13. Feel sorry for your past

Alas... I don't know why, I feel very uncomfortable in my heart, although I thought that people would definitely die, but when I really die... My mind was suddenly empty again, and I was in a trance, but I felt very heavy in my heart... That's a living person, too!

However, I had a strange thought in my head, that kind of death, it seemed to be very beautiful, but fortunately, there was no bloody scene as I imagined, or even a river of blood.

So... It's over, right?! I thought to myself.

But...

I was still thinking nonsense, not paying attention outside, when Xiaoxue leaned in towards me and shook me. I tilted my head and she motioned for me to look outside.

Outside, the rain gradually subsided, and the light rain mixed with muddy water flowed into the pit... At this time, I saw again, on the side of the mountain, there was a black shadow, but at the same time, among the few cars below, a few men in black suits and a woman in a white coat and a mask came down, and when I saw someone coming up, the shadow in the rain disappeared again.

The few black suit umbrellas didn't hit, they ran desperately, rushed up, and the white coat woman followed closely behind with a black umbrella, and a few black suits jumped into the mud after climbing up from the mud slope, and fished the beauty girl out of the puddle, and then looked back at the white coat girl, the white coat girl seemed to shout something, a few black suits pressed the heart and lungs, and then carried it again, followed the white coat girl down the mud slope, got into the car, and then did not stop, the car drove away...

Drove away, disappeared at the end of the muddy mountain road down, washed by the rain, like... It's like nothing happened...

"Alas...", I sighed quietly and said to myself, "What have I seen...", I was still sighing, looking sideways at Xiaoxue, I found that she frowned, as if she was recalling or thinking of some painful memory.

"Snow, what's wrong?" I thought about it and asked her, our hands were still clasped together, and I wanted to give her more warmth.

"It's nothing", Xiaoxue reacted, smiled at me and said, "Let's get up first"

"Oooh." I quickly let go of her hand, and she slowly let go of it, and we got up. They patted the ash on their bodies, and I saw a little red knee under Xiao Xue's white long legs, and I thought I was so stupid, I knew that I had taken off my shirt and padded her! I'm so stupid!!

"You can sit down too, now", Xiaoxue patted the ashes, straightened her skirt, sat down on the table where the newspaper was spread before, and gave up some place to the side, and said to me, motioning for me to sit next to her.

I swallowed my saliva and replied a little nervously, "Okay", leaning on her, I sat down, the different fragrance was more obvious, soft and calming, yes, like the feeling of a spring breeze.

She smiled, and in the darkness, I realized that she was really beautiful, so beautiful, "I know you must have a lot of questions in your mind, right?!" Xiaoxue looked at me and said, lowered her head again, looked at me with her eyes, looked at her hand again, reached out and pulled my right hand, her hands gently stroked the back of my hand, her eyes were gentle.

"I've decided, what's the mess of the future, this time, let me be willful, I've decided, let you enter my life, in ten years, you are the first." , Xiaoxue lowered her head and smiled wryly, "I'm also suffocated, I'm so panicked, no one can talk to me..."

I didn't speak, I just subconsciously leaned towards her, felt her breath, her temperature, I seemed to be able to feel the coldness and sadness experienced behind her, I suddenly felt very heartache, why let such a beautiful girl go through those sorrows?! If I could, I would like to replace her pain and let her become that blooming flower, how good...

"My story... It's a long time...", she looked at me sideways, very close, her eyes were gentle, and she had a little crimson smile on her face, "I may have used up my luck to meet you", she seemed to say to herself.

I suddenly mustered up courage, I have never been so brave in my life!! Putting her arms around her shoulders, she gently leaned her head into my arms, and I whispered, "It's okay, it's okay, from now on, you have me, and I have you... Although I don't believe in the nonsense, the Old Testament of the Bible says in 23:4 that even if you walk in the valley of death, you have no need to be afraid, because I am always with you!! ”

Xiaoxue listened, looked up from my arms, looked at me, I looked down, she smiled faintly again, I don't know if it was happiness or what, leaned in her arms again, and whispered, "Yes, even if I walk in the valley shrouded in death, I have no fear at all, because you... Always be with me!! As he spoke, his voice grew quieter, "Always... Together... Together..."

It sounds like... Not quite right, I looked down at the girl with a crying voice, "Snow, you are crying...", and I hugged her tightly.

"I'm really tired, I'm really tired!! I'm so tired, now, I'm about to collapse, I'm really about to collapse!! Xiaoxue said, crying, pain in my heart.

