The four of them rested at Shen Youju's house for a while, and then left, Liang Jingyuan planned to take a walk to relax and relax, Li Ruoyu really planned to go back and make another amount of money, Shen Youju was completely drunk, lying on the bed like a pig, and Tang Xinyu went home.

Liang Jingyuan spent an afternoon taking the subway and bus to go to many places where he had been with Mo Ning in his previous life, and finally stayed on the roof of the rental house where he had lived with Mo Ning for more than two years and watched the night view of Yanjing. The prosperity of Yanjing during the day did not precipitate a little quiet as the night fell. There are many high-rise buildings here, and the streets are full of traffic. The bustling crowd is like a tide, with neon glare and dazzling lights. Fantasy and reality. The indulgent crowd shouting inside and outside the bar, and the antique streets flashing the advertising lights of famous beers, all reveal the prosperity of Yanjing. There was no place for me in this city. Looking at others in the bustling corner of the night, so happy and presumptuous. And I'm just a visitor to the city.

"Can I have a place here this time?" Liang Jingyuan sat on the balcony and muttered to himself at Yanjing's night.

The mobile phone rang suddenly, and it was Shen Youju calling. "What's the matter, there are oranges, have you woken up?"

"You're already sober, I heard you didn't go back to school? Are you okay, didn't Uncle Tang agree that you would discuss the details after the holiday? Shen Youju's tone could still feel a little drunk.

"Ah, it's okay, I'm going to get busy later, I'm going to relax and relax, you have a good rest."

"I'll sleep again, and you can go back too." Shen Youju hung up the phone, Liang Jingyuan got up and thought about it, or to buy some loquat paste for Mo Ning, the drier in the north, she would only cough more. The place is not far away, a nearby pharmacy Liang Jingyuan used to come often, Liang Jingyuan went to the pharmacy and did meet Mo Ning here. What she was carrying in her hand was not loquat ointment, but kudzu, kudzu, citrus aurantium and salvia, which Liang Jingyuan certainly recognized, and were the ingredients for Mo Ning's sobering tea.

It was Mo Ning who spoke first, "You scared me to death, isn't it good to drink less, don't you know how you died?" ”

“？ Didn't you say I didn't have an accident and met you the next day? Liang Jingyuan and Mo Ning reacted at the same time, and Mo Ning lied before. In 2023, Liang Jingyuan is indeed dead, and Mo Ning is aware of it.

Mo Ning, who has always been calm, was still anxious, Liang Jingyuan bought loquat paste in the store, and after coming out, Mo Ning's mood had been adjusted, and the two took a taxi to a hotel near the train station, and the rooms were naturally separated, but they chatted in one of the rooms for a while.

"Yes, you passed away the day before you came to Yanjing on a business trip, and the person in a coma with asphyxiation alcohol poisoning has lost its self-protection function, and if you are in a supine position or if vomit blocks the airway, it can lead to death by suffocation and lack of oxygen. So I'm afraid that you will drink too much, last time it was for your peace of mind, after all, you like to drill the horns of the bull in the matter of responsibility, I am afraid that you are worried that your parents will move the idea of going back, and waste your life again. ”

"So when did you get to where you are now?" Liang Jingyuan questioned.

"After you passed away for a long, long time, don't worry, my uncle and aunt and I will visit them regularly, and they have been sad for a long time, and then adopted a child, which can be regarded as going out."

Liang Jingyuan lay flat on the bed and didn't speak for a long time.

About half an hour passed and thanked Moning "Thank you, I think I can accept all this, the loss is not terrible, the point is whether there is a chance to start again." My parents were old enough to start all over again, and I think that's what it means for me to be born again. ”

"Liang Jingyuan, what obsession do you have, why are you reborn?" Mo Ning inquired about Liang Jingyuan's obsession, wanting to understand why this person was reborn.

"That day was a rare weekend, there was no overtime, I slept alone in the room until noon, and then I received two notices and a blind date arranged for me by my mother, one you also know is to go to Yanjing on a business trip to dock with you, and the other is to pick up two newcomers, the blind date is Zhang Zhiwei."

"It sounds a little awkward, but it doesn't make you drink so much, what's going on."

"The time to make an appointment with Zhang Zhiwei is in the afternoon, the dappled sunlight is vaguely tilting towards her, the breeze gently lifts a strand of hair on her sideburns, and the white dress dances with her is the same as the countless times nine years ago when the wind blows her hair, I want to help her pick up the strand of hair, and I always feel a sigh in my heart when I meet." Liang Jingyuan began to recall the scene of that day.

"After all, she is the person she liked when she first fell in love, and it is normal to feel very much." Mo Ning put his feet on the stool, hugged his legs, and listened carefully to Liang Jingyuan's story.

"When we talked, she still gave me the same feeling, just like high school, simple, kind and warm, in fact, she had already experienced the divorce of her parents and lost her job during the epidemic, and when I met her, she was still very optimistic. When it comes to work, in fact, the salary of the job she found after losing her job is not high, and she is barely able to make ends meet. But she was still so optimistic. Now she can be happy for a long time because of a walk together, and she will still be the same in 2023, can you understand this feeling? It seems that nothing in the world can dilute her love for life, and the things that she feels happy at the age of 17 are the same as those that she feels happy at the age of 27. At 27 years old, I can't say that I have a successful career, but I can be considered a mix, I am a middle-level manager, I have my own car and house, and I have already got what I didn't have when we broke up. ”

"The ideal is beautiful, but life is not up to you. In the absence of an economic base, dreams are difficult to achieve; When you make money, you will feel that the cost of your dreams is too high. Mo Ning sighed, who didn't like the high-spirited way he looked when he was young.

After the blind date, I drove to the train station to pick up the interns recruited by the company's school, briefly introduced the company's situation, asked what help I needed in life, and had a meal with the two interns. After three rounds of drinking, I asked two interns why they joined our company, and they said that they really wanted to make an indie game, which was in line with my dream. I approved of their idea, but I also told them that it wouldn't stay in our company. ”

"Enterprises are all about profit, and many people's dreams have been smoothed out. Or rather, the sun does not shine in a dark place. "Mo Ning is on the matter, the vast majority of people in this world have been smoothed out by life.

"They told me that if you have a job that pays well but makes you unhappy, you might as well do what you love. I drank a lot of alcohol afterwards, and Mourning, people are really strange creatures. When I was a child, I always imagined that I would grow up quickly, and when I grew up, I would be able to have the life I wanted. Every sleepless night, I always feel that I am worthless, full of what will happen in the future, when the gap between growth and imagination begins to collapse and release, life has become a thorn in the side since then. The moment of regret in the past makes you hate all kinds of unsatisfactory things, and life becomes a kind of torment, and in addition to enduring the ruggedness of reality, you also have to bear the rights and wrongs of the crowd. There are many moments of questioning happiness and then questioning sadness, you seem to have a thousand words of grievance, but you are stuck in the depths of your throat because of whimpering, and the air is still frozen in the silent night. Many moments when you want to give up on yourself, the only thing you can do is to wait for your composure to regain and then regain the strength to stand up. But I didn't have the courage because my life at that time was something I got by working overtime little by little, and I did a lot of things I didn't like in exchange, and I didn't have the courage to give up on that. "

Liang Jingyuan got up suddenly, his eyes revealing perseverance.

"Now that all my worries are gone, I understand that my parents are also supportive of me, and I myself am back to an age where I can start again, and this time, I have to decide what kind of self I am."

"Then I wish you success, rest early, I'll go back to my room and sleep first." Mourning got up and left the room.

"People who give up their dreams actually lose a lot, just like people who chase dreams." Mo Ning took the door and whispered.