Hearing Su Mo's words, Shangguan Li's pupils dilated violently, looking extremely shocked, she subconsciously wanted to ask something, but soon realized that this was an image, Su Mo couldn't hear it, so she could only close her mouth and continue listening.

Su Mo looked straight ahead, the angle was just right, and the eyes of the two met like this, as if they were staring at each other.

Su Mo said deeply: "To be honest, I don't want this video to be seen by you, because when you see it, it means that either I am dead, or I have been out of touch for a long time." ”

In other words, I failed. Maybe temporary, maybe a complete failure, I don't know. ”

"But one thing is for sure, I'm out of touch with the outside world now, and I can't make any judgments."

"How's it going out there? Can they withstand a wolf attack? Has the rusty wall been opened? Have the millions of people on the border evacuated to safety? I don't even know."

Su Mo smiled bitterly when he said this: "I am not a god, I can't count everything, and I am not omnipotent. I have been able to get to where I am today, not only on myself, but also on the efforts of all my peers. ”

"Shangguan, do you know? In fact, in my heart, you are not a peer, not a competitor, and not an ordinary friend. ”

A sincere smile appeared on Su Mo's face, and the next words made Shangguan lose his mind for a long time: "In my heart, you are also my companion." ”

"Although we are two teams, we have experienced many ups and downs together, especially the one when Dongdong, you risked your life to save her, and from that moment I knew that you must be a companion I could trust."

Su Mo sighed softly and said with some abruptness, "Now, the entire Crescent City must have become a mess, right?" ”

"I bet that the giant enterprises must have run away, and the city council didn't care about the lives of the people in the frontiers, and those big mercenary groups in the dead sickle are estimated to have been running away for many years, and they have always been like this."

"What about you, Shangguan, what are you going to do in this moment of complete chaos? Where do you want to take Moxue? ”

Shangguan Li pursed her lips and couldn't help lowering her head a little ashamedly, even if Su Mo was just an image at this time, she was a little afraid to look into his eyes.

Su Mo seemed to have anticipated Shangguan Li's embarrassment, chuckled, and said slowly: "Don't be nervous, this is not inner torture, I just want to say something heart-to-heart to you." ”

"No matter what decision you make, even if it's selfish, it's nothing."

"You may not know it, but I'm actually a very selfish person. Thinking back to the things I have done before, really, there are more selfish things. ”

Speaking of this, Su Mo's gaze became deeper: "But one thing I can be sure of is that no matter what decision I have made, whether it is glorious or dishonorable, I have not violated my original intention. ”

"Initial intention." Shangguan Li muttered these two words.

Suddenly, a sense of loss came, and she felt that these two words were a little unfamiliar.

I don't seem to have thought about these two words for a long time

Su Mo smiled and told Shangguan about his past: "There are many people who say that we live in a depressing world without ideals, and I don't think this sentence is right. ”

"In fact, many people in this world have ideals, when I first started out, I met a house who made games, and I only thought about making good games, but I had a conflict of interest with people and was tied up."

"Haha, you didn't see it, it's really outrageous, he was so frightened that he was incontinent on the spot, and he peed his pants, but no matter how those people threatened him and beat him, even if his pants were wet, he didn't let go."

"Because he has his own principle, that is, stick to his original intention. I admire such people, they are precious, but they must be a minority. ”

"The vast majority of people will encounter all kinds of troubles and temptations in the process of growing up, getting farther and farther away from their childhood selves, and finally falling into a kind of confusion that they don't know where to go."

"Especially at a critical juncture, facing a fork in the road of life, this confusion will be infinitely magnified, shrouded in fog in all directions, the road in front of you can't see clearly, the road behind you can't see clearly, and in the end you can only follow the flow aimlessly."

Su Mo's gaze was very deep, as if it had penetrated Shangguan Li's heart: "Shangguan, I think at this moment, you are also facing this kind of confusion, right?" ”

"It's okay, everyone will be confused, and I've been confused before."

"At such a time, it is better to think about the original self and think about what you have said."

The surroundings became silent, Su Mo didn't say anything more, and Shangguan Li also silently closed his eyes and began to think about the past.

The original self

Where do you start?

The silence was penetrating, and in this silent chamber she felt her consciousness sinking, falling into the ocean of memories that recorded all the past.

The first thing that came to mind was the breeze that passed through the bamboo forest, the tinkling of the spring water, and the self who was dressed in white and practiced swords in the mountain spring just after dawn.

