On the way back to Hzhou, Bao Lina still listened to her song with a blank face, and I asked her for a piece of paper and a pen before getting in the car. On the bumpy bus, I put the paper on the book Du Qing gave me, and then wrote poems on the manuscript paper. At the beginning of the poem I wrote:

"I touched the books in the dark

Hard alcohol runs through its surface

I need a romantic lover

Light a candle and sing for me

Melodious music is my lifelong passion

I'm those who cross the countryside

Through rain, mud and melody

Through the dreary night

Bringing touching tears of love

Why are you always floating

I can't hold your hand

Where, somewhere, somewhere

In the hometown where flowers are drunk

Your hand is calling to me

And I can't get to that place

There was darkness before my eyes

The book I stroked tonight

What will I bring?

will give me a faint star

Or in the morning when the candlelight is extinguished

An asterism appears at the head of your bed

The lightless light

That smiling lover

When tears melt into the chest

Like rain melted into the soil

Let me lean over and pick it up

That desperate face of yours

Your confused and overwhelmed eyes

Let me give you love in a trembling way

Let me extinguish the candle for you

Sing a song"

After that, the poems couldn't stop, and I had to write them, which was a wonderful memorial. It was also the first time that I had written a poem completely without thinking or pondering with words, and I could hardly describe what the next line of poetry would look like, or should be. Anyway, in more than ten minutes, I was quickly filling the entire page.

WHEN IT WAS FULL, BALINA SUDDENLY PUT DOWN HER WALKMAN AND TOOK OUT ANOTHER PIECE OF PAPER FROM HER BAG, AND I NOTICED THAT THERE SEEMED TO BE A STACK OF MANUSCRIPT PAPER IN HER BAG.

She didn't read my poems, she didn't even look at them, but when I filled the first sheet, she took out a new one.

I asked her, "Why don't you give me a few more pieces of paper, instead of taking them one by one?"

Bao Lina said softly, "Because poems are written page by page. ”

Before I arrived in Hangzhou, I had already filled three large sheets of paper. Then I breathed a sigh of relief and leaned back in my chair and closed my eyes. In any case, the journey is over.

I gave these three sheets of manuscript paper full of long poems to Bao Lina, and she didn't say anything, but silently put them away. I said I'll take you to where you lived. Bao Lina hummed and walked in front silently.

We were once again at this familiar residence, where Bao Lina had shouted for me to leave. Now, as the door closed behind me, I hugged Lina tightly and kissed her frantically on the lips, then her face, her forehead. Bao Lina endured my madness motionlessly.

"Do you really love me?" After a while, Bao Lina gently pushed me away and asked me.

"I love you." I say.

"What about Li Yun?"

I was speechless.

I had to face this ending.

When I returned to the rental house where I had lived with Li Yun for a month, I felt like I had entered a wonderful dream again. The landlord's motorcycle was parked in the yard, and it was quiet all around, and the whole rental building seemed to have no sound at all, and it was a little insanely quiet.

Are all the people gone? How can the world be so peaceful?

When I was about to walk to the staircase on the second floor, I suddenly heard the sound of a door opening, and then a tall white figure appeared in front of me, I thought it was a dream, Li Yun was standing on the top floor of the stairs in a snow-white princess dress.

Week Order! Li Yun called me loudly, I looked up at her blankly, and saw that she had tears in her face, and then she swooped down, slammed me directly against the wall, and hugged me tightly.

"I miss you so much." She said with a crying voice, "I miss you, I've been sleeping alone for the past two days, I'm so sad, I'm afraid you won't come back." ”

I patted her on the shoulder and said okay, okay, didn't I come back?

She smiled again with tears in her eyes and asked me, "Is Shanghai fun?" What fun places did you go with your mother?"

A black line appeared on my head, and I smiled and said, "I'm going to play in the Pearl Tower." ”

"What Pearl Tower?"

"It's the Pearl Tower on the Bund of the Huangpu River."

I replied with a smile, and then I felt a twitch in my heart. No, in the summer of 1992, was the Pearl Tower built?

I quickly changed the subject and said, "Haha, to celebrate my timely return, let's go to the restaurant for dinner in the evening." ”

Li Yun shook her head and said, "It's not good, it's not good, I don't want to eat in the restaurant, let's go grocery shopping and eat at home." Let's go buy a lot of delicious dishes, shall we? ”

As a result, we really ate a lot of delicious dishes that night, one table of dishes, there were seven dishes!

I looked at this table of dishes that Li Yun had worked so hard to cook, and said, "How do you seem to know that I will definitely come back today?" Waiting for me at home early?"

Li Yun smiled mischievously and said, "Didn't you say that you would go for two days, so I ask Guanyin Bodhisattva to bless me, please come back today!"

I have to admit that Li Yun's smile is very pure and sincere, even with some naivety and naivety. Such a tall and mature beauty, her heart is still so simple and innocent. She is still a little girl who only knows how to love stupidly and desperately, how can I tell her that I don't love her, my so-called love for her is half out of vanity, half out of greed for her sexy body.

Is this true love?

Shall I tell her the truth? As Du Qing said, should everything be over?

Then, start everything that should begin.

Just when I made up my mind 10,000 times and decided to tell the truth, Li Yun suddenly asked me, "Do you really want to open a book next year?"

I couldn't turn around all of a sudden, and after thinking about it carefully, I said, "Li Yun, I was about to ask you too." Honestly, do you think I'm a businessman?"

Li Yun shook her head cautiously and said, "To be honest, I think you're very smart, and it's not that you can't do business, but-"

She said slowly: "I don't think you seem to like business, in fact, you are a bit like me in this regard, that is, you like to dream, like living in a dream, and don't like things that are too real." ”

I gasped, I have to say that Li Yun saw me quite accurately, just like Du Qing's evaluation of me. I'm an inauthentic person. Yes, according to the standards of 2009, I am a real, real citizen, with an ordinary life, a happy family, and a diligent work. But since I returned to the past plane (or another plane) overnight, I've lived so unreal!