After eating, I was obviously out of state and looked sluggish, so no one said that I was going to sing. I took the opportunity to go to the bathroom with Zhou Tianwang and asked him very seriously, "Did you see that guitarist again?"

Zhou Tianwang also replied to me solemnly: "After the start of school, he went again, but the guitarist disappeared, the band was gone, and only a group of middle-aged and elderly people who were idle and panicked set up an open-air dance party and danced ballroom dances." ”

"That's it?"

"yes."

Just disappeared?

Who disappeared?

Who am I?

This is a series of extremely profound philosophical propositions, and simple-minded and superficial people like us certainly cannot understand the mystery of them. All I can say is that when I said goodbye to the three of them that night, and on the way back to the rental house with Li Yun, my mind was always blank. I only vaguely remember that when Zhao Xiaoxuan finally said goodbye to me, his eyes were full of worry.

I know I've entered a state of fugue void. Who am I? Am I Zhou Xu? Which week am I?

When time suddenly regresses at some point in August 2009, life begins to enter a reboot state, which should be the same as a reboot on a computer, which is one of the important means to solve many computer troubles. For example, once an unpleasant situation occurs, such as a crash, a virus, a snail, etc., the first thing people think of is to press the restart button.

With the restart, the computer regained its speed and basic appearance in a short period of time, as if it had been given a new lease of life. Of course, if the problem gets to the point where it gets serious, even if you restart it, it won't solve the problem.

However, my life is not about computers. My biggest pain is that when I don't want to restart at all, while I am lighting a cigarette, listening to music, and sitting in front of my computer leisurely watching a romantic, touching or sexy video, suddenly someone comes up and presses the restart button on my computer without saying anything!

Of course, this is not the most appropriate metaphor, the more appropriate metaphor is that I have worked hard to get through the sky, and finally finished writing the most essential chapters of the only important novel of life, exhausted lying in front of the computer panting, and was about to save it, and enjoy my own work when suddenly a bastard appeared next to me, with lightning speed, cruelly pressed the restart button on the computer, so, finally spent countless painstaking efforts, and disappeared in an instant.

This is not my intention, it is definitely not what I want.

The problem is that the bastard really pressed the key, it's real, not in a dream, if only it were in a dream.

From a certain point of view, Zhou Xu, who has a happy life with a beautiful wife and a beautiful son, is dead, and Zhou Xu, who has returned to the age of eighteen and started all over again, is still breathing.

Even if all this develops according to the original historical development trajectory, what are the chances that I will meet my wife Chen Yan again in the exact same environment and conditions? Even if we meet a woman who is exactly the same as the Chen Yan in my memory, will we finally come together? And even if we can get together and get married, who can guarantee that we will have a son who will be exactly like the boy we remember at the exact time?

So, no matter what, it is impossible for me to repeat the happiest and warmest and certainly the most ordinary years of my life. Even if you choose the right person, you may not get the right result.

So I can only sadly think that Zhou Xu is dead.

In the next few days, I seemed to be really dead, listless, and it was useless for Li Yun to cook some of my favorite dishes for me for a few days, I still ate dejectedly, and said with a wry smile that it was delicious.

During this time, Li Yun and I were reluctant to live on campus, and both of them coincidentally told Shen that they were not feeling well, and they would only be fine if they went home to rest, and I even coughed a few times, saying that I was afraid of infecting the people in the dormitory. In fact, squad leader Shen himself couldn't wait to move outside to live, and of course he knew what it meant for me to ask Li Yun to stop living in school.

However, after entering the third grade, there are more and more students living together outside of school, and the school can't manage it at all. Originally, the school stipulated that the class teacher had to agree to live outside, and what kind of written application should be written, but now this rule is basically ignored. The times are progressing frantically and rapidly, people's ideas are becoming more and more open, and although the school still cares about saving face in the big aspects, from the second half of 1991, university education is no longer free, and the accommodation fee is not cheap. As the saying goes, when a college student is no longer supported by the state, his freedom will naturally increase, which is very common-sense.

If the state supports you, you have to be obedient, that's true, but when the country no longer supports you, will you still be so obedient?

Freedom and the economy are inextricably linked.

To be honest, Li Yun is reluctant to live on campus, but wants to live in a rental house with me, it is really because she really likes to live with me and likes the sense of security that is always glued together. Her unfortunate family taught her the truth of life is to pay close attention to the security that men can give them, and security becomes the guarantee of love, even the only guarantee. On the other hand, it's more like a distrust of me. She did the right thing, and I didn't deserve her trust in the first place.

As for me, I don't want to live on campus for a clear reason, which is to escape. Escape from your choices, escape from Bao Lina, and escape any possibility of meeting Bao Lina alone.

Although I still walk past the office of the club center and the road leading to Mr. Chen Qiang's house, I can even remember clearly at what point on that road we once fell so badly that we once broke this Barbie doll and injured her knee and gave her tetanus shots.

But these memories did not give me the slightest courage, but they made me fearful, and now I have no understanding of who I really am, nor how I should treat true love and vanity separately.

In this way, I fooled myself and Li Yun, and at the same time avoided Bao Lina, and spent more than a month in a nonsense, until one day Jin Puguang couldn't bear to say to me in the bedroom: "You haven't cared about Wenxin Book House for a long time." Xiaohong and I are very worried about you, what the hell is wrong with you? I'm listless all day long, are you really unwilling to care about Wenxin anymore?"

I said, "I've been a little uncomfortable these days, so I didn't have the heart to ask about the bookstore, I'm really sorry for you and Xiaohong." ”

Puguang said sadly: "This bookstore also has a lot of your hard work in it, you don't really want to give up, right?"

I replied, "No, I'll go and help you keep the stall tonight." By the way, what's going on at the bookstore lately?"

Jin Puguang's face softened a little, and said: "Business is good, now Xiaohong suddenly doesn't want to buy books anymore, I am responsible for going to Guo Ming, or some booksellers to buy goods, and sometimes go to Xinhua Bookstore to wholesale some books, Guo Ming is really interesting, and the relationship over there has been smoothed out." ”

"By the way," Jin Puguang said again, "Guo Ming said that he wanted to come to see our bookstore these days, and he hadn't seen you for a long time, and he wanted to drink with you." ”

I said okay, I'm also annoyed these days, and I'm trying to have a drink with him.

Puguang was silent for a few seconds, and then said to me: "I heard that you are going to open a bookstore, so what should I do with this bookstore?"

I said that I haven't thought about it yet, and it's best for you to take over, and I'll transfer the contract of the bookstore to you. As for Cai Xiaohong, I hope she can open a bookstore with me.

Puguang sighed and said, "Xiaohong really doesn't know what's going on now. ”

I was surprised and asked, "What's wrong?" Did something happen to Xiaohong?"