Chapter 246: Fantasy of being loved

Looking at Qi Ling, who looked indifferent, Su Mo asked in confusion, "Why did you smash it to death?" ”

The pair of amber eyes blinked, full of puzzlement: "You also said, this cat can't be saved." Rather than let it die slowly in excruciating pain, wouldn't it be better to give relief sooner? ”

Su Mo was a little speechless for a while: "That's right. But. Anyway, it shouldn't be thrown in the trash. ”

Qi Ling glanced back at several trash cans of different classifications, as if confirming something, and then looked at Su Mo suspiciously: "Animal carcasses belong to organic waste and should be thrown into perishable trash cans, this classification is correct." ”

Su Mo whispered, "I'm not talking about garbage sorting. I mean, we can find a place to bury the cat instead of throwing it in the trash. ”

Qi Ling looked even more confused: "I don't understand. What's the point of burying it? Afraid of germs? Now perishable garbage will be treated harmlessly, much cleaner than we bury indiscriminately. ”

"Or do you just want to bury it? However, funeral customs are to facilitate future generations to mourn the deceased, which is a unique human culture, and animals such as cats do not know what funeral rites are. ”

"So, what's the point of burying it?"

Su Mo didn't know how to answer, so he could only ask, "But, don't you think it's pitiful to be thrown into the trash like this?" ”

Qi Ling shook his head blankly, as if he had been asked about a blind spot in knowledge: "Pathetic? I don't understand. If it was thrown into the trash while alive, it was really pitiful. ”

"But it's dead, there is no such thing as a soul in this world, dead is dead, nothing can be felt. When any creature dies, it's just a piece of rotten meat. ”

These rational and almost cold words made Su Mowu feel that the girl in front of him who had been with him sweetly for a day had become a little strange.

But if you think about her words carefully, you find that it seems to be this truth, and there is no way to refute it.

Qi Ling lowered his head and lowered his eyes, like a child who didn't know what he had done wrong, and his voice was very soft: "If you think this is not good, then I will pick up the cat and let's find a place to bury it together." ”

Although Su Mo had some doubts in his heart, he also felt that there was no need to find awkwardness in this kind of thing.

Now the atmosphere is a little stiff, he comforted in a good voice: "It's okay, it's okay, it's already thrown in, it's too dirty to pick it up again, don't worry about this, let's go to the park pool over there to wash our hands." ”

After washing their hands, the two continued to stroll along the riverside trail.

They were chatting about the fun things they had done today, and the awkward atmosphere just now was quickly gone.

Coming to a fork in the road, Su Mo looked around left and right, "Let me see where I go next." ”

Yadong's main attraction is Bo Cover Field, but the two have already played, Su Mo didn't know where to take Qi Ling to play for a while, so he turned around and asked her: "Xiao Qi, do you want me to go at night!" What's the situation?! ”

Su Mo was halfway through his words, and was taken aback by the scene in front of him.

I saw that the road where the two of them walked before was mottled with blood, and there were many bloody footprints extended!

Su Mo followed the trajectory of the bloody footprints, and finally his gaze fell on Qi Ling's feet.

When Qi Ling ran away from the restaurant before, he took off his obstructive high heels and never wore them in his hands, so he walked with his feet.

The path along the river was paved with gravel, many of which were very sharp, and the soles of her feet were cut and wounded, and they were bleeding continuously, staining their white socks red.

Su Mo hurriedly ran forward: "Why don't you say anything when your foot hurts like this!" ”

"Huh?" Qi Ling didn't seem to react, and looked at his feet, "Oh, I didn't pay attention. ”

"I can't pay attention to this???" Su Mo was stunned by this calm appearance, he helped Qi Ling to sit down on the bench next to him, "You sit here, don't move, I'll go buy medicine for you right away." ”

Su Mo rushed to the nearby pharmacy as soon as possible.

The level of medical care in this era was much higher than before he crossed over, and all kinds of drugs were very advanced.

He paid a lot of money to buy a bottle of the best trauma medicine, which is a spray made of transcription factor proteins, which can be sprayed on the wound to quickly repair broken tissue and promote cell healing.

Like a general cut, spray this medicine on it, and it will heal in a few hours, and there will be no scar.

Su Mo came back with medicine and bandages, first helped Qi Ling take off her socks, and then gently supported the soles of her feet, washing off the dirt on them with disinfectant water.

Qi Ling's bare feet are white and delicate, with clear ribs and bones, and you can see subtle green tendons, and the wounds on the soles of the feet are cut out by gravel like the flaws of a work of art, which is pitiful.