She was only 5 years old that year, and in order to grow up to become a warrior like her father, she smelled the chickens and danced every dawn, and practiced among the mountain springs.

Suddenly, she seemed to have returned to her childhood and became the same self she was when she was a child.

One day at noon, her father brought a basket of osmanthus cake and looked at her kindly by the spring: "Ah Li, it's time to rest, come and eat osmanthus cake." ”

"Okay~" She washed her hands with spring water, trotted to the stone platform, and ate the freshly hatched osmanthus cake with her father.

The autumn wind brings a burst of coolness, and the beloved father is beside him, and the fragrance of osmanthus lingers in his mouth. She never forgot that scene for the rest of her life.

While eating, she looked at the mercenary uniform on her father's body, and asked curiously, "Dad, I heard from my uncle and aunt that you are a mercenary." You've never told me what a mercenary does? ”

My father smiled and said, "Mercenaries, in fact, are the same as nannies, they are to help people." ”

She tilted her head thoughtfully: "Mercenary. Soldier. Ancient books say that soldiers, murder weapons, mercenaries are not very dangerous? ”

Father nodded, not lying to her: "It's very dangerous, every day is a knife licking blood, and there is always an endless battle." ”

After hearing this, she was a little anxious, grabbed her father's sleeve, and said pitifully: "Dad, then why do you want to be a mercenary?" Don't do this, okay? ”

The father smiled gently, rubbed her little head, and said deeply: "Dad is a mercenary, not for himself, but for you." ”

"In fact, with my father's skills, I can be a security guard, someone else's bodyguard, or open a martial arts gym to make a little money."

"That money can make you live an ordinary life, but it is only ordinary left."

"Ordinary, it sounds very beautiful, but it is actually very painful, because ordinary people can only go with the flow forever, cannot decide their own destiny, and have no ability to choose the path they want to take."

"Dad doesn't want to do this, Dad wants to make a lot of money, so much so that you don't have to be bound by reality, and then pursue the life you want."

She blinked in ignorance, she was too young to understand how heavy this fatherly love was like a mountain.

She smiled and innocently said to her father: "Then, the life I want is to become a hero in the legends of the rivers and lakes!" ”

The father laughed out loud and asked seductively: "Then Ah Li told my father, what kind of person can be called a chivalrous?" ”

She raised her little fist high, and her immature voice was full of anger: "Chivalry, of course, it is a hoe to help the weak, and to be chivalrous!" ”

Father touched her little head and smiled earnestly: "Ah Li said it very well, but ah, it's still a little more superficial, and I don't see the two things behind the word chivalry - ability and responsibility." ”

She clapped her hands and said, "I know I know, I've heard that saying - with great power comes great responsibility!" ”

Unexpectedly, my father shook his head: "Dad thinks that this sentence is not right. ”

"Unless in some special position, everyone is born with equal responsibilities, and more responsibilities are not given by ability, but by oneself."

These words were obviously a little more profound for a 5-year-old, who groped the back of her head in distress, unable to grasp the meaning.

Her father didn't urge, just hugged her and enjoyed the gentle breeze in the bamboo forest, letting her think for a long time.

I don't know how long later, she tentatively asked: "Dad, if a person has no ability and is not willing to take on more responsibilities, then who is he?" ”

The father replied, "An ordinary person. ”

She asked, "If a person is very capable, but he is not willing to take on more responsibilities, then what is he?" ”

The father replied: "A self-interested ordinary man." ”

She asked, "If a person has the courage to take on more responsibilities but has no ability to match them, then who is he?" ”

The father replied: "A noble ordinary man." ”

She thought for a long time and asked the last sentence: "If a person has strong ability and is willing to take on more responsibilities, then who is he?" ”

With a knowing smile on her father's face, he gave her an answer that she would never forget.

"That's chivalry."

"The great man of chivalry has great responsibility and great ability."

"Being able but unwilling to take responsibility is snobbery, although it is normal for people to be understandable, and in the end they are just philistines."

"Willing to take responsibility but lack of ability, this is a low level of vision, although there is a sense of righteousness, but after all, the ambition is great and the talent is sparse, and I am afraid that in the end it will be difficult to achieve anything."

"Only a person with outstanding ability, and at the same time willing to shoulder responsibilities that do not belong to him, step on the mud, head above the sky, and proudly walk in the world, can he be called a hero!"

