In his subconscious, life and death or an accident, sooner or later he will have to leave and say goodbye to everyone.

Since you can only have yourself at the beginning and end of life, why add other constraints to yourself.

Therefore, even though it seemed that the communication with Yiyong and them was no different from that of ordinary friends, Shi Shenfei didn't seem to have really accepted many people from his heart, and he thought, in this way, when he left, he would not have so many uncomfortable restraints on him.

In the past, he always felt that it was quite good for him to hide.

He is a self-disciplined son who doesn't need his parents and grandfather to worry about anything, so when he was a child, when he wielded a knife and broke his skin, he also endured it at night without crying.

He is a reliable bamboo horse who can pay attention to the safety and life of Qingmei, but he can only deliberately ignore their tears or red faces, pretending not to know or turning around as if nothing happened.

He's a genius that everyone thinks he's like, doesn't he know? Of course, he knows that he is different, but genius means to bear more expectations than others, it means to step on one dazzling stage after another, and he doesn't want to step on that stage, because after the end of genius, it is often accompanied by countless disappointments.

Well, in fact, his idea is simple.

He could get hurt, but they couldn't worry about the painful look he might have shown, so he endured the pain.

He can be clumsy, but they can't put life on the line because of an uncertain future, so he pretends not to know.

He can be alone, but so what? As long as he can make others feel that he is not lonely while he is lonely, wouldn't it be good?

He feels lonely, others think he is not lonely, the minority obeys the majority, and comes to a domineering inference!

Isn't that he, like everyone else, not alone?

So even if he is rejecting the world, in the eyes of others, isn't he just blending into the world with them?

When the transparent non-glance at the warm room, I sighed in my heart.

So, look, everybody's laughing, isn't it?

Brother Yaozai is really, why do you have to point out the fact that he rejects the world in his heart, refuses to contact others from his heart, or that he is lonely.

Even though he's lonely, he can laugh a lot, right?

Shi Xiangfei grinned, but he couldn't look in the mirror, so he didn't know that the smile that looked pleasant on weekdays was a little more distorted at this moment!

There's nothing wrong with him!

Whether it's arrogant or arrogant, it's okay to say that it's okay to escape, anyway, he thinks there's nothing wrong with it.

It's like now, as time goes by, Chanel, who he has gradually accepted sincerely, has not returned, which makes him uncomfortable.

If she never comes back, he won't be as good as he says, and he can move on with a pat on the ass, and he won't be able to break down for some time.

Empathy, if he doesn't come back one day, he will feel uncomfortable and want to cry at the thought of saying goodbye to those figures in his heart.

See, that's what happens when you accept it!

If he accepts so many people in front of him, or even the whole world, how long will he collapse when he leaves.

You can't break down for the rest of your life.

On the contrary, he didn't accept so many people, and when it was time to leave, he could smile and wave his hand without any restraint and say, "What are you crying about, I didn't take these things and these people to heart, just go on the road." ”

When transparent non gently clenched fists,

So loneliness is loneliness, everyone has lonely times, but he deliberately stretched it a little bit to make loneliness grow into a lifetime.

At the very least, before he disappears completely, or before someone else disappears, he sometimes plays a joy that makes everyone feel real, and that's enough!

Because of the desire to have forever, I dare not try to hug, and because I am afraid of losing, I refuse to accept from the bottom of my heart.

It's like that sentence,

Yes, you are afraid of delicate flowers withering, so you say that you don't like to grow flowers.

In order to avoid the end, Ming Fei did not know when he refused all the real beginnings.

The dark and oppressive aura shrank in a corner, alien to the joyful hall.

Until a certain moment!

The door creaked open, and a panting figure stepped in.

Yes, you don't need to knock when you open the door of your own house, this is a truth that every child understands.

But Shi Shenfei still didn't know how many times he had looked forward to it this day, looking forward to whether the figure that appeared behind the knock on the door would be her.

And now, she finally came back, and without knocking, she opened the door of another world so abruptly.

Butterfly Chanae wears a snow-dyed black ghost slayer uniform, and her feet are covered in the mud of the road.

"Sorry, the original road was blocked by snow and it took a lot of time to detour, but, all in all,"

Butterfly Chanae folded her hands and apologized,

"I'm back!"

"Welcome home." Shi Shen muttered subconsciously, and his hanging heart fell a little, and the dark magnetic field around him shattered a little.

"Sister! Great, you're finally back! Ming Fei and I have been waiting all day! Butterfly Shinobu looked back in surprise and was about to rush to her sister, but she was stunned.

She trotted towards Shi Xiangfei, and pulled him up angrily.

"What are you doing in a daze? Silly! ”

Butterfly took his slightly cold wrist by the warm hand and ran towards the shadow in the doorway.

Shi Xiang stumbled and swayed, as if he had tripped over the threshold, but he had stepped through the door.

Cracking sound!

The warmth permeated the whole house, and Shi Cheng Fei subconsciously stabilized his body to keep up with the pace, only to feel that there was something in his heart, broken.

If Butterfly Chanae opened the door between the world, then what Butterfly Shinobu did was to drag him out unreasonably.

The gentle heart ripples, the arrogant heart ripples.

Fuck the loneliness!

What is the bumpy road, what the ending is troubled and uncertain, there is a moment of happiness and peace of mind and the urge to laugh in mind, no matter what the future holds, everything is worth it!

Lonely thing, whoever wants it! He doesn't want it anyway!

Lao Tzu should also try to try to contact the world from the heart, accept the people around him, and more! More!

So the twisted laughter calmed down, and it was very real.

It wasn't until this moment that Shi Xiangfei felt that another shackle on his body suddenly collapsed, and he felt comfortable!

"Welcome home, Sister Chanel." The voice is crisp and high-spirited, without the slightest falsehood and hidden oppression.

“.” Butterfly Chanae stared at the time for a long time, "Hmm! I'm back safely! ”

Tired eyes exploded, squinting and smiling,

"Also, happy birthday, congratulations, you have become a 12-year-old Xiao Mingfei."

Five watches, the end of ten thousand days and nine days.

(End of chapter)