Finally, Qian Haiping and I drank a bottle of red wine one by one, and Bao Lina was already as anxious as an ant on a hot pot, squeezing her eyebrows at me many times. I think my mind is still clear, and it's sadly sober. Qian Haiping was still methodically asking me about the condition of my sudden illness last time. My answer is still the official standard, which is that overfatigue leads to nervous breakdown. And Qian Haiping still responded with official standards, asking me to pay attention to rest, take care of my body, and not take it lightly at a young age.

When he was about to toast me again, I finally made up my mind, stood up and said, "Come on old money, after this drink, I should go back to rest, I have to take care of my body." ”

Qian Haiping had nothing to say now, so he had to stand up and hold the cup and say something like wishing me a good waist, good legs, good health, hello, hello, hello, everyone.

After we drank the last cup, Qian Haiping suddenly patted his head and said: "Hey, I forgot, our ----- hundred schools of science forum invited a famous poet a few days ago, and after contacting him, I found out that he knew you, or your senior brother." ”

"Oh? My brother?"

"Yes, he asked me to tell you, when he comes to West Lake to discuss swords, I hope you must be there to cheer him up."

"Which master is it, do you still need my encouragement?" I laughed.

Qian Haiping said: "His name is Du Qing, and he used to be from your Chinese department, you should know him." ”

I was stunned for a moment, and for a moment I thought of that cold morning in Shengzhou, when the first sunlight shone on the calm water surface of Yanxi, reflecting the brilliance of countless gold coins.

In a sense, it was precisely because of the conversation between Du Qing and me, and because of Bao Lina and my trip to Yanxi, that I re-faced the deepest love in my heart, and made me decide to speak my heart truly and follow my heart - the person I really love is Bao Lina and not Li Yun.

I said, "Du Qing is indeed my senior brother, in fact, he is my mentor when I was in the Literature Club, and if he comes to Hangzhou, of course I will support him." ”

Qian Haiping said: "This Du Qing is amazing, I heard that his poems won the gold medal of the National Poetry Cup Grand Prix, and he has been in the limelight recently." Then he's coming, and I'm going to ask you to entertain him. ”

I said yes.

On the way home, driving Santana on the lively street, thinking of Shengzhou and Du Qing, I suddenly felt an inexplicable coldness.

The surroundings were lively, but I was lonely, and I remembered the exact same sentence that Du Qing wrote in the book he gave me and Bao Lina: "This is an era of innocence. ”

I am no longer naïve, and I am already past the age of naivety, and I am walking quickly towards the cunning, anxious and irritable 21st century.

Bao Lina sat next to me and suddenly said, "What are you thinking?"

I said I was driving and didn't think about anything.

"Liar, you're obviously thinking about things."

"And what do you think I can think?"

"You're thinking about Du Qing, thinking about that morning in Shengzhou, right?"

I couldn't help but say: "Lina, you are really a fairy, I think you know everything so clearly, I really felt like I had returned to Shengzhou just now." ”

"There are no colorful phoenix wings, and the heart is a little clear." Lina said.

I was silent, and with Bao Lina, sometimes I really didn't need to say anything. What she thinks is often what I think, and what I think is often what she thinks.

"I have a gift for you." Lina said suddenly, and then took out a cassette tape from her purse.

"Huh? Whose song is it?" I couldn't help but turn my head to look at it and ask curiously.

"Don't look," said Lina anxiously, "concentrate on your car." ”

I quickly turned my face away.

"You have a cassette player in this car, I have long wanted to buy a few cassettes and listen to them in your car." Lina said as she began to unwrap the tape.

I said with deep feeling, "Yes, there is no music on the road, and driving is not fun." I used to like to listen to music while driving, and every time my son sat in my car, he would always ask me to turn on the CD player and listen to the waltzes he liked, especially the Frandus. You say how can a little hairy kid like to listen to classical music so much?"

I was talking to myself, but Lina was speechless for a long time, and after a while, she said, "Is what you just said a dream of yours?"

The cold wind blew through the car window, sobering me up a bit, and I was silent for a while and said, "Yes, it's just my dream, and I want this kind of vulgar people's dream." ”

Lina looked at me stupidly and said, "Zhou Xu, sometimes I really don't understand, are you crazy or am I crazy?"

I laughed and said, "Whoever is crazy, let's listen to your tapes first." ”

Lina put the tape into the cassette machine in the car, and soon a familiar melody came from it, and then a desolate male voice began to chant, with a bit of evil and pathos. It's hard for me to describe how I felt when I heard this song, it was both familiar and strange, under the night sky, in a speeding car, on the hustle and bustle of the city streets, the song was deeply seared in my mind like a birthmark.

The song goes like this:

“don't break my heart，

Gentle again

I don't want to see your silence.

Waiting alone,

Bear silently,

Joy always comes to me in my dreams. ”

Yes, it is this don't break my heart, it is the same don't break my heart that I heard in Li Yun's account two years ago.

I muttered to myself, "Don't break my heart, nice song." ”

Bao Lina's eyes flashed with a bright color, and she said, "Don't break my heart, you have a beautiful name for this song, don't break my heart, don't break my heart." It sounds very sad to feel. ”

I smiled and said, "That's not what I thought. ”

Bao Lina asked: "Who thought that, it seems that this song does not have a Chinese name." ”

I was silent.

Only the brilliant and gentle night everywhere swept around us like the wind in song.

I don't know what to say, I suddenly feel like I'm talking a little too much, why bother, everything in the past is gone. When I heard this song in Li Yun's account, Li Yun gave this song such a sad Chinese name, and why should I mention it again at this time?

Bao Lina saw that I didn't speak, so she was silent, and listened to Dou Wei, the lead singer of the Black Panther at the time, finish singing this song.

When the last note was gone, Lina finally spoke: "This name was thought of by Li Yun, right?"