Meng Dongxue's sudden hug made my smile suddenly stiffen, and my hand was spread like chicken claws, and I didn't even know where to put it. She cried so freely that I could only let her hold me and cry.

Her face was pressed against my chest, and I tried to keep my heart from racing, because it was still a bit humiliating. But the more I thought about it, the more I couldn't control it. A few minutes later, she was still crying, and my half-raised hands were almost stiff. At this moment, if the old couple walked to the door, it is estimated that they will silently close the door for us.

I tried to use my sense of humor to resolve the embarrassment at the moment, so I said, don't cry, wet my clothes, Aunt Xu will laugh at me and drool when I look back. This trick really worked, although Meng Dongxue was still crying, she was still amused by my nonsensical words. Then she stopped crying, and when she finished speaking, she put her hands on my shoulders and lifted her head off my chest. But when she left, she didn't even look at me, but sat on the edge of the bed, silently bowing her head, brushing the hair on her forehead, and not saying a word.

I must admit that I like this girl a lot. Maybe my liking is very superficial, one is because of good looks, and the other is because of good heart. But in those days, there were some things that I could only order. She and I have come to this village temporarily, and sooner or later, we will all go our separate ways.

So I got up from the ground, whistled as if it was light, and walked around the room aimlessly. Meng Dongxue kept her head down, either playing with her fingers or rubbing her hair, but from her face, although the crying just now made her eyes a little puffy, the expression on her whole face, in addition to being frightened, also looked shy. I don't know if her shyness is because of her momentary temperament just now, and the relationship with me hugging. And it wasn't actually a hug, because she was holding me from beginning to end.

In order to ease the embarrassing atmosphere in the room, which was about to explode, I smiled and said to her, just now... Belch... You don't have to take it personally, I know, you're scared. I'm sorry that I owe you a favor for this tonight, and I'm sorry that you've been so stimulated.

Meng Dongxue still didn't look up, just nodded slightly, and said "um" softly. Once again, the atmosphere condensed because of her cold presence. So I smiled and said to her, now that I have cleaned up here, it has only just passed midnight, let's go back to Aunt Xu's house now, and we can rest for a while. So I walked to the door and motioned for us to go now. She got out of bed, her head still down, and her hands rubbed her hair as if she were rubbing a twist. When I walked to the door, I pointed to the spirit banner leaning against the wall and said, "All the ghosts here have fallen at this moment." Just wait until tomorrow after dawn and I'll find a corner to give them away.

I also said that these people were not bad people, but in the original era, they were defined as bad people. Like me, I'm not a bad person per se, but I'm not a good person at least in times like these. After saying that, I smiled bitterly, because the person I rescued tonight was a person who thought I was not a good person.

Meng Dongxue spoke at this time, she said don't say that, you are a good person, you are willing to help others. After saying that, he timidly glanced up at me, and quickly lowered his head again.

I'm also an untrained young man, so why at this moment, I seem to have a lot thicker skin than hers. But her words made my heart quite warm. Because what she said was exactly what I promised to Master when I was apprenticing at the time, that I wanted to be a good person, and I wanted to help others. Over the years, although everyone knows that I am helping others, Meng Dongxue is the first person to tell me in such a tone, which makes me very touched and happy.

So I took her and prepared to go downstairs to leave, it was too late, and we didn't want to make a noise about the old couple, so I would come back tomorrow to explain something. But just as we were going downstairs, God was crazy, and suddenly it rained heavily.

Walking on muddy mountain roads in the dark night of cold winter is undoubtedly an act of seeking death. So Meng Dongxue and I stood silently on the edge of the cowshed to hide from the rain, and we all waited for a little younger time before leaving. But the rain didn't seem to stop, it was very cold outside, and the two of us stood upright on the edge of the cowshed, and the old man and lady came out to go to the latrine, and I guess we would be treated as ghosts. So I proposed, otherwise, let's go back to the house and wait for a while, it's windy outside.