After listening to her father's words, she only felt a surging stir in her mind, and a flame that had never appeared before burned in her heart.

She clenched her little fists and said proudly: "From today onwards, I will practice martial arts more seriously and make myself stronger, so that I can take on more responsibilities when I grow up!" Go and become a real hero! ”

Her father caressed her face lovingly, and his eyebrows were full of tenderness: "Dad is really relieved that you can think so." However, Ah Li, this road is very difficult to walk. ”

"Life is like a circle, at the beginning this circle is very small, and there are few things in contact, clean and simple."

"But as people continue to grow, the circle gets bigger and bigger, and the more things they come into contact with, the more temptations and obstacles they encounter."

"Some people get stuck in those obstacles, lose their heart after failing again and again, and eventually stagnate."

"There are also some people who are tempted by fame and fortune, and they may think at first that I am just chasing fame and fortune by taking advantage of the situation, which is forced by reality, and I will continue to pursue my dreams when I get through it."

"But the reality is often that people run in Vanity Fair, and then they gradually lose their way, pursue profit for profit, and finally forget their original intention."

"Ah Li, there are many things in this world that have to be accomplished by fame and fortune, and Dad will never object to you pursuing fame and fortune, and even encourages you to do so, because wealth, status, and fame are the same as power, which are the realistic basis for chasing dreams."

"But Dad doesn't want to see you trapped in Vanity Fair, getting stronger and stronger, getting more and more status, and finally becoming like those laymen, going up for the sake of going up, forgetting why you did it in the first place."

She nodded earnestly and said to her father with sincerity: "Understood! Ah Li promised his father that when I grow up, I will stick to my original intention and become a real chivalrous man! ”

The father let out a pleased smile and hugged her tightly in his arms, his voice full of endless tenderness: "Okay, then dad will wait for the little knight to grow up." ”

This was her first memory with her father.

In her impression, her father's body is not magnificent, small and thin, and he can't say how strong, because he often comes back from a mission and is injured.

But she just thinks that her father is the greatest person in the world, because her father made her understand the meaning of chivalry, and also gave her a direction in life at a very young age.

However, she never imagined that such a great father would lie.

Her father deceived her.

That year, he clearly said that he would wait for her to grow up.

But when she was 10 years old, the figure waiting for her in front of her life disappeared forever.

It was a rainy night and it happened to be her birthday, and she had a cake ready at home.

The cake was very small, only for two people, and her mother died early when she was young, and she only had one such a relative, so she only needed a small cake for every birthday.

She just waited, waited, waited, waited.

The last thing I was waiting for was the death of my father.

I heard from my father's friend that my father received a large order and participated in a commission involving a giant company, and when he was carrying out the aftermath work, he couldn't deal with some traces by himself, so he went to Amir for help.

Amir, who was a member of the city council at the time, and his father's brother, came to the house several times, and his cordial appearance was very pleasant.

But it was such a good brother whose father trusted him the most, in order to gain the favor of the giant company, he betrayed his father and killed him alive.

On the day of his father's death, his former comrades-in-arms were in a hurry to clear up the relationship, and no one dared to help him bury.

It was she who dug a hole in the back mountain with her bloody hands and buried her father in the soil.

After burying her father, she knelt down in front of the grave, kowtowed three times, and made three vows.

"My father is above, and I, Shangguan, swear here!"

"First, I will take the log pillow, smell the chickens and dance, cultivate the mind inside, strengthen the body outside, and move forward bravely in this mortal world!"

"Second, the revenge of killing my father is not shared, and one day, I will comfort my father with the blood of a traitor, and I will not avenge this revenge, and I will not be a man!"

"Third, I will keep in mind the covenant with my father, never forget my original intention on the way of life, hoe the strong and help the weak, and act chivalrous!"

The memories of the past are like fireworks, and the complicated scenes are surging in Shangguan Li's mind, and he is already in tears unconsciously.

Su Mo had a gentle smile on his face, and his eyes and voice were full of the power called trust: "Shangguan, you, like Dongdong and them, are all companions that I can entrust to my back, and you are more experienced and mature than them. ”

"Now that I'm out of touch and can't give any instructions, my companions must be confused. So, I entrust my team to you, and you judge the situation on the outside for me and make decisions. ”

"That red umbrella badge is my token, before I wake up, you are the undisputed leader of the edge, and all the funds, equipment, and personnel on the edge are dispatched by you at will."

"Take our collective strength and do what you think is right." (End of chapter)

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