Su Mo's face was suddenly full of sadness: "This hurts to look at. Be sure to tell me about your next injury. ”

Qi Ling smiled playfully, and shook his bare feet playfully: "I know~"

"Okay, don't move, I'll help you with the medicine." Su Mo placed the pair of bare feet on his knees, carefully sprayed the medical spray, and then bandaged them, "It's good that the cut wasn't deep." This medicine is very miraculous, and it should be cured after a while. ”

As soon as Qi Ling finished bandaging and was inconvenient to walk, the two sat and chatted together on the bench.

The evening breeze blows, bringing a different kind of comfortable feeling, and the city lights on the other side of the river are all over the river, and the lights are like a beautiful picture scroll unfolding.

The two chatted, and Qi Ling pointed to the other side of the river: "Look over there, have you seen the movie you have been on recently?" ”

Su Mo looked up and saw that holograms were projecting on the building of a skyscraper on the other side.

A teenager stood there, stretched out his hand and grabbed his face, ripped off the handsome mask he was wearing, revealing the hideous and terrifying face behind him.

Su Mo nodded: "Look, "Kill the Demon", I watched it with the people in the group. ”

This "Kill the Devil" is a recently released fantasy film in which the protagonist is a naturally deformed freak in the royal family who has been bullied since childhood.

But in the icy palace, the protagonist has a white moonlight, that is, the ninth daughter of the king, the kind-hearted ninth princess.

The ninth princess did not dislike the protagonist's distorted appearance, became childhood friends with him, and has always accompanied him to grow up, which is also the driving force that supports him to live.

But the good times didn't last long, and in the later power struggle, the kind-hearted Nine Princesses were brutally murdered by their eldest brother, and the only light in the protagonist's heart disappeared.

Many years later, the protagonist who escaped from the palace returned with great power, slaughtered the entire royal family, and finally drew his sword in front of the tomb of the ninth princess and killed himself, ending his sad life.

The story itself is nothing new, and the theme of revenge is common.

But after its release, it caused extremely fierce controversy in society.

Because the revenge of the protagonist in the movie is too "pure", so pure that only blood and hatred remain.

In the cultural and creative field of this era, humanist values are rampant, and love and tolerance are advocated in games and movies.

Even revenge stories often end with ideas such as "touching the avengers with love" and "everyone has a hard time living and understanding each other".

Even if the protagonist's father is shot in the head with a golf club, and finally faces the enemy who killed his father, the screenwriter will let the protagonist choose to forgive and come to an understanding long live.

But the movie "Slaying the Demon" went in the exact opposite direction.

The protagonist in the movie is a real "demon", with an ugly face, a twisted personality, and extreme and crazy methods.

Those in the royal family who participated in the murder of the Nine Princesses, whether subjective or forced, whether they had hardships or not, whether they repented afterwards or not, were all slaughtered indiscriminately by the protagonist, and they were killed like a river of blood.

And until the end of the film, the protagonist did not carry out any self-whitewashing - I am a demon, just to kill all the enemies, and I will die after revenge. You don't have to pity me, and I don't need your pity.

One can imagine how controversial such a movie was after its release.

Halfway through the premiere of the movie, a large number of viewers couldn't help but leave, scolding the director for being a psychologically distorted pervert.

There are even some pacifists who sit in front of the cinema and go on hunger strike, demanding that the film be banned and the mainstream values of this world be upheld.

At this time, when he heard Qi Ling mention this movie, Su Mo asked curiously, "Have you also watched it?" What do you think? ”

Qi Ling held his chin, looked at the hideous-looking demon on the other side of the river, and muttered, "I actually quite like this story." But the public's evaluation of it is very poor, and yesterday I saw that the rating fell to 5.2, and there was a lot of scolding on the Internet. ”

Su Mo snorted coldly: "If you want me to say, those who scold the protagonist are all virgin, and they are generous to others." ”

"The protagonist's kind of life experience, that kind of growth environment, his personality is easy to become distorted, and finally there was a white moonlight who healed him in his childhood, and in the end he was killed. Who isn't crazy about this? ”

"I think the protagonist is restrained enough, and the people he later killed were all those who participated in the murder of the Nine Princesses and really had a grudge, and he didn't hurt the innocent."

"To be honest, even if he completely goes crazy and destroys the whole world, killing all the guilty and innocent, I can understand that feeling."

Qi Ling sneered and poked Su Mo's waist: "If you post this on the Internet, you will definitely be sprayed by netizens." ”

"Let them squirt, it's not a person all the way anyway." Su Mo leaned back lazily in his chair and said slowly, "Actually, sometimes when I see those words of the Virgin, I feel that this world has become very strange. ”

"When did 'understanding' become the criterion for judging whether a person is good or bad?"