In this way, Meng Dongxue and I went upstairs again. But after I sent her into the house, I didn't go in with her. I said you should rest yourself, and I will blow the wind outside. With that, I closed the wooden door, but it was unlocked. I'm not afraid of the cold, but I'm afraid of the embarrassment of you not saying anything, so it's better to give her a little space, so as not to get along with each other in the future.

I sat on the floor against the wall next to the door. There were no stars in the rainy sky, it was pitch black, but I always kept my eyes on the darkness. I don't know what I'm looking at, maybe it's my eyes looking ahead, but my heart is thinking about something else. But if I had to remember, I don't remember at all what was going on in my mind at that time, or if I didn't think anything at all. I only remember that about an hour later, the rain still didn't stop, but Meng Dongxue opened the door and walked out, sat next to me, and leaned her head on my shoulder without saying a word.

That night, we stayed silent until dawn. It was raining outside, and after being soaked by the rain, the air was mixed with the fragrance of earth, but it also contained the smell of stinking cow and cow urine in the cowshed below. This seemingly extremely strange scene has become a warm and romantic memory for the first time in my life.

When Meng Dongxue leaned against me, she seemed to take a nap for an hour or two, because she would occasionally twitch her shoulders slightly. And I didn't sleep all night, after dawn, I heard the sound of the old couple opening the door from afar, so I excused myself to pee, Meng Dongxue took her head off my shoulder, leaving only the touch of long-term pressure on my shoulder, and the smell of her body.

I told the old man that the matter was settled, but your cowshed probably had to be moved. Whether you want to move away, you have to think of digging up the ground under the cowshed that has been soaked with feces and urine for years, because there are many dead people buried underneath. Covering the bones of humiliating corpses with feces and urine, it is hard to guarantee whether there will be some moths in the future.

And the old man also confirmed my other suspicion, he recalled that when he suppressed bandits decades ago, those bandits were indeed killed in this month, almost these days. After explaining all this, I asked Meng Dongxue, do you want to go back to Aunt Xu's house with me? She still looked like a little girl and said shyly, let me go back first, and she will leave later.

Although I didn't understand why she did it, I left first. Originally, I thought that the relationship between me and her, if there was a piece of paper before this, then everything that happened last night should be said to be a little pierced. Although before yesterday, I only had a one-sided impression of Meng Dongxue, I don't know what she thinks of me as a person. But wasn't that hug last night, and the fact that she came out on her own, leaning against me without saying a word, to me? Or is it that everything is my own passion, and the little girl is probably just afraid.

When I returned to Aunt Xu's house that day, I told Ji Youan and her roommate that the house had been cleaned by me, so I could rest assured. They thanked them again and again, especially Ji Youan, the kind of gratitude that was overflowing was actually unpretendable. Now I think that at least these misunderstandings between me and her have been eliminated because of this help. As a thank you, I don't know what is wrong with Ji Youan, she actually took off the leader badge on her chest and said that she wanted to give this to me. I was embarrassed to say anything, but I just accepted it without smiling, and since then, I have such a small thing in my bag that I have never taken out again.

I didn't sleep all night, Ji You'an and the others occupied my bed, so I could only go to the door and sit on the chair to sleep. But I couldn't sleep. When I got up and read a book, I couldn't read it. Occasionally walked to the door to look, but I didn't see Meng Dongxue on the way home. In short, it was the first time I had this kind of anxiety, and it bothered me very much, but I didn't know where all this trouble came from.

In the evening, Aunt Xu's big yellow dog barked into the distance, and when I saw it, it was Meng Dongxue who came back. For some reason, I stood up without a moment, as if I was a welcome little brother, and stood stiffly. When she passed by me, I wanted to ask her where she went today and how she was doing, but she just glanced at me slightly, and then directly passed me and went into the house to talk and laugh with Ji Youan.

Hey, it seems, maybe I'm overthinking.