"It's okay, it's okay, you have me, you still have me!!" , I can only comfort, but my heart, how can it not hurt, this girl, behind the strong shield, is so weak that it is heartbreaking...

"Yes...", suddenly Xiaoxue wiped her tears and looked up, "Yes... I still have you, I... Maybe I'm not alone anymore...", I took out the tissue in my pocket and gently wiped her tears, that soft and fair face, rosy lips, I really want to kiss it... However, my heart aches even more, my heart aches for this girl's past... Scared again, scared she disappeared again... Again... In her heart, seven up and eight down, but, what hasn't changed, is that, I want to protect her heart.

"It's just... My story, it's long, it's long, and... I have my goals and you... Would you like to help me?! As she spoke, she seemed to hesitate for a moment, then plucked up her courage again.

"I do, I do!" I have no hesitation.

She didn't speak, she suddenly laughed, and lowered her head again, "You don't have to promise so quickly, you listen first... My story..."

…

…

Outside, the rain was still falling, but it was much lighter, and although it hadn't reached the level of drizzle, at least it wasn't the stormy scene anymore. The thunder is also less, much smaller, the lightning is only in the distance, it seems that the clouds, rain and thunder have slowly gone away...

Under the rain, it seems that the sky is a little rainy and sunny...

It's still muddy outside, it seems that no matter how strong human beings are, in front of nature, it's nothing more than a tickling level, and at this moment, the outside is back to an ordinary construction site, even if there is blood, it is mixed and diluted by muddy water, and flows into the puddle and pool...

On the dirt slope on the side of the mountain, the door is locked with chains, and in the attic on the upper floor of the inconspicuous abandoned factory, in the dimly lit room, two figures snuggle together. Listening to Xiaoxue's story, I became more and more angry and angry, what kind of world is this?! And this kind of madness?!

In a socialist country like ours, engaged in research on illegal artificial organisms?! Research by deception or kidnapping and blackmail?! Are there any researchers or scientists who don't want to do it, and they all killed?! Or extinguish the door, there is no one left, I heard Xiaoxue say, when her mother was holding her who was almost fainting in pain, vaguely, she saw that her mother even had a flame on her body, she struggled, and rushed out of the burning house with Xiaoxue in her arms, behind her, in the flames, was her father's strong figure...

Fortunately, there was a creek and a small river not far away, and the gasoline on her body had volatilized a lot, and her mother didn't let the flames ignite her, but burns were inevitable... Finally, her mother held her and threw herself into the creek, and faintly, she drifted down the creek... Vaguely, she seems... I also saw those guys in black suits and sunglasses, with guns, and came to the river...

Over the years, she has been living a miserable life, displaced, and for longer and longer periods, the flames of revenge have slowly taken over almost everything in her heart, leaving only hatred, endless hatred. I can't imagine the pain of a six- or seven-year-old girl watching everything in front of her happiest being completely destroyed, that kind of sorrow and hatred of gnashing her teeth, the more I listen to it, the more angry I become, what is this?! This kind of thing!! What I can't see the most is the tragedy, and the sad girl in front of me. I even thought, if I have the ability, if I have the ability!! I must change all this!! I don't want to see the piercing sadness of the girl in my arms, I hope she is happy, she will always be happy...

Even if, sacrificing everything of my own...

… Then I listened to her whisper again, and there was some tenderness in her words, and when it came to it, at least thankfully, her sister was fine.

Because her father was an orphan, her grandfather (or grandfather) died when her father was three years old, and her grandmother (grandmother) also disappeared after raising her father, and was classified as a missing person by the police station. But her father is also the kind of character who does not admit defeat, at the age of 16, he saved his tuition fees by moving bricks at the construction site and carrying goods at the wharf, participated in the social college entrance examination that was restored that year, and was also admitted to a key college, and later became a researcher of the National Academy of Sciences.

And her mother is the proud daughter of the sky, although the family background is not good, but the various education and ideas she has received are quite open and advanced. And later, by all kinds of coincidences, her parents met in that company, and began to chat and felt that it was very speculative, with similar personalities, and then chatted again, and found that it was actually a fellow countryman, with the development of time, they slowly changed from colleagues, to boyfriend and girlfriend, and then went to the palace of marriage, but soon, her mother's father (grandfather) due to the old injuries and old diseases suffered on the battlefield in the past has not been well, or passed away, before his death, her father only had one request, hoping that she could recruit Lang, she also brought him here, and saw the last side, He held the man who had been majestic on the battlefield and granted his last request.

