For people who are experiencing loneliness and suffering, the time is really long and difficult. For people who have expectations and hopes, loneliness and suffering are nothing, and after a second, there will be one less second, just like this second after second, day after day, year after year, Shen Boyan went back and forth in Kyoto and Yangfu, two cities thousands of miles apart, and seven years have passed.

Spring in Yangfu is always rainy, every year.

Shen Boyan waited at the gate of the prison almost at dawn, today is the day when Qin Anfu is released from prison, and it is the day he has been looking forward to the most in seven years.

The drizzle never stopped, and the raindrops dripped from the umbrella and bloomed at the feet.

Shen Boyan under the umbrella never left the iron gate on the steps, for fear of missing the person he was waiting for.

The moment his beloved finally appeared in sight, a smile unconsciously appeared on Shen Boyan's face, but when he saw the other party's yellow and thin appearance clearly, the smile on his face gradually disappeared, and his eyes turned red in an instant.

After a few deep breaths, he came to pick her up with the warmest smile, even though his eyes were blocked by tears in his eyes.

On the steps, Qin Anfu looked at Shen Boyan, who he hadn't seen for seven years, holding an umbrella, and walked towards him step by step with a smile on his face, as if he saw him for the first time eight years ago, when he was also holding a black umbrella and looking at her in the drizzle.

The man in front of her smiled softly at her as before, and his well-defined face was more mature and deep than it had been seven years ago.

Shen Boyan took Qin Anfu's hand and rubbed the thin cocoon on her palm, and the endless distress finally turned into tears overflowing from the corners of her eyes.

"Let's go home." Shen Boyan tried his best to control his emotions, but he was still choked.

In the taxi, the two were silent, just holding each other's hands tightly and snuggling up to each other. Shen Boyan had thousands of words to say, but he didn't dare to say anything, for fear that he would break this long-awaited happiness as soon as he opened his mouth.

It was still the previous apartment, Qin Anfu looked at the furnishings that had not changed at all, and the happy time in the past seemed to be just yesterday, and it seemed to be a previous life. The lonza jewel on the balcony was as beautiful as it had been seven years ago, and its crown was several times larger, but it was a testament to seven years.

Watching Qin Anfu carefully inspect every corner of the house, Shen Boyan took off his coat and brought pajamas for her.

"Although I transferred back to Kyoto to work, I would go back here for two days every weekend, and the airport was built in Yangfu, so there were direct flights to Kyoto, which was very convenient. I've been renting this house just to wait for you to come back. An An, if you are not used to life in the north, or don't want to go to Kyoto, I can buy a house in Yangfu, or you can work and live in Yangfu, this is our home. ”

Looking at Shen Boyan's sincere eyes, Qin Anfu was moved, she didn't want to have a home with him, but now things are wrong, and they are no longer what they once were.

"You go take a shower and change your clothes first, and I'll cook." As if afraid of hearing Qin Anfu say something unwilling, Shen Boyan hurriedly stuffed his pajamas into Qin Anfu's arms and pushed her into the bathroom.

Closing the bathroom door, Shen Boyan was quiet again, Qin Anfu was silent the whole time, and he couldn't feel her depressed mood. The hand holding the doorknob did not let go for a long time, and through the door, he said softly: "An An, in the days to come, we will never be separated." Where you are, I'll be there! ”

Qin Anfu didn't know how to answer, so he simply didn't speak. Looking at the familiar bathroom, memories of hugging and kissing with your beloved here come flooding back to me.

It turns out that happiness is wrapped in bitterness.

For a long time, there was no sound of Qin Anfu answering in the bathroom, and there was no sound of water in the bath. Finally uneasy, Shen Boyan opened the bathroom door, only to see Qin Anfu put the pajamas in his hand on the shelf, and turned to walk towards him who was uneasy.

Qin Anfu hugged his waist and pressed his face against his chest, his tone was too calm.

