In 1992, the playground track of Hangzhou University was still paved with fine coal ballast, and when you stepped on it, it would produce a squeaky sound, in this quiet winter night, just like the light rhythm of the Manian band playing, but tonight's music was not happy.

Bao Lina and I walked on the edge of this quiet playground, and this scene also reminded me of the separation between Zhao Xiaoxuan and Zhao Xiaoxuan on the playground a year ago, and the smell of roses in summer and the confession under the willow tree. Love is always closely linked to temperature.

And at this moment, walking with Bao Lina, I don't know if this scene is related to love.

Bao Lina's petite body was hidden under a thick cashmere coat, and she tightly folded her collar around her slender neck, just walking.

The playground was empty and there were just the two of us, as if the whole world was just the two of us.

None of us could speak, either because it was too cold, or because our minds were as empty as this playground.

After a long time, Bao Lina suddenly turned around and hugged me, her thin body seemed to be unable to resist the cold air, she shivered in my arms, I only heard her whisper, "I'm so cold." ”

I hugged Bao Lina, sighed, and said, "Bunzi, little bun, what should we do." ”

Bao Lina snuggled up to me and buried her head in my coat. She can no longer be as calm and reserved as she used to, and she can no longer be as bold and unrestrained and unworldly as she was in late autumn last year. Now Bao Lina is like a lost lamb, fragile, sensitive, and afraid.

"I'll go with you tomorrow to solve it—go and end this matter."

I hesitated, stroking her hair with my hand.

"The end?" Bao Lina looked up from my arms, "It's over." Really, that's the end of it. ”

"Yes, I'm sorry, Lina." I whispered in her ear.

"Don't say that, I'll remember that you and I once had a child." Bao Lina said with a wry smile, "In front of God, we are all guilty. ”

I could no longer suppress the tingling in my heart, it was all so ridiculous, far more ridiculous than the morning when I was eighteen, so ridiculous that I couldn't believe it, my hands were shaking, and I was trembling around Bao Lina's hair.

I remember me saying, "Lina, I just found out today that you have very long and beautiful hair. ”

Lina wiped away her tears and smiled at me and said, "I love you Zhou Xu, God knows how much I love you." I've always loved you. ”

Early the next morning, I went to the steamed bun shop at the back gate, where I asked for two yuan of steamed bread and porridge, and then waited quietly, nibbling on the steamed buns.

At half past seven, Bao Lina showed up in the store, and I handed her two hot steamed buns and told her to eat them. Then let her drink another bowl of porridge so that her body no longer feels cold.

After that, we took the bus to the hospital.

Speaking of hospitals, it's actually a small neighborhood health center. Bao Lina inquired in advance, and only in that health center did the abortion not need a unit certificate.

In front of the gynecology clinic of the health center, there were already more than a dozen women, and of course, there were also men, all expressionless. I couldn't predict how many of these women were here to have an abortion, all I knew was that Bao Lina's Barbie-like face was full of sadness and helplessness, and she hid at one end of the bench with her head down. I was standing next to her, holding the medical record card we had just written. It had fake names and addresses that we had carefully concocted.

Bao Lina did not have a trace of shame, this was not a shame for her, but a sad thing, so her sad expression showed her strength even more, at least in this inexplicable love, she was stronger than me.

When Bao Lina's fake name was called, Bao Lina quickly stood up, took the medical record card from my hand, and muttered to herself, "This medical record card can only be used once, and this name will never be used again in the future." ”

We did what many real couples do in front of the gynecological ward, and I hugged her and said, "I'll wait for you outside." ”

Then Bao Lina walked into the consultation room alone. When her skinny back disappeared into the curtain hanging outside the exam room, I felt a lot of discomfort in my eyes, so I rubbed my eyes vigorously.

I couldn't help her with anything, the only thing I could do was sit on that row of benches, close my eyes, quiet myself, and count the sheep to the thousands if I could.

But I couldn't really be quiet, and there were cacophony of voices around me reminding me that this dilapidated and overcrowded health center was not a sanatorium for peace and mind. So I opened my eyes again, and saw a little girl of four or five with pigtails staring at me, as if she had seen a creature like me since she was born.

I forced a smile at her and asked, "Kid, what do you think I'm doing?" ”

The little girl said one word: "Ball." ”

I said, "What ball?"

"Ball, my ball rolls in." The little girl pointed to my seat.

I came to my senses, bent down and looked under the bench, but I didn't see any balls. I said no, nothing.

The little girl looked at me very persistently with her big beautiful eyes, and her chubby little hands pointed firmly under my seat, and said again: "Ball, I saw the ball roll in, uncle, you help me take it out." ”

I had no choice but to leave the seat where I had just warmed up, half-kneeling and half-lying on the ground, concentrating my eyesight, and carefully looking for the mysterious "ball" under the bench. Finally getting used to the darkness, my eyes could see a tiny ball of multicolored glass at the foot of the chair.

I stretched out my arms and bent my whole body into a bow, a gesture so comical that I forgot that I had come to accompany Bao Lina on a sacred mission. Finally, my fingertips reached the glass ball, and when I twisted my face, I found the little girl squatting beside me, looking at me with big eyes blinking and looking serious. I couldn't help but laugh and fished out the glass ball with all my might.

At this moment, I heard a magnetic baritone say, "Xiaojing, what are you doing there, didn't Dad tell you not to run around in the hospital?" It's your turn soon. It sounded like a voice was right behind me, and perhaps it was the little girl's father calling her, but the little girl ignored her father, but stretched out her fleshy little hand in front of me, and said happily, "Uncle gave me the ball."

I put the stained glass ball in the palm of the little girl's hand and said, "Kid, don't play marbleball in the hospital." The little girl replied seriously, I will never play pachinko again, thank you uncle. With that, she jumped up and walked towards her father. This child may be a pediatrician, because the gynecology department is opposite the pediatric clinic.

I stretched my waist and tried to stand up, but it was a loss to me that I had a 20-year-old body, otherwise I would have twisted my waist.

But as soon as I stood up, I saw the little girl and her father, her father!

Maybe it's my eyes, or maybe I've had enough ridiculous things today to care about one more. I saw that her father who was holding the little girl's hand was Guo Ming!