even wiped Sariel's neck.

Of course this is impossible, but more and more imagination appears in the messy mind.

Lawrence sat on the ground with his head in his hands, a pained expression.

"It's not so troublesome to kill someone, it's just a sheep......"

Lawrence recalled the murder the other day, when he struck the man in the head with a sharp hoe and smashed him to death in the freezing snow.

Lawrence had long forgotten what the man looked like, and he couldn't remember what the other man looked like before he died.

No matter how I think about it, I only remember that I was very stable at that time, and I didn't have fear and panic because I killed someone.

It's like killing rabbits and squirrels.

"Oops...... Lawrence muttered to himself in a daze, "it's the aftermath of the killing." ”

Lawrence lay on the ground, his hands and feet wide open, his eyes closed and feeling the winter sun.

[The Kurs are invaders, they brutally killed the Phumixiu, I am forced to fight back for revenge, otherwise there will be more robbers to visit Phumixiu Town. 】

When Lawrence killed that Kuhr, he had an absolute valid reason, and he wouldn't even think about it when he slept alone these days.

"Sheep are food." Lawrence comforted himself, "We eat sheep to survive. ”

"In order to live better."

Take sheep's blood, skin sheep, eat mutton, and hollow out the sheep's internal organs......

Lawrence's mind grew more and more chaotic as he thought about what the sheep was going through.

The more I don't want to think about it, the clearer some thoughts come to mind.

[People are lonely, no matter what they do, they want a reason to get the support of others, and only those who are eliminated will stay away from the group. 】

We all aspire to be the shining stars of our race and to be children of God. 】

[Barbarians believe that they can enter the kingdom of God after dying heroically in battle, and southerners believe that they can enter the kingdom of heaven after atonement. 】

[I didn't believe in God before, and I didn't have a firm belief in it. 】

[Now I need salvation. 】

Lawrence is very sensible and knows very well that killing sheep is a normal thing and should not be thought about so much at all.

But he lacks a hope, and the hope of eating fried chicken and hot pot alone cannot offset the guilt of depriving him of life.

Squirrels, rabbits, and rats are both wild animals and more traditional prey, and the lamb gives Lawrence the impression that he is too obedient and too human.

This kind of humanity is something that cannot be felt in the Kurs, and if the Kurs had not invaded the town of Bhumisius and brutally tortured the Bourmisius, Lawrence would have also been in a difficult choice.

Lawrence thought about many, many things, felt like he was not only going to kill sheep, but also to kill, and couldn't help but imagine himself hurting others.

Fortunately, he is not alone, and Lawrence, tormented by chaotic thinking, quickly thinks of someone who can accompany him.

"Sophia! Sofia! Lawrence shouted the girl's name.

Sophia, who was helping in the kitchen, quickly ran out and shouted: "Master, I'm here!" What's the matter? ”

Lawrence sat up, his body feeling like he had lost his strength, "Come here." ”

"Okay!" Sophia quickly said hello to Saliel and ran over happily.

The killing of the sheep did not cause any confusion or influence to her, and from the time she brought back three lambs from the town, Sophia knew that the sheep were used to sell them for money and food.

The pretty little girl soon came to Lawrence's side, bent over with her hands on her knees, and asked affectionately and curiously, "What is it?" ”

Lawrence lay on the ground and said lightly and inhibitedly, "Sophia, I need a hug." ”

Sophia sat down happily, lay on Lawrence's body with a happy face, and hugged Lawrence tightly.

Feeling the temperature of the girl on his body, and the heat of the heavenly sun on his eyelids and face, Lawrence finally quieted down.

Lawrence hugged Sophia with one hand, quickly sat up and said, "Okay, you are herding sheep here, I should go back to work." ”

Sooner or later, you have to get used to killing sheep, and Lawrence has understood that this is part of life.

Whether it is killing sheep, pigs and chickens, or even killing people, as long as it is done to survive, it is still not enough.

Lawrence was afraid of being lonely, so he decided that whether he ate fried chicken or shabu mutton, he had to share it with his family.

In the face of various storms and difficulties, the strength of the family cannot be ignored.

The desire for good food and mansions is too monotonous, and Lawrence needs warmer strength to keep himself strong and heal the misfortunes of his life's path, so as not to spend too much time complaining about the misfortunes of others.