I told the clergy (I'm not sure if he was a priest or not from the uniform he was wearing) that I was actually looking for a young man who had played the piano for the choir last night.

"Oh," said the clergyman, "I know the young brother who plays the piano you are talking about, a relative of one of our brothers, a student in the music department of the H Academy. What, are you looking for something with him? ”

I said it wasn't a big deal, but I liked it when I heard him play, and I thought his piano performance was the best I've ever heard, and I didn't expect him to play so well as a student. I'm a student at H State University, and I love to play the piano, so I wanted to get to know him.

The clergyman laughed when he heard this, and said, "Indeed, we all like the piano music played by Zhou Xu, and he is a very bright and intelligent child. ”

"What did you say, what did you just say——?" When I heard this, I felt like I was starting to have a headache again, and I quickly asked him.

"Oh, by the way, that young man, it's called Zhou Xu, yes, that's the name, Zhou Xu. He is a first-year student in the music department of H Normal College, and I think if you ask him in the music department, you will definitely find him. Lord bless you, my little brother. ”

I am not without fear of God, and though I may not know any of God's will at first, I humbly fear them when God tells me of the existence of them in his peculiar suggestive way. In fact, fear is the source of religion.

What I fear is the ubiquitous miracle of coincidence.

So I didn't have the courage to go to the music department of the H Normal School to find the young man who used to be a wandering singer, but now a freshman in the music department and a choir pianist, with the same name and surname as me.

I can't imagine what I'll say when I face him, Zhou Xu? I would ask him, is your name really Zhou Xu? Which preface is the preface? Have you ever been to Yan'an Road and sang? Do you play guitar? Have you ever sung "Look Back Again"? Of course, the problem is that there is no underground walkway on Yan'an Road in this era!

It's a spooky dream.

And, if I see him again, will he take me back to the time I was waiting for the letter after the college entrance examination was over? Wouldn't that keep repeating my past even more painful?

When I got back to school, I didn't want to think about it, I was tired of such ridiculous doubts. I still laughed and made love with Li Yun, and I still talked to my roommates about the girls in my class and the sexual topics that had expanded since then, before the lights went out at night.

Nothing has changed, I don't want to change anything, I think, it's good to just mess around like this.

It's just that I feel more and more that college campus life now is very much like acting, playing a ridiculous role in a ridiculous dream.

The day before New Year's Day, I went home to reunite with my parents and bought a pair of red sheepskin gloves for Xiao Xuan as a New Year's gift. I feel that Xiao Xuan's whole body is snow-white, especially the snow-white and delicate hands, with these gloves should be to her liking. Of course, this is just my assumption, after all, I haven't seen her "whole body".

The year 1991 is coming, and in a few hours, a new year and a new history will unfold before our eyes. Xiao Xuan and I still went to the elementary school playground for a walk, but last time it was a hot summer, and now it is a cold wind. In the distance, someone is firing artillery, and the loud bang announces the approaching of the new year.

I showed the gift to Xiao Xuan, she excitedly held the gloves and said thank you, then put the gloves on, stretched her fingers, and then put her palms on her face, saying, "It's so cold." It's so hot inside, though. ”

I laughed: "Fool, of course it's cold outside the gloves." ”

"I know, and you still need to say, stick your head over!" Xiao Xuan said mischievously.

I didn't move.

Xiao Xuan raised her gloved hand and covered my cheek at once, and she smiled happily: "Give you ice too!"

I immediately felt the bone-chilling coldness of the glove's surface on my face. On this winter night of the early nineties, only the two of us who are extremely bored would sit next to this playground and drink the northwest wind.

I said Xiao Xuan, I have a girlfriend. I'm sorry.

Zhao Xiaoxuan's hand stopped on my face, and in an instant, I felt those hands tremble slightly, just a slight imperceptible tremor, and my heart trembled a little.

She's not going to slap me with these gloves, is she?

My worries, or worries with guilt, were superfluous, Xiao Xuan put down her hands, she lowered her head, and big tears rolled down her eyes.

But soon, in two or three seconds, she wiped away her tears with her gloves and said, "I see." ”

Xiao Xuan paused, and then said, "Is it the girl I met in the dormitory of your classmates in the literature club that day?" ”

I nodded and admitted, yes, that girl.

Xiao Xuan smiled reluctantly and said, "I guessed so accurately." ”

Then we fell into an embarrassing silence. After sitting for a while, Xiao Xuan stood up and said, "Thank you for giving me gloves, I'm going home." ”

Her eyes didn't look at me, she stared blankly at the gloomy dark sky, and muttered, "The New Year is coming, the first day of 1991 is almost here." ”

I also stood up and said to her, "Happy New Year!"

Xiao Xuan also responded: "Happy New Year!" Then she jerked around and hugged me, frantically putting her lips to mine. Her cold lips were quivering violently, her whole body was trembling, her lips pressed tightly to mine, as if our lips had been completely frozen together, unable to separate.