"Emptiness beats the will, as if time ...... standing still"

When the phone rang in the empty villa, I was stunned, who had planned to come back and change my clothes.

The silent TV was playing advertisements in the living room, and a hand holding the remote control could be seen on the edge of the sofa, and when I reached behind and held the handle of the gun in the holster, I saw Bjea in a green military uniform lying there on a sofa cushion.

At that moment, I began to wonder if something was wrong with my spirit.

Because I saw more than just Bjea, it was more like a child who was locked up at home, watching TV without his parents, staring at the TV with empty eyes.

I can clearly see that the child is not human, but a bit like the 'soul' in the movie, which allows you to see his body clearly and maintain a transparent posture.

I even seemed to see a kind of barrier around the 'child', and the barrier was covered with runes that said 'lonely'.

Shouldn't I be the one who inherits the mantle of Old Joe?

I'm ready to take it all, for better or worse, but how did this iconic state take away from Brzea?

"Brother?"

He lay on the couch and didn't move, he recognized me just by the sound of his footsteps, and I, seeing the hand holding the remote control, didn't know who it was.

"Sick?"

I reached out and touched his forehead, feeling the most normal and not burning body temperature, and then took my hand away.

"Nope." Bjea didn't stop me or get up, but still responded lying down: "I just feel that it's not interesting to do anything." ”

"Gone to the Black Prison?"

I thought that Bjea was a cheap person and went to the black prison again, and was beaten by Teacher Yu.

After all, people in their time don't like to lick dogs, women always keep asking for a 'sense of boundary' for those they don't like, and for those like 'Sicong' and 'Ah Fen', they can't wait for negative distance contact to blossom and bear fruit.

"Nope."

He sat up: "I am ......"

"I don't know what to do."

Bjea didn't smoke, and in the sunlit room, alone, dark, as if the whole world could see the sadness, but he himself felt nothing.

Especially like a buddy on the construction site before I went abroad, he worked tirelessly every day, and what he hoped most was that after nightfall, his wife took the children to make a video for himself. As a result, they waited for the request for divorce and the reason to get together less and leave more.

At that time, he also said that he was okay when he met people.

I will look at the night sky at night, and I will spend most of the night. Once, when I was living in a construction site, I went out to pee at dawn and saw him sitting there.

But Burea's body is not only the sequelae after falling out of love.

"Before, when I was a child, Lao Qiao stared at me every day to train, others shot targets with one magazine, I had ten, and I had to practice if my grades were not enough, Lao Qiao was standing behind me, holding a wicker in his hand, and my back was full of injuries."

"At that time, I hated him very much, and I wished I could leave Old Joe's side, so that no one cared about me."

"Later, no one cared about my training, so I stood behind Old Joe every day, he woke up at six o'clock, I had to get up at five o'clock, he went to bed at nine o'clock, and I had to hear the snoring and then lie down."

"At that time, I couldn't sleep at all, and I wanted to run for a while, and then I trained as long as I couldn't sleep, tossing and turning until I was sweating profusely and tossing until I was exhausted...... The training that I once hated the most became the antidote to insomnia. ”

I slowly sat down on the single sofa next to me, put my elbows on my knees, and leaned forward to listen to him.

"And then I'll know you."

"It was the happiest day of my life!"

"I can play with women unscrupulously and sign orders in the park casino...... Now I still owe hundreds of thousands of dollars to the casino, and no one dares to ask me, hahahaha......"

I also laughed, the manager of the casino couldn't ask you for an account.

Bjea's smile disappeared from his face in an instant: "But I didn't expect to get these results that others dreamed of in advance, and I completely lost interest in life." ”

"Brother, do you still remember the days when I left Mengneng?"

I nodded, 'hmm'.

"I'm not just in the village, sometimes I come back secretly."

"Huh?" I turned my head to look at him in surprise.

Bjea eagerly explained: "I have nowhere to go...... I still want to eat Eminem's cooking...... Listen to her nag ......"

"Eminem is not Old Joe, Old Joe generally doesn't speak, Eminem will talk endlessly when he sees me, but I understand that what she wants most is for you to come back, I'm just a substitute." He lowered his head: "Then I am willing too." ”

What he is willing to do is not nagging, but the temperature of home.

It's just that the silence that follows, in place of all.

I understand that he wants to say something about the teacher, and he wants to say that after returning to Mengneng justifiably, the 'warmth' that can only be secretly felt from my mother has been replaced by this woman;

He also wants to say that the pain of a man after a breakup is not a mountain of depression that forces you to drink a big drink, but like a sneak attacker, in the lost soul that only appears when you are lonely, the figure that should not appear constantly emerges, making you constantly superimposed, the slightest pain.

"Stinky boy."

I scolded him.

I don't know why, since I meditated in my current position, the swear words that used to hang on my lips rarely appear in my mouth, except when emotions are stirring.

"After that, you'll be a man from now on."

Bjea said incomprehensibly: "Haven't I been a man for a long time?" ”

"It's a long way off."

I counted with my fingers: "Man, stand up to the door, survive thousands of hardships and dangers, have to knock out your teeth and swallow them in your stomach if you fail, and you can spit on the nail when you just arrive, which one of you can do?" ”

Bjea immediately responded: "I can gallop on the battlefield!" ”

"That's youth."

"Huh?"

I elaborated: "That's youth. ”

"People who want to gallop on the battlefield, if they don't count the bullshit things of the military strength, armaments, military food, and military hearts of the two sides, what they see is only the killing after the drums are cheering, and they only think about taking the head of the general, and they are all worried about sealing the wolf like Huo Quai......"

"That's youth."

Bjea shook his head: "I don't understand. ”

"You don't have to understand, just live your life as simple as a fire, just like now."

"Why?"

Bzhea looked at me incomprehensibly: "Brother, shouldn't you put all the people in your hands in various positions now to support this stall?" ”

"You don't."

Again, he asked, "Why?" ”

What appeared in my mind at this time were countless characters who led the way in my unbearable life, including Huo Laosan, an old prisoner in prison, and the last one turned out to be Lao Qiao!

At that moment, I stretched out my hand to Brevea, slapped my palms on his neck with pure manly emotion, and gave Bjea a smile like a real blood brother, without giving any answer.

It's like my life.

In my life, I could have surrendered to the darkness, but I have seen the sun.

"Let's go, find you something to do, and if you are so idle, you will waste people." (End of chapter)