"I didn't say goodbye to you seven years ago, let's say goodbye again today! Ah Yan, this should be the last time I call you like this, I'm very happy to know you, we have a very happy past, but that's just the past, you let go, I let go. I wish you a good companion as soon as possible and a bright future! Take care! ”

After she finished saying what she wanted to say, she left Shen Boyan, who was distracted, and left the bathroom by mistake. The door that was opened was suddenly closed from behind by Shen Boyan, who was catching up, his eyes were red, there was anger and pain in his eyes, forcing Qin Anfu behind the door, and holding Qin Anfu's wrist tightly.

"What kind of lover accompanies you? What is the future? I don't want your blessing, you take it back for me! I want you, just you! Shen Boyan lost control of his emotions, his eyes were red, and he almost roared.

"We can't do it, let me go!" Qin Anfu tried to break Shen Boyan's hand, but not only failed but angered Shen Boyan, who was on the verge of collapse. Shen Boyan pinned her hands on top of her head and kissed her lips desperately.

The long kiss went from fierce to gentle, Qin Anfu did not refuse or respond during the whole process, leaving him obsessed.

Shen Boyan's emotions slowly calmed down, but he was always reluctant to let go, and the tears of the two were mixed between his lips and teeth, and the taste of tears turned out to be so painful.

"An An, seven years, more than 2,000 days and nights, how did I survive, do you know? Do you know the taste of the crusting and disillusionment? Shen Boyan let go of Qin Anfu's hand and carefully held her face and complained bitterly.

"Seven years ago, I didn't fail to save you, you know I can't do anything, I was shot! Don't blame me, okay? I will do my best to compensate you. Shen Boyan explained to her and begged her, but saw that her stubborn eyes never wavered.

"It's all over, Mr. Shen, let me go, seven years ago, my heart died, I hope we won't meet again in the future." Qin Anfu looked directly into Shen Boyan's eyes, obviously seeing the pleading and pain in his eyes, but he said the most decisive words in the most gentle tone.

Hearing this, Shen Boyan's body softened suddenly, and he no longer had the strength to struggle, and even his breathing felt painful. He stepped back weakly, but his fingers poked his heart hard, and he wanted to poke the throbbing heart.

"I really want to lock you up like Zhao Qingshan!" Shen Boyan said fiercely, and then shook his head self-deprecatingly, "But I'm not Zhao Qingshan..."

"You...... Why...... To be ...... For me? Why...... To ...... like this," suddenly he pounced on Qin Anfu's shoulder again, and asked intermittently.

Qin Anfu looked at Shen Boyan, who was about to lose control again, and was also very distressed, so he had to push the person away fiercely, and hurriedly opened the door and ran out.

Shen Boyan seemed to have been drained of his strength as early as when Qin Anfu said that he no longer had him in his heart, and now he was pushed by Qin Anfu and staggered and almost fell, sitting on the ground against the wall, watching people push the door out, but he had no strength to chase out.

What if you chase it out? With her firm eyes, such a resolute tone, and such desperate words, can he keep it after him chase him out again?

Coming out of the apartment, Qin Anfu walked on the wet road, and the rain that had been falling for several days stopped for some time, and the branches were full of washed green shoots.

The clouds dispersed, and the sun shone from behind her, stretching her shadow.

"I can buy a house in Yangfu, I can also work and live in Yangfu, this is our home......"

"More than 2,000 days and nights, how did I survive do you know? Do you know the taste of the crusting and disillusionment? ”

"I really want to lock you up like Zhao Qingshan, but I'm not Zhao Qingshan."

"You...... Why...... To be ...... For me? Why...... To ...... like this"

Shen Boyan's words seemed to still echo in his ears, and Qin Anfu turned around and let the sun shine on his face. She raised her hands and looked over and over, but the more she looked at it, the more disgusted she became, this was a pair of murderer's hands, no matter how the sun shone, no matter how it was washed, it was still a pair of hands that had killed people.

Shen Boyan is like an eagle soaring in the sky, she will only stay for a short time in the low branches, and she is not even a low branch now, she is the sludge on the ground, which will only stain his proud wings.

She didn't deserve him after all.