93. The greatest pain of man is not being able to cross the gap between "knowing" and "doing".

At the morning class meeting, Hasebe, who is the head teacher, routinely takes a roll call, and when Sakurakoji Sakura's name is read, no one responds.

Obviously, Sakurakoji Sakura didn't come to school today.

Hasebe was somewhat surprised, and he had the impression that Sakurakoji Sakura was a child who was never late and absent.

After asking around the class if anyone knew the inside story, and no one raised their hands, he continued to start roll call, planning to call after the class meeting was over.

Jingu Terakitsuki sat in the back row of the classroom, silently taking in the reactions of the students around him.

After class, Jingu Teraetsuki sent a message to Sakura Koji Sakura again, and the LINE interface showed that it had been read, but Sakura Koji Sakura did not reply.

In general, Jingu Terakitsuki is an observant person.

Because people who are not accepted by the atmosphere and are excluded from the atmosphere, they are always able to observe them from the perspective of God who is free from them.

Coupled with the special ability to never forget, Jingu Temple Moon easily discovered someone's abnormality.

is obviously a partner in the same small group, but there is an indifferent expression on his face, which is like two people like her on weekdays.

For Jingu Terakitsuki, who often deals with negative emotions, this appearance feels too familiar to him, so Jingu Terakitsuki decides in his heart that this girl named Sasami must know something.

In this way, Jingu Siyue was relieved.

If it's just an argument with a friend, it's normal from the standpoint of a high school student.

People like Jingu Terakitsuki himself who don't have a quarrel with him are outliers and are unsociable beings.

Of course, Jingu Teratsuki has not yet come forward to question him, and he doesn't want to expose his relationship with Sakurakoji Sakura at school, thus causing more trouble to Sakurakoji Sakura.

Still pretending to be indifferent, looking out the window wordlessly.

Jingu Temple Moon has always done this.

But now, he wants to regret it again.

If at this moment, he is still the same Jingu Temple Moon who doesn't do anything, then I'm afraid he won't do anything in the future.

Jingu Teratsuki was afraid that he would become such an adult.

"What to do? Sakura still hasn't replied to me, is it sick? ”

"Let's go to her house after school."

"Hae, Sayaka, you seem to know where the Sakura family lives."

"I ......"

In the front row of the classroom, three girls gathered to talk about Sakurakoji Sakura.

The teenager in the back row got up at this time, only feeling that he was walking in a transparent bubble, and even if his indoor shoes touched the ground, they were only stepping on the soft but tough bubbles.

This bubble of rainbow light cut him off from the classroom, from the school, from the people.

If it weren't for Hoshino Mori Hoshino, he would still feel that everyone was hostile and ostracizing him, and he wouldn't have noticed that he didn't actually have much weight in the hearts of others.

If it weren't for Sakura Koji Sakura, it would be difficult for him to give himself a reason to convince himself to pop the bubble and get out of it.

Walking towards them step by step, Jingu Terakitsuki's heart was unexpectedly calm, and even his mouth was very smooth.

So much so that when the people in the class saw Jingu Siyue taking the initiative to talk to the girl, they all showed incredible expressions, thinking that this guy could take the initiative to speak.

Came to the front of several girls, looked at Sasami, who was sitting in the seat, with a somewhat stiff expression, and Jingu Terakitsuki's voice was soft and gentle.

"Can you take a little bit?"

……

……

In front of the station, there were people coming and going, and the girl squatted alone under the telephone pole, looking at the dessert shop not far away.

It didn't take long for the police officers who came to patrol to interrogate them.

It seems to be a matter of course, and on weekday mornings, girls in high school uniforms hang out in front of the station, and it is impossible not to be questioned.

In short, on the grounds of "oversleeping and embarrassed to go to school", coupled with the fact that she ran fast, she barely escaped being tutored.

Walking on the empty road, Sakura Koji Sakura hung his head down, and every time he took two steps, he had to stop in place for a while, squatting down to look at the ants crawling at his feet, as if he were a schoolboy doing summer research.

Until noon, Sakura Koji Sakura was still wandering around Sakamichi and did not go to school.

Actually, Sakura Koji Sakura didn't want to be a girl who didn't go to school, she just didn't know how to face her friends, she was in a daze, and she missed the school time before she knew it.

