During the Spring Festival in 1995, Xiao Xuan finally asked me to resign. She said that the next semester began to be important, and she could no longer skip classes as much as she wanted. And she also has to think carefully about whether she is really suitable for being an advertising designer. Perhaps, she has reached the age when she should seriously consider her future life plans. After all, she is no longer a little girl.

Zhao Xiaoxuan is very reasonable, and I also think that she should think about her future. The future is her own, and no one can design it for her. The design of the life path is obviously no more difficult than the design of the advertisement.

I asked Xiao Xuan again, did that Zhang Ning go to you?

I told her the truth about Zhang Ning's visit to our company again some time ago. Zhang Ning's matter is also a part of her life, and how to deal with it also requires her to make her own decisions.

Xiao Xuan said that Zhang Ning came to look for her, and at that time she was still sick, it was a severe cold, and she had been hanging salt water for several days, and the whole person was as uncomfortable as if she was going to die. In the future, I believe it will be a cold like A(H1).

It was during this period of cold that brought her back to life, and in the days when she was bedridden, that she had time to think carefully about the past and the future. She remembered the old days, and all the details came to her mind, including the days with me and the days with Zhang Ning.

Xiao Xuan said that after Zhang Ning found her, the two talked very calmly. Zhang Ning cut off her fingers for her, she felt both guilty and scared, and Zhang Ning herself actually regretted it. He said that his actions at that time were too naïve, and it was strange that Xiao Xuan suddenly felt that Zhang Ning was indeed more mature than before, and he was no longer impulsive.

Zhang Ning said that he still loves Xiao Xuan. He left here and went away from home, but he could never forget Xiao Xuan, no matter how much he experienced, he couldn't forget Xiao Xuan.

However, Zhang Ning swore that he would never pester Xiao Xuan, he would live in this city, stay in the city where Xiao Xuan lived, and only hope that when Xiao Xuan had any difficulties or needed friends, he would still remember him and allow him to help her.

It's as simple as that.

Finally, Xiao Xuan wished me a speedy recovery. She said that she had already gone to Lingyin Temple to ask for a peace sign for me, and the Bodhisattvas said that I would be fine, really, and it would be fine soon.

I am very grateful for Xiao Xuan's blessings, no matter what the future holds, Zhao Xiaoxuan has left a deep imprint in my life, at least after I was reborn, I left a stronger imprint, if it weren't for the rebirth, I lived my ordinary life, then Xiao Xuan's impression in my life would also be dull.

Speaking of life, when I knew for sure that I had a brain tumor, I was very calm, and the anxiety and distress before the confirmation disappeared all at once. People are like that, anxiety is more painful than generosity to die, and besides, I am not dead.

Sometimes when I lie in bed at night, I hear Bao Lina gasping beside me, see her long eyelashes flutter slightly in her sleep, and see her nose occasionally move very lightly, and I think it's good to be like this now.

To live and enjoy every day, or to enjoy every day of life, that's a line spoken by Jack on the Titanic, and it couldn't be more apt to describe my state of mind these days.

As for Xiao Xuan not coming to see me when I was sick, I realized that it was completely my misunderstanding, in fact, during the 22 hours I was in a coma, Xiao Xuan came to see me twice. Just didn't speak, just silently shed tears, Bao Lina saw her crying, and didn't say anything. Later, Lina told me about it.

At that time, Lina said that the person Xiao Xuan liked was me, and at the same time she warned me with a smile that although Xiao Xuan liked me, I was not allowed to like Xiao Xuan, love was selfish, and she would never give me to her because she sympathized with Xiao Xuan.

I said, if you don't sympathize with her, how can you tell me about it?

"You, Lina, you're a great man, and a great man regardless of time or occasion. However, what I like most about you is your kindness. ”

"Is there only kindness?"

"Well, and pretty." I say.

"What else?"

"And empathetic, virtuous and virtuous."

"It's so uncreative, give me a few more nice words, and I'll cook Bao's fish soup for you to drink."

"Bao's fish soup? New inventions? ”

"Old inventions, new ideas, how about it, do you want to drink?"

"If you want it, let's do it, I will call you the first chef god in the world, Aiqing thinks it's good?"

"Well, barely as promised." Bao Lina grinned.

When I heard Bao's fish soup, I suddenly remembered "Lee's flat fish", the happy night in the rental house, and the pond in the sun. What's wrong with me?

After laughing, Bao Lina told me a little worriedly that as the disease progresses, the number of comas may increase, but the medicine should be able to suppress the coma and headache, but I don't know when the operation will be, and the doctor said that I have to check it again.

"Let it be fate," I said to Bao Lina, "life and death are up to fate, and this has been the case throughout the ages." ”

"I don't care," said Bao Lina, "I don't care what the weather is, I just want you to live." If you die, I will die. ”

When she said this, the determination in her eyes was terrifying.

In the spring of 95, I bought two mobile phones, one for Bao Lina and one for my own use, and finally mixed with the "big brother" level at that time, like a boss. It's ridiculous to think about it, ten years later, even those who collect tatters will have mobile phones, and in 1995, holding Nokia's latest "beard knife" slider mobile phone that year, it was a mess of wind and made others envious.

And I bought those two Nokia "razor-style" sliders.

When I came back from the telecommunications bureau (note, there was no China Mobile at that time, only China Telecom) and went to the company to show my mobile phone to my colleagues, someone called the company to find me. As soon as I answered the phone, I realized that it was Zhang Ning calling.

On the phone, this guy affectionately called me Brother Zhou, and suddenly made my hair stand on end. His kindness felt eerie and out of tune with the rude impression he had given me.

Zhang Ning said he wanted to invite me to drink.

I replied that after I got sick, the doctor said that I should not drink, and that I was quitting drinking.

Zhang Ning laughed on the phone: "You are really similar to your eldest brother, he also said that he wanted to quit drinking, and then he really stopped drinking, and he didn't drink at all." ”

After laughing, he was silent, and after a while he said that he wanted to see me again.