For I love her, and I have overcome all obstacles, and what is wrong and fearful in the world. At that time, the boy named Yang Jisheng made a promise in his heart!

Their happy love, on the last day of the end of the twentieth century, finally gave birth to the most precious crystallization, that is, leaning on my arms, the somewhat sad girl, Yang Xue. It's mine... Light snow!! I guess she may really hold back for too long, she hides too much in her heart, and she never tells anyone, and she never tells anyone, that a lot of words, a lot of memories, just quietly hidden, hidden, so overwhelming that she can't breathe, she whispered, okay, okay, okay, fortunately, those people organized by the company, I don't know that they also have a little daughter, and I don't know, they also have a hometown, that is, in the mountains, her grandmother (Xiaoxue's mother's mother) alone with a little girl who is only three or four years old, is her sister, called Yang Meng, okay, They escaped.

Xiaoxue is still talking, she said, in fact, she is lucky, in that season, the creek rose and turned into a small river, she did not drown, but also after floating through the underground dark canal, was washed by the water to the edge of an acre of paddy fields in the village below, was picked up by a peasant woman, the woman's family also has a little girl, but older than her, she lived there for more than half a year, until the New Year, she asked the peasant woman, said that she wanted to go home, that is really good to the family, not only did they not dislike her, but they were really after the New Year, when they went to relatives, took her and their daughter around, and by impression, she finally found it, nearly 100 kilometers away, her grandmother and sister...

She said that although she was very bitter when she was a child, she always felt that it was not bitter, because it was her only remaining happiness. It's just that...

It's just that happiness, maybe it's hard to last long, although the hatred and fear in her heart made her say nothing, but after all, the mother and daughter are connected, her grandmother still seems to have guessed something, every time after dusk, she always sits at the door, looking at the bamboo forest path under the mountain, tears flow, until she was thirteen years old, her grandmother finally fell ill, despite the help of distant neighbors, but before transferring to the big hospital, her grandmother still left...

Before leaving, she didn't say anything, her grandmother just took her hand and wept silently. Her tears were moist, moistened for a long time, but no tears remained, all tears, all turned into blood, turned into hatred, and flowed into the heart!

Grandma is still gone, leaving only the two sisters, and although her heart is full of hatred, she understands that in the present, staying alive and hiding is the most important thing.

So, she decided to take her sister out to work in the county seat, she was also thirteen years old and looked slim and didn't look like a little girl. But before leaving, she locked the small building in her hometown and hid the key. She stood in front of her sister and told her sharply, remember, from now on, we have parents but working in a distant place, and we can't come back, their father's name is Yang Ming, Sun and Yueming, and their mother's name is Su Yan, the old name that the grandmother gave to her mother, a name that no one knows, from now on, we have to learn to hide, I will be responsible for your life and study, and you are only responsible for reading! You know?! That's what she said to her sister.

As she said, when she arrived in the county seat, she changed into her grandmother's old clothes, and she did everything from sweeping the streets, to washing dishes, and moving things, just for her sister to study. She also said, "You study hard during the day, and come back at night to teach my sister and me to read!" In this way, the two sisters depended on each other until, that night, when she was doing chores at a supper stall, she had just cleaned up a table of garbage, and suddenly found a group of people in the distance... Her pupils dilated instantly!! Black suit and black sunglasses!! Also, the one who took the lead in a white suit!! She gritted her teeth, but she still quickly hid with the proprietress, those black suits came and fought with dozens of other thugs who were eating supper, and the fight was full of blood, until finally, the police came, and only a few of their part-time sisters and the proprietress silently cleaned up the mess, cleaned up the broken tables and plastic stools, and washed the blood on the ground...

Secretly, she also began to investigate, and she found that although the group of people looked like gangsters, they didn't look like gangsters, they were obviously gangsters, they were vicious and hooligans, but they had some military-like discipline, and no one dared to disobey them. Say that if you beat half to death, you will never die, every time it is almost over, they walk on the front foot, and the police come on the back foot... What's even more terrifying is that so far, she has not learned about that company, what kind of company it is, or what kind of organization. Through Internet searches, she only knew a few suspected companies, one was engaged in biotechnology and Internet engineering research, but that company was still a state-owned enterprise, and it certainly couldn't be. The other company is a multinational company, engaged in biochemical engineering and vaccine research, suspicious is suspicious, but the company is thousands of kilometers away... So far, her eyes have been dark... Only, the only clue, is the purple USB flash drive...

