[August 2]

Today is the anniversary of my official relationship with him for a month.

Looking back on this semester, I really feel that I really agreed to his pursuit.

I knew I wasn't qualified to do that, I shouldn't have accepted him, I shouldn't have accepted anyone's confession.

However, these months of getting along have convinced me that he is a more delicate and fragile person than he seems, and there is a quality in him that makes it impossible for me to leave him behind.

Before I knew it, I was caught in a whirlpool called love.

Summer vacation is finally here, and I plan to record my first summer vacation with him.

Will it be the most youthful memory of my high school career?

If only it could.

From tomorrow onwards, we will be able to date in the open.

I never thought I would like anyone, but now I'm so excited.

Is this love?

It's incredible.

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[August 4]

Today we went to the Sunshine Aquarium in Ikebukuro, and the penguins are so cute that they can actually swim on top of people's heads, which is amazing.

I was only away from him for a short while, and when I came back from the bathroom, I saw that he was being accosted by a threesome of young girls.

I can't describe how I felt at that moment, I just thought that a naughty child from a relative's family had broken into my room and held the teddy bear next to my pillow in the palm of her hand, as if she were the owner who accompanied it every night.

I was so aggrieved that I wanted to go up and reason with them, but I saw him walking towards me without looking back, and with that smile, I almost thought my heart was going to stop beating.

It was as if he had put my heart on a hot air balloon, rising warmly into the sky, and the weightlessness that hit me sweetly hugged me.

Maybe it's because we don't show too much affection at school, so when we go on a date, I tend to pester him unconsciously, and I know I'm a year older than him, and I never knew I had such a side before.

What made me even more shy was that he quietly squeezed my hand as we lay next to each other in the planetarium, surrounded by the magnificent starry sky.

I peeked at him, and his slight blushing appearance was particularly cute.

And also.

This is the first time we have held hands.

Not...... At this time, the hand that was holding the pen and writing seemed to be able to feel the warmth of his palm, so shy.

I don't think I'll ever forget today.

I have a good memory and I will never forget it.

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【August 8】

When I went out with him today, I almost ran into a classmate from school, who was holding my hand, and then he let go.

I was devastated, but I couldn't blame him.

When I was at school, he never took the initiative to talk to me, and I dragged him to the student cafeteria every time.

I knew that he didn't want to affect my prestige in school.

If only I could remove everyone's prejudice against him.

He was obviously a gentle man.

No...... Maybe it's just my excuse, I'm just afraid that people will look at us differently.

When I think about it like this, I feel like a bad woman with a bad heart.

I decided that if there was a next time, I would have to hold his hand tightly before he let go of me.

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[August 11]

On the way home after a date, he kissed me.

This was my first kiss.

He doesn't seem to be.

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[August 12]

Mom said she would have dinner with the family at the end of the month.

It was as if I had suddenly woken up from a dream.

Should I tell him?

I'm still too selfish.

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[August 13]

On a date, he noticed my absent-mindedness.

He has always watched me well, he has always watched my affairs, but I have kept deceiving him.

I couldn't be honest with him, I couldn't say it, I couldn't tell him that I had a fiancé.

I seem to have forgotten about it a long time ago.

Every day I was in love with him made me so happy.

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[August 14]

It would be nice if I wasn't a child of the Hoshino Mori family.

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[August 15]

Yuejun ......

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[August 16]

Yuejun ......

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[August 17]

Yuejun ......

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[August 18]

I had a big fight with my mother.

I'm going to confess to him tomorrow, and I'm ready to be hated by him.

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[August 19]

Help me.

Yuejun ......

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[August 20]

I just felt that the world was spinning upside down, and the gray world that I had been accustomed to until now was suddenly dyed a dazzling pink.

I even forgot how I got home, and I only felt that my heart, which had been empty so far, was all filled with this sixteen or seventeen-year-old love.

His smile, his words, his hugs.

His touch, his body temperature, seemed to be carved into my body, so that I will never forget it.

I used to think that I was a puppet with nothing inside, and I often wondered why he liked me like this.

If he just liked the skin, why would he push me away at that time?

I gained courage, dreams, and love from him.

I really want to respond to him, I really want him to see.

Let him look at Hoshino Mori Hoshino and respond to the look of the miracle.

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[August 22]

I did it.

I did.

Will I be in control of my life from now on?

However, I was a little scared.

Without the guidance of my parents and their arrangements, can I really make my own decisions?

At the age of seventeen, do I already have the right to decide my own life?

I don't know yet.

But as long as I think of him by my side, I feel that I am much stronger.

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[August 25]

I went to see the fireworks festival with him today, and he looked really handsome in a yukata.

So, I kissed him in the crowd and couldn't help it.

I'm even ready to entrust my life to him.

Yikes...... What should I do?

If I could be so happy every day for the rest of my life, I would be so worried that I would drown in this happiness.

……

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In the dead of night, the bedroom was unusually quiet, and the girl sat at the desk, her long azure hair tied up at will, lying quietly on her chest.

She flipped through page after page, quietly, as if she were in a beautiful fairy tale.

This is a very wonderful feeling, obviously I don't have any impression of the content on it, but I can read this text sometimes excited, sometimes jealous, as if there is really another girl named Hoshino Mori Hoshino, who is in love, appears vividly in front of his eyes.

It was so immersive, so shocking to her.

The girl flipped to the last page of the diary, her soft gaze dimmed for a moment.

These days, she doesn't know how many times she has looked back and forth through this diary.

The green fingertips touched the deeply sunken handwriting, as if you could really feel the sadness and pain behind the handwriting.

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[August 28]

He proposed to me to break up.