As a result, it became increasingly difficult to take steps, to enter the school, and to wander around at a loss.

In fact, there are many people who miss the opportunity to go to school in this way, and if they miss the first day, they will miss the second day, until they completely become squatting at home and are bound to their limbs.

At that time, if you want to go back to school, you won't be able to do it without a lot of courage and determination.

That's how it's drawn in the comics.

She thought.

Feeling the cool autumn breeze, squatting on the ground and letting the sun shine on her back, suddenly a shadow covered her shadow, Sakura Koji Sakura raised her head suspiciously.

"Hey, what are you doing in a place like this?"

"Huh? Hoshino Mori ...... Senpai? Why is it here? ”

Hoshino Morino pointed in the direction of the school.

"The student union room is on the fourth floor of the old school building, with the best view, and you can see this saka road in full view, I originally wanted to be lazy, who would have thought that I would find such a cute school girl."

The elegant and calm student president smiled and stretched out his hand to the student who was squatting on the ground.

"May I ask this lovely lost schoolgirl, do you need me to show you the way?"

……

……

Under the cherry blossom tree with only dead leaves left, the two girls sat side by side, Sakurakoji Sakura kept her head down, and Hoshino Mori Seino always had a calm smile.

"I see."

After listening to Sakurakoji Sakura's words, Hoshino Mori nodded and then went silent.

Sakura felt that the silence made her uneasy, and remembering her friend's tearful expression yesterday, she buried her head between her knees.

"Senior sister must think I'm too much, whether it's for Sayaka or for Yue."

She still buried her cheeks, and her voice penetrated the fabric of her uniform, with a hazy feeling of "rustling", falling into Hoshino Mori Hoshino's ears.

"Hmm......" Hoshino Mori Seino put his finger to his lips and thought for a moment.

"Sakura Xiaolu-san, are you remorseful?"

"Probably."

"Then you should always understand what you regret about it, such as regret that you shouldn't lie to your friends, or regret your carelessness, or regret that you agreed to Jinguji's proposal in the first place."

"I don't know, maybe...... Both. ”

"I think too, if you can figure out your heart so accurately, people won't make mistakes." Hoshino Mori sighed slightly.

"Hey, if it was a senior sister, what would you do?" She couldn't help but ask.

Sakura Koji Sakura wanted to know how the girl who could easily walk beside Jingu Teratsuki would solve it if she encountered something similar.

But Sakura Koji Sakura fantasized in her heart and came to the conclusion that "Hoshino Mori Seino would not pretend to be a stranger with him from the beginning", so she felt more and more sad, and by the way, she agreed that her current ending was a matter of course.

Hoshino Morino blinked: "If it means whether or not to go to school, my conclusion is that you have to, otherwise it will only become more and more difficult to go to school." ”

"It's exactly the same as in the comics."

Hoshino Mori Hoshino smiled slightly: "Why don't you think about something relaxing?" ”

"Easy?"

"Blame all the blame on the classmates of Jinguji Temple, and be a happy heartless girl."

Sakura Koji Sakura was stunned: "Huh? ”

"You see, the cause of this is that Jinguji-san's temperament is too distorted, and he makes decisions based on his prejudices alone, completely ignoring the idea that you want to get close to him, and wishful thinking that she is moving herself, thinking that she is protecting you.

"If it were me, what do you think I'd say to him?"

Sakurakoji Sakura was quiet, waiting for Hoshino Mori to say next.

Hoshino Mori Hoshino Asakura Koji Sakura's unbeatable smile.

"I must stand in the auditorium at the morning meeting of the whole school, in front of all the teachers and students, and confess to him, unless he is shocked by his jaw and wide eyes, he will never be able to get rid of my name in his whole high school career."

Sakurakoji Sakura opened her mouth, not knowing what to say.

"Ah, I'm not saying that I like Jinguji-san, and I don't really want to confess to him, what I want to express is an attitude, or a behavior."

Hoshino Mori Seino began to patch up his speech, and Sakurakoji Sakura's expression slowly calmed down.

"Behavior?" Sakura asked, tilting her head.

"If he wants to be seen by others as a good friend of him, or if he knows how to tame him, he can't be led by his lonely temperament.