But, what she is distressed about is that this USB flash drive is different from the normal USB flash drive interface, it seems to be a special port, and it can't be used. I'm afraid you'll have to bring an adapter cable...

…

Xiaoxue said a lot, I listened silently, my heart was very heartbroken, my heart hurt your past... Alas, I sighed in my heart, Xiaoxue said again, in recent years, she has also found some, although the company or organization is still unclear, but she found that that group of people is really strange, those people in black suits are the same as fighting wars, there is a basis, they are mainly based in Wanli City, and she doesn't know if it is really a base or a branch headquarters, but in every district of Wanli City, they have a very tall building, which looks like a hotel, and from a distance, they are indeed the same as hotel security guards or bodyguards, they are all black suits, and it makes no difference. But the main thing is that they're always engaged in some weird activities, like in... What does the transport guard, and at the same time acts as a thug...

In the past two years, she can only find a job in Wanli City, while bearing her sister's tuition, while wearing her sister's old school uniform, pretending to be a student, wandering around the city, observing the movements of those black suits, and then writing them down... Come back and analyze... She said, then looked up at me...

"I... Also, I found a boyfriend...", she whispered, I sank, I thought, I'll go, I'll just say! I'll just say it!! Sure enough, beautiful girls all have boyfriends!! I...

"Hmph, are you sour?" , she whispered, looking up at me with wide, watery eyes.

"That must be... Ahh Isn't it happiness that I can have her and hug her? Why should I bother with her... What about the past?!

"Haha...", she chuckled quietly, "You must be jealous, and you must be very entangled, right?" She looked at me and said with a helpless smile, but I didn't speak.

Then she said, "Actually, I've only known him for less than five months..., I've always been very resistant to love..., it's just that I met him when I was working part-time, he was too fierce, chasing me fiercely, very domineering... I don't understand, slowly, he still took it down... It's just that, not long after I agreed to be his girlfriend, I found out that he didn't study at all, dropped out of school early, and liked to drink with those fox friends every day, and always wanted to be with me... I can't stand it..."

She lowered her head, as if talking to herself, and said, "So I can't stand it, I want to break up, I want to leave, but he just won't let him, he ...... He...", Xiaoxue raised her head, with a helpless and unspeakable feeling on her face, just looked at me, and lowered her head and said, "He snatched my wallet, mobile phone..., and wanted to control me, but I still ran away, I originally wanted to go directly to the West Railway Station back to Tianning County, but I knew that he would definitely go to the West Railway Station to block me first, so I could only walk, go in the opposite direction to the East Railway Station..., there is a bus that leads directly to Tianning County..."

"Behind... I have no money, no license and no mobile phone, I was hungry for a day at the East Railway Station, and no one asked for a part-time job... I'm so hungry... Until the afternoon of the next day, I met you...", Xiaoxue said.

"Alas......" I listened, did not speak, just sighed, "It's over, it's all over...".

“… Thank you", Xiaoxue came out of my arms, looked at me and said, "It's been a long time since I've talked to someone like this, to be honest, I don't feel like I have anything to say to him... But you're different, and I don't know why... Oh yes..., don't you think I'm a bit proactive?! I... I don't know much about love..."

"Hahaha." I smiled, "It doesn't matter if the Lord doesn't take the initiative, I just feel like I'm not taking the initiative sometimes, like... Before... Hugging... You... The same. As I spoke, my face that had been blushing became even redder, but fortunately it was raining and it was almost dark.

"Haha...", Xiaoxue suddenly laughed, "No... It's okay...", she whispered.

"Haha!!" I also smiled, blushing and bold, and subconsciously sighed, "I... What a blessing. ”

I'm sure, I'm sure Xiaoxue blushed, I saw her head down, her voice was small, "Me too... Very happy..."

Suddenly, I didn't feel right, at that moment, the feeling of the edge on my back, I quickly threw down Xiaoxue, but at that moment, in the darkness around me, a cold light suddenly appeared... I instantly felt a pain in my right lower back.

"Who is it?!" , I yelled, and then supported the countertop on both sides of Xiaoxue's body with both hands and pushed it back, and instantly felt that my head hit something behind the back, and for a moment I felt my head buzzing.

I turned around, pressed my left hand against the wound on my right waist, gritted my teeth and looked into the darkness, and on my hand, I felt the blood already flowing out.