I was wrong.

I thought that the hardest thing about jumping off a building should be the inner hesitation before jumping, but I never thought that the hardest thing about this thing was how to land at the point you wanted to land.

As for the process of free fall in the middle......

A lot of people say that the most important person comes to mind at that moment, and I think that's what only those who commit suicide think.

And I, aiming at the sand pile in the distance, felt the panic of the distance gradually pulling in as I struggled to leap into the wind.

Touch!

My landing was like a grenade throwing away a pile of sand, kicking up countless grains of sand, and most importantly, the landing was not quite right.

The thief was talking about slipping down with his toes into the edge of the sand, and I fucking skipped, and kicked my heel to the back of the sand, which kicked up a lot of flying sand, and the whole person slid down the river sand in the sand.

At that moment, I felt as if all the internal organs in my body had shifted in an instant, all of them were blocked in my throat, and then the moment my feet were solid, as the shock was generated, these organs began to vibrate in my body.

The most important thing is the moment when my body slid back, when my body slid down, my feet began to slide down, and my whole body began to lean back, first my back hit the sand heavily, and finally the back of my head hit the sand pile, and my eyes went black, and I completely lost all consciousness.

……

I can't measure how long I've been in a coma, and I can't describe how my body felt when I woke up, as if something in my memory was missing.

Later, I fell in love with many things, such as medicine and psychology, and in the process of learning these things, I got the answer to that memory loss.

Psychologically, it is very painful for a woman to give birth to a child, but this pain is quickly forgotten.

This is because when the pain has a certain impact on the mental power, the brain will automatically delete that memory, so a woman dares to agree to have a second child with a grit of her teeth and a stomp of her feet under the sweet words of a man.

Psychology also says that after giving birth, in the most painful half a year with a baby, all negative emotions will be completely deleted, including the negative emotions of many things in life, so that we can tell these things as jokes in our old age.

So, what do you think about that impresses you the most in your memory?

It must not be happiness, but the occasional embarrassing scene that will make you chagrin after a while. That's the impact of those negative emotions on people.

If the brain doesn't help us remove these things, who can imagine how a person who can remember all the negativity will live?

By the way, there is also a term in psychology called 'habitual helplessness', that is, a person will choose to give up immediately when he encounters difficulties......

For example, experiments that fail several times in a row;

For example, children who are still in school, after failing several exams, will feel that they have no talent for learning;

For example, when we choose a direction, we will not think of a solution because of the difficulties that appear in front of us, and we will directly reject them.

These are called habitual helplessness.

So where did this habitual helplessness come about?

Psychologically, it is likely to be related to the deletion of negative emotional memories.

It's like being ridiculed by your loved ones after failing to do something;

When you fail in a simple thing, you are ridiculed by the group;

I couldn't answer the questions in class and was suppressed by the teacher.

This unacceptable emotion is quickly deleted by the brain, and when the difficulty reappears, you already feel the consequences of the failure.

Think you don't have the talent to win.

After returning to China, I have seen a lot of things and understood the meaning of many words, such as 'rotten'.

Why is it rotten?

Do you really not want to stand at the top and experience the feeling of shining?

No.

Not really.

It is that we know that the outcome of failure is not proportional to the probability of success, and the loneliness of walking alone.

Actually, the accurate word of rotten should not be called rotten, it should be called 'the lowest loss in life', I am not willing to take risks, I feel that after failure, I face ridicule, not help, so, I can't fight?

If you are, then you will go up, and you will live in the spotlight and wait.

I hid in the hut, and I was quite happy to watch videos with my mobile phone, and I could live for three or four thousand yuan a month.

Isn't that enough?

What is the world like?

In order to succeed, those people do everything they can, they manipulate your mentality, they manipulate your emotions, as long as they can win, he can't wait to take off his pants and show his ass for a walk. Is this called ability? Is this called ability? Are you comparing strength?

Then I don't want to fight with you, why can't I speak of myself as noble?

So, I quit because I felt you were disgusting, and I put it on my way to lie flat, okay?

Sorry, it's too far.

Now back to me.

I don't remember how I felt, but when I woke up, I realized that I had vomited, not only vomit, but also blood.

This makes it impossible for me to tell at the moment whether it is a damage to the internal organs or a concussion, but, conservatively, it should be both.

Thankfully, it was still dark and my legs weren't broken, but I felt a tingling in my heels as I tried to stand up.

But I still stood up, and I knew that I hid behind the sand pile and looked into the park, and after there was no movement in the park, I simply moved behind the sand pile twice, until my legs gradually recovered, and it did not hinder my movement, and I rushed towards the forest in the mountains!

Looking back now, I must not have been very fast at the time, but at the time, I felt that the rabbits were all my grandson!

After I plunged headlong into the mountains, I began to run in the opposite direction along the woods, because the mules ran in the forward direction, and in the process of running, people were knocked down with a shot.

I didn't dare to go too deep into the mountains and forests, and I felt that the secret whistle must be hidden in the most inconspicuous position in the mountains;

I was stuck halfway up the mountain, and ran from dark to dawn.

I still remember what it was like to be in the jungle, especially when the sun was up.

At that moment, the coolness of the jungle in Southeast Asia was instantly driven away, and the mist accumulated at night seemed to be evaporated, and I felt as if the crotch of my pants was being drawn, and the whole person was slimy.

I just want to get out of the mountains as quickly as possible, even if I can see a road, no matter how bad it is, let me see a river......

But the surrounding jungle is becoming more and more dense, and the surrounding ecology is becoming more and more primitive, and my vision cannot penetrate these forests at all, and the only thing that can accompany me is the rugged mountain road.

I...... It may be that I got lost.

I'm really embarrassed, I only saw the tip today, sorry, sorry!

Uh, the evening update is the same.

(End of chapter)