I couldn't fall asleep after taking sleeping pills, so I just talked to the big guy about the current situation.

I decided that it was actually a relapse of anxiety, nothing complicated, just some familiar old symptoms.

Then I honestly went to Shanghai Jingwei Hospital to see a doctor and dispense medicine, and prescribed anti-anxiety drugs with relatively weak effects, but I didn't expect that at the end of December, suddenly the situation deteriorated very badly in two or three days.

In short, it is a second relapse of depression, and the degree of depression starts quickly; In short, it is despair, loss of execution, lack of positive emotions, etc.

I was terrified and felt like I had to save myself, but I was caught up in the classic depression.

Fortunately, the operation officer gave me a hand and made a decision immediately

On December 31, I bought a plane ticket and went to Haitang Bay in Sanya to live for a few days. Facing the sea, sea breeze and sunshine, the state of the person immediately stabilized.

Then on January 5th, I went to the Moganshan Scenic Area, and suddenly had a high fever while living in a lakeside cabin in the hotel.

38.6° armpit, this wave of symptoms took half a life, and most of them were only better until the fifteenth.

I'm pretty much out of depression now, my cough is better, and I start to feel like I can do something writing.

For me, there is a simple indicator of depression recovery: first, I can sketch out the character of my characters and figure out their thoughts; Second, my passion for creation has been rekindled.

When I was depressed, my own brain was a mess, and I lost both ability and motivation, and I couldn't write a word at all.

Yesterday I went to Wanping South Road again (every time I went there I had to be uncomfortable for a few days, Jingwei Hospital was a bad hint for me).

After seeing the doctor, the doctor thought that I had a bit of a bipolar tendency and asked me if I should use medication to calm my mood.

I know that after using it, people's emotions will be forcibly stabilized and people will be comfortable, but the creative passion will be almost completely lost, and I can't write anymore, so I didn't use the doctor's plan.

All in all, I think I've gotten through this hurdle again, and I'm going to start writing.

To be honest, I may not be able to write much before the Spring Festival, because I am only able to write now, and I am not in excellent condition, and I need to climb slowly.

The power of 2024, Lao Huang, I have learned in the first half of the month......

I hope that after that, our New Year will be happy and smooth~

Huang Huoqing 2024.1.19