There are countless coincidences in the world, and there are countless fates shaped by these coincidences. Borges once likened life to a garden of intersecting paths, where people meet and get acquainted, or fall in love or enmity with each other, or love before hatred, or vice versa.

At this moment, I am facing the most ordinary and far-reaching coincidence in the world.

Bao Lina gave me a cold look, lowered her head and continued to drink tea. Obviously her subtext is, believe it or not, but it's true.

I struggled to calm myself and the first question I wanted to ask her was: How do you know it's my fault? In other words, how do you know that this child is mine?

In fact, many men in such situations will have this kind of reflexive question, but I also know very well that if this question is asked to Bao Lina, it will be a slap in the face or a stab, or she will find a random weapon to throw at me, and she has a ready-made weapon in her hand.

So what can I ask, this is a big event, it is significant, it is of great significance, it will even cause great pain and loss, at least mentally, it will cause many people to collapse, including me, including Li Yun, including Bao Lina.

After thinking about it for a long time, I asked her, "When did you find out?" ”

Bao Lina put the teacup on the table, raised her head and said to me seriously: "Actually, I found it a long time ago, and I found it last month." It was before that day, that day, do you remember, the day Tenglan came to us to give a lecture? ”

She tugged back the long hair on her forehead and continued earnestly but firmly: "I'm a girl, so I naturally know what has happened to my body. I didn't feel very good the first few days when I came, I was scared, but I really didn't know what to do. I'm afraid to face this problem. Like you, I don't believe it could be so coincidental, or rather, so unlucky. ”

"I thought at first that I was too tired to postpone it, but after a week, it won't be a week later. I mean, you don't understand this, do you?"

I said I understood. Of course, for me, the female body is not mysterious at all, and for a person who already has a wife and children, how can it be mysterious.

Bao Lina paused for a moment, and then said: "I tried my best to confirm whether I was really pregnant, I went to the library, secretly read those medical books, and then compared the changes that happened to me, the more I compared, the more I felt that this time I was really finished, this time, there was really that." So when I saw you that night, I felt very bad. I want to say something to you, but I don't know how to say it. Besides, after all, it wasn't 100% sure at that time. ”

"Although the facts are in front of me, I still don't give up, so I gritted my teeth and went to the hospital outside to check it out, and the result, as you can guess, is positive, I'm really pregnant."

Bao Lina said this, looked at me blankly, and asked, "What should I do?"

Such a bloody plot happened to me, what do I want to say, I can only mutter: "How is it possible, just once, how can it be so accurate, God." ”

Bao Lina wiped away her tears and said: "It's too late to say anything now, I didn't want to tell you, I really didn't want you to know, but the more I didn't want to say it, the more uncomfortable I felt in my heart, I was really crazy, why mess with you." Do you know, during this time, I avoided you like a ghost, and I was very conflicted when I saw you and Li Yun together. I even cursed you and Li Yun for breaking up early, although I would scold myself for being shameless and shameless every time, and I would scold myself for being a bad woman. But I still can't help but think about it, let God let you break up early. Actually, it's not like I can't live without you, I don't really have to be with you, I'm not there yet. I just don't want to see you holding other girls and swearing like nobody, I don't want to see that, I'm tormented and you're nothing, you don't have to suffer anything. I just can't stand this end, and in the end I have to endure the pain and solve it with my own hands. Zhou Xu, this child will get bigger and bigger, I will be more and more uncomfortable, until today, the winter vacation is about to begin, we are all leaving school, if I don't tell you these words again, I will go crazy and die. ”

"That's why I'm looking for you." Bao Lina finally calmed down completely, as if after pouring out these words, her heart was a little calmer.

My heart was boiling, Bao Lina didn't ask for anything, didn't ask me to do anything for her, but she subconsciously wanted me to face the mistakes that had been made with her.

I asked her what her plans were, because the more the pregnancy went down, the more impossible it was to hide it, and in the early 90s, if a girl was pregnant, she might be advised to drop out of school, or even given a warning or demerit, and it would leave a stain on the file. After all, the moral environment in which post-70s girls live is far more harsh and cruel than that of post-90s girls.

Ms. Bao said she planned to find a small clinic to settle the matter once and for all. She said that she told me about it today, and she had said so many things to me, and her heart had calmed down, and she just didn't want to carry so many things on her mind alone.

She smiled reluctantly and said to me: "You believe it now, I once told you, I have had an abortion before, I used to be an indecent girl, a dirty and shameful girl, so, don't worry, I am mentally prepared, I am a person from the past, I have experience, hehe." ”

She was still able to smile at me, and I remembered that Bao Lina had actually talked about her past that day after drinking. She said that her past was dirty, unclean, and even shameful, and she asked me if I believed it, and I replied at the time that I did.

Now I think about the wandering and madness of that night, but a wave of remorse wells up in my heart.

I said Lina, I am a shameful person, you should have told me a long time ago, even if you don't admit your mistakes, God will still write down your mistakes in his little notebook, he will always remind you of the mistakes you have made, and even he can not tell you what kind of mistakes it is, but will make you pay the corresponding price.

I said that we can't fool ourselves, and that there must be a bottom line for my shame and escape, so let me accompany you to that clinic.

Bao Lina showed her lovely and sweet smile again, although there was too much sadness and helplessness in this smile.

She approached me, kissed me lightly on the lips, and then quickly ran away from my embrace, and said to me, "I'll solve it alone, Zhou Xu, happy winter vacation, happy new year." After saying that, he turned around and wanted to leave.