"It seems that in everyone's opinion, a good person is only able to let go of hatred and understand the enemy."

"And those who are bitter and vengeful and obsessed with revenge will be severely criticized."

"I think it's a bad atmosphere. Why? On what basis should understanding be taken for granted? ”

"In the face of hatred, whether it is forgiveness or revenge, it should be the choice of the parties themselves."

"Understanding does not necessarily mean nobility, it can also be weakness."

"Revenge isn't absolutely ugly, it can also be persistence."

"Those virgin don't really care about the so-called justice at all, they just revel in the sense of accomplishment that comes from exporting their opinions to others, and these people who are high up and generous to others are the real villains."

The river flows slowly, reflecting the neon lights of the tall buildings in the distance, and the evening breeze brings the hustle and bustle of the city, as if telling the prosperity and loneliness here.

Quietly, Su Mo felt Qi Ling lean on his lap.

Qi Ling lay on his back on Su Mo's thighs, raised his little hand to his face and rubbed it gently, the intoxicating light reflected in those amber eyes.

"We. . Maybe it's a good fit. ”

Su Mo helped her brush her hair that was blown by the wind, and said with a smile: "What do you mean, maybe, didn't we have a lot of fun on a date today?" ”

Qi Ling looked at Su Mo's eyes, his gaze was confused: "Yes, although I know that this is a commission, although I know that there is a fake between us, I am really happy today." ”

Su Mo asked curiously, "So why on earth did you come to me for a date?" You're so beautiful, there should be a lot of boys who want to please you. ”

Qi Ling said in a playful tone: "They can't satisfy me~"

Su Mo: "This is true, if any man had experienced what I had experienced today, he would have run away overnight." ”

Both burst out laughing.

Qi Ling shrunk like a kitten and muttered, "I thought that no one in this world would go crazy with me until I met you." ”

Su Mo stroked Qi Ling's long hair and smiled thoughtfully: "Xiao Qi, you like to play crazy so much, then let me ask you a question - what is the craziest fantasy you have ever had in your life?" ”

Qi Ling froze, frozen in Su Mo's arms like a statue, and looked at him blankly.

Your own wildest fantasies. What could it be?

The craziest other meaning, that is, the most unattainable.

She didn't know how to answer.

She had never thought about it.

She can only reminisce about the past and try to ask her past self - what do you think is the least likely thing you can get in your life, but you want it the most, so that it becomes the craziest fantasy.

Those amber eyes were full of confusion and confusion, as if lost in the memories of the past fireworks.

Eventually, the loss melted away, and all the memories gave her the same answer.

She looked at Su Mo, tugged at the corners of her lips and smiled sadly, telling him the answer.

"To be loved."

In the dark, Xiaoqi crawled with difficulty.

It was cramped and damp, with a heavy smell of earthy dampness between her noses, and her knees and elbows touching stones and plant roots from time to time, and every step seemed to drain her strength.

But she didn't stop, as if there was a fire burning in her heart, and some kind of strong obsession kept bursting out, prompting her to keep moving forward.

The presence of plant roots around indicates that it is very close to the ground.

Xiao Qi held an iron spoon for eating in her hand, and kept digging diagonally upward.

exhaustion

suffocate

space out

She didn't know how long she had been digging, but she felt that her arms were tired and numb, and the thin oxygen made it more and more difficult to breathe, and the whole person was close to collapse.

But the flame in her heart was still burning, supporting her upward.

Can't stop.

There is no time left.

There is only one last day left.

This is the last hope.

As time passed, Xiaoqi dug and dug and dug and a large cloud of loose dirt suddenly lost its support and spilled over her head.

She struggled to poke her head out of the dirt, and suddenly she smelled the fresh air, and her vision brightened together, and she saw the sky with snowflakes.

She crawled out of the narrow hole and saw a whole new world.

The cage that had locked her whole life was behind her, separated by a high wall, and she could no longer be trapped.

Far ahead, thousands of lights are blazing, and white snowflakes are falling on the streets and alleys, flickering under the faint light of the street lamps, like little stars that have fallen into the world.

Xiao Qi looked up at the vast night, and every breath would condense into a white mist in the cold current of winter, as if it had become a part of the snow.

She stretched out her trembling hand and took the falling snow in her palm, which was such a common thing, but she burst into tears, and gently pressed her palm to her heart, as if she wanted it to melt into her heart.

The snowflakes fell on her face and melted down her cheeks, making it impossible to tell whether it was snow or tears, and she stood alone in the snow curtain, choking and muttering

"Little monster, the outside world is so beautiful."

(End of chapter)