"You're just spoiling him too much, and once you step into his pace, you'll be a little immersed in his loneliness, that's not okay.

"You have to go against him, he tells you to go east, and you drag him to the west, and correct his twisted nature with toughness and determination, and don't give him room to think."

Sakura Koji Sakura was speechless for a moment, thinking about Hoshino Mori Seino's speech in his heart, and subconsciously agreed.

But Sakura Koji Sakura actually understands these things, but there is an insurmountable gap between knowing and doing.

In the face of that young man, she will be soft-hearted, that is, she will succumb to his loneliness, she can't raise her head, and she can only carefully hide her true heart.

This is the biggest difference between Sakurakoji Sakura and Hoshino Mori Hoshino.

On weekdays, she seems to be lively and jumpy, but Sakura Koji Sakura is a witness to Jingu Temple, witnessing how loneliness entangles him, which makes her easier to empathize with Jingu Temple Moon than others.

It is precisely because of knowing the face of the teenager in the past that this memory and experience that belongs exclusively to childhood sweethearts has become a reason for Sakura Koji Sakura to be timid, and a shackle that restricts their relationship further.

What could be sadder than that?

"I don't want to do anything that bothers him.

So when I entered the school, he wanted me not to have anything to do with him in high school, and I agreed.

"Although Yue was smiling all the time at that time, in my eyes, there was no skin on his body that was good, and he was covered with bruises."

Looking at Sakurakoji Sakura's appearance deep in memory, Hoshino Morino couldn't help but sigh in his heart.

"Sakura Koji-san, I really like him."

“…… Well, from very small, very small, all the time.

"Even if he becomes someone I don't know halfway through and becomes a scumbag in the mouth of others, I ...... I've always liked it. ”

Hoshino Mori Hoshino was speechless for a moment, blind to this extent, but it made people feel admired.

Although she couldn't agree with Sakurakoji Sakura's idea, she didn't think Sakurakoji Sakura was necessarily wrong.

Hoshino Morino didn't think she could do the same as Sakurakoji Sakura, or she couldn't imagine who she would like to be irreplaceable.

Rather than being in love, she thinks she has more things to do now.

But she couldn't help but think of the diary in the bedroom drawer at home, and remembered every word in the diary written by her own hand, which was full of incomparably sincere emotions, joy, and pain.

If that was true, then she would have loved it for a long time.

The difference in this experience suddenly made Hoshino Mori Seino shake his head, lowered his head and whispered, "It's really jealous......"

Hearing this, Sakura Koji Sakura looked at Hoshino Mori Seino suspiciously.

The student president shook his head and chuckled: "I mean Jinguji classmates, isn't it an enviable thing to have a cute girl like you who is dead set on him?" ”

"Where...... How can there be a dead heart. Sakura Koji Sakura's cheeks flushed, and he said a little sheepishly.

To be honest, it's a bit shy to say this kind of thing to your peers.

Not to mention the awe-inspiring student president in front of her, who is the ex-girlfriend of the boy she likes.

Although both of them claim to have cut off the past and no longer have any thoughts of love for each other, Sakurakoji Sakura, who is a bystander, is rightfully worried.

And the reason why Sakura Koji Sakura was willing to talk to her at this time was because there was no one around her.

Hoshino Mori is a person who is extremely good at being a listener, and her sense of maturity that is beyond her peers gives her the trait of being easily trusted by those around her.

"Senior sister, what do you think I should do now?"

In the middle of the night, Sakura Koji Sakura asked Hoshino Mori Seino with a hint of asking for help.

Hoshino Mori Hoshino looked at Sakura Koji Sakura, suddenly raised his hand, and began to stroke the girl's short hair.

"Hmm...... Senpai? ”

Sakura Koji Sakura felt a little embarrassed, but he was unexpectedly disgusted by Hoshino Mori Hoshino's behavior.

It's obviously a rival in love.

"What a stupid boy, even now, you still want to do something for him, not for yourself."

Sakura Koji Sakura was quiet, agreeing with the statement.

Hoshino Mori stood up, put away the handkerchief that was laid on the ground and under his buttocks, and turned to smile at Sakurakoji Sakura.

"Now, it's not what you do, it's what he does.

"If he really listens to what I say in his heart......

(End of chapter)